When the bell finally did ring I rushed out of the class happy it was finally over but already dreading tomorrow, but at least tomorrow was Friday.
As I got to my locker to get my binder, out when I open it all my things fall out I look to ceiling and let out a breath just great I start picking up my papers as kids just walk on and around them I wait till everyone is out of the hallway before proceeding to get the rest of the papers that flew; when I finally get all my papers together and in my book bag, I walk outside to see the last bus leaving fuck I yell as I start my walk and of course the sun is doing an excellent job of making me blazing hot.
"yo Lainy" I keep walking speeding up I seen them movies where they kidnap girls and my mama would beat my ass if I got taken;
"Lainy slow down girl its just me" I turn around to see Cam jogging towards me when he finally reached me he blew out a breath
"damn ma its too hot to be walking" I look up at the sky and back at him "its ight, its not that hot" I smile lying through my teeth "mhm why tf you lying" I laugh at his dumbass "shut up boy" I say as I push his shoulder "but come on ma Ill take you home we can hit up McDonalds first" he says as he grabs my hand leading me to his white BMW before I could object.
Driving wasn't quiet because Cam blasted Chief keef the whole way to McDonalds, he turned it down when we were at the drive thru "what chu want" he said pulling out his wallet well since he's paying "lemme get a number four no tomatoes with a Oreo mcflurry" he looked at me shaking his head then ordered his food; we decided to go to the park and eat more like he decided and I just agreed.
As we were pulling out of Mcdonalds he reached to turn up the radio and I slapped his hand "gurl you musta lost yo mind" he yelled looking at me like I was crazy I laughed "I don't wanna hear no nigga mumbling words, I would rather sit in silence"
"I don't give a fuuuck, this my car and you slap my hand like that again imma slap ya back" he said as we pulled up to the park I knew he was bluffing so I slapped his arm and starting taking my food out the bag before I felt the bag being snatched out my hand "gemme" I say reaching for the bag
"gemme got shot by a nigga name please" I roll my eyes
"I told you bout that they gone get stuck then you gon be looking crazy" he says handing me back the bag then flicked me on the forehead and laughed at the sound it made
"that's not funny" I say pouting and rubbing the spot he flicked "my bad ma you want me to kiss it" he laughs while leaning forward and puckering up his lips "ew no move" I say while pushing his chest.
When we finished eating we decided to walk the trail that was behind the park. "So whats been up witchu ma"
"nun really same ole same what about you" I say as I kick a rock off the path
"nothing much same shit different toilet" I scrunch my face up and laugh
"you slow, you know that"
"yeah and your beautiful, you know that" My mouth goes dry and it feels like I'm being suffocated I open my mouth to breath in cool air.
I've never been called beautiful by anyone besides family members "uh okay thanks"
he stops walking and stands in front of me looking down at me "you know I love you girl you the reason I made it to 11th grade and I just wanna say thanks and I promise imma be trying harder now in school and shit" I smile
"i love you too cam" more than you'll ever know I think to myself as we walked back to his car "aye my mama throwing this cook out thang on Saturday, you wanna come you know she still be asking about you "when you gone bring my chocolate bunny around i hope you ain't run her away" he said mimicking his mom I laughed him, his mom was like a second mom to me whenever I used to come by to help him with his homework.
She always told me I was beautiful and called me her chocolate bunny.
I haven't seen her in almost a month
"yeah sure, i miss Ms Davis" I say as we pulled up to my house "thanks for the ride and the food"
"no problem ma you know I fucks with you, but ill be here at 7 oh and tell your moms I said wassup and that she invited to the cook out too"
"ight nigga and don't be blowing yo horn when you get here or imma call the cops" I said opening the door with one foot out
"gurl hush you keep playing imma pull up blasting Chief Keef, but Ill holla at you later I gotta go to this lil bitty house"
I rolled my eyes and got out slamming his door "aye watch that shit" he yelled out his window backing out of my driveway I flicked him off and kept walking I heard him laugh and then drive off.
