Amber's P.O.V
I sit on the bed fully unclothed as an overwhelming feeling of embarrassment and shame wash over me. I wipe away some tears that had fallen as I quickly grab my clothes and change into them before stammering out of the room. As I make my way through the halls, I desperately try to find someone that I know as more tears start to fill my eyes. I feel so dirty, so pathetic, so used and unwanted. I didn't think that if Sam were to use me that I would feel this way. I thought I would be happy and proud of myself for getting the guy I so desperately wanted. But I don't feel that way at all, I feel so naive. I can’t believe I allowed this to happen. As I push past a group of drunken people who were grinding against each other, I eventually spot Nina straddling Jack as they interlock lips with each other. Despite not wanting to see or interact with Jack in this moment I desperately need to speak to Nina so that we can leave. I couldn’t stand to be here even a second longer. "Nina, can we please go?" I sniffle as I go up to her before tapping her on the shoulder. I stand a few steps behind her, waiting patiently for her to respond as I keep my head down in efforts to hide my tears. She soon turns around, having me lift my gaze to see her blood and sunken eyes. . "Hey biitchh what happened with you and Sammy?" She slurs, her face lighting up with excitement as she attempts to stand but instead stumbles to the ground. "Please, can we just go?" I question as tears brimmy eyes. "Amber? Are you crying?" Jack asks as he grabs my chin before turning my head and forcing me to look at him.His eyes analyze every feature of my face before scoffing and forcefully pushing my head away from him. I immediately wiped away a tear that had fallen as I see Sammy coming towards me. I thought he was going to come and spark a conversation with me. But instead, he walks right passed me like I didn't exist and sat by his friends before taking a hit of the blunt that had just gotten passed to him. Jack then leaves our area before going over to where Sam and the other guys are.
I watch as Sam whispers something to Jack, causing Jack to laugh slightly to himself. They both then look over at me before shaking their heads and going back to smoking. More tears threatened to fall as Sam just confirmed all of the negative thoughts that were forming in my head.
"Nina get up, we're going." I say as I try to hold back my tears.
Nina soon start's to realize that I was upset, having her quickly oblige before stumbling out of the house with me by her side. I grab the keys that were in her purse as I swing her arm around my shoulder, helping her into the car. As I begin to drive away from the busy party I couldn’t help but break down from my incredible sense of stupidity. I did not think that being with Sammy would cause me to feel like this.This is what I always wanted so why do I feel like I just made the biggest mistake of my life??
"You're so stupid Amber!!!! How can you be so fucking stupid?!!” I yell at myself as tears continue to flow. Realizing that I wasn’t alone, I push away my urge to scream before looking over at Nina to see that she was asleep. I begin to grow thankful for this because I didn't want to answer any questions or even speak about what the fuck just happened. We eventually arrive at my house, having me go to wake up Nina as I didn’t want to carry her in.She very drunkenly sits her body up before trudging her way into my house. I slowly and carefully guide her through the foyer before leading her into the downstairs restroom where she immediately falls to her knees before puking in our toilet. I release a huff of air, putting my problems to the side I go to hold her hair up for her, not wanting her to spoil her perfectly curled hair with vomit.
