JamesIt had been two weeks since I had spoken to Becca. I still couldn't believe the moment I was leaving, she found comfort being able to just call it off with me.Maybe I should have tried to force her to stay with me or something. I didn't know what the f*ck I was doing or thinking. At the end of the day, I'd just let her go. I let her say goodbye to me. Even though it killed me, it was happening. I had done so much for her, and she didn't seem to want to make it work. She just wanted a way out, and as hurt as I was—I was angry.No matter how many times I'd called, no matter how many times I texted her—nothing.Only twice did she respond, and those were vaguely a conversation. Her response was just like the other times we'd aruged. She told me I had priorities I needed to situate, and she wasn't one of them. That perhaps in the future, things would change.I was angry, on edge, unable to focus on a goddamn thing because she clouded every single moment of my waking m
BeccaA few days into my visit with Neal and Allegra, I felt happier than I had in a while. We decided to meander the streets of New York, taking in the different sites and also visited a few of the museums.Which, by the way, were absolutely amazing! The entire day had been more than perfect, and though I knew it would only be short-lived, I couldn't help but relish how spending time with them felt.Allegra and Neal had done amazing in making me feel better.It was the first time I had felt some contentment in a long time, and as we rounded the corner near Times Square, I couldn't help but be astounded at the sights before me. The bright, colorful lights, the large screens, the revolving images that were there, not to mention the many people who meandered around as if they had no care in the world.It was mesmerizing, and even though I was not the type of person that would ever be considered a city girl, I couldn't help but wonder what it would be like to live here in
BeccaSeeing James in New York was not something I expected, but running into him brought up so many memories I didn't know how to control. The way he had looked at me made my skin crawl with pleasure, not disgust, like I expected it would have. I wasn't quite sure why it was he was there, but according to him, he wasn't following me.Deep down, though, I couldn't help but feel him running into me was a work of fate and not of coincidence. Something inside me told me I was meant to see him today.As soon as we returned to Neal's apartment, it was clear Neal was upset over the entire situation. The scowls on his face were absolutely dreadful, and no matter how much Allegra tried to talk to him and make him feel better, he just seemed so angry over the entire situation."Would you please calm down? You're completely ruining the mood. We had such a wonderful day today, and you're acting like this."Allegra's words made him snarl, but when his eyes landed on me, he heaved and
BeccaI wasn't sure what I expected when I allowed Allegra to help get me ready. But Lord have mercy, did this girl have plans I was unprepared for. Staring in the mirror, I had to admit, I did look absolutely gorgeous. My long hair was curled to perfection and held back with small bobby pins at the back of my head, loose strands hanging low over my shoulders, and my makeup dark and smoky, my lips bright red.I looked like a f*cking siren, ready to poach men and drag them to their death. I was wearing lace, leather, and the tallest heels I had ever worn, something I wasn't too crazy about because I knew that by the end of my night, my feet would be screaming at me.Although the moment I stepped from her room heading out into the living room where Neal was waiting, the look on his face said it all. I was absolutely gorgeous, and it made me feel wanted."She really did a number on you, didn't she?" Neal's comment made me blush as his eyes grazed over my body from head
BeccaNever once had I considered what it would be like to be with Neal, but the moment he touched me, my skin felt as if it was on fire. Perhaps it was the alcohol running through my blood talking. Who knows?Though, it didn't matter because I was completely on fire around him.Pushing my back against the wall in the small enclosed room away from the others, his lips were on mine in an instant and as he kissed me, my heart raced with excitement. His hands wandered across my body, my skin burning from his touch. I wanted more.I wanted so much more.Pulling, pushing, everything came completely off, falling to the floor like a lost memory. For a moment, I was worried about someone walking in, but even that idea turned me on."You have no idea how long I've waited for this," he whispered softly in my ear as his lips trailed over my jawline, slowly making their way down my neck. "You should have taken advantage of a situation in the past," I teased.A deep chuckle r
JamesDays had passed since I had been in New York, and with the contract finalized with Chad's father and himself, I had nothing else to worry about. The moment I could tell Tally she had nothing to worry about, I saw a light of happiness in her eyes I hadn't seen in quite some time.Things were looking up, and even Sergie's men had backed off on what they were trying to do… for the moment, anyway.With everything on the bright side, I contemplated the idea of whether it would be safe to convince Becca to come down here. Take her internship with my company maybe… come spend time with me. Anything to get her to forgive me, and let me show her how much I cared.I loved her more than anything, and it took going through all of this to realize what I was losing because of my selfishness. I did not know if I could still fix things, be able to keep her, be able to make it right, but I wanted to try.As long as she will give me a chance.Sitting in my office, I went through the
BeccaThe last few days with Neal had been absolutely amazing. I couldn't get over everything we had been doing; from hanging out at the house like we used to or catching a movie. He had even taken me down to Broadway to see a show. In between all of it, we spent time wrapped in each other's arms under the sheets of his bed, his hands stroking through my hair as I laid my head upon his chest.It was amazing being with him. Letting him possess me… ravage me.I never thought this could happen with him, but yet here I was, spending time with someone who was incredible, who seemed to really care about me, and through it all, he didn't judge me for being anything other than who I was."Are you getting hungry?" His deep, sultry voice wrapped around me, tugging gently on my heart. I had always cared for him, always held a special place for him in my heart, but after these last few days.... I was wondering if there was a possibility my feelings could end up eventually being more.
BeccaTwo days went by quicker than I thought they ever could, and before I knew it, I was loading all of my stuff back into my car with Neal at my side as he tried to convince me to stay, or at least convince me he would fly me back instead of me driving my car.No matter how much he tried to persuade me, though, I couldn't let him do that. It was a sweet gesture, but I had to be independent, and even with us sleeping together or whatever else this was, I didn't want people to think I was relying on him for everything."I can't believe that you won't let me help you," he sighed as he placed my last bag into my trunk. "I don't like the thought of you driving."Giving a soft laugh, I turned to him, raising a brow, and smiled as I closed the trunk. "You have said that multiple times now, but again, I will be fine. Honestly, you worry too much.""I don't worry enough, Becca." I wasn't sure where this sentiment came from, but pulling me close to him, he kissed me gently, wr