Selena's POV“Of course, I will,” she sighed, letting down her long, braided locks. “But for right now, I need to sleep and you need to stay out of trouble. Take the sofa if you need to sleep. Food’s in the fridge, make yourself at home. Don’t wake me until 5!”And with that she disappeared into her bedroom. As it turned out, she didn’t need to worry about me. After hours and hours on the road, sleeping on busses and rundown motels where I never truly rested, a couch someplace safe sounded like a dream.It had taken me ages to get used to the sounds of the city and--- well, life in general, I guess. I’d been living in a castle in the middle of a dense forest in a castle with thick stone walls and heavy mahogany doors. I’d basically been sleeping in a sensory deprivation box!Needless to say, my first night had been an absolute nightmare!Every little sound had me jumpin
Selena’s POVThe scent of sizzling garlic and butter filled the air and my oversensitive nose decided it was poison and I needed to throw up right then and there. Luckily, working with foods all day, I’d gotten used to ignoring my hormonal brain’s tantrums and wiped down the counter for what felt like the hundredth time tonight.The dinner rush had finally died down, leaving behind the usual post-chaos lull. My feet ached and my back was sore, but I couldn’t ask to sit down since – to everybody else – I was just some chubby Latina who needed to stop being “lazy” and “treat my body like a temple”…Some people got their audacity on sale, I swear!“If that woman had sent one more plate back, I would have throw the whole damn thing at her!” Magro’s booming voice rang out from the kitchen, making me turn just in time to see her round the corner. When
Selena's POV“Oh my God,” Brian whispered, peeking at them from behind me. “Is this what heaven looks like? Someone pinch me.”I wanted to tell him that almost all werewolves looked like that, but I refrained…“They look like wandering poster boys for protein shakes,” Margo remarked, smacking her lips and wiggling her eyebrows, hinting that she wouldn’t mind having a sip of that...“I’m in heaven,” Karen muttered, fanning herself with a wry grin. “But I’m still mad. Please! Can I take them off your hands? Pretty please?”I was seconds away from telling her she could have them. But something stubborn and willful inside of me stopped me. He didn’t get to control my actions anymore – no one would! I was a free woman now, free of the shackles that had tied me down my entire life...I had to face him!
Selena’s POV“Magic doesn’t change your scent, my Azure Angel!”My stomach dropped when I heard those words and a bolt of terror shot through me.SHIT!How? How after so many years of living with werewolves did I forget THAT?!Panic flooded me, ice-cold and suffocating. My breath hitched, but the air seemed to freeze in my lungs. Again, the urge to turn and run was strong, but instead, I forced myself to look at him, ignoring how his dark eyes bore into mine.“I-I---,” I stuttered, forcing a calm I didn’t feel. I swallowed thickly, my pulse thundering in my ears, but I pushed through: “I’ll be right back with your orders!”I turned to leave before my legs gave out on me. But before I could ta
Selena's POVI glanced over and realized that Elijah had somehow ended up next to Rain. One of the enforcers was bleeding from a cut in his hand and the second enforcer was cleaning up a mysterious coffee stain off his shirt. Elijah sent me a wide grin, as he was clearly restraining Rain with his other hand.In short?Rain had probably lost his shit because I’d accepted Brian’s offer to escort me home. And the other three wolves had done whatever was necessary to stop a bloodbath...I rolled my eyes. He had a mate for goddess sake! He’d picked her over me. He had no goddess damn right to be angry at me for moving on with my life.I still wasn’t sure why I was so angry about that. It was natural for wolves to pick their mate over anything and anyone else. I’d been a fool for deluding myself into believing his words and promises when I knew he’d already met his mate. Once they wer
Selena’s POVBrian was talking as we walked back home, but I didn’t pay much attention to anything he said. He’d taken me to the bus stop and I’d more or less hoped that he’d see me off on the bus and then be on his way. But unfortunately, he’d decided that “home” meant all the way to the door…Sigh!I honestly tried to keep up with the conversation, but I found it increasingly harder to do. Rain’s entry into my life felt like a wrecking ball into my carefully reconstructed life. Sure, it wasn’t much and I didn’t have much to show for in my new life, but at least it was mine. Yet I knew that if Rain didn’t leave, this new life would be swept away before I even had a chance to truly enjoy it.My hands slid over my belly, feeling the baby move ever so slightly. If I couldn’t get Rain to leave soon, I had to run away again. I couldn’t risk him