As I stood behind her, I couldn’t help the tears that fell as more thoughts of what just happened between me and Sam fill my head. "I’m such a fucking idiot.” I mumble to myself as I close my eyes and replay everything that just happened over and over again. Nina looks over at me for a split second before gagging and quickly turning to puke again. "Is everything alright?" My mom questions in fake concern as she walks into the restroom. I inhale a Sharp breath, growing agitated by her presence and passive-aggressive remarks as I keep my attention away from her. If you want us to get out, just say that. Her face scrunches up in disgust as she cringes at the piercing stench of vomit. "Mom everything's fine, just go back to bed." I say as I wipe away my tears to avoid any further conversation with her. "Honey, you're crying." She points out as she walks further into the space. "MOM! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!" I yell, growing overwhelmed as I brush past her before running upstairs and leaving Nina alone in the guest bathroom. I run into my room with tears blurring my vision as my emotions begin to feel completely overwhelming for me. Anger, frustration, shame, and embarrassment continue to flood my consciousness all at once, causing me to internally scream as if I just needed some type of release from all of these uncharted emotions. My eyes scan my room hysterically as I look for something, anything that could possibly take this edge off. I begin to rummage through my drawers, completely emptying all of my clothes as I search desperately for my hidden stash of pills. I go through each drawer, creating a huge mess as I eagerly try to find something to relieve me of the panic attack that I feel beginning to arise. After searching every possible crevice of my room, more anger starts to flood through my body as I already knew my mother had taken them. Feeling blinded by rage I find myself grabbing onto a glass vase on my dresser before completely throwing it across my room in a fit of anger. Tears stain my cheeks as I bring myself over to my long body mirror in order to face my reflection. My hair is completely disheveled, mascara has completely tainted my face and my lips are swollen and bruised. More shame and anger fill my spirit, having me immediately kick my mirror in response, causing my reflection to immediately shatter and fall to my feet. “I hate myself.” I cry My thoughts get interrupted by the series of notifications being pinged to my phone, having me immediately go to check it.@sammywilkins: @babyamber, you were such a good fuck. I had fun spanking you, hope we can do it again sometime.😏 Panic immediately starts to fill my bloodstream as my body begins to involuntarily shake while my breathing grows hollow. Hundreds to thousands of hate comments begin to fill the thread, having more and more tears fill my eyes as I begin to read over them.@queenCarastella: fucking slut.@carsenscurse: wow, your so disgusting. Go kill yourself already.@dvmn_alexis: if you were to die nobody would miss you. @lovevictoria: wait… isn’t that the same girl who called me a prostitute for KISSING someone? Lol look who’s the prostitute now bitch🤣🤣🤣 I hate myself, I went and gave my innocence to some boy who had no feelings for me at all. And then he goes and does this? Blasts it all over social media for everyone to judge me and make fun of this mistake?! Without thinking I immediately go to punch my wall with full force, all my emotions flood through my body only fueling my enraged fit. Flashbacks of me and Sammy continue to cloud my mind and I found myself not being able to stop. Blood seeps from my hand as I fall onto the ground, crying and screaming out from the physical and emotional pain that I am in. My body felt weak but I somehow managed to pull myself up and onto my bed. More tears fall as I cradle my bruised and swollen hand. Nothing is worse than the intense feeling of wanting to die. As I close my eyes in attempt to finally get some sleep from this horrific night, I then hear a door open and then slam shut from downstairs. The sound of heavy footsteps doesn’t go unnoticed as I listen to the trail growing closer and closer to my room. Within seconds the door to my bedroom is flown open and that’s when I see two tall figures standing infront of my door. "Fucking whore." One deep voice says before stepping forward, coming into perfect view.Amber's P.O.V "Jack please just go away I'm not in the mood." I sniffle as I try to hide the tears that were streaming down my face. Jack looks around my room, noticing all the glass and clothes scattered around the floor along with the fresh holes that were punched into the wall. "What the fuck did you do?" He asked referring to my room. "Jack, please just go away." I ask as I wince in pain from my now bloody and bruised hand. The other figure that I was not able to see chuckles deeply before stepping forward. Sam? Why is he here? It’s bad enough that I have to deal with Jack's bullshit but I really don’t want to have to put up with him too. "You really that mad at me baby ?" He asks in an incredibly condescending tone. "Come on, don’t be mad. You still look so sexy, just forget about what happened, I can make it up to you." He says while looking my body up and down with a sense of desire. "Jack, why is he here?
