More firmly than I could ever hold someone, I resisted his hand from touching me. Then, in an instant, doubts about my emotions began to flit across my thoughts. Will I be able to forgive Casimir even if he ultimately betrays me if he had done these things to me in the past?What if he truly did adore me? What if he was merely concerned that my presence could interfere with his efforts to avoid me? Why not...My thoughts have been filled with uncertainty, a sense of being unable to respond to some inquiries that would ultimately thwart my aims. They seem like simple questions, yet they have a perfect impact on my entire being.I never would have thought that I would be able to be this close to this individual in my current circumstances. In my first life, which I so want to be, I was even able to picture myself becoming older with this person, living in our home with him, helping him out with his responsibilities, and supporting him as we started our own family. Yet once it became awa
If my hands hadn't restrained themselves from firmly grabbing my dress one more, I would have almost asked him that. His expression seems unable to be altered. Is it appropriate for him to confess his love for this woman in front of his fiance? I'm not sure if it's right or wrong, but what matters to me is that the person he's referring to must have played some sort of role in the circumstances that led to me having to die in my previous existence. There must be a connection between the words she told him and this lady, whom he says to be gone. If I assume it to be true, then I did pass away as a result of those remarks. This woman assumes that Casimir views her as his entire world based on his behavior. I squint my eyes because I'm unsure of how I'm feeling. Suddenly, I experienced both warmth and coldness. It's strange, yet it's also the case. I can't continue living in a delusion where all I have to do is pretend everything is okay, but I also can't abandon the plans I've alread
Soon after that, I heard a knock on the door, which caused me to gasp when Casimir carried me up to the sofa and forced me to sit properly. I bite my lower lip to pretend that what I did earlier had no impact on him, but I take a long breath and simultaneously expel it to calm myself. Looking through the door, I notice Casimir conversing with an elderly butler who, based on his age, must be the main butler. Although I couldn't hear what they are discussing, I could see the elderly butler's face wasn't in good shape since he would wipe the sweat that is accumulating on his forehead while speaking to Casimir. I squint to see Casimir, but all I can make out is his back, fair skin, and a few movements from his hands. It only made my head, ache for a moment until I finally turned away from them and back to the book I had been reading before. I didn't like the feeling of being perplexed in the first place, so it only made things worse. Before I even had the thought to read from it, it has
It seemed as though I had been holding my breath ever since hearing those words from him that I was unable to breathe. What part does Auster play in all of this? Did he discuss my identity with the crown prince? Did he recognize me before we met, as a result of which he asked me to be his friend? Yet given how long we've known each other; he comes across as sincere enough that it seems implausible. I don't want to draw any conclusions just yet, but there must be something else that the young man in front of me knows that I don't. I avert my eyes to look at him, but all he did was step back and place his free hand on his waist while pushing his own hair out of his head with the other. When he grinds his teeth, I can eventually make out some veins growing on the side of his temple. I have a responsibility to take care of this. This has never been a situation where I should let go since something else must have been involved. I gaze at the young man in front of me as I take my time ca
“Ahh? What took place?" I say, placing my hand on my head. It's still dark when I look around. Did I previously fall asleep? But why do I feel as if I'm missing something as if someone had walked in and my memories became abruptly hazy?Did someone really come to see me? I notice that my hands are trembling and when I notice that the rest of my body is too, I hug my knees and rock back and forth on the bed. Even the blanket dropping to the ground could not have bothered me.My head is all that matters to me right now, and I feel confused.My head would hurt as I attempted to recall what had occurred earlier.“What happened before?” I feel as though something is missing...When I first wake up, I assume it's morning, although it's still dark outside.I’m unable to quit furrowing my brows. It feels strange because I am unable to recall anything, including how I went to sleep. Maybe it was just a nightmare, a horrible incident from the past that I don't think I remember at all.My eyes w
