All of us walked back to our places. After the public execution, everyone acts like nothing happened. When I turned my sight back to the center of the capital, I saw the police officers putting Mr. Lacsa's body inside a sack. Blood is scattered in every part of the area. I can't look at it any longer.
When we finally arrived in the school, the students went back to their classrooms and continue their classes. I look at my schedule to find out if I have my next class.
"Oh. I have my three next classes," I said to myself. Luckily, those are higher classes. They wouldn't be stressful for me.
I continue walking to reach the Secondary Building where my next class is. When I reached that building, I heard several shouts for the second floor.
"Give way! Give way!" one man shouted from above. Due to my will to know what is happening, I continue to walk to the second floor of the building.
"Give way! Give way!" Mr. Estraña shouted while carrying a student.
I don't know what to react. I stand still and was stucked on my feet. Instead of helping Mr. Estraña, I just watched him while he is carrying the student.
"Ms. Fryxell," I was back in my consciousness when a female voice talked from my back.
"Madam Principal," I fixed myself to look atleast presentable in Madam Principal's eyes. I didn't expect her to be here in this situation.
"You can now go to your class. You're next class is in Class-B, right?" she asked.
"Yes ma'am," I answered while I'm having a hard time looking at her eyes.
"Okay. Go to you class. You might get late," she said. She didn't wait for me to answer for she started walking down the stairs.
I went to the classroom of Class-B. When I enter the classroom, the class is quiet. I shouldn't be surprised for this is the quietest of all class I'm handling. But their silence for today is different.
I just ignored it and started giving their last summative test for the first quarter.
"Remove everything on your table. I just want to see one black ballpen," I said to the whole class.
They started putting their thing back inside their bags. Some drink water from their tumbler first before putting it back to their bag. When I know that every student's table is clean, I started giving their test papers.
"Miss Fryxell?" one of the students caught my attention by calling my name and raising his hand.
"Yes, Mr. Avila?" I asked him.
"We don't have any reserve papers to write our solutions," he said.
"Don't worry. I will provide you those papers," I answered. "And class," I get the attention of all students. "Your solution will be written on the blank papers I'll given to you. You don't have to use any other papers. Just use the one I'll provide. Do you get it?"
"Yes, ma'am," all of them answered.
I continue to give them their test papers. After that, I distributed the blank papers.
"Every students can get a maximum of 5 blank papers only. If five papers aren't enough, just come at me and I'll give you more," I said to them.
When all of the students have their own papers, the test started immediately.
"You have 45 minutes to finished the test. You may start now," with my cue, the students started answering the questions on the test.
"Say present when I call you name, okay? Amad," I started calling their surnames for the attendance.
"Present."
"Cadavos."
"Present."
"Cambri."
"He's absent Miss Fryxell," his seatmeat answered.
"Okay."
I looked at Mr. Cambri's attendance status. I find out that this student is absent a week already without a single excuse letter. Maybe I should talk to his adviser later.
I was in the middle of calling the students' names when someone knocks at the door. I opened it myself for I don't want to disturb my students while they are taking the test.
"Oh! Mr. Estraña! What brought you here?" I asked him when I opened the door.
"I just want to inform you that Ms. Romano is rushed to the hospital," he said.
"So, Ms. Romano is the girl you're carrying earlier?" I asked.
"Sadly, yes."
"Why? What happened?" I asked him.
Miss Romano is a great student. She is one of the top students in Class-B. I didn't even notice that she is not in the room. But what bothers me the most is that she is in the hospital. Miss Romano is a healthy student. When Madam Principal conducted a health research for the students, it turned out that Miss Romano is one of the 27 students of the school with the strongest immune system.
"Well, she just lose her consciousness after we went back to the classroom. The doctor said she might be stressed," Mr. Estraña explained.
I sighed. "Thank you for informing me. I'll just give her a special test," I said before Mr. Estraña left.
I went back to my table and continue on doing the attendance.
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"The capital's so harsh," Dhaile said while we're in the cafeteria.
"So true. It's not humane," I replied before giving a bite to my burger.
Dhaile and I don't have our class to entrr anymore. We still have much time so we decided to stay in the cafeteria for a while. Besides, both of us didn't have our lunch earlier.
"I can't still believe it. I thought Mr. Lacsa is a real man. See, several girls are chasing him for him to be their boyfriend. If I were him, I will choose to be a man. I don't want to die," she said with a frowning face.
"You're saying that because you are also one of the girl who's chasing Mr. Lacsa," I teased her.
"Shut up girl! Someone might hear you," she widened her eyes while giving me a threatening look.
