“Blake, where are we going?”
He didn’t even pause, continuing in his horse’s canter, as he rode further and further ahead of Midnight who was being as careful as possible. I held on for dear life, letting the movement of the horse influence my own, but it was still a very uncomfortable ride. I had never sat on a horse before, let alone ridden one while it was moving at speed. To say I was terrified was an understatement.
Branches from the trees surrounding us loomed so close. I even had to duck to avoid a few. Soon enough the forest began to clear and we rode out onto an open plain. Nothing could be seen for miles around us apart from a few trees scattered here and there.
A smile appeared on my lips - freedom. For so long I had been trapped within a city that did not seem to care much for me. I had never before ventured this far from Verdana, preferring to stay close to what I knew and close to the meagre food that I could scavenge. It was by far the most beautiful thing I had seen in all my years. I allowed the sight of the forever-lasting plain to simply wash over me, hungrily soaking in the view with my weary eyes.
The green, rolling landscape continued on for as long as my eyes could see. The grass blew softly in the breeze, the short stems underneath Midnight’s hooves bending under our weight. Everywhere I looked, the grass was endless. A sea of green. It felt like we were swimming through it. It moved with the wind, dancing and swirling around us, happy.
Blake did not seem to care much for the view, racing ahead. The only sign I had that I was following in the right direction was the cloud of dust that was settling on the ground and the distant, shimmering sight of his retreating figure. I directed Midnight along the path, which Blake’s horse had left behind, a clear indent left behind from the horse’s powerful strides.
I didn’t know whether I was pleased or worried when Blake finally stopped by an outcrop of trees, the walls of the city far behind us. By the time Midnight and I had caught up to him, he already had a fire set up and had some food cooking. Night was beginning to descend and a cold chill was creeping through to my bones. This shocked me. It had only felt like an hour or two but really the entire day had slipped by. What had I seen? Which way had we come? I couldn’t even remember the way back and a sense of panic began to invade my chest. How would I ever find my way back if I needed to? Would the horse’s trail through the sea of grass still be visible?
“You’re going to have to do better than that if you want to actually survive this trip,” Blake scoffed tauntingly as I slid gingerly off Midnight, all of my bones aching from the journey.
I stared at him in anger, but I was too sore and too tired to argue the point. Deep down I knew that what he was saying was probably true, but he didn’t make it easy.
It wasn’t fair. How was I expected to keep up when I didn’t know what I was doing? It was as if he expected me to just be able to do it – without practice, without training, without having ever done anything like this before? I wasn’t like that. Sure I was a fast learner, but it took me a few times to perfect something.
“Sorry I’m not perfect at everything,” I mumbled under my breath. I wanted him to know how I felt, but at the same time I was scared of his anger.
“Excuse me?”
“Nothing.”
“That’s what I thought,” Blake replied angrily. I turned to watch him fiddling with the large rolled up bundles on the back of Blaze’s saddle, and felt the anger ebbing away to leave curiosity.
I stretched my aching muscles slowly, watching him unroll the bundles on the ground to create two makeshift beds. One lay close to the flames and the other a few metres away, completely on the other side of the fire.
Blake silently offered me some food and pointed to the bed farthest away from the flames. I looked at it curiously and then at the proximity of his bed to the fire.
“I can handle it.”
Shrugging him off, I sat gingerly on my bed and ate the warm soup he had given me. It tasted earthy and like a plant I had once stolen from the market, its bright orange colour looked inviting.
“Pumpkin.”
“Sorry?” I asked looking up at Blake.
“It’s pumpkin soup.”
“Oh… thanks.”
The warm liquid seemed to heat me through, right to my toes and I smiled as I tucked myself down into my bed.
It was at that point that I remembered the small packages that Gareth had handed me. I stretched awkwardly to try and grab at my pack, the strap just out of my reach. It made my back spasm, and a stabbing pain enter my upper thighs.
