ALPHA ASHAThe grass was slightly damp under my knees, and the air had cooled enough to make the hairs on my arms stand. But I didn’t mind.The headstone was rough beneath my palm, and I felt the guilt burn the inside of my chest. I hadn’t taken care of Naomi’s headstones at all over the years, and the stone had become weatherworn, roughened by the snow and storms beating down upon it season after season.I hadn’t really spared myself enough time to visit her, too scared of how much it might destroy me to face her headstone knowing that there was nothing I could have done to save her.And now, I knelt before her, her name I’d carved into the stone myself smooth and almost invisible. I would have to replace it, and take care of it this time around.“I know it’s been a long time,” I said sadly, the guilt weighing on me heavily. “I’ve missed you so much, more than anything.”The chilly breeze caressed my cheeks, lifting the pressure in my chest a little. It was almost as if I could sense
ALPHA ASHAI left my family’s graves and made my way into the pack cemetery, weaving through the headstones spanning back a century.The south Asha pack was old, one of the oldest in the west, and had seen its fair share of bloodshed and senseless violence.I was still ashamed that I had been a part of that violence, that I had contributed to the headstones sticking up out of the ground.It was why I was there, walking further down the lines of fallen wolves until I spotted the very distinct headstone I had personally erected there months ago.After Naomi’s blessing, I wanted to pay my respects to the late pack doctor and a young sentry who had been killed by rouges while on a recon mission to the pack borders about a year ago. For so long, the guilt and shame of losing a pack member, an innocent wolf who had only been trying to help, had eaten away at me until I was nothing. I stood before their graves, my hands clasped firmly behind my back to hide the subtle shaking in my fingers.
ALPHA ASHA“Yeah, yeah, whatever,” I chuckled, my neck feeling warm under Jared’s sincerity. “Make yourself useful and go get supplies for the run.”WormWhick got to his feet, reaching past Ayla to grab Jared by the scruff of his neck and haul him to his feet, effectively cutting off whatever wisecrack remark Jared had sitting on his tongue.“Hey- wait, WormWhick- ow!”“Quiet master Jay,” WormWhick sighed, ignoring his protests and dragging him to the door. “We’ll handle the supplies, Asha.”I nodded in thanks, watching as the pair of them disappeared out the door, Jared sulking and trying to push WormWhick off while WormWhick dragged him along with a soft smile.I pushed back my seat, Julio did the same and we walked out together.“This is going to be great news Asha…” Julio said as he trailed beside me.“I just hope all would be happy to hear it.”We broke ways, I pushed open the door to my room, hoping to find Pixie with a tempting smile on her face but she wasn’t there.“She’s on
ALPHA ASHAI followed Jared, my heart racing and my nerves on fire.It couldn’t be, nothing could have happened to her, nothing could have happened to Pixie. Images of Naomi’s bloody form flashed in my mind, further driving me to the edge of insanity.I held my breath when we approached the surroundings of the medical wings.Jonah met us at the door, possibly having smelled my presence and I was a bit surprised to have seen Ayla and WormWhick as well.“Alpha,” Jonah greeted, my wide, innocent eyes blinking owlishly.“Hey, kid,” I said, nodding in thanks when Jonah stepped aside to welcome us in. The sterile smell burned my nose, reminding me of the night Naomi died, but I was surprised when my chest didn’t crack open the way it usually would have. “My mate? Where is she?!”Jonah raised a brow, confused.“Your Luna left a little while ago.”What?“Gawd Asha, I said it about your mate, I didn’t say it ‘was’ your mate!” Jared smacked my palm against my face.I sighed in relief but then w
ALPHA ASHAThe next morning, I woke to something shifting in Pixie’s scent. It was still undoubtedly hers, but there was something else beneath it, something both familiar and unfamiliar. I fixated on it for a long while, feeling my body slowly wake up, more attuned to hers.“Baby,” I murmured, nosing at her throat sleepily. “‘Baby’.”She hummed, her arms draped lazily around my shoulders. She was still fast asleep, and I was getting impatient, handsy.“You smell good,” I groaned, rolling over on top of her, my hips kicking into hers. “What is that?”She yawned and stretched a little, her hands reaching high above her head. I nuzzled close, placing open-mouthed kisses down her neck and across her collarbones, my cock hardening quickly.“Asha?” she mumbled, brows scrunching in her sleep-dazed confusion. My hands slipped beneath her and pulled her up, seating her in my lap, her warmth inches away from my cock.“Yeah,” I moaned, growing more and more desperate the longer I drowned in her
PIXIEIt had been days since I had stormed out of our room, and days since I’d seen Asha.Thankfully, Ayla had insisted I stay in her room, ensuring that Asha knew I was safe and wouldn’t confront me until I was ready to see him again.It was the second night spent away from him, where I found myself huddled on Ayla’s bed beside the she-wolf, who had been exceptionally protective. She had brought me everything I needed, from food to one of Asha’s shirts (stolen from his room while he was out patrolling), and had even insisted that I take her bed.“How was he today?” I asked hesitantly. I rested my cheek on a raised knee, watching Ayla clean one of her precious throwing knives. Ayla winced.“Not great,” she said truthfully. “He doesn’t do well being ignored, but that’s just because he’s a spoiled Alpha.”I smiled weakly at Ayla’s attempt to get me to smile. I’d grown very close to Ayla, and Ayla had in turn confided in me, telling me about her terrible past.It turned out that she and
PIXIE“What is he like?” Ayla asked.I frowned, looking away from the wildflowers we walked past, deep in the forest one afternoon. “What do you mean?”“Well,” Ayla said, running a hand through her wavy hair. It shone under the dappled sunlight streaking through the treetops. “Asha is still so cold and aloof around everyone else. He’s so different around you, while he’s still that fearsome Alpha around everyone else.”“I hadn’t noticed,” I said honestly. “I don’t really think I’ve seen the fearsome Alpha that everyone is so afraid of just yet.”Ayla threw her head back in a full-bodied laugh. She clutched onto my shoulder until she was done, swiping a fake tear from her cheek.“Oh, you’ll never get to see it,” Ayla said. “I think he’d rather chew off his own leg before letting you see that side of him.”“That’s ridiculous,” I said, rolling my eyes at Ayla. “It can’t be all that bad, besides, he’s gotten angry with me plenty of times.”Ayla hummed, her footsteps impossibly quiet beside
PIXIEWhen I woke, I was still curled up in his arms, my body aching from the position and a good fuck.“You up?” he asked, his voice gravelly with exhaustion. I nodded, wondering if he’d stayed awake the entire time waiting for me to come to. He kissed my temple and squeezed me tight before letting go. “Let’s get you cleaned up.”I let him help me to my feet, feeling a little wobbly and unsteady. He looked up at me from his seat, a sudden frown tugging at his mouth.“Why were you sneaking around my office?”I clammed up, my panic chasing away any lingering fatigue in an instant. I should tell the truth. There was no use lying once I’d already been caught.“I wanted to find out why you were Hiding anything from me, concerning Amber or Dwight or anyone…” I explained, lowering my eyes in shame.“Why do you think I’ll be hiding anything from you…? Concerning Amber?”I didn’t look up.“I know when you’re lying, Asha,” I said softly. “You don’t lie often, so picking it up is easy. I just w