FORTY FIVE

RALIA

My life had become just like a movie, my life no longer had any meaning.

I had started to believe that my life is a curse, I was cursed right from birth.

Maybe I was meant to be alone, I do not deserve to be loved by anybody.

I had lost everything and everybody, every single person who had tried to love me ended up being taken away from me.

First it was Cheyenne, I was ta canken away from her without consent, I was forced to leave her behind.

I started to imagine her beautiful face in my mind’s eye, her smiles, her hugs and all the comforting words she used to say to me. And then I thought about all the times we had played card together. The way she laughs out loud whenever she was caught cheating.

And then Lesley, everything was beautiful, even though he was cold towards me in the beginning, he had eventually fallen in love with me and it was beautiful.

Everything we shared was beautiful, I remembered all the times we had made love on his bed or on my own bed.

I remembered his