Amber's P.O.V "Wake up!" I hear Nina say, slightly awakening me from my slumber. Her voice sounds hoarse and somewhat raspy, almost as if she had been screaming for five hours straight. The sound takes me slightly off guard as it’s completely different from her typical voice; but I know it's because she's been drinking heavily and throwing up all night so it should return to normal in no time. "I'm up." I slightly croak as I sit myself up in the bed. My voice was also strained due to all of the screaming and crying that I had done last night. "What happened to your face?" Nina questions somewhat bluntly. "Nothing." I dismiss, not really wanting to talk about last night's events. I knew that if I told her what actually happened she would confront Sammy and Jack. And truthfully, I'm too scared of what they might do to me if I tell anyone and risk pissing them off. "Okay well, what about your hand? Or your foot? Or y
Ambers P.O.V "Amber, finally. You’ve been in there for so long.” Mia exclaims as I take my seat down next to her. "Sorry. My bad.” I say with a shrug as I shove a few Sour Patch Kids in my mouth. "Yeah, well I just checked my Twitter page and- uh…have you been on there recently?" She asks, lifting her eyebrow at me as she appears to be slightly puzzled. My expression immediately changes, having me grow extremely concerned as I begin to remember everything people were saying about me on that app last night. "No." I say as I slowly pull out my phone before opening the Twitter app. Instant regret immediately rose in my chest as my Notifications center was filled with five hundred plus comments filled with hate. With every comment that I read, my self-esteem seemed to drop lower and lower. As I continue to scroll through all of the nasty words directed towards me, I find myself stopping as two comments in particula
Amber's P.O.VThe rest of the class period was a blur. I didn't take any notes or listen to anything that the teacher was saying as I instead chose to drown everything out with music. As I make my way down the halls in search for Nina I could hear many of the students whispering about me, which I tried desperately to ignore but I couldn't. I couldn't get over the fact the everyone hated me or the fact that I know that everyone's talking shit about me, even the teachers. But even with all of this, my mind kept going back to one thing...Jack. What did he mean when he said "might just have to give you another one" ? Was he going to hurt me again? I don't know what it is about Jack, he's so rude towards me but he also intrigues me at the same time. I don't understand what it is, or why I seem to get jealous around him but I don't like it. I don't like that I have this weird type of physical reaction towards him. All he does is hurt me either emotionally or physically ! He's
Amber's P.O.V As soon as I make it to my room I immediately close my door, not wanting to see Jack again. But within seconds of doing so he immediately comes bursting through my door. "Jack? What are you doing?! Get out. " I say as I stare up into his dark eyes. A smirk appears on his face as he starts taking a few steps towards me, causing me to take steps back. I look up at him completely baffled by what he was doing but secretly, a small part of me was intrigued. My back soon hit the hard wall behind me, trapping me between him. My body immediately heats up due to the close proximity, having me hold my breath as he stares down at me with a look of intensity. "Honestly... Amber." He starts, having me stare at him in curiosity and confusion. "I don't think you want me to leave." He says, as he grabs onto my chin, exposing my neck as he cranes my head up to look at him. "Jack-" I start before being i
Amber's P.O.V{Next day} I slowly awaken to see that Jack was no longer in bed with me. A small sense of sadness takes over me at the thought of Jack leaving me here alone but I immediately disregard that thought as I didn’t want to spoil my uplifted spirits already. My sore body stretches itself against the mattress as the sound of my phone buzzing catches my attention. From Jovana💓: hey love!! Do you want to ride together to school today? A smile immediately makes it’s way onto my face as I read the text sent to me but then I am quickly overcome by a feeling of guilt. Wait? Jovana won’t be upset that I hooked up with Jack right? She said that they aren’t together and are only friends with benefits so maybe she won’t mind. Maybe I should just tell her what happened when I got home last night. It’s not like I even meant for this to happen, everything just unraveled so quickly. I’m sure she would understand, besides it’s better to just be honest. I jus
