I didn’t know where I was going but I left the hospital in a daze. My legs carried me as I switched off all thoughts and just – I just went. My eyes were heavy like someone who hadn’t gotten a wink of sleep in days but I still found myself going. I just kept going without knowing where I was headed.“Hello?” I put my phone to my ear without checking who was calling.My legs moved as if on autopilot as I walked, cars whipping past me.“Are you okay?” The voice that entered my ear was Bella’s. “I said we were done being friends but everyone is talking shit about you. They say you tried to kill that stupid bitch because she’s Xander’s mate and it’s weird. I thought you were friends with that loser.”“Yeah.” There was nothing much I could say.“Selene,” she called my name.“Yeah.”It was as if that was the only word my lips could utter. My legs continued to carry me, my eyes started to leak and there was nothing much I could say to Bella.Yes, I thought Lily was my friend but maybe I was
“Thank you.” I thanked Bella. “And I know this may be coming too late but I’m sorry. I’ve been the worst friend to you for a while now but you’ve never failed to show up for me.”I would never forgive myself for looking down on Selene’s friends once I got into her body. I would never forgive myself for looking down on Selene. Sure, she was a girl who was obsessed with a man that wanted nothing to do with her but it was because of her I got to live the life I now had. No one knew she was gone and there was no one to mourn her so I took it upon myself to organize a small funeral for her.“You were never the best of friends, anyway,” Bella responded with a shrug. “To be truthful, Selene, you have your moments. They have just been super rare since we graduated.”I couldn’t tell her that I was not the Selene she knew and that I had been biased towards her based on what I assumed the friends of the sub-villain would be like.“I’ll try my best to make it up to you and be a good friend,” I s
XANDER’S POVI had thought I would feel regret if even only a little bit. It was not a far-fetched assumption that Hunter would be in pain and that my mood may be sour for the rest of the day but I felt surprisingly – light? There was only a sharp nick of pain as if a blade had pricked my chest but it was over as fast as it had started. ‘How do you feel?’ I asked Hunter who should have felt the wolf bond the strongest but he only shrugged.If my wolf was the man of the two of us, he would have been the biggest asshole on the planet. Not that we were any different but he truly did not have a care in the world.‘I felt sad for a moment but that was it. I am sure Lily is a nice girl but the mate bond was all I ever felt towards her. She’s not exactly my type.’‘Who’d be your type, then?’ I asked while already knowing the answer.I thought of Selene and how relieved she’d feel when she found out that I’d rejected Lily. Thankfully, the girl didn’t die so she didn’t have to feel guilty.
When I heard the knock on the door, I knew that I’d been found. I had peace and quiet for an entire three days during which there was never a knock on the door. The knocking was loud and incessant. It made me rise from my seat but I didn’t approach the door. I didn’t want to open the door and see who was on the other side of it.“Selene, open this door or I’m going to break it down.” There was Xander‘s voice, clear as day and intent on actually breaking down the door.I didn’t want to open the door but I didn’t want him to break it down. Still, I dragged my feet, trying to delay the inevitable. I couldn't be gone for long. I would have returned in a short while since I wasn’t about to throw away my life and education because of heartbreak but I wished I could have delayed this meeting further. I wished I could have had a bit more time to digest the information I just found out.The sound of a body banging against the door jostled me out of my thoughts.“I’m coming!” I yelled before X
In my first life as Selene, I did all sorts of evil things to get this man to love me because I was obsessed with him. I was eight years old when it happened, a small incident that changed my life forever and cemented my journey as a stalker.As a child, I was average, like every other child. No one bullied me but I was by far nothing close to being a popular kid. I remember it was my brother’s birthday party and my brother’s friends, kids who thought they were cooler than the ‘little girl,’ tried talking down on me. I will never forget how fast Xander shut them down. It was nothing big. I was going to look away from it as boys being foolish but he had called those groups of little boys to order so fast, I was amazed.“Don’t make fun of her,” Xander had said.I was in awe at how fast the boys shut up. There was no argument, no snicker or eye roll, just complete silence. He’d been eleven years old then and even as a child, I remembered the awe and admiration that single encounter spark
“I made a mistake.” He continued to apologize. “I made a mistake, Selene and I’m sorry. It’ll never happen again. What can I do to make it up to you?”“Hmm, let me think.” I tried to think of something impossible to show him that I was serious this time and that there was no more relationship between us. In the end, I said, “Will you kneel then?” Knowing that an Alpha couldn't kneel before anyone. “Will you kneel and apologize.”“Selene.” He gritted his teeth. “If that’s what you want.”It was in utter amazement I watched him put a foot back as he brought his body down. I was both horrified and amazed.“What the hell are you doing?” I shouted as I grabbed him and forced his body upright before his knees could touch the ground. In what world would an Alpha readily kneel like this?“If this is the only way I can convince you then so be it,” he responded. “If kneeling is all it takes, then –““No, no.” I shook my head in amazement. “How can you kneel so easily? Have you forgotten your s
