“Now, you’re being delusional…” I said to myself, as I drove at a slow steady space behind her car. Despite the possibility of her calling the cops on me, I persisted in following the trails that I believed she was leaving behind for me to follow.I had hurriedly left Dolph’s company as I had feared that I would never get the chance to run into the beauty that had captured my heart at first sight. There was no way I could go to Tamika for her number, as I thought that to be nothing but demeaning. I believed that I was on one of those journeys in which a man had to walk on his own without any assistance from anyone. “You’ve got this…” I muttered again to myself, as I kept a slow and steady pace. All through the journey, I was resisting the urge to just speed up to the side of her car, and just ask her her number. I just had to cling to my self-restraint as tightly as I could. I still had questions about how Dolph had been able to end up with the phenomenal Tamika Fisher. But then, I
“No... not again...” I was having yet another one of those Dolph dreams, where I was getting married to him. There were just too many things about that dream that threw me off, especially the fact that a part of me was beginning to enjoy the whole scenario.From my experience in relationship therapy, I could tell that getting married to Dolph was the dream of many girls. A young, wealthy, good-looking guy who just had it all. But then, the thought of getting married to him just happened to scare me. “It's all a for sacrifice your career,” I reminded myself, as I got out of bed. If I was planning to make a comeback, I had better begin making adjustments to the real Tamika Fisher. I had to return to my usual morning routines that made me who I was before Dolph would interrupt them rudely. There was no telling what he was going to be up to after yesterday's ordeal with Julia. Instantly, the phone buzzed, bringing me back to reality. It was Julia, and that had me wondering just why she
Waiting was one of the hardest tasks for me, and I didn't know why the stranger on the phone was putting me through it. “Eleven...” I winced as I took a glance at my watch. The bastard had told me to meet up with him by ten in that busy morning, at that busy cafeteria. My eyes were already rolling in my direction as I had been comfortably seated there for over an hour. I took up my phone to dial his number. But instead, I ran into a text Sara had sent me a couple of minutes ago. It was hard for me to explain what had happened to the both of us ever since I saw Tamika with that bastard. It almost felt like seeing her with another person made me realize just loved her and wanted her to be mine. That had made me suddenly lose all the interest I had in Sara.In our time together, I had thought that she would never be able to find any happiness from a source that wasn't me. But then, she had pulled off the rug from underneath my feet when I saw that she had moved on with Dolph. At the
Having my hands on those steering wheels had me wondering if that moment was happening to me there and then. Did Dolph just let me go? Without making a fuss?It still didn't make much sense to me. I was afraid that it had all been a setup for something terrible. But then, he didn't look like one who had the time to plan a prank or any unforeseen evil for me to fall into.Just when I wanted to drive off, I recalled that I was Tamika Fisher and that I was famous, and that entailed me having to disguise myself to comfortably appear in public. “Crap...” I sighed, as it all came to me in a flash. It meant I headed back into the house to get a proper disguise attire that would conceal me perfectly. That would mean having to run into Dolph yet again, and that was bound to be beyond awkward. But I had to do that or risk getting mobbed by the paparazzi and by fanatical fans as well. Perhaps haters too. The comments I'd read lately online had made me realize that I had way more haters than I
“Oh no...” I muttered to myself, as suddenly froze in shock. Why was Randy even there? With... “What the...” I was about to lose it when I saw who he was comfortably seated with— Dolph's older brother.“Tamika!” he yelled yet again, as he was now on his feet, screaming like a lawyer giving an objection. “Please wait...”It was all beginning to feel like some sort of setup by Julia, to get me to meet with Randy. Without stopping to think, I turned for the door, not even minding where Julia was seated. All the heads were turned in my direction, as everybody began taking a closer look at me to see if I was indeed the real Tamika that they suspected. Their murmurs made me realize that my cover had been blown. “Mika...” Julia called out from behind, as she hurried after me. I could feel the desperation in her steps as she hurried. I hoped that she had a suitable explanation for what had just happened.“I'm so not forgiving you for this...” I said as I hurried for the door. The eyes and
“I'm sorry, Ms. Fisher, but we don't think we can work with you...”Those words delivered a blow to my expectations which had been swollen up until that moment. It felt like the entire purpose of my risk had been shattered. “No...” I sighed to myself before I could gather enough composure to speak to her. “But... why would you invite me just to turn me down immediately? That doesn't make any sense...”“I understand your confusion...” the young woman seated behind the desk said with a sympathetic tone that made it clear that there was no hope for me at all in that. “The management had wanted to work with you up until this afternoon when that video of you popped up.”“What video...?” Julia asked as she was uneasy in her seat beside mine on the other side of the desk. “This one...” the lady said, as she took out a tablet and put it up in our faces. Soon enough, I saw the video of Randy kneeling in front of me, and then myself backing away to the other side of the car and speeding away.
