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Theodore

“Have you already looked into the newspaper today?”

I close my eyes as I lock the water tank of my coffee machine in place.

Sighing, I hold my phone to my other ear while my mother continues to lecture me about my laziness.

As if I wouldn’t look for a job daily, and collect my regular humiliation between job interviews I fail and discussions with my bank.

Fucking hell.

I would love to hang up, but I have to endure her mobbing behavior as I need her monthly allowance to not have to sell my motorbike.

And the job at my friend's bar only covers my daily portion of a can of ravioli.

“Yes, Mom,” I say, but she just continues to speak, now talking about the neighbor’s boy who just started working at a hospital.

The assholes always have it better.

“Good for him, Mom,” I comment, pushing the button for my only luxury at the moment.

“And Fredrik is getting married. In Italy!” she gushes and I take a deep breath, rubbing my eyes.

“How lovely,” I groan, but she isn’t listening anyway.

And thinking that I had the best awakening ever.

It got a bit crazy in the final part, but I guess I’m officially a freak now.

“Sure, Mom. Gotta go, Mom.”

I pass my hand over my face, inhaling deeply as I cut the call after her last words of goodbye dripping with venom.

After having taken a gulp of my coffee, I enjoy the soothing sensation I get while it flows down my throat.

Feigning that it got me at least a bit of motivation, I sit down at my computer and send out a few CVs.

I don’t think it will get me anywhere, but at least I can tell everyone that I’m trying.

A few years ago, I came to New York with a bag full of dreams and hopes.

But I was just left with cynicism as the things my family and friends kept telling me about the City became true and I landed on my butt.

Hard.

Since then, I have been going on with excuses, avoiding telling them how right they were.

And I’d rather die than return back to that one-horse town where whoever smiles brighter is the happier.

Even after all those years, I’m alone, with no partner, no sex and my only friend here is an old-school friend of mine who came out here to open a bar overseas.

At least he was successful.

Even if he can’t pay me much without risking going bankrupt as well.

And I’m having a little sex, I guess.

Even if imaginary.

After eating my usual can of ravioli while standing in my small kitchen, I go to the bathroom to prepare for my evening shift at the bar.

I shower, and I am drying my hair with a towel as something catches my attention.

My eyes widen as I step closer to the mirror, pulling at the skin of my neck to inspect the two feeble red dots better.

“What the hell?” I ask lowly, as I try to get a better view of it.

***

“It looks like a bite, mate,” Alex says as he looks at it and returns to draw a beer.

I continue to clean the counter of the still-empty bar. “Yes. But from what? A rat?”

“Must be a big rat you have there. Maybe you should have it checked by a doctor,” he suggests, making me click my tongue.

I throw the rug into the sink before I go to fetch the ice. “People like me can’t afford a doctor. Only death.”

“Did you get drunk and bring a chick home? You know, one of those gothic ones?” he jokes, making me laugh sarcastically.

“I would remember that.”

He shrugs, taking the customer’s credit card to cash in, “You never know.”

They laugh while I roll my eyes and lift the heavy ice bag onto the counter before emptying it into the respective bin. “It's been a bit since I had a good shag.”

“I don’t know how, mate. If you don’t get any, we should be all damned. Why don’t you go out a bit? With your face and your figure. I don’t think you would go home alone often,” he compliments me and I smile at him awkwardly.

“Yeah, sure.”

Even if I’m not against a one-night stand, I still have to gather my courage to enter a gay bar.

And I don’t want my family or friends to discover that I’m gay because they see me stumbling out of a pub with some Hulk.

I have tried to go with matching apps and had a few dates that weren’t bad.

And a few were catastrophic.

I met a lot of attractive men who I would have loved to continue dating.

But as soon as it got over a certain line, I started to compare them to the man from the shadows and there it was.

All my interest in them vanished into thin air immediately.

And I felt so bad.

First thing for myself.

But I just couldn’t do it.

Their voices were off while his makes my skin buzz.