With a small groan, I eased myself from my bed, shaking in the cold. I snatched up the pack and scrambled back into the warmth of the blankets.
The brown paper wrapped packages still lay on top and I pulled them out carefully and lay them on top of my legs. They were relatively small, except one, but were wrapped so perfectly I didn’t want to disturb them.
Finally unable to contain the curiosity, I grabbed at the closest package and ripped off the paper hurriedly. It was an exquisite hairpiece that glinted in the firelight. I picked it up carefully and delicately turned it over in my hand. Small stones lined the piece of metal, which were about the length of my small finger. A small flower made of luminescent purple stones sat up one end, perched on top of other smaller ones in a dark forest green. I now believed I had seen the most beautiful thing in the world. This far exceeded the raw beauty of the plains. It was simply gorgeous and surely far too expensive for me to have.
I placed it carefully back on top of the blankets and picked up another parcel. This one was slightly longer and slimmer. I cautiously pulled away the paper only to see that I hadn’t needed to be so careful. I pulled out a dark piece of plastic and I stared at it curiously. I twirled it around in my hand plucking at the little tongues of plastic that was coming out of the thicker side. I had no idea what it was but it made an enjoyable sound when I ran my finger along the many fingers that lined up.
“It’s a comb,” Blake pointed out grumpily, his face slightly amused and curious. “It’s for your hair,” he added, picking up my empty food bowl and taking it away.
I glanced down at the thing he had called a comb and twirled it around in my hand again before pulling out my hair and running the comb through it carefully. It pulled sharply against my hair, but with some persistence I found that it made it soft and took out many of the tangles.
It seemed like a weird thing that I had never come across a comb, but in the orphanage we had brushes, and they were always old and missing some of the bristles.
I tucked the comb away into a front pocket of my pack and turned to the last package. It was larger than the other two and slightly heavier. It was shaped like a large box and I decided to place in back in the pack. I wanted to have the surprise of opening it up on another night.
The hairpiece sparkled in the light of the fire, bringing my attention back to it. I smiled, but felt sad that I had left Gareth behind. His cheery demeanour was something that would make even the worst situation bright. I put the hairpiece away, wrapping it in one of the spare pieces of clothing in my pack. It was too beautiful to break or scratch.
Blake was watching me with his annoyed face in place and I rolled my eyes and poked out my tongue to him. To my surprise, a small flicker of a smile crossed his lips in response, but the emotion never reached his eyes.
“Get some sleep,” Blake said bluntly, tucking himself into his own bed.
“No… wait, I was hoping you could…”
His brow crinkled. “Could do what exactly? If you think I’m going to read you a bed time story for you to get to sleep, forget it.”
His tone and words only infuriated me and I rolled over to face away from him. He was mocking me, trying to be spiteful. It felt like someone punched me in the stomach. It must have showed on my face, because a tinge of regret flickered through his flaming eyes.
“Don’t worry, forget I said anything.”
“Kida…”
“No! Just go to sleep.”
I heard him take a deep breath. He released it slowly as if trying to calm himself down, and then mumbled a complaint - something about girls with their issues.
I closed my eyes and tried to stop the tears that were welling up in my eyes. Blake’s attitude was what made me angry, and even worse, upset. I was infuriated to think that this would be my life for the next few days, weeks, months… however long it was going to be. I was angry. I was scared. And to be with him, through it all - I was going to go mad. What had I ever done to upset him or make him so angry with me? Maybe it was because I had stolen from him. Maybe he simply didn’t trust me, and I could understand that to a certain extent, but he didn’t know the reasons behind why I did what I did.
Maybe it was because he had been burdened with me instead of being with Nyssa. Maybe that was it. He was supposed to be escorted a powerful magician, not some nobody from nowhere.
Or maybe it was simply because of who and what I was, an abandoned orphan – a street rat.
I cringed at the thought. I remembered the way Alana’s face had curled in disgust when she had realised. It wouldn’t surprise me if he felt the same.
