You can not just touch my soul and leave. -Unknown. |L O R E N Z O|I applied the brake as I returned back to the mansion. After driving the whole night I just got back. But instead of going inside, here I am standing outside my own mansion because it haunts me of her memories. The guards standing at the main gate bowed to me and all I can think of is the way Iris would smile at them just to be polite. Sometimes I want to crush my own mind for being so deep in this shit. It has started to be frustrating to think of her in every situation when she clearly could not give two flying fucks. It has been two days of thinking and re-thinking about her and what she did. Two days of defending her in mind but coming out empty handed. Two days of letting the anger stay in me instead of taking actions on it. Two days of running from the truth. Two fucking days, without her. I got out of the car and marched inside the mansion ready for the chaos
You can romanticize me all you wish, but the devil wrapped in silk is still the devil. -Unknown. |I R I S|'I should have killed her when I brought her, here. Or better, when I saw her in that dark forest. Instead, I just had to go around and play stupid games. Anyways, better late than never. I learned my lesson and we are going to end it.''End what?''End her.' A little pause, 'kill her.'I never believed the books when they explained how their heart shattered inside their body and yet they lived and breathed the air just fine. I thought that was bullshit. Until I myself felt like something in my chest broke, broke so violently that I wondered how it is even possible for no one to have heard it. The recording plays again and again on Tori's mobile phone to the point that the simple words coming out of his mouth started feeling like sharp needles he is trying to poke in my ears. Play stupid games. So, all of it was a freaking game t
|L O R E N Z O|"Is he here?" I questioned Lucas while descending the stairs. "Not but Rowan wants to talk to you." Lucas says moving his eyes back and forth between me and Rowan. "More like put some fucking sense in your stupid head." His voice reached my ears before he did. His eyes hardened as they zeroed down at my face. "Watch your tone, Rowan." I warn him with cold eyes. He has been acting rebellious towards us like we betrayed his friend not the other way. He eats the distance between us in few large steps and stands large and strong in front of me. His eyes narrowed at my face with anger clear and evident in them.."You will not do that." His voice came out more like a warning than a request. And, I do not like the threat in his tone. Like he would go to any extent to stop this. To stop me, from hurting her. I mirror his glare as I whisper back, "Watch me." "She is not a fucking traitor!" He yelled backing away. Lucas battled between either to reach him to calm him or le
Some days I do not exist. My bed becomes a casket. -Juansen Dizon. |I R I S|Years. It feels like years have passed when it is hardly have been days. I want to turn my head and lool at what I left behind than I remember that I left nothing, I was forced to move or I would have get killed. The man I was handing my everything to was digging my grave, looking for an opportunity to dig the sharp pointed end of knife in my body. I am lying on the bed with my back facing the ceiling. The pillows on the bed feels damp maybe I actually did not stopped crying. I thought I would run out of tears one day but thay day is probably not. My insides churns and I want to escape this feeling of being ripped apart. Like someone shattered me to pieces to take what they wanted and what they took costs me fortunes. I close my eyes and let the tears travel all the way down my cheeks. I feel every ounce of energy seeping out of my body and now there is nothing
There are poems inside of you that paper can not handle. So, they always stay within you. -Unknown. |I R I S|I am home. With the nervousness and fear deep in my heart, I stand at the front of the door of my house. Tori and Vince stand on the either side od giving me the time of the world before I ring the bell. I missed my parent. If anything, I miss them even more. There were always phone available. I could have always called them but there was this strange longing inside me that craved their presence. There was this strange longing inside that wanted me to run all the miles just to see my parents. And, when the moment is finally here my hands shake and I feel suffocated. A hand come resting on my shoulder, startling me. But Tori squeezes it slightly to calm my uneasiness. I am glad that the two of them are here and I hate that even this is not enough for me to open the door. What am I going to tell them? Where was I all these mo
I can not exactly describe how I feel, but it is not quite right. And it leaves me cold. -Unknown. |L O R E N Z O|One month later..The music blasts in the mansion and I throw the empty bottle of the whisky away somewhere in the corner. I walk but room suddenly started spinning, I have to hold the floor in order to not fall. Everyone else looks just fine even in the spinning world. Then, what the fuck is wrong with me? Why can't I be like them? Why can't I look just fine like them?Maybe because there is this invisible void inside my heart that I feel with each step I take, to remind me that I am leaving something behind. It forces me to look behind and search for that particular something. I want to do that. I want to search for that lost part of my heart to make it whole again. But whenever I turn I find nothinh else than the more pain and ache in my chest. I sit with crossed legs on the floor, holding onto it to not fall as I wat