Their touches were enticing but his sends jolts through my flesh.

The thought of them wrapping their lips around my dick makes me hard, while he makes me feel like burning up.

I’m so fucked.

Which is funny because I’ll never fuck again.

“Hey yo, Theo,” a slender guy enters the bar, waving at me.

I lift my hand at him, and he slumps into the bar stool before me. “Are you still looking for a job, man?”

“Yeah,” I answer as I’m already about to tap his usual beer. “Why are you asking?”

“Well,” he says, holding a bill towards me as I put down the beer in front of him. “A job opened in the company I’m working for.”

I take the bill, throwing it into the register before digging out the change but he waves dismissively, making me let it fall back into it. “It’s a technical support thing. They have a problem keeping someone in that position because the hours are hell and the boss is a workaholic asshole. But the pay is insane.”

“I have no experience in tech whatsoever, dude,” I laugh and he shakes his head.

“It’s not a small company where I work at. You would be in a team of like twenty people, and they do schooling when you start working,” he explains, making my eyes widen.

Gulping, I already have a very bad feeling about it. “If there are twenty people in my team, why are my hours hell?”

“Easy, because you will be the boss’ little bitch,” he says, taking a sip.

I laugh, my throat closing uncomfortably. “Excuse me?”

“He needs someone available just for him. And this for twenty-four seven. You would only be working for him because he doesn’t want to work with a pool. You would be doubling with his PA, who, on the other hand, changes as much as the personal tech guy. He works a lot and as he does business with companies overseas, night shifts are due regularly, and the last guy that worked for him used to faint because he didn’t get the sleep he needed. Therefore, it is vacant,” he moves his glass towards me as he adds, “If you are interested, I’d call a chick I know from HR.”

I stare at him incredulously, my thoughts running wildly.

While my brain tells me that I should stay far away from that red flag, something in me yells for me to go see him.

Wait, the boss or the job?

“Please,” it suddenly bubbles out of my mouth. “That would be great, thank you.”

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    Theodore I lean with my teeth against my glass, my lips sucking at the droplets lingering around as Alex stands in front of me. “You are pulling my leg,” he says, crossing his arms. I point my finger at him, moving my thumb as if I was firing a gun. “No, it was the absolute worst,” I say with a sigh as I disconnect myself from the glass. He repositions on his feet, signaling one of his customers to wait for a second. “They knew who you were. They had your CV. I can’t believe the CEO didn’t look at it before he called you in. What a wanker!” “Total wanker!” I confirm, taking a big gulp from my beer, emptying it. “I need another one, Axshl.” He laughs, taking the glass from me. “You are so drunk, but after you told me, I can’t possibly tell you to slow down.” “Right! The hell you can!” I say, clicking my fingers. “I’m the greatest loser of them all!” Stumbling from my bar stool as he brings me my beer, I regain my balance with a little dance. A few drunkards left in the bar cl

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    Theodore He lifts his hand, looking at me annoyed. “Are you some kind of Casanova?” “To be honest,” I say, pursing my lips and scratching my chin. “I have the face for it.” “Ugh,” he pushes out as I look around his office. It is furnished as he is and screams cold asshole with money from a mile away. Closing the door behind me, I step in front of his desk. I clear my throat as he looks up at me bored and I pull myself together not to lose my shit again.“Listen, Mr. Helades, I’m deeply sorry about what I texted you last night and it won’t happen again. I apologize for having been rude and surely what the N stands for is none of my business.” “Is that all?” he asks, again not seeming impressed with what I had to offer. This is the worst. “I’m really sorry. It won’t happen again as I don’t have money to drink anyway, so your mailbox is safe.” His eyes burn into mine, making me ramble along. “Also, I have been experiencing some very bad sleeping issues, and even if I don’t know