"So I'm right?" I said while slightly laughing between my words.
"That was two years ago," she gave me a sly, nasty glance.
"But still, you liked him," I teased her again. I just laughed when Dhaile frowned at me. I knoe that she's a bit annoyed at me. Well, that's normal.
"Whatever," she replied and go on eating.
When Dhaile and I entered the school for the first time, I know that Dhaile has a crush on Mr. Lacsa. Actually, most of the female teachers and students has a crush on him. Well, I can't blame them.
Mr. Lacsa is indeed a handsome guy. He is also a good teacher and a cool guy, so there's no doubt that girls are chasing him. Except for me. I'm not into boys. I like the the same gender.
Regarding that thing, the feeling of suffer that Mr. Lacsa experienced earlier is now coming back to my body. I can feel the hit of the sword. The scenario earlier came back to my mind again.
Sweats are starting to build up on my body. My hands are getting cold. Seconds later, my hands are already trembling. I'm getting nervous because of what I'm thinking.
The public execution happens everytime the authorities found out someone who us gay or lesbian, or even transgender. Those people who are part of the called LGBT Community are being punished in the country.
I must hide the real me, or else, I'll die. I'll meet the same fate as Mr. Lacsa.
"Casy? Are you okay?" Dhaile's voice stopped me from thinking.
"Me? Of course," I stuttered.
"Are you sure? You're trembling," Dhaile asked. She held my hand and her face was shocked.
"Shocks girl! You're cold!" she exclaimed.
"No, I'm fine. Okay?" I assured her.
"Then why are you trembling? And your hands!"
"It's just," I stopped for a while. I don't knoe what excuse I'm going to say to her. I simply look around, hoping that there's something inside cafeteria that can help me think what to say.
"Uhm, it's just cold here," I lied.
"Do you want to move to other area?" she asked.
"No need to do that. We will just finished our food."
Dhaile and I go back on eating. We didn't notice the time. It is already quarter to four in the afternoon when we finished our food. Both of us are really hungry that's why we ate huge amount of food.
We were walking to the Main Building when Dhaile suddenly burp so loud.
"Excuse me," Dhaile said after her burp.
"That's too loud girl. The students look at you oh," I said to her while pointing the students who were shocked because of the loud noise that she made.
"I don't care. Wait, who's that girl walking with Mr. Celeste?" Dhaile asked while pointing on somewhere.
I look at the direction that Dhaile is pointing. I saw Mr. Celeste with an unfamiliar lady. She is wearing a plain violet t-shirt and a fitted jeans. Her hair is in high ponytail. She is just holding a blue purse.
"Why did they let an outsider in?" Dhaile asked.
"I bet she is the new teacher," I replied.
"How do you say that?"
"Well, I don't know. I just guess that."
Dhaile invited me to walk and introduce ourselves to the unfamiliar lady.
"Good afternoon, Mr. Celeste," I greeted him.
"Oh, good afternoon Ms. Fryxell and Ms. Chan," he greeted us. "Let me introduce to you the new teacher of Felghana Nationa High School," he added.
"This Miss Kataleya Carson," Mr. Celeste introduce the lady. "Ms. Carson, this is Miss Dhaile Chan," Dhaile and the new teacher made a shake hands.
"Ms. Carson, this is Miss Calliope Sydney Fryxell," I extend my hand to her and we have a shake hands.
"You can call me Kate," the new teacher said while smiling.
"And you can call me Casy," I said.
"Okay so, I'll just lead Ms. Carson to her office. We're going now," Mr. Celeste said before they continue on walking.
"I like her," Dhaile said.
I look at her. It is not just an ordinary look.
"Hey. I mean, I like her as a teacher. Stop looking at me like that. Geez,", Dhaile said before walking away.
I look at Kate's direction. I can feel something about this girl. I just can't figure it out for now. But I'm sure that there's something unusual at her.
