It was crazy how much one person could affect my mood. This apartment that had been filled with nothing but the sound of my sobs since I came in was filled with yells once Xander came, then moans and now laughter.“I really have the most dramatic girl,” he was saying as he flipped me around to cuddle on the other side.“You’re a pain in the ass,” I started, “but I love you.”If only we could choose who we loved. If only love was a switch that could be turned off and on. Even if it was a switch, I dare say I would never have turned it off. I would never have chosen to stop loving Xander.“I’m only a pain in the ass ‘cuz I’m big…”“Shut up.” I slammed a pillow in his face.I had the pleasure of listening to his laughter as it burst from deep within him. His eyes crinkled and he held his stomach as he laughed while I watched. He was beautiful. A face like his was nothing short of perfection. Watching him laugh did many funny things to my insides. This man, despite the odds, despite fate,
I didn’t know what to expect the next time I saw Lily but I had not expected open hostility. The female protagonist looked at me like she wanted the ground underneath to open up and swallow me whole. It was a lot different from how she always looked at me and I suppose it was to be expected. There was not much to be surprised about, really.“Hey, Lily…” I was going to talk to her, to apologize to her because no matter what, a part of me still felt guilty but she entered her room and slammed the door shut. It was not before I heard a sob crack in her throat.“Are you still trying to be friends with her?” Xander asked as he opened the door. “You told me you didn’t have any more interest in her. I hope you were telling the truth, Selene.” There was a warning in his tone.“I was going to apologize,” I said as I stared at Lily’s door. “She seems upset but there’s nothing I can do.”“Stop worrying about her,” he said.It was futile to continue to worry about Lily. I already decided that we
“He came to check in on me.”I hadn’t done anything wrong but I felt incredibly guilty just for having Seth in my room. We were alone and he was giving me a massage. To someone as possessive as Xander, this could be a problem. The fact that he was smiling did not provide any relief. If anything, it made me even more nervous.“That’s nice of you,” Xander said. “I’m relieved to know she has such a good friend looking after her.”“It’s whatever.” Seth lost all semblance of friendliness.“As you can see, she is fine.” He put his hand around my shoulders. “I’m taking good care of her, aren’t I, Selly?” He bent his head to stare at me and I could only nod.“I’ll be on my way then.” Seth did not need to be told twice to get the memo.He left without a backwards glance, shutting the door softly behind him. Once the door was closed, Xander’s hand fell from around my shoulder. He sat as he took off his shoes without saying a word.“Are you mad?” I asked when the silence in the room stretched.“
Despite paying attention as I asked him to, there was no suspicious movement from either Lily or the Blood Moon pack. Xander told me I was overestimating Lily and that no matter what the Blood Moon pack planned, they were not strong enough to be a serious threat to Silver Moon. They would tread with care if they cared for their pack’s safety.I was not a political genius and couldn’t say I was particularly knowledgeable about the politics of this world so I trusted him and let things go to the back of my mind.Examinations rolled by and then the semester came to an end. My first exams were brutal and met me crying more often than not. I was happier than anyone else to see them go but it fueled my determination to take my studies seriously. If I was already under so much pressure when it was only my first year, I couldn’t say how bad it would get in the future.“You’re home.” My father came to greet me as I got out of the car.“Hello, Beta Seb,” Xander greeted him but he completely ign
It wasn’t my imagination. Lily was in fact up to something. She may have been bidding her time until now but it was starting to take shape and I could clearly see what she was doing. It was the same thing I did in the last life. The same method of isolation I had tried but failed to perfect. The female lead had truly gone bad.“You’re thinking of Lily again,” Xander said as he burrowed into my skin. “Just focus on me. Even if she’s working with the Blood Moon pack, there’s little she can do.”“Yes but we have to thwart her in time.” I couldn’t explain to Xander how I knew the things I knew or that I had been the one to devise this method in the last life so I didn’t have much of a backing.We had to crush Lily fast and hard. This time there would be no regrets. If she had continued to be the docile and charming female lead I knew and loved, I may feel guilty but if she was putting Xander and
“Selene,” Alpha Liam greeted me with an enormous smile on his face that made Amy and Bella uncomfortable.“Good Afternoon, Alpha,” they both greeted him, lowering their gazes as a sign of respect.Amy had her hands clasped together in front of her in a tight grip to stop them from quivering while Bella didn’t raise her eyes even after Alpha Liam accepted their greetings with a gracious smile.“To what do I owe the pleasure of this visit?” Alpha Liam asked, putting down his pen.He must have been excited to see me since he was even taking time off work to give me an audience despite how I barged into his office without an appointment.“Have you heard there are dissenters in the pack?” His playful smile fell from his lips.“There are what?” He asked, tone harder than rocks and eyes terrifyingly red.“Dissenters,” I said. “In this pack.”&ldq