"Alaina Ginger Rose Jones"I hear my mom yell waking me up from my nap"gurl get yo behind down here now!" I pop up and look at the time on my phone 9:42 when I got home the first thing I did was do my homework then face timed Cam to help him with his homework, then Sam called to gossip about this guy she's talking to, then I took a shower I didn't mean to fall asleep but I was worn out and didn't feel like cleaning.As I walked down stairs I feared for my life "hey mom" I say as she glared at me and pointed to the dishes in the sink "didn't I tell you to clean my house""yes ma'am but I had fell aslee--" she held her hand up for me to stop talking"why were you late again, after I woke you up and told you not to be late" I looked at the floor and played with my fingers"I missed the bus so I had to walk" she blew a breath and sh
"Imma be over here everyday so get used to seeing my face bitch"I say harshly as I walk out Tanisha's house yeah that was rude but she put me through a lot of bullshit lemme start from the beginningI meet Tanisha in high school she was a cute thick lil brown skin girl and was my first love, back then I wanted a relationship I mean I wasn't no sap or nun like that but I wanted some I can call mine; a ride or die type shit.Back then I used to sell drugs to keep my mama lights on, she raised me and my two cousins Tony and Tyler they like my brothers at least one is.But back to the story me and Tanisha dated for four years and she knew what I did for a living, she didn't like it but it was what ever, when we found out she was pregnant we were seniors in high school.I was happy, but she wasn't she felt we was too young for a kid I did too but so what. 
"Alaina get up before you be late to school" my mom said as she shook my shoulder I rolled my eyes and got up"I don't know who you rolling your eyes at but you better check yourself lil girl"I turned around and looked at her"how come you didn't tell me about my dad" I say crossing my arms my mom looked at me like I had three heads"ion know who the fuck you think you talking to but you better check yo tone before I bust you in your mouth"I uncrossed my arms and turned around and started getting my clothes out for school ignoring her presence"I don't gotta explain shit to you" she said walking out and slamming the door I rolled my eyes and got dressed putting on ripped blue jeans that actually made me look like I had a lil butt, a white n black striped shirt and all white Nike air maxes;I brushed m
Mr. Davis, please bring your phone up here to my desk, you can get it back after school"I sucked my teeth "come on Mr. Harrison imma put it up, my mama was texting me"I lie with a straight face hoping he'll buy it"okay, but put it away or I will take it" I grin and slide my phone under the papers on my desk.I look up at the board and try my best to pay attention, but my phone vibrates making a noise on the desk Mr. Harrison looked up at me and I pretended to be writing down the English notes; till he looked away.It wasn't a message but a snap notification it was from this girl I used to fuck with, I didn't look at it cause I already knew what it was so i just deleted it.When I was about to get off Snapchat I noticed Chynna had put some new on her story and it looked like Lainy was with her; I grabbed my headphones and
Cam had me weak the whole lunch, especially when he dissed Chynna I mean I've seen people turn red before but her flashlight ass was like a damn tomato.And it didn't even stop at lunch, for my last two classes me and him was having a debate through text on what shade of red she turned either the color of a baboons ass or a ripe tomato.Though I was having a good day my dad was still in the back of my mind, so when the final bell rung at the end of the day I was nervous "what if he doesn't like me" "what if I'm not pretty enough or light enough", while I was thinking this through I bumped into someone"sorry" I say when I look I just see Cam"watch where you going then" I roll my eyes and hit his shoulder "shut up baboon kisser"I yell loudly as I start running to his car; I don't even get close before I'm lifted into the air and hoisted onto his&nbs
When Cam dropped me off at home I rushed up stairs so I could shower up and put some decent clothes on.I decided to wear floral dress with some white flats; I brushed my hair up into a bun and put on diamond stud earrings.As I walked past my body length mirror I stopped and looked at myself and I liked what I saw not love yet but Ill get there, the floral pink complimented my dark skin making my melanin pop."Alaina, your fathers here, come on girl" I hear my mom yell, I roll my eyes at the sound of her voice and grab my white handbag and my phone; I take one last look at myself and smile.When I come down the stairs I can hear my parents speaking in hushed voices, when I get to the last step its quiet as I walk into the living room I see my mom glare at dad before looking at me"you look pretty" I nod my head at her, before she can yell at me for