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    Theodore I must have passed out happily after several orgasms as I get startled awake in the middle of the night. The vibrating toy that was still in me gets pulled out, and I feel a strong hand wrapping around my throat. He cuts my air shortly as he pulls me up against his chest, growling into my ear. “Is that enough for you?” “No,” I say feebly, looking at the sex toy he is turning in front of my eyes. Gulping, I watch him throwing the toy onto the bed. “I could give you more,” he says, making me tremble. “Do you want more?” I nod as much as his hold allows me to, my body shuddering in pleasure as I think of finally getting his cock and maybe even touching him. He passes his tongue up along my neck as he chuckles, “I saw you doing the same thing yesterday. So, I didn’t imagine it.” My eyes roll into the back of my head before he pushes me down, taking the lubricant from my nightstand. The squirting of the bottle reawakens all the nerves that were still sleeping in my body

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    Theodore I think I’m going insane. “Are you listening to me, Theo?” My mother’s shrill voice risks bursting my ear drum as I rip out the drawers annoyed. “Yeah, yeah,” I mutter absentmindedly as I search through the cupboards. I make a mess, not caring about my mother screaming at me at the other end of the line. Where did I put them? I could swear I had put them in one of those drawers. “Don’t ‘yeah, yeah’ me,” she screams. “Can you even imagine how I am feeling right now?” I swallow a groan as it’s always just about her feelings. “I can’t even look Margerie in the eyes anymore. Do you even realize how seeing her in church was? This is so embarrassing,” she continues, making me lean against the kitchen counter, propping myself up onto my hands in pure desperation. I don’t think I can do this. How can I face him?! Taking a deep breath, I just let her ramble along, waiting for a break to say something as well. “You have insulted everyone and your language was awf

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    Theodore I pull at my tie as I walk into the huge foyer with shiny walls and shiny floors. Gulping painfully, I increase my pace to reach the long reception. I recognize the snobby woman who also welcomed me to this place for my interview. “Good morning.” I clear my throat as my gleeful tone gets me a death glare. I wait a few seconds for her to say something but as she just continues to look at me with an annoyed expression, I decide to dare and speak again. “Theodore… Baxter. I’m the new hire for the tech support team.” I flash her a smile but she just rolls her eyes and taps on her headset. “The tech guy is here. Can I send her up to Helga or what do I do with him?” Seeing her tone and her attitude, the only thing missing is her chewing on bubble gum and blowing big bubbles while chomping on the gun with an open mouth. I clear my throat again, wanting to get her attention. “Actually, I was told I should report to Gilda.” It’s hard to keep my smile up as she shoots me anoth

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    Theodore My heart is already beating into my throat as I step onto the floor where I ended up just a few days ago as I had to stutter out my apology. I feel like shaking up, going crazy as I can nearly smell his cologne. I’m a goner. Gilda is not sitting at her desk, and Helga stops in front of it, pursing her lips. “Agh, bummer.” She seems to think about how to proceed and after taking a deep breath, rolls back her shoulders and charges forward once again.I jerk up, practically running after her until we reach the office I know has to be the one of Helades. She knocks and sets up a smile as she steps into the room. I notice right away how in contrast to the other offices it is awfully dark. The artificial lights illuminate the room as the blinds are shut, locking the sun out. This guy is mental.Helades doesn’t even spare me a glance and checks his watch as he mutters, “Did you go on a brunch date, or what?”I clench my fist, reciting a mantra about how I need this job and b

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    Theodore It definitely isn’t him. My man of the shadows would never be like this. He is a gorgeous man. With a sexy grin, and juicy lips that have nothing for me other than kind words. Not a sadistic asshole. I scratch my head, still feeling the spot where the pen had hit me, breaking off a piece of my heart in the process. Wanker. Looking at the small notepad I got from him, I sigh absentmindedly. 1. No “funny” jokes. I still can’t believe he made me put that one in brackets. 2. Wear my phone on me all the time and keep the line free for him. 3. If he can’t reach me just once, I am fired.That must be some sick kind of game. 4. I get four hours of sleep, but he decides when. This one actually proves it. 5. If I am out, I need to let everything fall and come back to the company immediately if there is an emergency. 6. I need to show up for a monthly health check-up sponsored by the company. 7. If I fail the check-up, I’ll get fired. At least my work will be appreciate