LILY’S POV“B – but won’t all this affect him?” I asked Logan as he laid out the next step of our plan. “I want him back but will he ever give me a second look if he finds out that I’ve been doing all this against him? I kind of feel bad.”When Logan said he’d help me, I didn’t expect anything pretty. Selene was the enemy here so why did we have to attack Xander? If we continued to spread these kind of rumours, his position as Alpha of the pack would be in jeopardy. Besides, most of the things Logan was telling me to say about Xander were lies. Was that okay? I didn’t want to compromise who I was and ruin my mate’s life for selfish reasons.“Don’t forget he rejected you,” Logan snarled, losing patience with me. “If you can’t play dirty like Selene, don’t even think you can get with Xander.”The things Logan was asking me to do
Lily was no longer in Silver Moon but I heard she was now in Blood Moon. It confirmed my suspicion that she was in cahoots with Logan. The enforcers at the borders had confirmed they saw her around the border, close enough to our pack but not quite in it. She must be hoping to glimpse Xander who was currently inspecting some borders. It was as if she heard and thought she could run into him and perhaps plead her case. I couldn’t say what was going on in her mind and couldn’t concern myself too much with it as my attention was now on halting her next plans.Since Alpha Liam addressed the rumours, there had been a fast decline in how people talked trash about Xander. To improve his image, he was doing a lot more public work and it was putting a strain on him but he went on with it with a rock-hard face and pretended he wasn’t exhausted.The damages done by the rumours were inevitable. It was not as severe as Lily would wish but for the first time, some
Alphas from all around the world filled the banquet hall making the atmosphere chockful of power. It was no wonder I hadn’t felt even the slightest bit of intimidation after entering this place that reeked of power. I was the Luna here. They were on my land. Grace puffed in satisfaction at that realization.“You did it.” Alpha Liam’s eyes shone with satisfaction as he stared at me. “I knew the goddess would not leave my son to be with an omega. She loves us too much for that.”Xander took a step to block his father’s gaze from me. It was subtle but it was also very obvious because one moment, I could see Alpha Liam’s gaze on me and in the next, I could only see Xander’s back. Alpha Liam laughed at that gesture.“There is the possessiveness of an Alpha,” he said. “Ah, but to think your father would covet your mate. That’s a bit embarrassing, isn’t it?”“Stop looking at her,” Xander growled back.I couldn’t see Alpha Liam thanks to Xander blocking me but I could see his hands as he raise
Even before I opened my eyes, I knew he was staring at me. I could feel his gaze on my face and as my eyes twitched, I wanted to continue to pretend to be asleep.I did it. I opened my mouth and said all the things that had weighed me down. Rather than feeling relieved, I felt guilty. Who would have known that my story would make Xander cry?I thought he’d not believe me, and was even prepared to brush everything off as a joke. What I had not been prepared for was for him to hold me, crying and apologizing. The past was the past and in a sense, didn’t happen. Why did he have to feel so guilty that he’d executed a traitor and gotten with his destined mate?‘That’s why you didn’t want anything to do with me. You were so scared and you were carrying it all alone. You were so scared of the monster that took your life but I didn’t let you be even when you told me to. Even when Lily showed up, you must have been in pain. Y
Something dangerous was bound to happen when meeting up with the bitter ex-mate. I didn’t come here unprepared and wasn’t even surprised when she pulled a gun on me – no, actually, I was a bit surprised. I had expected her to pull a knife or to start attacking me with her fists. I hadn’t really thought a girl like Lily had it in her to pull out a gun and threaten to shoot me.“You should have left him for me.” Her hands were shaking as she held the gun. “You should have had the decency to leave him for me. If you thought of me as a friend for even a second, you should never have been with him. You always looked down on me, didn’t you? You thought I wasn’t good enough but neither are you!” She was shouting, her hands vibrating.I watched her for the right time to disarm her. I wasn’t even sure she knew how to use that gun and I wasn’t about to wait to find out. This bitch wasn’t allowed
