02~ Unconsciously In Love

"Hold on a sec. Just hold on a second and explain to me what the hell is all these?" I demanded. "You have a twin brother and yet you didn't tell me? Now I fucked with another man and you're trying to put the blame on me?"

"I ain't putting the blame on you, Ashley. I accept, I fucked up. I should have told you earlier but I didn't."

I rubbed my hair frustratedly as I listened to his words. I just fucked with another man? I let another man who isn't Xavier to walk into me? I'm such a mess. A big one.

"You need to calm down, Ashley, we'll talk about this some other time."

"Some other time?" I yanked. "No, I want these conversation right now, okay?" I sighed. "You had a twin, a real twin who looks exactly like you, how on earth do you expect me to differentiate the two of you?"

"It's not my fault we have such a great resemblance. Well, he shouldn't have touched you in the first place. I'll talk to him when he gets back."

"You better do, or I do that myself." I sighed heavily. "He's a good kisser too, just like you are." I admitted.

I didn't lie when I said that, Xender is such a good kisser and fucker too. Who would have thought it wasn't Xavier in the first place. Trying to remember his face, I end of thinking of Xavier. I'm definitely not gonna find out who is who, at least not now. They both share the same tatoo on their left arm, with a moon shaped mark by the right side of their necks.

Tell me how I am going to leave with this two brothers.

"Wow, I can clearly see you don't regret having him fuck you, right?" Xavier said and I could sense jealousy in his words.

"Will he still come back tonight?" I asked, ignoring his words. I just want to be clear that this isn't some kinda game they're playing with me.

Or could it be Xavier trying to play the whole twin brothers of a thing.

"Tell me you aren't thinking about that." Xavier said, curling his fingers into mine. "I don't want him to be the reason for your change of attitude. I can tell him not to come back if you want me to."

I understand how worried Xavier is for my sake. He thinks I'm still angry at the fact he never mentioned his twin brother to me, but honestly I ain't angry any more. I was more concerned about seeing Xender again.

Though Xavier has been every thing that has ever happened to my life, I still feel like there's some thing about Xender that feels hypnotizing.

"I'll be back in a few minutes, I wanna check some thing in my office." He excused himself, leaving to his office.

My phone beeped, just then a message dropped in. I check the message and it was from Franca, my younger sister. We promised to meet up at the park avenue tomorrow for some personal reasons. She had only dropped a reminder message to me.

Not wanting to feel bored, which of course I was already feeling the boredom of sitting my ass alone in this hell of a room, I decided to go to one of the restaurant downtown. I took my car key, heading down to the parking lot.

I drove downtown, and I made a few shopping which didn't cost me up to a thirty dollars. I sat outside the restaurant, devouring my meat pie with the yoghurt. I started eating my potato chips which I had bought specifically for tomorrow. Then, I ended up eating every single thing I bought.

I just can't believe I was this hungry.

It was a minute past seven, I took my key, heading for my car when I suddenly bumped into Mariam, my highschool friend. We discussed at length. She also invited me for her wedding which will be held in three days time. I was so happy for her, likewise I was praying silently Xavier will propose to me already.

I don't know why he was delaying to ask me for my hand in marriage. Not like I've got any thing to think of, I was ready to say 'yes' even before the next seconds of asking. We exchanged warm kisses, badding ourselves good-byes and goodnight.

I entered into my car, heading back home.

The house was quiet when I walked in. Could Xavier be sleeping? I thought to myself, as I made my way up to my room.

On reaching, I heard voices from the inside. The voices were that of two people, but it almost looks like it was one single person talking in two places. I opened the door to see Xavier and Xender standing face to face to each other. They stopped talking as soon as they saw me.

For a long while, I was staring at the two brothers, trying to figure out who was Xavier and who exactly is Xender.

"Xavier?" I looked at the other. "Xender?"

The one I assumed to be Xender rolled his eyes at me. "Oh please, Ashley, it's me, Xavier."

I chuckled at the way he rolled his eyes. "I'm sorry, it's not my fault. So, Xavier and… Xender, what's the problem? I mean, you guys just stopped talking immediately I walked in."

"Well, it's nothing much. We're just having a brotherly chat, that's all." Xavier replied.

I noticed how quiet Xender was since I walked in, and how his gaze never ceases from staring at me. I tried not to look at him but I found myself doing so. Our gaze locked, Xavier seem not to have noticed since he was talking.

I felt a butterfly feeling in my stomach, a grumble sound of want slowly boiling inside of me as we did nothing to take our gaze off each other. Staring at Xender only reminded me of that night. How he had played the awesome role of Xavier on the bed. With his dazzling gaze on me, I could feel him eye fucking me.

I couldn't stay any longer, he was doing some thing to me with his eyes, some thing I still don't understand. But I knew he was winning over it. "I'll leave you two to be." I said, exiting the room before Xavier could stop me.

"Fuck!" I cursed under my breath the moment I stepped out of the room. 

I didn't notice I've been holding my breath until now. One thing about Xender is the fact that his glare was fucking manipulating compared to Xavier and I almost got my panties stained.

What kind of guy would get a girl wet by mere looking at her?

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It was a Saturday morning. I woke up, leaving my room to Xavier's. We weren't able to spend the night together due to the brotherly chat last night. Xavier was awake, but laid still on his bed, his gaze faced the ceiling.

"Hey," I called his attention. 

He only moved his head to my direction, forcing a smile on his lips. "Hey."

"Good morning." I greeted, walking to sit beside him. 

"Good morning." He greeted back. "Hope you slept well?" He asked.

"I did. What about you?" I asked back.

"Yeah."

"What about Xender?" I asked. "Has he gone to work?"

"No. He left early this morning." He replied.

"Left?" I repeated. "Like, he's gone?"

"Yes."

"Did you two quarreled last night?"

"No, we didn't. He decided to leave on his own. I do respect his decision, so I let him go."

After listening to Xavier, I felt an instant weakness pull me down. I don't know why I was feeling this way, but a part me was missing him already. Though we weren't a thing, with this, I was beginning to wonder if truly we are. I realized I wasn't just missing him, I was missing every thing about him.

And the fact that he was gone, only time could tell when I'll ever get the chance to meet him again.