Selena's POV“You know,” he said with a bright smile, gesturing for upstairs where I shared an apartment with Stella. “I could come up and cook for you. I’d make my special risotto, just for you.” I forced a smile, hoping to hide my annoyance at my inability to get rid of men. But before I could refuse him he continued: “Come on! I know you love it.”He was being playful and friendly. And for a second I wondered if I was just reading too much into it. If maybe Rain’s words had turned me against my coworkers in letting that small seed of doubt find roots in my mind. No, I didn’t like Brian’s constant physical affection, but it was just how he was – or so the others told me.Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad to let him cook for me?But the second I thought of him inside of my apartment, chills ran down my spine. I didn’t want Brian inside. Hell, I just wanted to be left
Selena’s POV“You should have just said no,” Stella chided me, when I told her about Brian – and what Rain had said. “If you feel pressured into doing something, that’s your body’s way of telling you things aren’t alright! And it’s OK to say no. No is a full sentence, remember that. You’d think that living with werewolves would have taught you as much.”“Yes, werewolves,” I fired back, changing into my sweatpants and hoodie, happy to be out of my greasy-smelling clothes. “You glare at them, tell them firmly no, and instantly their ego is so bruised you’re basically dead to them.” I sighed and sat down to continue towel-drying my hair. “Humans aren’t that easy. He kept coming up with reasons for me to say yes! I just felt like it was the right thing to do in the end---”“It’s not,” Stella cut me off, her voice firm a
Selena’s POVAlthough I’d told her about werewolf mates, I hadn’t told her what it meant to be one. And one glance at the poor beta, I could see that her words hurt him more than a silver blade to the gut. His eyes flickered desperately to me, begging me to help him.I turned to look at my best friend again. I hated seeing her scared and unsure of what was going on, especially considering her past. But was it really my place to tell her? She’d done so much for me and been so kind when I needed her help. Even now, when I was in a dire situation with Rain, she still stood by me, skipping out on her own job and health for my sake.Sighing, I decided that I was going to play cupid…“Beta, could you give us a minute, please?” I asked gently, gesturing for the wolf to leave the room. To my surprise, he actually did what I told him, giving me a curt nod and leaving the room.I turned to Stella---
Selena’s POVI woke up, confused as to where the hell I was. But suddenly everything came back and once more my hand flew to my stomach – startling Stella, who jumped up, ready to fight even with her eyes closed still.“Sorry about that,” I grinned, feeling bad for startling her, but still had to laugh at the cartoonish display. She blinked her eyes open, smacking her lips lazily and looking around. Although, as a nurse, she had spent countless nights and days sleeping in the hospital when she had to work overtime or had a double shift, so she didn’t look too surprised by the whole ordeal.“Well, that’s one way to get pretty,” she yawned, stretching and working out a couple of kinks. “I can’t remember the last time I slept that well! And don’t apologize, you silly bird. You’re pregnant and have been through an ordeal. It’s OK for you to take a break.”Yeah
***End flashback***Present time...Rain’s POVFor a long time, I’d been angry because I didn’t understand Selena’s desire to be free and feel independent. I hadn’t realized how the castle I considered my home was her prison. I’d placed my idea of her, of our future, on a pedestal, worshiping it like a false god.And hell, I’d needed it!It had been the one thing that had kept me going during my darkest time. When my hands were drenched in blood, and when the people I trusted stabbed me in the back. When I felt like giving up and wondered if I should just take my own life – to end my own misery--- those dreams had been the only thing that kept me going…I remembered being alone and isolated, my wolf howling with grief and loneliness. He belonged in a pack, with his family and--- but everyone he met betrayed him. Everyone was eag
***Flashback***Seven months ago...Rain's POVI stormed into the throne room, making everyone snap to attention. The chatter instantly died down; some of the wolves who knew me well were smart enough to shrink back. My thunderous expression rarely left anything in its wake other than blood and bodies...