CHAPTER 11: HE LOVES ME, HE LOVES ME NOT, HE LOVES ME, HE LOVES ME NOT!

OLIVIA’S P.O.V

“Sir, I finished with all of the arrangements for tomorrow’s meeting. The boardroom is set up. I have double-checked your presentation making sure that it is error-free. I checked the set-up as well” I reported back to him at 5 pm. “Okay, you can have a seat and wait until I finish with this email and then we will leave,” he said. “Yes, Sir” I addressed him and took a seat. “You wouldn’t even ask if there is anything else that I have for you to do, would you? Because you are one extremely lazy person…that explains all the fat which gather around or waist” he insulted me again like he has been doing the whole week since Belinda left, I literally felt my heart drop. Looking down at my waist I honestly didn’t see anything wrong, I don’t think that it could possibly get any smaller and I was proud of my hourglass shape, yet I still felt horrible. I guess it’s not that fact that he insulted my body, because I knew that I have the perfect figure and I have been told this so many times by both men and women that I don’t doubt having the perfect figure. I guess I still feel down about it because ‘he’ doesn’t like it, he doesn’t find me attractive or good enough for him.

“Sir, what else would you like me to do?” I asked. “Go and have a facial done, you look like you need it” there he goes again with his torments. “Sure,” I said softly, hanging my head low, the same height that my self-esteem has dropped to. “Okay, I’m done. Let’s go” he said shutting down this laptop. Grabbing my bag I ran behind him. I didn’t understand how a man can walk so fast, I have to always be brisk walking in order to keep up with him.

“I’m really tired, you must drive,” he said, handing me the keys. “Okay,” I said, taking the keys from him. “Okay?” he stared at me. “Okay, Sir” I corrected myself and addressed the way he asked me to. “Your hatred towards me has grown immensely,” I said, my eyes focused on the road as I spoke to him. I waited for him to deny it or at least tell me the reason why, but I got nothing. “Is it because of Belinda?” I asked. “Belinda was fired because I was f****** her and eventually got bored,” he said in his deep voice. So I must have been right, he used me as an excuse to get rid of her! He doesn’t have any feelings for me, nor is he interested in me! I was just a poor excuse!!!

We drove in silence for the rest of the way until we reached Stermyertina. As soon as I parked the car, I handed him the keys and went up to my room. Removing my clothes I waited a few minutes for the shower to get steaming hot, then I went in. I felt the water gushing on me, waiting for it to wash out the pain that I felt in my heart, but it didn’t because my heart was broken! I didn’t even realize that I fell in love with him, I knew that I had a really big crush…but love…I didn’t expect that.

A loud knock on my door pulled me out of my thoughtful state, I wasn’t ready to leave my shower as yet, so I ignored it hoping that whoever was on the other side of the door would just go away. A few minutes have passed until I heard another set of loud knocking, okay I should go and see who that is, I thought to myself and turned off the shower. Covering myself with a bath gown, I started to dry my hair with a towel as I headed towards the door.

“H- Oh, it’s you” I was surprised to see Austin standing there. “Yes, It’s me! I think that you may have forgotten the rules, I don’t blame you though, your brain is probably so tiny. Anyways, you are late for dinner, you won’t get served if you miss it” he insulted and reminded me at the same time. “No, I didn’t forget actually. I decided to skip dinner tonight, I’m not that hungry” I said. I was about to close the door when they pushed it open and walked into my room. “You need to eat” his eyes focused on me. “I need to lose some weight,” I said, finding the perfect opportunity to make him regret insulting me earlier on. “Kitten, if you lose any more weight, my body will probably crush yours when I get on top of you” I felt my cheeks heat up at his words as his eyes ran all over my body. “I’m really not hungry, now if you would excuse me, I would like to put some clothes on,” I said, walking past him towards my closet. “Oh kitten!” he grabbed me by my waist and put me over his shoulders making me yelp in shock. “What are you doing?” I asked, in shock. “You need to eat so I am taking you down to the dining room, after that, you would face your punishment for refusing to follow my order the second time,” he said, his big strong shoulder hurt my fragile tummy as he walked down the stairs but my concentrate was more on his arms that were tight around my upper tight, keeping me from falling. He put me down by the dinner table, Keith and Jake, was shocked and amused at the same time.

“Eat all of it?” he said, pointing at the plate of food placed in front of me. “I’m not hungry” I protested again. “Is it really the third time that you are refusing to follow my order?” he asked. “I’m your secretary, nothing else! You can’t control my life!” I cried. “HOW DARE YOU?” his hand gripped around my throat, cutting off my air supply. “Austin, calm down!!! Let her go!!! You are going to kill her!!!” Keith said, trying to get Austin to lose the grip that he had around my throat. “Austin! What are you doing man?!” Jake yelled.

“You aren’t just my secretary!!! Don’t you ever say that again!” he said and he pressed his lips on mine. Keith and Jake stepped back in shock, they were probably as shocked as I was. At first, I stayed still, not knowing what was actually going on, but all soon as my brain registered that the man I love was kissing me, I didn’t hold back as I let my tongue dance with his.

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Dear diary

It’s obvious that I love him! And now that know what love feels like, I don’t think that I loved my ex-boyfriend Brad at all. Dear diary, I hate the fact that I love him so much that my world is beginning to revolve around him I hate that what he says or does determine how I feel, I hate that even know he insults me every day I still have the urge to see the knee-weakening, heart racing smile of his…

Today he kissed me, well after he tried to kill me that it, but it still counts…as our first kiss! Today he forced me down to dinner, to make sure that I eat and don’t go to bed hungry, well after he called me fat…

I am confused. One minute he is nice and the next he makes me feel terrible. Is this all just a game that he is playing or does he really have feelings for me? Dear dairy… he loves me, he loves me not, he loves me, he loves me not…