Presently standing before us is a young man dressed entirely in black. He's grinning, but anyone would shiver at that smile. He exudes an aura that I feel like I've seen before, but I'm not sure when or where. Although his appearance seems strange to me, his silhouette in the shadows reminded me of someone I’d seen in these past few days.Since this person isn't simply an ordinary one, we might never be able to tell if he's dangerous or just acting that way. I narrow my eyes as I motion for May to follow. But, I get the impression from this young man that he is in fact disguising his menacing aura by coming closer to us.I maintain my eyes on him and continue, "We'd like to get some outfits for an event, young Sir." I observe the young man nodding while maintaining a constant smile."Two dresses for two females then, I see." He queries.The young man merely chuckles in front of us as I respond, "No, only one, this is my servant behind me,” I totally surround May since I can sense her
The dark room echoed with a deep, low voice, similar to the one the young man in front of me had used earlier. When he finally covers it up with his garments, I can glimpse a sliver of the man's golden blonde hair as I look at him from behind.The young man is currently dressed in black, just like the Celius with whom I’m currently having a conversation.I can only see his eyes. I cannot see his other bare skin or hair. The young man who was now standing next to Celius also has these intensely dark crimson eyes.When hearing two young men who are complete strangers to me speak to one another as though we are good friends is enough to make me realize how threatening I've put myself in, I furrow my brows and narrow my gaze.Even though it's already risky, I'm still unable to walk even a small distance. I'm breathing in something that I shouldn't be breathing while my heart beats rapidly. It poses a much greater risk than dying.It's as if I've entered a different realm where I'm surroun
Huh? What happened just now? As soon as I realize that I'm lying on my bed, I furrow my brows. I take a glance at myself and see that I'm still wearing my earlier nightgown. I should be getting ready, but it seems like I've slept off. It's strange since the last time I can recall, I was standing on the balcony, and then—Ugh! I feel pain in my brain.I'm not sure what happened after that. I can only shake my head as I take off the blanket covering my lower body because of this. I heard some small giggles as I am ready to step toward my closet, which causes me to startle and then widen my eyes as I felt warm hands massage my shoulders.“Who are you?”"Take it easy, Solstice." Suddenly, I recognize the voice. I can only gaze back with narrowed eyes and one lifted brow when I turn to see who it was.“Well, Xander, you're already here.”"Dear young lady, it's better to be early than late." I briefly felt as though my head hurt after hearing those remarks, but I kept it from becoming obviou
While his other siblings are with their fathers, I am in Almier's room. Almier indeed resembles the emperor; his crimson hair and golden eyes were inherited from his father.Although he has developed into a fine young boy, he is still adorable.I looked for the others as I was carrying him, and they appeared to be doing just fine. I accompany them to the garden and tell them some tales. Naturally, as I care for the children, my husbands are by my side.It appears like they could make time for me and the infants.Although Casmir is the one who is most busy with us. When I finally finished the story, everyone, including their fathers, cheered.Despite my desire, it appears that I will only have sons for the time being. I grinned at that notion and couldn't help but see how my spouses are grinning at the infants.I guess I can only love them as much as they love me right now.I am currently in my room after performing my duties as the em
I never imagined that this particular event would be used to further their integration into my life. It only makes sense that since I met them in this extremely risky way, they would eventually become more than just friends to me.I recognize a deep, low voice that says, "Let this young woman go, Xavier," which turns out to be Terion, a young man. His eyes and hair were both green. He continues to sigh while keeping his eyes fixed on me.When he finally turned to face the men next to him, he asked, "Does your heart race like mine when you've seen this lady?" while still holding his chest. They all appear to be looking in my direction as I watch them all nod in response to his query.As soon as he remarked, "You are indeed someone that we can't predict, now off you go," he opened the closed door and pushed me away from them.My eyes enlarge, yet I get a strange feeling about them. I'm not sure why, but out of nowhere, I experienced a strong pang of nostalg
I was aware that everything happens for a purpose, but doesn't the fact that these three got lost while searching for a stunning maiden simply lead their family to worry?I find myself sighing. They needed to be saved.They appeared frightened as if they had encountered a ghost by the time I had already spoken to them.Yet they appear expensive and descended from a noble family based on their attire.“Oh, sorry about your ---”Since I initially felt that they were superior to me in some way, I was about to apologize to them.Since the moment I was born, they have worn fine clothes that I have never owned. But it seems that I only admire them from a distance.I suddenly realized when I looked at my clothes that they were still valuable despite not being as pricey as the ones these three are wearing.It's because of my mother, who even attempted, to give me this clothing. I was aware that, for the time being, I could
