Running to death

Jay

I see it in my mum's eyes every day. She hates her life even if she tries to act like it's alright. 

If she had a choice she wouldn't want to be a luna. She would want to be free, let her wings out and fly away.

I hate how she is and even if she never says it, I see it. I understand it all now.

Back then I didn't understand a thing but now I do and hell no will I let Father rule me.

Never!

*********

 I walk through the market. It seems busy. Weird how this Is my first time walking freely in the market.

At normal times I sneak covering myself with big cloaks hiding from Dad.

Now, I did barely care if I get caught.

Making Father mad seem to be enjoyable at the moment.

The only thing to cure my misery is making him miserable too.

With everyone nagging in my ears, I sure need a break.

I watch every wolf do their thing in their human form.

They seem to be alright. Everything was okay but behind those smiles were never ending tears from my father's leadership.

Rumour has it that for 3 generations the alphas have been nothing but awful, mean and cruel.

No one could stand up to them not even now.

I want to make a change.

Make my father understand how evil he is. I may not know what exactly he's doing or why he's doing it, but I do know he's treating them poorly.

"Isn't that the alpha's son?" I hear a man say. Our gaze meet and I must say his deadly glare was terrifying.

I quicken my steps back to the pack house because the people looked like they would eat me alone if they had the chance.

What has my father done to these people?

*********

Nothing sucks more than being forced into something you hate.

That's my state right now.

Not forgetting how the villagers looked at me.

Like they could eat me alive, but that was the least of my problems.

It's 6 days.

6 days till my dad, the so-called alpha, forces me into a lifetime commitment with a wolf who isn't my mate.

He's trying to get me to do what he wants.

To live his life.

I see it in my mum's eyes every day.

I know she hates her life. I can feel her pain of being stuck for life with someone who treats you like a puppet and a slave.

The funny thing is what my father stands to gain when he forces me to marry.

I can't marry.

I won't marry.

I don't know how, but I can't marry, at least not someone that isn't my mate.

I feel her wet paws on me.

She has sneaked in again.

I jump off the bed and stare at her wolf, glaring at me like it has seen some meal it wants to devour.

I watch her transform back as all her fur disappears and her human form resurfaces. 

"Are you mad, Lora? This is my goddamn room. I'm tired of you sneaking in." I yell out tiredly.

"Oh, babe! Staying away from you is hard. It's night. Why don't we just be together? Kella can't stop rumbling at the thought of you. My wolf wants you. I want you. We both want you!" She moves closer to me, but I stop her.

"Will you stop all this craziness? Don't you feel ashamed? We ain't mates Lora. We are not. Why can't you wait to find your mate? Must you be a luna?" 

She rolls her eyes at me.

"You're 19. You'll be 20 soon, and you haven't found your mate. What if you don't have a mate? Jay, this is working out, and that's it. The alpha already said it." She says shamelessly, causing me to let out a fake laugh.

"Get out now!" I yell, still trying to control my temper.

"I will, but if you need me, just roar, and I'll come running." She transforms and jumps out my window. 

I move on to shut the window before getting back on my bed.

How long do I have to bear this?

She's so sneaky and weird.

This setup is just so annoying. 

Just because I haven't found a mate, my dad wants to pair me up with this freak.

He doesn't even want to listen to me.

Find out if I like her or not 

She's been sneaking up on me since the very first day we met, and that's so sickening. 

Just makes me hate it here even more.

Brie

Being a loner isn't the worst thing about being human, but getting bullied is probably the worst.

I have to hide every single time at school from Clara.

My number one enemy. I don't hate her, but I don't know why she hates me.

She picks on me at every given chance and always humiliates me.

One time, I got the name 'Honey butt' just because she poured honey all over my chair, and I sat on it without knowing.

It's the final year. My last year was in high school, and I'm still getting bullied.

It's embarrassing, but what can I do? My constant research for Werewolves has me occupied apart from my studies, and Cara, she's like the only person I can call a friend. The rest are like talk buddies who only come at the good times.

I walk in the hallway and notice the prom manner hung across the wall.

Prom is in 2 weeks, and everyone is excited about it except me.

I don't have a date.

Honey butt doesn't have a date.

Cara is going with her boyfriend and I, a loner can't go alone.