I prayed to the Magician’s that tomorrow would bring a better day before I closed my eyes and tried to sleep.
The sun was beginning to rise as Blake finally woke. At first he was just a lump of materials wriggling around, but then he emerged from his bed, his hair ruffed up all over the place. If I was true to myself I could admit that this look was completely adorable, but right now I was angry. Not particularly with just Blake, but the entire set up that I had been dropped into. I had been trailing after Blake for days now heading to some place I had no knowledge of, to fulfil some plan that I knew nothing about. I was infuriated; therefore my silent treatment towards Blake was no surprise to him. I had begun my silence after that first night. He hadn’t really noticed it at the time as he had taken off with Blaze as soon as we had saddled up, leaving me behind again. When we stopped though, my frustrated silence became more obvious. I had hoped to annoy him, but it only seemed to amuse him, which made my anger bubble and roil. When he said something nasty it hit my
A loud crack ripped me from my pleasant dreams, as I lay shocked into stillness, my heart hammering in my chest. Darkness blanketed everything so I could see no further than the end of my nose. At some point in the night the fire must have gone out, leaving the night to press it’s darkness around us. My body was alert, my ears straining to hear the slightest of sounds and my eyes working furiously to adjust to the darkness. A moment later I was jerked up as a hand was curled around my mouth and I was pulled roughly from my bed. Shocked, I tried to scream but the hand gripped tighter over my face, blocking my nose and mouth. I squirmed in the strong grip that held my hands at the back of my body, frantically hoping my eyes would adjust quicker to the darkness. Escape was all my mind could comprehend at this time. A shiver ran through my muscles, paralysing them. This was all too familiar. But something felt wrong. My mind was sluggish almost, as
It seemed an age before we stopped and he dragged me off the exhausted horse. I kicked and screamed the entire way, trying to fight him off. His strong arms held onto me tightly, never releasing, never yielding to my pressure. The panic I had felt earlier, was now surging with full force, rising in my chest sure and fast. This was not how I envisioned my life. In fact it was no way near. I had to fight. I had to get away. I had to do anything to not let this happen.I had fought off the Mason all those years ago, but a rogue? A rogue was a completely different story. He was so much stronger and with his ability to change into his beast at any time, I wouldn’t be able to defend myself against his wolf.The man half dragged, half carried me to a small deserted hut that was hidden behind a large grouping of trees. Even though it seemed that no one had lived there in a long time, the place still looked neat and tidy. A small garden was blooming to the south of
I awoke to a sharp sunlight piercing into my eyes when they snapped open. The memories of the rogue’s touch and sound of his voice felt so real as if he was no longer just in my dreams. My breathing was rapid and my heart was hammering in my chest. I could have sworn he was right there, the dreams had been so real, as if he had stood above me only moments ago, ready to rape me.To the east, the sun had almost finished poking its head up over the horizon. I rolled over wearily and saw that Blake was lying on his bed, his slow, and steady breathing a good sign that he was still sleeping.In that moment, looking at him and at the ruin behind him, all I could feel was my body screaming at me, my mind beating away inside my head telling me to run. I had to get away.The feeling was so strong I was up and out of bed before I had realised what I was doing.My stomach curled with disgust and fear, grabbing at my body and leaving my heart to beat so lo
I awoke to the sun beaming directly in my face from the middle of the sky, and a still sullen Blake packing up noisily.“Wake up, time to go,” he growled menacingly. “We have slept for far too long.”He didn’t even look at me, but I noticed the dark bags that hung beneath his eyes. It sent a ping of guilt through me. He was still recovering from almost dying. Was I being completely ridiculous and selfish?He shot me a glare, his eyebrow raised at me and it quickly banished the guilty feeling within me. Nope, he was being ridiculous.With a sigh and a roll of my eyes, I forced my aching body up and packed what was left – my bed and bag. I had resigned myself to the fact that he was cold and heartless. I now felt a burning rage towards him that simmered just under the surface.He packed up the horses and we set off towards Callad.“How much longer?” I asked, gritting my teeth.With a wry s