I instantly made it a point to illuminate the red light with that, and by doing so, I spoke of the final spell I had previously learned. I utilized every last bit of my might to do this.I've known this spell for as long as I can remember. The spell of reformation.Then, after a few more seconds, the red glow that had been enveloping the dark, stormy clouds started to become white. At this point, I had no idea that I would be crying so much.When I do, the creature that had been claiming to be the real thing has already vanished into the light, and I can see Ravia's smile when I look at the true soul behind it.Her final words before disappearing with this great light were, "At last, I'm freed, thank you."I've already ascended to the highest point in the sky when I look at it. However, when I glance below, the Alchemist and the high priest are already in its grasp, along with the others, and its bright light has already pierced through their heart
“Lily, we must visit that location now or never; I must face...”“Before you leave, Solstice, I must tell you something.” I had no idea that Lily would suddenly say something that would almost make me reconsider everything.Before I can blink, Claudius' warm hands are resting on top of mine, and I notice a softer version of his previous smile.As soon as we were ready, we instantly teleported to the location where everything was happening, and before my very eyes, I witnessed my allies and enemies squaring off against one another.The only distinction is that they are already focused on me.When the Alchemist said, "Well if it wasn't the missing Wiccer, too bad that you're not the real anymore," I couldn't help squinting my eyes.I've witnessed a lot of things pass away in before my eyes, and this time I won't allow it to happen again because in the past I was unable to pass away.I stared at the Alchemist and
“We need to move right away as I noticed a bright red light illuminating the area of the sky where Lily is forcing us to perform.”“We have to act this way for no reason.”“We had to project the same thing because we couldn't just envision something like this. We had to move as quickly as we could before anything got in the way.”“What do you suppose this is?” I enquire "This is the holy trinity, Solstice," and Lily merely groaned in response.I've mastered that spell in the past, and I did it just before I was laid to rest in my casket. Three things must happen for one to eventually change the entire universe to their liking.When I was younger, I wanted the world to be informed and free from damage if I couldn't pass away. But it appears that as time has passed, that wish is fading.It has been put to the test throughout time, therefore I assume it has a shelf life.I couldn't help but
Even though we were already getting close to our goals, I didn't even hesitate to do that one thing when I knew he would be that way.Ravia might have been easily killed at that point, but I knew better.Even if we succeeded, a member of my ally would have to give his life to accomplish that goal, and I cannot permit that to happen.Not after I had already saved him from the fall.I sigh as I glance at Claudius sitting next to me. I finally succeed in starting a fire after we are inside of this cavernous area.I couldn't help but caress this young man's face and hair as his head rested on my legs while I stared at him. As I ask Caslian about this place he made, we were in this location just a short while ago.Even though Claudius had already stopped bleeding from his mouth, he was still tossing and turning in his sleep.It seems as though he had a nightmare. As soon as I realized this was going to happen, I couldn’t help but wor
Before anything further could happen, I grabbed Claudius by both cheeks to feel his warmth. His sweet gazes and loving nostalgia are palpable to me.For the sake of our reunion and preserving her, we shouldn't be calm, but I couldn't even imagine myself not acting in this way.As soon as I recognized the Claudius I had met and who had since entered my life, I hugged and kissed him.Aside from Celius, he was the first to cause me this much anxiety.I can see that the two were able to render Levine asleep by the time the dazzling light had already vanished.I can see nothing except us and Claudius' improvement when I glance around. I couldn't help but focus my vision to look for the alchemist.Zeiron, however, had already replied, "He escaped after that light came out of nowhere," as I was about to ask the two.I managed to say, "I see," at the door of this facility without even batting an eye.When I turn to face Claudius again,
Since I am unable to deny that we are currently in the devil's den, it didn't even take longer when I moved.We already had to deal with the Alchemist, the devil that the two conspirators had. We were surrounded by these creatures in this enormous hall, which reminded me of the imperial family's ballroom.Although they are all donning black and white coats, some of them were simply donning experimental attire.I merely narrowed my eyes because I couldn't even feel the want to throw up at this moment. I couldn't help but wonder about Claudius when I turned to glance around and noticed that my fellow soldiers were acting similarly.You all came here this time, so. The Alchemist laughed, and Celius was the one who started the attack. "Oh, too bad I only had one creature I claimed last time, but this time, I guess it would be many now," he said.Then I was followed by Zeiron. I was aware that Auster and the others had been carrying out their obligation