Neal.When Becca left, my emotions rolled through me like a thunderstorm over a grassy field. I couldn't believe that I had acted the way that I did. She hadn't deserved it, and honestly, I felt nothing but remorse swelling through my body like an angry viper looking for a way out.After everything that she had been through lately, and all the countless times I had stood by her side, I had never given her a reason to doubt me, to doubt my allegiance to her, to doubt the safety that she felt with me, until she found out the truth.Even though she said she was okay, I saw it in her eyes, the resentment, the anger… and all of it because I couldn't be f*cking honest with her about who I was.Sitting on the edge of my bed, I held my head in my hands. I had been foolish to think that I was someone that could be desired. Never had I been a man to care what other people thought. But when it came to Becca, I cared deeply. And that was because I was in love with her.Without warning
Becca.I hadn't remembered falling asleep, but the light filtered through my open window, and as it did, my eyes fluttered open, giving way to another beautiful day. Stretching my arms over my head, my hand touched a warm body, and quickly looking to my left, I spotted Neals' sleeping form resting beside me.I hadn't even realized that he had come into my bed last night, but looking at him now, I saw him in a different light. He wasn't the man I once knew, but instead, he was much stronger than I realized. To be holding all of these secrets all these years and never having been able to talk to someone was something I would never be able to grasp. How lonely that must have been for him.Rolling to my side, I minded my baby bump and rested my head upon my hand as I reached over with my free hand brushing a strand of hair from his eyes. As quick as my touch had been, he grasped my wrist and slowly opened his eyes."Good morning, beautiful," he whispered in a rough voice a
Becca.Venturing into town was just as happy as I could have expected it. The sights were beyond amazing, and even the stores were beautiful. Everywhere you turned, extremely happy people greeted us. They were welcoming. They didn't judge us in any kind of manner, and honestly, that was nice to have for once.I had been doing a lot of thinking since the moment that we landed in New Zealand. I loved it here. I loved the condo that we were staying in. I loved the land, and even late at night, when I would lay in bed, I would look at the properties that were nearby for sale.An idea had popped into my mind the moment that I had decided when I got off the plane in New Zealand that I was going to do everything in my power to have an amazing trip. The idea was… what if there was a possibility of moving here? I wasn't quite sure what it would take to get a visa and permission to leave the country and everything else, but if it was something that could be a possibility, maybe getti
~Four months later~Becca."I can't do this," I panted as the pain of contractions ran through me. "Goddamn it, Neal! Drive faster!"There was nothing like being woken up at three in the morning by a soaked bed only to realize that your water had broken. At first, the pain was nothing more than slightly uncomfortable and feeling extra heavy below, but as time gradually went on, the pain began to spread."I'm going as fast as I can, Becca.""It's f*cking not fast enough!" I screamed out as a cry of pain radiated through me. "Becca, in and out. In and out," Allegra said, soothingly, as she placed a cold cloth against my head. I did as she said and continued the breathing exercises that the native island woman had told me to do in my classes, but it didn't matter how much breathing I did, the pain was horrible.F*ck having a natural birth… all I wanted was the damn pain medication the doctors had promised me. One prick of a needle, and all my pain would be over. Th
James.Four months of being in Japan had taught me many things, and one of those things was that even the smallest of jobs can make you important to the people around you. I had taken on the maintenance job that Sue's father once had with ease, and because I had, the tenants in the building were forever grateful.Which meant they were constantly trying to feed me, and with my understanding of the language being minimal, I accepted so that I wasn't rude.The last thing I expected after a long day of work, though, was to have my phone ring in the wee hours of the morning with Neal's voice on the other end."A daughter?" I whispered softly as the news slowly woke me up."Yeah, she just had her. We didn't think she would have the baby till next week, but her water broke a few hours ago, and then it was a mad rush to the hospital."I was overjoyed to hear the news, but still hesitant on the situation between Neal and I. We weren't exactly on good terms. Neal still didn't like
Becca.Forty-eight hours after having Dahlia, I was finally able to make my way back home. I had never been so happy to walk through the large glass front double doors into the relaxed comfort of my New Zealand home. Boxes still lined the areas in some places where I hadn't had the time to unpack, but it didn't matter to me. At the end of the day, it was still my home, and with every moment I spent here, I knew things would get better."Welcome home, my sweet, Dahlia," I whispered to the tiny sleeping baby in my arms."Everything is set up for her," Neal said softly from behind me as he brought in my bags from the car. "I also managed to hang the thing you wanted on her bedroom wall."A spark of joy ran through me as I turned down the hallway towards the nursery. It was joined with my bedroom, and as soon as I slid back the bar-style door, my breath was taken away. The soft cream walls were accented with tons of leaves and flowers, and even Dahlia's name, engraved with
Neal.The moment that I had picked Becca up from the hospital and seen Dalia in her arms, my heart swelled with pride and excitement at being able to bring the both of them home. However, the last thing that I expected was the moment that we got home for Becca to be swooped away by Layla, who was explaining everything that she had done while Becca had been gone.And to top everything off, somebody had decided to send her a package, and I knew very well who that somebody was, and seeing how excited she got over what they sent reminded me of what my place actually was.According to Allegra, I was jealous, and for the most part, I damn sure was. I was the one putting all the time and effort in, and even though she was nothing but grateful and showed me nothing but compassion, I couldn't get over the fact that I wasn't him.Dalia should have been my daughter. She should have been all mine. And Lord knows that every time Becca and I did sleep together back then, part of me pra
Neal.The moment I had hung up with James, I gripped my phone tightly in my hand and stared out at the ocean, trying to calm my nerves. Rage attempted to fill the voids of my heart as I thought about how James intruded upon my relationship with Becca.I knew for a fact that even though James was supposed to technically be dead, if he really wanted to come back into Becca and the child's life, he would do so. And I was going to have to step up my game to protect her.Pinching the bridge of my nose, I closed my eyes, inhaling the sweet smell of the salty air just in time for Allegra's voice to come from the distance behind me, causing me to turn and look over my shoulder."Neal, what are you doing out here?" Her question was not misplaced. It was quite odd for me to be out here, considering Becca had only just gotten back with the baby, and I had been talking nonstop about spending time with them. "I just needed a moment to make a long-distance phone call."Cocking her