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2021-11-23 15:55:10“Why didn’t anyone tell me all the council members were Magicians?” I managed to bite out, trying to control my rapid breathing. “And lift the damn void!”
Alastair appraised me for a moment, completely ignoring my question. I wondered if he was taking in the crazy look I in my eyes and debating whether it was safe for me to have access to my magic again.
I honestly didn’t care what he thought right now as I stared him down, almost daring him to challenge me.
His eyes twinkled as he pulled on his own magic, and the pressure of the void eased off my shoulders.
My mind quickened, allowing me to push my magic out into Raena once more, seeking her injuries. They healed before my eyes. I had never actually looked when I had healed anyone. It was strange watching the bruises fade to green, then yellow and then disappear and see the cuts magically seal up, all scars gone.
My teeth snapped together, the pain excruciating
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