“Do you no longer want my son?” Alpha Liam asked and I could only gawk at him.“What do you mean?”“I know how long he thirsted for you while we were at war. I had expected that the first thing he would do when we got back was to mark you but there’s no mark and I know it’s not because he doesn’t want to.”“You can’t just go around asking questions like that,” I said, red in the face. “And aren’t you too invested in his – his extracurricular life?”“I’m only after the future of this pack and I’m looking forward to having grandchildren as well.”“A – Alpha Liam!” I screamed in horror. “You can’t – you can’t say that to a nineteen-year-old!”“Is that so?” He looked flabbergasted. “I said something wrong?”“Xander and I are young! Stop going t
“Hey.”I dropped my bag and flew into Xander’s arms. He chuckled as he caught me, twirling me in the air.“I missed you too.” He muttered against my neck as I clung to him.“Are we invisible or what?” I heard Ethan’s voice from behind him.I raised my head and saw Ethan and my father standing behind Xander. I hadn’t even seen them. My attention had been entirely on Xander alone. Seeing him before me after so long, I just wanted to bask in his scent. I wanted the world to fade away and leave just the two of us. I’d missed him more than words could express but I’d also missed my brother and father.I got down from Xander’s body with a little difficulty as he held on to me, unwilling to let me go. When he finally left me, I rushed to my brother and father, pulling them into a hug. My father trembled as he held me. I held back tears.These were the longest months of my life. Even when I lost my memories and forgot myself, even when I first opened my eyes as Selene after being Jane, even w
“Selene, what are you doing here? No, why do you look like that? Is that blood on your face!?” My mother was almost hysterical when she saw me.Her hands wiped blood from my face. Panic reflected in her gaze and it shook her hands.“When did you return? How did you – what happened?”As she bombarded me with questions, I had no chance to explain what had happened before she broke down in tears, hugging me to herself. My mother was not one to be emotional but the stress and tension from all this must have gotten to her. She cried as she held me.The other women she had been leisurely chatting with came to comfort her, one of them patting my back. It took a while before she let me go and allowed me to explain what had happened.Warriors were sent to the house and my mother started to cry again. It was one of her friends that explained the situation to me.“She left the house a few days ago,” the woman said. “We received threats from the Blood Moon pack and they seemed to be aimed at her
It had become my habit to pace my room. Every time I felt nervous, I paced and I was nervous a lot. The information I got was that everything was going well. There were a lot of casualties but the Blood Moon pack suffered the worst hit. It had been a month already and despite my protests, I had no choice but to return to school. I had only seen Xander a couple of times before resumption but now that I was so far away, I never saw him.Even the college atmosphere was tense. With a lot of wolves from Silver Moon and Blood Moon here, there was a certain tension in the air. Outbursts here and there, people giving backhanded comments to strangers just because they figured out they were from rival packs. No one told me but either Xander or my father had assigned bodyguards to me. They followed me at a distance every day and even Seth had noticed.I was currently pacing my little dorm room which now felt wide without Xander in it. We had scheduled calls that helped reassure me that everythin
XANDER’S POVIt was clear that Blood Moon was planning an invasion so it made sense for us to attack first rather than let them come at us and destroy our home. On their land, they would have a greater advantage but on our land, we would be risking everything – our homes included. Selene thought it was best to fight a proxy war but now, all I wanted was to fight on Blood Moon land because I would soon call that land mine.How dare they.How dare they step out of line? How dare Logan target Selene? If I hadn’t been in the car with her that night, things may have escalated as he planned. How dare they look at her and think they could mess with her? How dare they look down on me by trying to abduct my woman? How dare Logan covet my land and my woman. He was a glutton hungry for retribution.Blood Moon had started the attack this morning. Bright and early, I received news that the borders on a completely different side from Blood Moon had been tampered with. They could not breach the bord
The air in the pack was tense the next day. Blood Moon had shown hostility to Silver Moon and now, a war was no longer brewing. It was about to be served. The atmosphere was thick with tension as people whispered under their breaths, waiting for what next was to happen. Even the young children who didn’t know anything were looking left and right as they walked with their parents, their underdeveloped senses already catching on to the disturbance in the atmosphere.“We should strike first,” I said to Alpha Liam. “Don’t let them bring the battle to Silver Moon. We will be losing too much.”I always wanted the battle to pass without bloodshed but it was clear that it was inevitable. Blood Moon had it out for us. The age-long wound between our packs had finally festered to the point where it could not be ignored anymore. The limb had to be cut off.“We should annex the pack,” Xander said. “We can’t continue to live with the threat of such a mediocre pack. Let’s wipe them out once and for