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    Theodore Who the fuck told him? Did Gilda snitch on me? What a bitch! As I ride to work, I have my teeth clenched so hard that I fear I will break them. When I got Helades’ text, the temptation was big to go as my good old stinky self and give him the full pleasure of my drunkard being. Because fuck him. And fuck these fucking morons. As my blood is pumping faster through my veins than it probably should and fury is burning along my nerves, my temperament is top-notch, and because of the adrenaline rush, I dodged a few road rage accidents just by pure chance. But it didn’t bother me. My body felt like it needed the thrill of it. Something I have never felt. Just something else to add to the list that doesn’t feel like me. I rip my helmet off my head, stomping into my office building with fast steps. Passing the reception desk angrily, I ignore the usual giggles and stupid remarks by the reception bitch. Just until she says something she shouldn’t have.

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    Nathanael As Gilda steps into my office, I ignore her just until she walks to my large windows, pulling at the curtains to rip them open. I groan at the sun flooding the room, hitting me like a bus running at full speed. “Oh, sorry, boss,” she says loudly, mocking me as she steps back through my office, slamming several files onto the desk. “I didn’t see you there.” I frown at her while she giggles. “What put you in such a great mood?” “Can’t a girl be in a great mood just because?” She shrugs, flashing me a huge smile. Passing my hand over my face, I exhale exhaustedly. “Please, Witch, I have neither the patience nor the condition to engage in your little games at the moment.” She suddenly starts humming, spinning on herself in front of my desk and I watch her, scrunching up my face as I lay my head onto my hand. “For goodness’ sake.” Stopping, she laughs, putting her hand on her chest. “I just had a fabulous night with a special young man.” “Ugh,” I push out, feeling

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    Theodore My head is throbbing painfully as I stand in line to get my morning coffee that I desperately need to be able to continue functioning. I am still surprised that I actually managed to get out of bed in the first place. Pulling my hoodie further into my face, I sigh, asking the barista for the strongest coffee they have. “Do you want a muffin to go with it?” she asks happily, her high-pitched voice piercing into my brain. My stomach churns, bile rising into my throat as I shake my head to decline her question. Her face falls and I am sure that she thinks that I am an idiot, but I don’t care. I just want to make it out here alive. As she announces my huge dark brew with an annoying and insanely painful singsong, I hold my phone against the card reader. Freezing to my spot, I watch her smile grow maliciously as a suspicious beep resounds from the card reader. “Oh, looks like it got declined.” “Huh?” I react raspily, my dried-out throat revenging the fact that I spoke by

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    Theodore Even as I’m preparing to go out, I still have the same thought nagging at me. Is Helades really my man of the shadows? I had been missing him, honestly, as he kept away in the last few days. After I had decided to not go to the doctor’s to get new pills, I had surprisingly had to recognize that my sleep paralysis was gone. It had now been a week since I had the last one, and with it the last visit from my man from the shadows. I sigh, combing back my hair, and I groan as I feel so ugly that whatever I do, it always resembles a dirty blond. As if I hadn’t washed it for weeks. And I can’t possibly go out looking like a wanna-be gangster who tries to be cool in front of his teenage friends. I can’t look like this when I risk running into him by chance.Pushing out a deep breath, I try to calm down my raging nerves and I throw the comb into the sink, calling it a day. Tonight I will be going out with Gilda and her friends. And I can’t wait to meet them at the club and

