Chapter Seventy Eight II

Then why do you act like it every time I so much as come close to you. You've been tense since coming in here, like you're scared I'll bite."

I try to deny his accusation but the words wont just come.

"Matt...."

I whisper, even though I imagined his name sounding more firm and sure before I said it.

"Just say it's a lie, pancakes, tell me you've not flinched every single time I came close and even now when you did force yourself to close the distance, you are so stiff it's like I'm physically hurting you."

"I'm just not used to the company." I say in my defense.

"What do you mean?"

He asks, showing genuine interest in my troubles, something I've looked for for a while now.

I try to explain to him that it's not him but me, that I've not been this close with anyone in my life and it feels a kind of foreign and weird.

I mean, I shared a suite with Caden but we never shared each other's bed, so doing it now, with him, it just sets off my default panic.

But the words to explain just wont c