"Shit" I said as I cleaned up the spilled juice that I accidentally kicked as I paced back and forth "where the hell are they, its getting late"I dialed Jacobs number again only to be met with his voicemail for the tenth time"Jacob I know you see me trying to call you bring my baby home now before I call your parole officer, I told you to have her back by nine thirty its about to be twelve in the morning getcho black ass here right now or pick up this damn phone cause i know you got my other messages bitch ass nigg-"I hear the front door close then footsteps"what" I hang up my phone throwing it on the couch and look up to see Jacob trifling ass"where is my baby"I yell pushing past him "shh yelling and shit she's upstairs already probably sleep by now, she was tired""Well maybe if you had her here when I told
*beep* *beep*I hit my alarm clock then layed back down, yesterday was so fun after we finished dinner we went skating then went to get ice cream and ate it in the park by the lake; it was late when I got home and me and my dads phone was dead and we joked about my mom having a heart attack cause I was out so late."Alaina, get yo butt up right now no one told you to be out so late" I rolled my eyes she just mad because I like spending more time with my dad than with her"I know you hear me if I come up there--" "I'm up ma" I yell as I get up to look for my clothes, I could hear my moms footsteps as she came up the stairs"who the hell do you think you yelling at lil girl I will bust you in yo mouth keep playing with me" I grabbed my clothes and started walking to my bathroom"don't walk away from me when I'm talking to you" she said grabbing my arm making
Cam🙈: are you ready I'm outsideMe: Kay I'm comingI took a look at myself in the mirror, I was wearing a nude pencil skirt with a white crop top and gold sandals; "you look good girl" I said to my reflection smiling.Its been a week since the hospital incident happened, Cam ended up canceling the pool party so me and him never had a chance to talk; but tonight he's taking me out so we can talk."You look beautiful"I heard someone say I turned around to see my dad standing there, I walked up to him and gave him a hug"Thanks""But isn't that skirt a little too short maybe you should put jeans on it's kind of cold out""Jacob leave her alone she looks fine" my mom said shaking her head at my dad"Thanks guys but I have to get going Cams waiting"
I sat in the car waiting for Alaina I felt a lot better knowing it was Cam who she was with, I hope they make up so it won't be awkward at the pool party.Zzzzzz Zzzzzzzz ZzzzzzzzI answered my phone "sup Cam are y'all almost done""what I was going to ask you the same thing where are y'all""I'm at the park wait your not with Alaina" I asked getting out of my car"No she was with you""There was this unknown number that texted her asking to meet up--""And y'all went why didn't she tell me""Cause you was ignoring her hit thats besides the point she thought it was you who was texting her" I said walking towards the trail"Ight I'm on my way right now I should be there in like three minutes wait for me""Okay just hurry cause I'm getting worried"I w
I started walking the trail looking around, but I didn't see anyoneZzzz ZzzzzzI jumped a bit the vibrate from my phone scaring meRoxy🦋: are you okay??Me: yeah I don't see anyone thoughMy phone vibrated again I looked at it thinking it was Roxy but instead it was the unknown numberUnknown: come by the big oak treeI started smiling "big oak tree" it's Cam the big oak tree is where we used to come when we were younger; he probably wanted to apologize for being such a dickhead earlier. I started walking with a little more pep in my step now that I knew who it was. The big oak tree was a little further away from where people went because it wasn't on the trail.I quickly texted Roxy to let her know it was just Cam fooling around"Caaamm" I said as I got closer to t
Te❤️: it was just one of those days for him, he didn't feel like talking but he said he'll talk to you tonight at the pool partyI smiled Me: thanks TeCam has been ignoring me all day. At lunch he didn't even sit with me and Roxy, I tried texting him in second but he kept the conversation short; so I asked Te to talk to him for me to see what was wrong with him. I guess everyone has those days where they don't feel like socializing so I can't fault him for that because I do it sometimesRinnnnnngggThe bell went off, finally I thought as I packed up all my things and walked out the classroom"Soo" Roxy asked as she walked up beside me"Te said he was just having one of those days you know, but she said he'll talk to me about it tonight at the pool party""See you was worried about nothing, do you feel
Alaina🦋: are you okay?I read the text message and sighed, I wasn't avoiding Alaina on purpose it's just that the feelings I have for her are strong and I don't know how to tell her; I'm not good with rejection and I know if she says she doesn't feel the same way our friendship is never going to be the same.Me: I'm good whyI shook my head at the lie, but what else am I supposed to say "oh Alaina I have really strong feelings for you and I wanna be your boyfriend even though he consider me a best friend or even a brother" I thought to myself she would probably laugh in my faceZzzz Zzzz Zzzz"Cameron finals are coming up soon and unless you're reading notes on your phone, which I doubt you are; put it away" Mr. Lewis said before I could look at the text message. I nodded my head and picked up my pencil and started working on the worksheet he handed out.