Today is another day in school. I only have two days to finish collecting all of the requirements of my students. I don't want to wait for next week to to my job. The earlier I can create their grades, the better."Hays. Boring," I said while walking alone in the street. I don't have Dhaile with me so I have no one to talk to. Her first class will be on 10:00 am while mine is 8:00 am. I hate it when our schedule isn't the same. I feel alone if she's not here since she is the only one that I am comfortable to talk to.To ease the boringness I'm feeling, I get my earphones and my cellphone and started playing songs. I played the heavy metal songs to rise up my energy.After minutes of walking, I finally arrived on the school. That wasn't that exhausting since my apartment is just half a kilometer aw
Kate lends all of her ears to the three of us. She is listening eagerly and waiting for Unah to start speaking."In this country, most of the people hates the LGBT community," Unah started her explanation."LGBT? You mean lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender?" Kate asked even if it is obvious that it is the real meaning of it."Yup."Kate's eyebrows met. "Why?"I was shocked when Kate asked why. I mean, as a person who lives in this country, she must know that kind of law. Public execution as the punishment for the LGBT members is already circulating in this country for almost 50 years.It seems like Unah noticed that Dha
Friday comes and this is the last school day of the week. All of the teachers are busy for the first quarter exam is coming. We only have two days before that event comes.Now, I have a big problem. Mister Cambri from Class - B isn't coming to school since last week. I'm worried about his grades on my subject and also to other subjects."I've gotta go," I said to Dhaile who's still typing something in her laptop.I'm now in Dhaile's office or the office of Music Teachers. I don't like to stay in my own office for I'll just get bored there. There are no any other people inside my office so I decided to join Dhaile here."Why? Do you have your next class?" she asked without looking at me for her sight is focused on the laptop's screen.
"Ms. Fryxell? Are you going home already? It's still early," the school guard asked me when he saw me walking to the gate with my backback."Uhm, no. I'm going to my student's home. He's absent for a week and I need to check him," I answered."Oh, that's bad," he reacted. "By the way, ma'am. Will you come back immediately?" he asked before sipping in his coffee."Maybe I'll be here at three in the afternoon. This is included in my time, right? Or I have to have my time out now?""Yes ma'am. You're still on your duty so you don't have to check your time out. Just fill this up after you came back here," he explained."Good thing. I'll go now. I need to go back immediately," I replied
Mrs. Cambri and I rushed to the school. We need to talk to Madam Principal as soon as possible."Ms. Fryxell! You came back so fast!" the guard said while opening the gate of the school for us. "Who is she?" he asked when he saw the woman in my back."She is Mrs. Cambri, the mother of the student I'm saying to you. We're going to talk to Madam Principal," I answered."Okay," he looks at Mrs. Cambri while handling a ballpen. "Kindly fill up this form, ma'am. It is necessary because you are an outsider."Mrs. Cambri filled up the form and after that we walked to the Main Building where the Principal's Office is located."Ms. Fryxell, I don't know but I feel so nervous right now," Mrs
"Good afternoon," Mrs. Avena greeted the guard of General Cleofas' office."Good afternoon, ma'am. What can I do for you?" he asked."We want to talk to General Cleofas. May we?""I'm sorry, but those who are allowed to talk to the General are higher person only or those with permission from them."
There's no class today but I'm so stressed. The thing that just happened days ago is still circulating inside my mind.Mrs. Cambri's depressing face is what I can see right now. After General Cleofas sent us away, Mrs. Cambri cannot help but to cry. I want to tell her that we can still do something in order to save her son's life, but after the words of surrender came out from her mouth, I know that she already accepted her son's fate."Ugh! My head hurts!" I exclaimed while touching my head. I can't focus on what I'm doing. Instead of putting my attention on making my student's grades, I'm thinking about my student, Angelo Cambri.What will happem to him? Will they execute him also?I feel distraught just by thinking abo
"I agree to what Kate said," Unah stated. "Fighting back won't help. The people with powers and money are the superior, while the others are becoming slaves and victims of their cruelty," she added.I can't believe what I'm hearing from them. It looks like they already accepted that Felghana is a cruel country because of its government."Casy, don't mind the student. Never again. It's not your obligation. Besides, God is here. He knows what is the truth," Dhaile said as she stands up."Uhm, Unah, can I use your comfort room?" Dhaile asked."Oh yes. Just enter that way and you will see a blue door. That's the comfort room. The switch for the lights are inside," Unah answered."Thanks," Dh
Lots of days passed and the final exams week has come to an end. While looking at the window from my table, I saw bunches of students with smiles on their faces while walking home. A lot of them are also talking to other about who knows what. I miss being a student. For the students, the week after the final exams is their week for rest. They can do whatever they want, may it be going shopping, playing online games with their other classmates, or just chilling inside their houses while eating their favorite foods and watching their favorite movie. However, for teachers like me, it is a hell week. There are a lot of paperworks to finish. Aside from checking their exams, we need to find the frequency of correct answers and make a report about it. After that, we need to finish computing our students' grades, which is not only about encoding scores, but also sending follow-ups and conducting remedial classes. "My back hurts like hell," Dhaile complained while standing up and stretchi