It was crazy how much one person could affect my mood. This apartment that had been filled with nothing but the sound of my sobs since I came in was filled with yells once Xander came, then moans and now laughter.“I really have the most dramatic girl,” he was saying as he flipped me around to cuddle on the other side.“You’re a pain in the ass,” I started, “but I love you.”If only we could choose who we loved. If only love was a switch that could be turned off and on. Even if it was a switch, I dare say I would never have turned it off. I would never have chosen to stop loving Xander.“I’m only a pain in the ass ‘cuz I’m big…”“Shut up.” I slammed a pillow in his face.I had the pleasure of listening to his laughter as it burst from deep within him. His eyes crinkled and he held his stomach as he laughed while I watched. He was beautiful. A face like his was nothing short of perfection. Watching him laugh did many funny things to my insides. This man, despite the odds, despite fate,
I didn’t know what to expect the next time I saw Lily but I had not expected open hostility. The female protagonist looked at me like she wanted the ground underneath to open up and swallow me whole. It was a lot different from how she always looked at me and I suppose it was to be expected. There was not much to be surprised about, really.“Hey, Lily…” I was going to talk to her, to apologize to her because no matter what, a part of me still felt guilty but she entered her room and slammed the door shut. It was not before I heard a sob crack in her throat.“Are you still trying to be friends with her?” Xander asked as he opened the door. “You told me you didn’t have any more interest in her. I hope you were telling the truth, Selene.” There was a warning in his tone.“I was going to apologize,” I said as I stared at Lily’s door. “She seems upset but there’s nothing I can do.”“Stop worrying about her,” he said.It was futile to continue to worry about Lily. I already decided that we
Alphas from all around the world filled the banquet hall making the atmosphere chockful of power. It was no wonder I hadn’t felt even the slightest bit of intimidation after entering this place that reeked of power. I was the Luna here. They were on my land. Grace puffed in satisfaction at that realization.“You did it.” Alpha Liam’s eyes shone with satisfaction as he stared at me. “I knew the goddess would not leave my son to be with an omega. She loves us too much for that.”Xander took a step to block his father’s gaze from me. It was subtle but it was also very obvious because one moment, I could see Alpha Liam’s gaze on me and in the next, I could only see Xander’s back. Alpha Liam laughed at that gesture.“There is the possessiveness of an Alpha,” he said. “Ah, but to think your father would covet your mate. That’s a bit embarrassing, isn’t it?”“Stop looking at her,” Xander growled back.I couldn’t see Alpha Liam thanks to Xander blocking me but I could see his hands as he raise
Even before I opened my eyes, I knew he was staring at me. I could feel his gaze on my face and as my eyes twitched, I wanted to continue to pretend to be asleep.I did it. I opened my mouth and said all the things that had weighed me down. Rather than feeling relieved, I felt guilty. Who would have known that my story would make Xander cry?I thought he’d not believe me, and was even prepared to brush everything off as a joke. What I had not been prepared for was for him to hold me, crying and apologizing. The past was the past and in a sense, didn’t happen. Why did he have to feel so guilty that he’d executed a traitor and gotten with his destined mate?‘That’s why you didn’t want anything to do with me. You were so scared and you were carrying it all alone. You were so scared of the monster that took your life but I didn’t let you be even when you told me to. Even when Lily showed up, you must have been in pain. Y
Something dangerous was bound to happen when meeting up with the bitter ex-mate. I didn’t come here unprepared and wasn’t even surprised when she pulled a gun on me – no, actually, I was a bit surprised. I had expected her to pull a knife or to start attacking me with her fists. I hadn’t really thought a girl like Lily had it in her to pull out a gun and threaten to shoot me.“You should have left him for me.” Her hands were shaking as she held the gun. “You should have had the decency to leave him for me. If you thought of me as a friend for even a second, you should never have been with him. You always looked down on me, didn’t you? You thought I wasn’t good enough but neither are you!” She was shouting, her hands vibrating.I watched her for the right time to disarm her. I wasn’t even sure she knew how to use that gun and I wasn’t about to wait to find out. This bitch wasn’t allowed