Amber's P.O.V This can’t be real, I have to be hallucinating. Jack can't be trying to get with Andrea…not her of all people. He just hooked up with me not even twenty-four hours ago and I know for a fact that he was with Jovana too so it’s not like he’s been going unsatisfied. I don’t understand, maybe he's just one of those people who has to get laid every night. "Can you stop staring at us like some freak?" Jack calls out, snapping me out of my thoughts. I look around confused, hoping that he wasn’t referring to me but seeing as we were the only ones in the hallway it was inevitable. "W-what?" I ask, causing Jack to slightly grow amused by my behavior. "Did I stutter?" He asks in a somewhat harsh tone, taking me by surprise.I honestly don’t know what I was expecting.Obviously I knew Jack would never be nice to me but he could at least be cordial, especially after last night. "Go fuck yourself Jack." I say, feelin
Amber's P.O.V "Okay but is it cool if I drive us? I really want to take my car." I ask. I think it’ll be safer for me to drive myself because I might need to leave the party early if anything happens. "Come on. I can already tell you are going to get fucked up and not be able to drive. Plus, I want you to have a good time tonight." She says, laughing as she shrugs off the suggestion. I laugh as I think about the fact that she was probably right considering the fact that I really wanted to drink tonight. "I guess you're right." I say, realizing it would probably be best if she were to drive herself. "Okay, I’ll come pick you up later tonight." She says having me nod my head in agreement. "Okay, sounds good!” I say as Jovana pulls up to my house. "Bye love, I’ll see you later." She says, having me wave her goodbye as I exit her car. Jovana then drives off, having me immediately go inside and run straight
Jack’s P.O.V Smoke flies throughout the dark and rotted room as we ascend from the safe, having our vision be momentarily blinded. I quickly turn off my flashlight before switching on the laser sight to my gun as we cautiously go to make our escape. As we maneuver our way throughout the burnt structure the loud sound of bullets flying seems to cease, allowing the space to grow eerily silent. The addictive feeling of adrenaline rushing through my bloodstream sends my senses into a heightened state as Zac and I continue to sweep each space in which we walk into. “Rocco, copi?” Zac whispers into the radio attached to his vest as we bring ourselves into a secluded area of the barely standing estate.(Rocco, do you copy?) Static fills the space, having us both curse silently as Rocco was our emergency escape plan. Zac releases a frustrated breath of air as he turns his radio off once again, having him go to raise his gun in the process. As Zac
Jack's P.O.V "I swear I'm going to slit Luca's fucking throat if there's nothing here." Zac spits, as he shuffles in his seat, seemingly tense. I look outside my passengers side window at the dark plot of land, seeing the semi burnt and demolished property. Zac cracks his neck, trying to cope with all of the adrenaline pumping through his bloodstream as he continues to eye down the abandoned estate. "Did he ever say who sent him to collect information?" I question out. Before Zac can answer he is interrupted by the sound of his radio going off, allowing us to hear the static voice of his family's men on the other side. "Clear." Zac immediately takes action, having him quickly jump out of the car with angry footsteps as I go to reload my gun. I quickly hop out of the SUV before going to stand beside Zac, mimicking his pace. "He gave me a fake name. I looked into them, they don't ex
Gianna's P.O.V I sit in complete boredom as I stare down at the professor as she continues her long summoner about physics, no longer finding interest in her words. My eyes slowly find their way over to the empty seat beside me, having a sense of sadness fill my being as I look over at where Amber once used to sit. I feel like such a failure. The sound of the professor dismissing the class snaps me out of my thoughts, having me quickly go to collect my belongings before exiting the classroom. As I make my way through the crowded halls I decide to pull out my phone in order to text Heidi. Queen Heidi👑🥰To Queen Heidi👑🥰: Hey babes! Can I come over? I need to talk to you. Not delivered Frustration immediately wells its way into my chest as I watch my text fail to send due to its lack of service. What the fuck?!!!Why are all of my texts and calls still not going through?