“Did I?” I thundered, jumping onto the high rise where my throne stood, and spun to face my pack along with the many representatives from other packs that always milled about at the castle. “Or did I not declare to everyone under my command that Selena Throme was not to be harmed in any way?”The room fell deadly silent. Those who knew me well kept their mouth shut and heads low, not willing to risk having my claws sink into them. All the other idiots, however, looked to each other with confused expressions, wondering what I was talking about.Then, one brave
Rain’s POVHearing my mate cry was just about the most painful thing I would ever hear. But despite it all, I couldn’t help but cling to the fact that there was hope…“She still loves me,” I sighed in relief--- but the fact also speared my heart like a silver blade. “But it’s not enough to convince her.”Fear clawed at my chest, and I’d long since decided that I hated this feeling. Hated feeling helpless and weak, unable to protect the people I loved.What if she chose to run away before I had a chance to explain everything? Before I had a chance to apologize and tell her how much I loved her? That she was the only one I ever wanted, and how sorry I was for how I acted?That I’d been a fucking asshole!My hands flexed and my fingers dug into the palm of my hands, frustrations of being so fucking helpless making my body shake. The witch had teleported in---
Selena’s POV“I’ve only ever slept with one woman my entire life and you’re her,” Rain snapped at me, his voice sending shivers down my spine. “I’m not interested in anyone else and I’ll keep repeating it to you until it penetrates your fucking skull!”His words left me utterly flabbergasted, spinning around in my mind over and over again, like a carousel. A part of me wished it were true. That this could explain everything and I could finally heal from my pain.The easy way…But nothing in life was ever easy. And I had to keep my emotions out of this. Emotions had no place in making choices that would affect my child. I had to rely on myself. On my experiences and on the fact that I had to see past people’s words. It was the actions and patterns that spoke to their characters. And Rain---I could never believe him!He could as easily lie ab
Selena’s POVI was close to tears seeing the beautiful mate moment unfold before me. And I hated myself for it. This was a happy occasion for what I now considered my best friend. I wanted this to be the most memorable moment in her life. She deserved it after everything she’d been through.And I wanted to be happy for her!But some part of me also remembered that I would never have the same thing happen to me. I was a mere human and would never know the connection of a true mate bond. And no matter how many times the man I loved more than life itself claimed that I was his, I’d never be his mate.And he’d always choose her over me...I tried to bite back the tears and smiled through the pain.“Congratulations, Elijah,” I said softly, but the wolf just barely spared me a glance. “She’s a good one.”“You better be talkin’ ‘bout me, songbird,”
Selena’s POVPain flared in my chest and my head suddenly pounded like a drum. Darkness swam at the edge of my vision and I suddenly felt dizzy. Somewhere far away an alarm went off and the machine next to me started blaring. My pulse started to buzz in my ear and my heart felt as if it was trying to break free of my chest.“NURSE!” Rain bellowed next to me, just as I doubled over in pain. I couldn’t breathe, and I hated that I was once again relying on Rain to get me help...“Rain?”Someone called out, and I immediately recognized Elijah’s voice.“Get a fucking nurse! She’s sick,” Rain snapped--- and came around to gently pat my back, sending currents of calming sparks throughout my body. “Breathe, my Azure. Remember to breathe.”I wanted to yell at him again. Tell him I wasn’t “his Azure”, but I felt too sick to do so. Bile rose and,
Selena’s POVHe knew!Rain knew about the baby…I was shaking from the inside out. Fear clawed its way up my spine and crushed its cold fingers around my throat, making it hard to breathe. My stomach twisted violently and I felt sick.He knew!He would never leave me alone now. He would follow me to the end of the earth and I could never be free. I would have to escape and live for the rest of my life looking over my shoulder. Wondering if every little sound was him coming back to blow my life up once more. Never knowing if I was safe. Never knowing if the people on the street were strangers…Or sent to kill us!And I couldn’t protect us! I was just a human. I didn’t have claws or canines to protect us. I didn’t have a wolf’s senses that could alert me to danger or their superior strength and speed. There was no way I could protect us from