I'm the type of person who doesn't want to be in a circle of several people, but I guess 1-3 people are fine.For years, Dhaile is the one person and friend of mine whom I hang out with. Our hangouts are like, making lesson plans together, creating questions for recitations, and other things connected to school. Sometimes, we stayed in my apartment to watch movies together, but that is very seldom.But today is different. I'm not just with Dhaile, but also with Kate and Unah. Though this is not the first time we went out together, it still feels new. I think I haven't adjusted fully yet, but I'm sure that sooner or later, I'll be."Let's forget our problems for awhile," Dhaile exclaimed while she excitedly jumps on Unah's car. It looks like she really prepared for this moment. We're just going to mall to have a little fun, yet she's dressed to kill."Yeah, we must enjoy the following days
After the day when Mrs. Cambri was killed, I'm so furious. I'm furious by the fact that I don't possess the ability to save her and his son from death. I feel so hopeless and weak. "AAAARRRGGHH!" I shouted while kicking my bed and throwing everything I can hold. I don't even know the things I'm throwing away; all the I know is that I need to release the anger I'm feeling right now. "D*mn it! D*mn it!" I shouted repeatedly. I almost bang my head to the walls because of frustration. I feel my hands getting numb but I can't stop. I can't control myself and it feels like I need to create more things that can hurt me. The sound of crashing glasses and falling books filled the entire room. My sight looks blurry, maybe because of the tears my eyes kept releasing for minutes. My feet...hurts? Or numb? I don't know. I can't even explain what I feel right now. I know that I have
I always think why I was born in this country. Sometimes, I wish I live somewhere peaceful, somewhere that law is fair, unlike here in Felghana.I know that people should be nationalistic, and that they should love their own country, but how can you love your own country if it doesn't love you?"Argh, stressful," I said out of nowhere while lying down in my bed. I just woke up but I feel so exhausted like I already did tons of work.While lying in my bed, what happened yesterday comes back in my mind. I remember how Kate holds my hand, and how soft her voice even if it is over the line. I remember how her eyes look at me with so much... affection?I shook my head. That's not a right thing to think. Maybe I was just over-acting yester
"Hey, Kate. What's up?" I asked her when I finally get over my emotion. The feeling earlier stopped, maybe because I forced myself to do it so."Nothing special," she answered. "By the way, are you okay now?""Huh? Of course, I am. Why wouldn't I?" I asked her.It's too late before I realized that I sound so defensive. I almost shout when I answered her."Okay. I'll just agree with what you said even if I'm not convince," she said before letting out a sigh."Why did you call me, by the way?" I asked Kate to change the topic of our conversation.It's a bit unusual that Kate is calling me in the middle
"I don't know that you have that kind of past, Casy," Kate said."I just tell that story to the people close to me. Actually, Dhaile is the first one whom I told that story," I replied. "That's kinda terrifying, and also traumatic, but atleast I already overcome that," I added."That's sure traumatic. Imagine, a seven year old will witness that kind of scene. That will give fear to that child," Unah said."Let's just forgot about it," I said. "Do you have any more questions, Kate? We can help you as long as we know the answer," I told her."Well, let me see," she posed like she is thinking deeply about something. "Hmm, I can't think of any questions. What about telling me why other Ministers after Minister Kang didn't change the law about
"I agree to what Kate said," Unah stated. "Fighting back won't help. The people with powers and money are the superior, while the others are becoming slaves and victims of their cruelty," she added.I can't believe what I'm hearing from them. It looks like they already accepted that Felghana is a cruel country because of its government."Casy, don't mind the student. Never again. It's not your obligation. Besides, God is here. He knows what is the truth," Dhaile said as she stands up."Uhm, Unah, can I use your comfort room?" Dhaile asked."Oh yes. Just enter that way and you will see a blue door. That's the comfort room. The switch for the lights are inside," Unah answered."Thanks," Dh
There's no class today but I'm so stressed. The thing that just happened days ago is still circulating inside my mind.Mrs. Cambri's depressing face is what I can see right now. After General Cleofas sent us away, Mrs. Cambri cannot help but to cry. I want to tell her that we can still do something in order to save her son's life, but after the words of surrender came out from her mouth, I know that she already accepted her son's fate."Ugh! My head hurts!" I exclaimed while touching my head. I can't focus on what I'm doing. Instead of putting my attention on making my student's grades, I'm thinking about my student, Angelo Cambri.What will happem to him? Will they execute him also?I feel distraught just by thinking abo
"Good afternoon," Mrs. Avena greeted the guard of General Cleofas' office."Good afternoon, ma'am. What can I do for you?" he asked."We want to talk to General Cleofas. May we?""I'm sorry, but those who are allowed to talk to the General are higher person only or those with permission from them."