"Alaina get up before you be late" I heard my mom say shaking me awakeI sat up for a second trying to wake myself up, I got used to not going to school I didn't even feel like getting upI threw the covers off of my legs and walked over to my closet to find an outfit. Since the weather was warming up and getting ready for summer I decided on a gray maxi dress something I rarely wear especially to school, but today I was feeling good about myself.After a quick shower I put on my outfit with some white sandals. I looked in the mirror and smiled at my reflection "you are so beautiful" I said smiling "don't let anyone bring you down""Alaina Cam is outside waiting" my mom yelled interrupting my little self praise session"Coming" I yelled grabbing my book bag, phone and rushing downstairs"Okay miss thang you looking real cute toda
It's been four days since the fight I had at school, Chynna doesn't dm me talking shit anymore I guess she realized I wasn't going to pay here any more attention; I have to focus on school because there's only a couple weeks left and I definitely don't want to be held back."Alaina Roxy is here" I hear my mom yell"I'm coming" I yell back and get up from my bed grabbing my purse, me and Roxy are going to the mall today after being stuff in the house for almost a week in ready to go and get some fresh air.I walk down the stairs to see Roxy sitting in the living room with my mom, "let's roll" I say walking towards the door"Don't stay out too late because you do have school tomorrow" my mom said as I walked out the door"Kay" I said shutting the door and walking to the passenger side of Roxys car"You ready for tomorrow" Roxy asked as she bac
"I can't believe you ruined the fucking plan you dumbass" Chynna yelled at me"You told me she was a horrible person and bullied you, that girl was the one you bullied""What ever Jevoni I don't even know why I asked you to help me with this""I don't know either chynna you're just a manipulative psycho bitch and you're obsessed with Alaina; I don't know what I saw in you you're disgusting" I said walking out of her house and to my car"Blah blah Jevoni you're just a nerdy little wimp I made you popular if it wasn't for me you would still be getting bullied I saved you""You didn't save me you used me that's all you do is use people" I yelled back getting into my car and driving off, I regret ever meeting ChynnaFlashback 2 years agoI had just moved to a new town and I didn't know anyone, I had big glasses and braces. "Hey St
Zzzz Zzzz ZzzzI picked up my phone and looked at the notification it was a dm from InstagramImma get you back bitchI rolled my eyes even though the page was private I knew it was chynna messaging me, she had been messaging me for two days sending little threats but showing no action; I blocked at least five pages. Her little threats don't fase me at all she got what was coming to her, even though I'm still mad I got suspended I'm happy I finally stood up for myself.Knock knock"Come in" I yelled the door opened and a smiling Cam walked in with Te, Kay and Roxy right behind him, I got up and hugged them "hey guys""Sup prisoner 280164" Cam said laughingI hit him on his arm "shut up loser""I'm mad at you Alaina" Te said taking a seat on my bed"Why" I asked laying back down&nbs