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Chapter 95: Selfish

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Yannie Ace Ruiz

My chest tightened as I finally exited and got away from that place. It felt like all the courage I had earlier suddenly abandoned me, causing my knees to weaken significantly.

Once again, I felt the corners of my eyes start to heat up. I didn't know what I should feel after realizing that the cause of all the problems my family and friends were facing was none other than me. I was the reason all of this was happening to them. I didn't know what to feel, and I didn't know what to do.

I didn't want them to be hurt and suffer. I didn't want anyone else to be involved just because of me. But... I couldn't leave Josh. I couldn't hurt him and let him go.

I bit my lower lip as my tears finally started to flow. What should I do? I told Josh's mom that I would fight, but in truth, I didn't know how I could fight when all the people important to me were being affected.

Am I bad because I'm selfish? Am I bad because I can't let go of the man I love so much, even though other
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