With our clothes tossed to the floor, I can’t help but feel a little subconscious about being flush naked under Cedric’s body. We might have had sex the night before, but we are making love for the first time. It’s a strange revelation to me. I was going to be making love to Cedric and not just having sex with him.
I took in a deep breath as I felt my body relax against his touch. He was as gentle as always, but this time, it felt different. This was sweeter, and softer and left me breathless each time his lips touched my skin. I could feel my body and heart giving in to each action so smoothly that I thought I might float away at any second.
The lower his kisses trailed, the more alive my body felt, and this time, I lavished every moment of it. I didn’t want to hide how this has made me feel. If he could give everything up for me, then I’d give everything up for him. That’s how I felt.
Through hooded eyes, I peered down
Last night gave me a small amount of hope that Kai was finally opening up to the idea of accepting me. He still wasn’t there yet, but I believed I was no one step closer to him figuring out the truth.Perhaps I should have given in and just told him the truth, but I decided to talk to Dereck about it first. He would know Kai’s mind better than I do. Though we haven’t had a moment alone since I woke up.Our last preparations had to be taken care of before we could finally go to war with the Fang-Claw pack. Now that our group was making our way towards the edges of our pack, I knew it wouldn’t be long until we set up camp.Our group was fairly large, but I decided to not take all of our warriors with us. Some had to remain behind in case someone else tried taking this moment to ambush the defenceless. I was sure Kai could rally the remaining pack members if anything like that were to happen, and I made it known to the remaining warriors to
I can’t stop thinking about my place in Cedric’s pack and what all of this means for me now. If I accept his mark, then I’ll never find my destined mate, and he will end up giving up on Anita, but will she give up on him? Can I really be so selfish and claim him all to myself?I said I wanted that, and he agreed, but now I’m second-guessing myself. I sigh as I wander around the packhouse. Nothing is set in stone yet, and that gives me time to mull over his offer in honesty. I want him, but at the same time, I’m afraid of claiming him.And what if this isn’t mutual? What if he claims and marks me, but won’t let me mark him? He mentioned nothing about that, so how am I supposed to take that?With Dereck gone with him, I can’t even talk to anyone about this. Can I truly live my life here? What if I accept and then my mate shows up? I won’t know it is them, but they’ll still know it is me, right? That&rsquo
I knew I couldn’t leave without at least letting Dereck know I had gone, and that he should stay here with Cedric to help look after the whole pack. I couldn’t leave the note in Cedric’s bedroom, so I put it in what once was mine. I avoided giving a location of where I was going to go, as I only had one place in mind before I decided to leave these lands behind me. My heart ached, and part of me wanted to change my mind, rip the paper up and forget this entire plan. However, I knew I couldn’t remain here and let Cedric make such a terrible choice by giving up his destined mate. I’d be fine on my own. I could just become a rogue and live on my own somewhere, far away from everyone else. There have been others before me that have turned rogue, so how hard could it be? With a deep breath in, the only task I had left now, after packing and getting everything sorted out with that note, was to escape. I didn’t have any information on the outside of the packhouse, o
Something hasn’t been right since we launched our attack on the Fang-Claw pack. Although I can tell they were not expecting us, it seems highly strange that their alpha has not once come to fend us off. Was he away from the pack for some reason? A sneak attack from behind, maybe?Yet my scouts always returned with no sightings of him. The only thing I could think of was that the alpha had been out with his scouts somewhere, but that he hadn’t returned yet was strange. As a precaution, I had one of my scouts return to my lands to check on them.When they returned, they claimed everything was normal and there had not been a single sign of any enemies. I wasn’t sure what to make of this, and without the alpha being here, our attack didn’t mean too much. I had wanted to take him down, or at the very least, capture him as my prisoner.Despite that downside, it meant we had shown his pack that we meant business and would not go easy on them for
The last few trees on the outskirts of the forest finally paved the way for the familiar lands that I once called home. The moment I saw the familiar small buildings my old pack once called home, I rushed forward. I know no one is going to be there to greet me, but it feels so good to see this place again.It was almost dark, as I had expected it to be, but I knew this place like the back of my hand. As I hastened my steps, I weaved through the old streets and made my way to the graveyard.It honestly surprised me how little this place had changed since I had been gone. Cedric hadn’t touched the place, which had been my fear when I first bowed down to his rule. Usually, a pack’s old land is repurposed or destroyed, but he did neither.Perhaps he had cared about me and the pack even since then? I couldn’t help but smile foolishly at myself. If that was the case, then I had feared him for nothing. Did he even plan on keeping me locked up for as l
Quickly rushing to my feet, I half expected to see Cedric or Dereck coming up behind me, but the moment I saw the figure, my heart sank. This man was neither of them nor was he from any of the three packs.I could smell the scent of an alpha from him, and although I had never met him in person, I knew him to be one of our enemies. He wasn’t here to pursue peace or treaties. Though his exact intent was unknown, I could tell from his smirk that he was not here for pleasantries.This alpha was huge, probably larger than even Cedric was. This man’s face was covered in battle scars and he had the aura of intimidation surrounding him. I knew that if he started a fight, I would not survive the encounter unless he showed me mercy. And that was assuming he had any to give me.My heart pounded against my chest as I desperately tried to plan an escape route. The only problem was that I had no way of knowing if he had me surrounded or not.“I though
I’m not sure if we got the results Cedric had wanted, but the sneak attack hadn’t been a complete waste of time. We had shown the enemy we were a force not to be taken lightly and had even killed their beta in the scuffle.However, their alpha never once showed. That had made Cedric anxious, and we had agreed to return now that we had something to show for our actions.The moment we stepped foot into the packhouse, the omegas surrounded Cedric and showered him with praise and affection. I shook my head with a smile and glanced around the room. There was no sign of Kai yet, but knowing him, he was sulking about somewhere.Anita showed up not long after she heard us return and clung to Cedric as if her life had depended upon his return. Though now that I knew their relationship was nothing more than friends who had agreed to mate should they never find their true mate, it didn’t bother me with how close they were. Kai, of course, did not understa
Why? Why would Kai decide to leave now? Were we not making progress with him finally accepting me? And leaving Dereck behind like this? That wasn’t something I ever thought Kai would do, and I don’t think he had expected it either.There was no time to waste in finding and bringing back my mate before he did something so foolish. Before we went to fight, I should have told him. I should have not left things so vague! From what I had said to him, I thought he would figure it out! I thought he knew how much I loved him!The two of us shifted into our wolf forms as soon as we had left the packhouse. Dereck was swift and easily kept up with me, though even if he hadn’t been as fast, I wouldn’t have slowed down to wait for him. Kai was my top priority, and I needed to bring him back before he left me for good.For the life of me, I couldn’t understand why he would decide to do this!? It made no sense! Had someone said something to him wh