I could not touch you without ruining you, so I did not touched you at all. -Mindy Nettifee.|I R I S|"I am sure your exams went well." I tried to assure Tori as she paced back and forth in the apartment, worries that she might fail. "I gave them. I know they did not." She tells me and it is fair. Because she was the one writing those so she knows better but that does not mean that I can say 'It's okay if you fail'But why it is not? Why it is not okay to fail? How is it even possible to only succeed at every point? What if at some point one gets really exhaust and relax. What if he or she fails once? Should not they be allowed to fail too? "It's okay, Tori." I tell her. "You know what? You are right. Fuck those exams." She stood up with new energy. I smiled to myself at her behaviour. "We would go out and party tonight." She tells me and my face fell. It's been one month. One month of isolating myself. One month of keeping myself occupied
Rage, maybe rage would lift me up, make me stand, make me walk - -Marlon James. |L O R E N Z O|"This is so fucked up, Enzo!" I heard my brother scream in phone from the other side of it, first thing in the morning. And, it is not helping that my head already feels heavy. "There are a lot of things in that category. You have to be more specific, brother." I groan as my head throbs with pain. What the fuck is wrong with it? Did someone knocked me out with an iron rod or something?"Your entire situation. Everything about you is fucked up at the moment." He scolds me but I am barely keeping up with his speed of sprouting words. "Yeah, you are right." So, I decided to agree with him until he is done venting and stops ruining my morning. "What the fuck are you high on?" His loud voice feels like a sharp needle to my ears and I can not take it anymore. "Go to sleep, Nic." I murmured before ending the call and stuffing my face in the soft ba
Two months later..."You are hot." Iris' mother complimented Lorenzo and he blushed under the judgmental gaze of his girlfriend's mother."Daisy!" Mr. Emerson scolded but only if his wife was one from listening."What? Isn't he?" Mrs. Emerson looked up at her husband with doe eyes and her husband gave in."Thank you so much for coming." Lorenzo thanked the couple, genuinely."Oh come on, you are proposing her. We need to be here." Mrs. Emerson shrugged."You better take care of my little daisy or I will kill you." Mr. Emerson threatened and a death warning coming from such a sweet person absolutely had an deep impact.Lorenzo nodded his head as he assured the couple, "I will always take care of her. And, if any day I fail, you are free to take my life." Lorenzo added.Mr. Emerson nodded with assurance at the man's sincerity before walking ahead towards their assigned room."How is my favourite son doing?" Came his mother's voice.He beamed at his mother before she pulled him in her mo
What we lived through is living in us. -Unknown. |I R I S|"I have a surprise for you." Both Lorenzo and Rowan said in unison. While Rowan had a big ass smile on his face regarding the same, Lorenzo had an evil smirk plastered on his face. I stared up at them, confused. "What surprise?" Lucas asked on my behalf. "Wait!" Rowan exclaimed and quickly rushed outside the mansion, leaving the three of us behind to wait for him. He returned with two people on his tail, but he was blocking my view so I could not really see them, until he stepped aside letting me take in my surprise. "Oh my god!" The words left my lips when I saw Tori and Vince standing at a few meter distance.Tori was wearing a yellow top and black jeans while Vince on the other hand was dressed formally, like going on a business trip. I waited no more time before I rushed to them and pulled Tori in a none crushing hug. She hugged me back, happily. "I am so happy that
An eye for an eye and the whole world goes blind. -Gandhi. |I R I S|"Good morning," A husky and drowsy voice greeted me in my sleep. My eyes fluttered open and I smiled, contently, at the beautiful sight in front of me. He was hovering my body and nuzzled his face in the crook of my neck when I gave him a smile. His nose tickled my sensitive skin, pulling out a giggle from me. My hands found their to his back and I sighed in pleasure as he marked my translucent skin with his torturous kisses. He took hold of my both hands in his one and pinned them above my head. His eyes gazed into mine for a fleeting second before he leaned down and crashed his lips against mine, holding me caged under his huge body. "God! I missed you." He whispered against my lips before he shoved tongue inside my mouth, ravishing it. I was completely at his mercy and he was merciless. His free hand explored my half naked body as his hand travelled from my s