“Do you no longer want my son?” Alpha Liam asked and I could only gawk at him.“What do you mean?”“I know how long he thirsted for you while we were at war. I had expected that the first thing he would do when we got back was to mark you but there’s no mark and I know it’s not because he doesn’t want to.”“You can’t just go around asking questions like that,” I said, red in the face. “And aren’t you too invested in his – his extracurricular life?”“I’m only after the future of this pack and I’m looking forward to having grandchildren as well.”“A – Alpha Liam!” I screamed in horror. “You can’t – you can’t say that to a nineteen-year-old!”“Is that so?” He looked flabbergasted. “I said something wrong?”“Xander and I are young! Stop going t
“Hey.”I dropped my bag and flew into Xander’s arms. He chuckled as he caught me, twirling me in the air.“I missed you too.” He muttered against my neck as I clung to him.“Are we invisible or what?” I heard Ethan’s voice from behind him.I raised my head and saw Ethan and my father standing behind Xander. I hadn’t even seen them. My attention had been entirely on Xander alone. Seeing him before me after so long, I just wanted to bask in his scent. I wanted the world to fade away and leave just the two of us. I’d missed him more than words could express but I’d also missed my brother and father.I got down from Xander’s body with a little difficulty as he held on to me, unwilling to let me go. When he finally left me, I rushed to my brother and father, pulling them into a hug. My father trembled as he held me. I held back tears.These were the longest months of my life. Even when I lost my memories and forgot myself, even when I first opened my eyes as Selene after being Jane, even w
“Selene, what are you doing here? No, why do you look like that? Is that blood on your face!?” My mother was almost hysterical when she saw me.Her hands wiped blood from my face. Panic reflected in her gaze and it shook her hands.“When did you return? How did you – what happened?”As she bombarded me with questions, I had no chance to explain what had happened before she broke down in tears, hugging me to herself. My mother was not one to be emotional but the stress and tension from all this must have gotten to her. She cried as she held me.The other women she had been leisurely chatting with came to comfort her, one of them patting my back. It took a while before she let me go and allowed me to explain what had happened.Warriors were sent to the house and my mother started to cry again. It was one of her friends that explained the situation to me.“She left the house a few days ago,” the woman said. “We received threats from the Blood Moon pack and they seemed to be aimed at her
It had become my habit to pace my room. Every time I felt nervous, I paced and I was nervous a lot. The information I got was that everything was going well. There were a lot of casualties but the Blood Moon pack suffered the worst hit. It had been a month already and despite my protests, I had no choice but to return to school. I had only seen Xander a couple of times before resumption but now that I was so far away, I never saw him.Even the college atmosphere was tense. With a lot of wolves from Silver Moon and Blood Moon here, there was a certain tension in the air. Outbursts here and there, people giving backhanded comments to strangers just because they figured out they were from rival packs. No one told me but either Xander or my father had assigned bodyguards to me. They followed me at a distance every day and even Seth had noticed.I was currently pacing my little dorm room which now felt wide without Xander in it. We had scheduled calls that helped reassure me that everythin
XANDER’S POVIt was clear that Blood Moon was planning an invasion so it made sense for us to attack first rather than let them come at us and destroy our home. On their land, they would have a greater advantage but on our land, we would be risking everything – our homes included. Selene thought it was best to fight a proxy war but now, all I wanted was to fight on Blood Moon land because I would soon call that land mine.How dare they.How dare they step out of line? How dare Logan target Selene? If I hadn’t been in the car with her that night, things may have escalated as he planned. How dare they look at her and think they could mess with her? How dare they look down on me by trying to abduct my woman? How dare Logan covet my land and my woman. He was a glutton hungry for retribution.Blood Moon had started the attack this morning. Bright and early, I received news that the borders on a completely different side from Blood Moon had been tampered with. They could not breach the bord
The air in the pack was tense the next day. Blood Moon had shown hostility to Silver Moon and now, a war was no longer brewing. It was about to be served. The atmosphere was thick with tension as people whispered under their breaths, waiting for what next was to happen. Even the young children who didn’t know anything were looking left and right as they walked with their parents, their underdeveloped senses already catching on to the disturbance in the atmosphere.“We should strike first,” I said to Alpha Liam. “Don’t let them bring the battle to Silver Moon. We will be losing too much.”I always wanted the battle to pass without bloodshed but it was clear that it was inevitable. Blood Moon had it out for us. The age-long wound between our packs had finally festered to the point where it could not be ignored anymore. The limb had to be cut off.“We should annex the pack,” Xander said. “We can’t continue to live with the threat of such a mediocre pack. Let’s wipe them out once and for