I would, but it would be so embarrassing, and Clara would have more things to drag me with.

It sucks. Sometimes, I want to end my life and die and go to the afterlife.

The afterlife I hear is exciting, but then... knowing I haven't discovered the existence of Werewolves just keeps me going.

My obsession with the creature keeps me going.

From movies and stories, they have the best life. Being strong and fierce and mating.

O mating sounds so beautiful. 

"Hey. Girl!" Cara calls dragging me out of my world of thoughts.

"Hey. Where have you been?"

I ask while keeping my books in my locker.

"Just had to get away from you for a while. Your werewolf talks just drive me crazy. "

"Cara, it sucks that you..."

"Ssssshhhhhhh," She says, shutting me up instantly. " Don't say anything about it. So how did you enjoy last night's party? I mean, apart from the creature part, did you like the party?"

"I did. Then the clash ruined everything, " I say.

"I hope they catch the bear ruining everything and killing people. "

"You still think it's a bear?"

"Honey, of course, it's a bear. That's it. A large bear with weird fur, " She says while walking. 

"This is crazy." I sigh, knowing no matter how hard I try, she won't agree it's a wolf.

*********

School hours are over and I decide to go to my mum's shop.

She owns a little bakery not so far from my school, and I do stop there most times to get some snacks before heading home after school. 

"O Brie! How was school today!" She asks with a wide smile, and I roll my eyes, feeling so tired.

"As usual. Tiring. You know, I can't wait for all this to be over."

"Sad about not getting any date to prom?" She asks, and I nod, feeling so hurt.

She walks towards me and wraps her hands around me, kissing my forehead. 

It's such a warm gesture that I've barely gotten from her in months.

I've been aggressive towards everyone recently because of my research and all my fruitless efforts. 

I guess it made me and my mum a bit distant.

But now, I'll be a liar if I say I don't love this warm hug of hers.

I feel so safe and loved, too.

"It's okay!" She says, and I find myself giving in and letting her hug me all around.

"Mum!" I call gently.

"Do you miss Dad?" I ask.

"Of course, dear. I miss him every day. I think about him every day."

"Do you have what killed him?"

"I don't hate what killed him, but I wished it never killed him. Your dad was an alcoholic I knew he would lead himself to death. I didn't just expect it to be soon."

"It's 6 years already. Why did his case close? They stopped the investigation. Why?" I ask.

"Well, a lost animal killed him. But I'm not sure what animal exactly, " she says and leaves to attend to a customer. 

My dad's case never got resolved. It just got closed because they thought it was some lost animal. 

I remember the day his body was found. He had a large paw print on his shirt, and his neck was clawed. I could barely recognize my father.

He was certainly not the best dad, but my mum loved him anyway.

"Mum! I'm leaving" I say.

"Okay hun," she yells from the counter where she attended to the customer.

******

I met Xander at home. 

He was busy watching TV I can probably say he didn't see me walk in.

"Hey sis, how was school today?" he suddenly ask making me chuckle. 

"Was normal. What are you watching"

"Marvel studios. I'm sure you won't understand since all you watch are werewolves movies"

He's gonna start taunting me so I walk away.

Xander is my exact opposite. He does his own thing and taunts me too.

Everyone taunting me.

What a fucked up life.

Jay

The night before the marriage 

Tomorrow is the day.

The day I dread the most.

I have to do something and sadly I have only this night.

I go to my closet and pick a cloak and put it on.

This cloak was a gift from my late grandmother. 

She said I'll need this someday and it's today.

I'll wear it.

At least it will help me cover up my scent while I figure out how to escape. 

I put it on and transform jumping out of my window and running deep into the woods.

Surely no one saw me. It's late into the night and my window is close to the gates where the guards are already wasted from excess alcohol.

I find myself running only coming to a halt when I stand before the border.

A light shines around it and the unusually tall trees wiggle in the air.

I look back at the pack house in the distance.

I can't go back there. If I do, I'll marry Lora and I don't want that.

I guess it's better to die anyways. 

This is my only way out. It's now or never.

I jump through the border, ready for death or whatever it is.

As long as I'm off fathers control is okay. The afterlife would be great anyway. 

It felt like a dream with my life flashing before my eyes. Is this what death feels like?