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    Theodore “Oh, you here?” Gilda looks at me wide-eyed, turning around as she is biting into what seems to be a hotdog filled with everything possible. “Theo,” she squeals, holding her hand in front of her full mouth. “Hey!” I laugh, hopping to sit on her desk. “What are you doing here this late?” She rolls her eyes, munching to be able to speak properly. “Ugh, you know how the boss is.” “Uh-huh,” Grinning, I watch her mirror my smile as she wipes her lips from the greasy stuff. “Where did you get that? I could use something to eat now.” “There is a hot dog cart right outside the building. I guess that he has noticed that I love these things and am actually making him rich with all my cravings.” Shaking my head, I chuckle thinking how some people are just gifted as she must have the best genes possible. She flicks back her red-brown hair, flashing me her perfect pearly whites. “Do you want one? I can show you where he stands.” “I’d love this,” I answer happily, but I

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    Theodore Where are you? Helades’ angry text is still dancing on my screen as I walk down the dark hallway to barge into his office. “Here I am!” I announce myself in a sing-song voice and he looks up for only a second only to flash me a disgusted expression. “Forgot how to take a call?” I shake my head, grinning. “Nope. Just thought that you didn’t want to hear my voice but wanted me here.” “Wow, so you are actually able to think. This is astonishing,” he scoffs, redirecting his attention to his papers. Stepping further into the room, I chuckle and refrain from retorting something. As I study his face, I notice that his skin doesn’t look as pale as it was in the last few days. He seems a lot healthier if I think of it, and I guess that he is feeling better. Automatically, happiness streams through me and I must be lighting up, my smile brightening. “Why are you smiling like a moron?” His annoyed voice rumbles towards me but isn’t strong enough to make me lose my ha

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    Theodore “Where the hell have you been all this time? Why didn’t you take any calls?” my mother’s voice blares out of the phone, forcing me to hold it away from my ear to save my ability to hear. Leaning back on the couch, I close my eyes, pressing my fingers to the bridge of my nose. “I was working, Mom.” She tsks disparagingly, making my blood boil. “As if… You know that Fredrik finds the time to call me every day and his beautiful fiancée brings me flowers every week. Aren’t they lovely?” “Precious, Mom. And here I was, thinking they would be too busy with the planning of their wedding in Italy.” I sigh frustrated, while she gasps. “If you would take life a little bit more seriously just as your brother does, you would do a lot better.”I roll my eyes, swallowing a sarcastic comment that is about to bubble out of my throat. My brother is a successful lawyer, as successful as you could be in a small town like ours, and he is soon-to-be-married to his university sweetheart, who

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    Theodore I groan as I open my eyes at the sunbeams falling in through the window, waking me up in the most ungently way. “Fuck,” I rasp out, my throat feeling like I have screamed at the top of my lungs all night. Halting in my movements, I jerk up, a flashback of how Helades slams into me flickering in front of my eyes shortly.Did I meet him? I scratch my head, thinking that it must be a strange fantasy of mine as I don’t remember much from the moment I started drinking with Dimitrios. This obsession is getting ridiculous even for me. It’s all fuzzy, a white noise static footage replacing the images from my party night. Passing my hand over my neck, I try to get rid of the goosebumps my shivers are triggering, my heart skyrocketing. I halt as I feel strangely uneven bumps on the side of my throat, and I jerk up, sitting up in my bed. “Argh.” A stinging pain jolts through me, and I lay on my side as my eyes widen. Fantasy my ass. Literally. What the hell happened last nigh

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    Theodore “Listen, I really am not looking for trouble. I’ll leave right away. Promised.” I have repeated the same words three or four times already. Actually, it could be more but my tipsy and panicky state is making it hard to think clearly. But the bodyguard is ignoring me anyway, not even talking to me as he gestures for me to enter into a VIP room. I look into the dimly lit and elegant room confused before looking back up at him. As I was expecting him to throw me into some cold basement before beating me to a pulp, it takes me a moment to react. Following his instructions before he gets angry and changes his mind, I walk into the room. I gulp as I walk down without knowing where I’m going. Feeling a strange pull, I take slow steps, my body yearning to reach a pool table, which is standing at the end of the large hall. While my mind screams at me to get the fuck out, I scan the people I pass. They are incredibly beautiful. Women and men with flawless skin and sculpted bod

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