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2021-08-30 16:07:46How nice is to be able to love someone without any limitations, to be able to love with freedom, with such feelings where you would feel safe and sound — like home. And Valentin thinks he found the right feeling, giving all of him to somebody until he lost that someone. And suddenly, all of the emotions felt foreign. Everything felt new.
On the other hand, Jax, or Jake, just wants a fairytale fitting love story. All the butterflies in the stomach, the blurring of the background everytime his significant other would pass by, the little smiles, and the soft gestures. But he couldn't find that in a world where everything is settled with misery, where everything is either hot and wild or something mature.
In this world where everything is basically ruined, in a life where the axis revolves around money and career, would love be even able to fit in?
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