Peace be upon those who hand pick their words, for fear of hurting anyone. -Unknown.|I R I S|Today, I am going to talk to Marcus. Because, umm, I kind of got distracted from the mental note I made last night. Anyways, I wore my white crop and black jeans before I headed towards his room. Marcus, I mean. Marcus' room is right opposite to Lorenzo's. The mansion is silent today, as if, people are still asleep. Most importantly Rowan. He is the only one who keeps this mansion alive with his cheerful screams when his favourite team wins a match, or when he running away from the other mam whoever he has pissed or annoyed in the mansion on the specific days. Once, I was standing in front of Marcus' room, I heaved out a long breath and lifted my hand to knock on his door. I waited for him to open the door while I thought about all the things I can possibly talk to him about. His sister? All the things starts from her and end on her. I was bu
I want you. Your bones. Your body heat. The bite marks your teeth leave, to see how bad and beautiful those eyes look beneath me. -Beau Taplin. |I R I S|After spending the whole day together inside the room with Rowan, talking and watching movies, we finally came out of that hole at night, during the dinner time. Lorenzo, Lucas and Marcus were already sitting at the dinner table, waiting for us while the servants served the food. Lorenzo's eyes immediately came to meet mine as if he has suddenly got some super natural powers to know about my whereabouts. I descended the stairs with Rowan on my tail. When we reached the dinner table, Rowan was quick to take a swat right next to Marcus, who by the way looked very lost and was barely eating. I made a mental note to have a conversation with him after dinner. I sat down next to Lorenzo on the dinning table, his heavy gaze ready to burn a hole in my head with the intensity he is watching me.
A loss is not always a lesson. Sometimes it's just a tragedy. -Unknown. |I R I S|I saw through my half open lids as he immediately rushed to me in the burning house. Vince."Iris!" He called out again but my body feels so hot and exhausted that it feels almost impossible for me to say anything. The wound in my chest hurts so much, "Iris, open your eyes." Vince patted my cheeks as he tried to get me back to my senses. Vince looked worried. Sick worried. Like with me, he himself is going to get admitted in the hospital along with me. If we would even reach there in time. "Fuck!" He cursed and if he is cursing then the matter is really worse. Because Vince does not curse. I have never heard him curse except the one time when Tori fell down the stairs. Vince was scared for her because he thought she is going to die and leave him alone. He might not say it but it is very obvious that he loves his sister so much. Tori is lucky to have h
When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth. -Jess C. Scott. |I R I S|Today morning, when I woke up, my day was already reserved for Ronan without my knowledge. So, I was waken up in the most horrible way one could wake up. That stupid human being threw a bucket of cold water on me. It not only ruined my precious sleep but also ruined my sheets as well. And, now he is sitting at floor in my room while the servant changes the sheet. I am in the bathroom brushing my teeth when all I wanted to do was sleep. "Hurry up, lazy lad." He yelled out from outside growing impatient after ruining my morning. With brush in my mouth I could not properly speak so I just rolled my eyes and went ahead to spit out the content in my mouth. I splattered cold water on my face and my eyes did not felt as heavy as before anymore. I am going to kill Rowan. Was my first thought since my brain
I can not tell you how piercingly and endlessly I think about you. -Virginia Wolf. |I R I S|A new day, a new morning, a new start and a new beginning. I woke up after a long night that provided me with the enough rest I needed for today. Stretching my arms, I let out a lazy yawn and rubbed my eyes with the back of my palm. When my eyes opened properly, I looked around in the room I was sleeping in. The same room, I used before. Everything seems exactly the same, just a few changes here and there. I smiled at the memories that are connected to this room, fondly, before standing up from the bed.I opened the curtains of the room letting the sun rays enter the room to lighten up the dark room. Light reached almost all the corners of the room, filling it with a new yellow and glowing light. My lips curved in a cheerful smile at the joy of this mew beginning.ast night, I decided to give my relationship with Lorenzo another chance. Despite all
I just want to be in love with somebody who wants to be in love with me. -Unknown. |L O R E N Z O|I took her petite hands in mine and looked into her eyes with tenderness before I spoke, "I did a lot of horrible things, Iris." I started, speaking with my heart because I do not remember remembering these words when I was preparing for the apology speech that Google helped me write. "I made mistakes. I disappointed you. I hurt you." I confessed all my mistakes, "But, I never meant to." I told her. "I am not trying to justify my actions here. Trust me." I insisted as if my world would crumble down if she would believe otherwise. Her violet orbs stayed focused at me while I spoke, not saying a word or interrupting me, "I.. I want to tell you that everything was wrong. It was so fucking wrong. And, you do not know how fucking sorry I am." My voice shakes when I say this and I control myself from breaking into a crying mess. Because I feel th