I just couldn't get why Tamika had been so eager to take things into her hands, to the point of making a mess of things. But then, I was glad that she had come to the point where she had begun to realize that I was her best shot at regaining her place of prominence.The ride to the casino was quiet, as I had expected it to be. At that point, I was sure that she was still beating herself up for making that bad decision for herself. As though to add salt to her injury, the media had tagged her as controversial and confused after her ordeal with her obsessive ex. In the public eye, she had gone from a relationship therapist to a victim of relationships.That was beyond pitiful, as it has all happened in such a short space of time. I kept thinking of breaking the ice that was settling in the car, at least to make her feel a bit better. But then, I didn't think it necessary. It was a contract marriage after all, and there weren't meant to be any emotions. All that mattered was our perf
“Do you want to do this?” I was having one of those weird conversations with myself which anyone could easily tag as crazy. “A date at the casino? With some weird guy that ran after you yesterday? Come on, Julia… you're better than this.”But there I was, standing and waiting for him to come and pick me up at our agreed rendezvous. I was a walking paradox as I was doing just the opposite of what I would usually do, and Tamika's rules.I excused myself with the fact that even the relationship therapist had been met with circumstances way beyond her. Though I felt guilty while doing that, it was the truth of the matter. Michael happened to be different from every other person who had come into my space, and that was the best explanation for my unusual behavior. Soon enough, his car soon came into view. There was something unforgettable about that grey Lexus that could make me recognize it from a couple of miles away. I took a glance at my watch and marveled as I could recall how he h
"And yeah... I'm going to pay him a surprise visit..." I decided that as I was on the phone with Julia while trying to get out of bed. "That would spice things up as we would get to make out in his office...""You are naughtier than you sound on the radio..." Julia remarked as she was laughing hard over the phone with some music playing in the background. Soon enough, I was in the car on my way to the office. I was sure that Dolph was bound to be happy if he saw me showing up there. I was happy that I was going to be putting a smile on his face at that point. The air was simply cool all around me and it felt real good, much cooler than it would feel on a normal day. There were a lot of things that had me feeling like I was about to have a great day as I was about to make it all happen right there and then. I wanted to recreate the memory of the night that we had in his office on the night of the anniversary. There were just too many things that had me feeling like that moment in hi
"Hey, Dolphy..." I said as I was soon walking towards him with a walk that I made as seductive as possible. It seemed like I was about to face one of the most unimaginable moments that I would ever be in. Dolph was looking like a helpless prey in my hands at that point, as he was reeling from the effects of the drug he used to be so hung on. That moment had me wondering what exactly I would be up against in the next couple of moments as I was soon seeing the desires that were burning up in his eyes as he seemed to be sizing me up right at that moment. "What… are you doing here?" He sounded like he was out of breath like he was being eaten up slowly by a disease for which the only antidote to it was my body. There were a lot of things that had me feeling like I was about to be eaten whole. "Are you all right, Dolph...?" I asked, knowing that he was far from all right as he was looking to get his hands on me. "You don't look all right to me... you're looking like you are about to l
"Hello, Tamika's husband…" Michael reminded me of the title my mom had given me back then as I was driving to my office. It was bad that I had been called that by my mother, but then I wasn't going to tolerate that at all from Michael. "Call me that again and you're fired…" I said jokingly as I soon had the casino in view. I didn't know what it was that made everything seem much more beautiful after I had gotten married. That was my first time stepping out of the house after I had gotten married, and it was feeling quite awesome. The look of that ring on my finger was quite exhilarating each time my eyes came to where the steering was. It was almost hard for me to understand how I had been able to get it all to work out to the point where I got married to Tamika. There had been a lot of hindrances, but somehow we were able to get out of everything. "So, what's up? How's the newer couple in town holding up?" Michael asked as he was sounding like he had just woken from a long, event