Amber's P.O.V My eyes slowly open to reveal the same godforsaken cell that I've been kept in for what feels like weeks now. It's always the same. Wake up, cry, eat, sleep, repeat.It never changes. A part of me is grateful that I've been placed here because I no longer have to deal with the nonsense of the guards or any of these psychopathic people. But the other part of me is petrified as I know that I'm just here to await my inevitable demise. Slowly, I sit myself up against the hard mattress, feeling my entire body ache as I go to rub my stomach that was now holding my unborn child. A small tear begins to form as I continue to think about all of the terrible outcomes that will take place once I give birth. "I'm so sorry I can't protect you." I whisper to myself, hoping that my child would miraculously be able to hear me. "Mommy loves you very much. Don't ever forget that." I cry, feeling myself become overtaken with e
Giannas P.O.VThe bright sunlight spills into our hotel suite, causing me to slowly awaken. My eyes flutter open, having me look across the room to see that the other queen sized bed was empty and no longer being occupied by Jovana's sleeping form. I slowly rise from my spot on the bed before bringing myself into the living room area of this huge suite. As I walk over to the sofa, I notice Jovana already seated as she scrolls through different shows to watch on the huge flat screen tv. "Goodmorning." I greet as I sit myself down on the opposite end of the couch. "Finally, you're awake!" She says as she turns the tv off, now giving up on what to watch. "I was thinking that maybe we should visit that beach club that our Uber driver from yesterday was talking about. I looked up the empress hotel and their parties look out of this world." She says somewhat excitedly. I nod my head at her words having me look down at m
VDA: These are not real nightclubs in Las Vegas.Gianna's P.O.V "Please fasten your seatbelts. We will begin our descend shortly and welcome to fabulous Las Vegas." The flight attendant says over the loud intercom. A small wave of excitement begins to overtake me as I secure myself within my designated seat.I'm going to find you Amber.No matter what it takes. "Fucking finally! I feel like we've been on this plane forever now!" Heidi whines, causing me to roll my eyes at her dramatics. "It's only been an hour." Jovana states before I have the opportunity to do so myself. "An hour too long. I'd much rather have flown first class." Heidi continues to complain as the plane begins to slowly lose its altitude. "Heidi, we already went over this. If we fly first class then we-" I start to begin before being cut off. "Then we risk being caught by my fath
A Few Hours Later Amber's P.O.V I sit on the hard bed springs for what felt like hours, having hot tears burn my cheeks as I continue to stare blankly at the other side of the room. Why am I here? How long will they keep me here? Why would Jack let this happen to me? Why is this happening to me? Does he actually enjoy having me here? Will Toro actually help me get out of this place? Will I ever get my freedom back? If I never would've went to that party , would this still be happening to me? If I would've listened to Jovana and stayed home that night, would I still be here? Would everything be different if I never would've went to the police? Would I still be here if I never would've missed Jack ? I hate myself. How did I end up in this situation? How will I get out of this situation? I bring my hands up to my forehead, feeling the heavy chains on my wrist as I attempt to massage out the feverish headache in which I was feeling. Harsh hiccups rack my
Amber's P.O.V An involuntary yelp escapes me as Toro's rough hands wrap around my arm. He pulls my body to his side rather aggressively before bringing me towards the only door in this cursed room. My body continues to tremble as he leads me down the narrow halls; having more tears blur my vision as thoughts about what I just witnessed continue to cloud my mind. "Please just let me go! I-I p-promise I don't know a-anything! I told Zac everything I know! Please... you have to b-believe me." I say, begging with the man for dear life as he continues to take me to the unknown. Toro says nothing in response, not even sparing me a single glance as he continue to drag me down the hall towards the elevator in which I originally came from. Uncontrollable sobs continue to escape me as images of Violets blood spilling into the carpet continue to haunt me.I can't believe she's dead. I can't believe Zac just killed her right in front of me
Gianna's P.O.V It's been nearly two months since ambers disappearance and no one seems to know anything. The police have been absolutely no fucking help in this and Xion claims to not have any information that could possibly help me find her. I just don't understand how this could've happened. I've searched the entire internet for information on Zac and his family but I can never find anything useful.The internet makes it seem as if his family are charitable saints that own legitimate businesses and donate to children's hospitals. It's all bullshit! A loud groan escapes my lips as I slam my computer shut in frustration. I push my body off of my bed's frame before going over to my purse and quickly retrieving my dab pen. I inhale a deep breath of smoke before exhaling and releasing all of the built up tension within me. As I stand in the corner of the space my eyes wander over to ambers old side of the room, making me think back to the conversation