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Author: Chickennugget
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>> Andrew (Present)

“I didn’t meet with her after that, we didn’t even talk or text each other.” I took a deep breath, “I was so ashamed of myself and more than that I was scared. The guilt was consuming me day by day and for a few days, I couldn’t even bring myself to leave my room.”

I glanced at Hazel who sat still in her place, as if she was paused there, “And ah-” I continued, “Shortly after, I heard about Angela’s death.” I gulped, “She died in an accident.” I nodded my head as the memory resurfaced in my mind, “That’s it. That’s my side of the story.”

I pursed my lips together tightly as I closed my eyes after I was done speaking and then clenched my fists

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