"Are you sure it's that important?" I just didn't know what it was that made me feel cynical about Dolph's decision to go along with the visit to the office. He had just gotten married two days ago and there he was, suddenly trying to head back to the office when he was meant to be in bed with his wife. "It's not like important important, but I won't take long, I promise. Just need to get some files and I will be back with you, hun…" Dolph said as he went on with dressing up. He was dressing casually to the office in a bid to convince me that he wasn't going to stay long. But I still wasn't convinced by any of it. There were just too many things that had me feeling like I couldn't make it past those few moments without him by my side. It was hard for me to understand what exactly I would be doing all alone in those few moments that I would be all alone in there. "Tamika…" he said, as he put his arms around me after turning away from the mirror that time around. "You know I'll miss
I couldn't deny how lonely it felt, having to watch everything happen from the confines of my solitude which was eating me up slowly as I was almost losing it from watching the clips of Tamika's wedding online. It was quite a hard sight to behold but it ailed me greatly as I believed that all of this was meant to have happened between me and Ava. But that bastard Dolph had taken my place by her side and it was simply the hardest thing to watch. I just couldn't stand the sight of it. The jealousy had me burning up badly like I was having a fever. At first, I wanted to act cool and pretend that I was happy for her and all of that. But the pretentious act wasn't working as I had thought she wouldn't be happy with anyone else besides me. There were a lot of things that had me feeling like I was being mocked and made fun of with all those pictures and videos of them floating all through the net. It felt like she was trying to show me how capable she was to find happiness in the arms of
"But they just got married… how could you possibly be thinking of doing something that would cause them to split immediately? That's simply unfair." Amelia's words sounded like mere lip service to me as she almost sounded like she was just trying to show that she still had a conscience which was alive and breathing. Like she didn't want the same thing. "Quit acting like you were so happy with seeing that my brother had you replaced with her," I said, hitting her hard in places that I knew she wouldn't recover easily from. She was quite an egotistic one and I knew it was going to take way more than talk to get her to believe that the plan would be in her best interest as well. That would take a lot from me, but I didn't mind if that would be the case as long as she would end up agreeing to my request. It was hard for me to think of what I would be able to do at that point. "I understand, but still…" she paused a bit before restarting. "Are you going to make yourself come in betwee
It had been a refreshing moment being in the shower with Dolph, up until the moment he had made mention of the way we had met. It had me feeling awkward and it ended up ruining the entire moment for me. I wondered just how long all of that would go on. It was almost beginning to look like things would never get back to normal ever again. From that moment, I decided that I would be staying away from my phone and every external connection, as that had been mainly what had caused all of that. If I would stay away from Dale and all of his lies and frame-ups then I would surely regain the sanity I once had before have took it all away from me. "Let's just be happy…" I whispered to myself as I was about to leave the mirror which I had been staring at for the past couple of moments. I was feeling my confidence as it waned with each passing moment. It was bound to be another moment of putting up fake smiles for the cameras. It was almost like I would be airing on a show where I had to
I stood there in the shower, as I was breathing heavily as I had just dodged a major bullet from all that had just happened to me at that point. A lot was going on in my head as I was trying to figure my way out of that mess. It was hard to stay put that time around as I was realising that the effects of that drug in my system were about to cost me my marriage.That moment had me feeling impatient to go and find out what I had to do from Dr. Meyers. It almost felt like I couldn't do anything from that point onwards. It almost felt like my predicament was the most hopeless of all. There just weren't any means of identifying how I could be able to stay away from misbehaving until we had a lasting solution to that. There were no words to describe just how miserable I felt at that moment. All that our union was hanging on to at that point was Tamika's trust in me. I felt the desperate need to get her to trust me all over again, as the trust she had for me seemed to be wavering with each
It felt like my world had suddenly stopped and restarted hurriedly as I stood there staring at my screen. What was that I was looking at? It was almost impossible for me to keep a straight focus at that point, as I wanted to believe that what I was looking at was some sort of strange, unreal reality.I could bet that Dale was giggling victoriously wherever he was at the moment. There were just too many things that had me feeling like I was about to lose my mind from just watching the video. I turned off the screen at once as I was looking to keep myself from falling apart right there and then. Why was everything popping up right there and then?For the next couple of moments, I forgot that Dolph was in the room and it made me feel like I was about to lose my mind from the pressure that was coming on me slowly. The words he was saying to his mother over the phone were simply breezing past me as I was simply trying to get my mind off the video I saw. That one hit differently as I had s