“We welcome our new students and guests here tonight and I hope that you will treat them with the respect they deserve,” a woman said loudly with a voice that echoed pleasantly around the large dining room. She stood three seats down from me, a long flowing robe hanging off of her slim frame.The moment Blake had pulled me into the large hall I had felt completely overwhelmed. The room itself was huge. Several tall windows covered the entire wall opposite me, covered by dark, red curtains. Hundreds of students lined tables that ran parallel to the walls. There were three in total, all filled with glorious food that someone must have slaved at it all day to cook for all the students. A feast by the likes I had never seen before. My mouth was watering simply looking at all of the food and my stomach grumbled when the smell drifted to me. I had forgotten we missed lunch and now I was starving.We sat up at a high table that watched over the other three tables
I woke up the next day, my head pounding out a steady rhythm that bit with a nasty throb. Stretching out my aching muscles, the memories of last night came flooding back and my face flushed red hot when Blake came in with breakfast. I had been rather forward, once influenced by the wine, letting other uncensored parts of my mind take control. I would never let that happen again, and now I felt utterly embarrassed and ashamed. “Morning,” I mumbled softly as he closed the door with a quiet thud. Unfortunately to me, the soft thud sounded more like an explosion. I winced, my eyes squeezing shut tightly. When the pain had subsided somewhat, I rubbed my temples softly and slowly, making the ache seem more like a dull pain. Long sleeves blocked my view of Blake and my mind reeled for a moment. I looked down at his crinkled shirt that hung off my body like a bed sheet. I ran a hand through my hair frustrated until other patches of memory returned and my face flushed again.
The large double doors opened loudly as the guards pushed them with all their might. In comparison, Callie and I looked tiny standing against the huge oak doors. I suddenly felt so small. Worry entered my thoughts but I forced them away. Now was not the time to stress, especially not the headache that still hung around in my head.The room in front of me was like a giant open spread hall. A barrier encircled the entire outside wall, creating an inner arena. Behind the barrier sat several people in seats made of hard wood.In the centre, a large fighting area was encircled by another barrier, and inside that arena a lithe young girl pranced around, brandishing a sword that she wielded with ease. Her opponent, a tall burly man, defended himself against the continuous onslaught of the girl’s sword. They both twirled and danced around each other as though they were part of an extreme dance. They both had sneers on their faces, but the man oozed confidence and arrogan
When I woke, I found myself back in same room as before the ceremony. I was sprawled on the bed, my dress gone and replaced with a pair of slacks and a crisp white shirt. I moved to press my hand to my thumping head and a large, white bandage caught my eyes, making me jump. Someone had bandaged the cut on my palm. A sound caught my attention. I lifted my head slowly and finally noticed Deakin sitting silently next to me, his head buried in his hands. “Deakin?” I whispered, my voice so soft I didn’t think he would hear me. His head jerked up at the sound of my voice, his face tense and strained. He was instantly by my side, his eyes concerned. “Tynan requests your presence immediately for council,” Deakin uttered softly as if he were completely lifeless, his voice distant and cold. I groaned inwardly knowing that I could no longer refuse him – I was bound to him, forever. As the words crossed my mind the enormity of the situation sunk in, and I suddenly felt like I was drowning.
I remained silent as the maids primped and prepped me for the ceremony. Their hands deftly worked their way through my hair, untangling the knotted mess it had become, and creating a delicately, intricate style that appeared to look like rope along my spine. At one point, one of them shoved a small cup of warm liquid in my hands, hurrying my to drink it. “What is it?” I croaked, sniffing at the drink. It didn’t smell appetising at all. The maids exchanged a look, and the oldest one rose her brow at me. “It is to flush your body of seed,” she said tersely. “So tou do not become with child.” Horror must have filled my face because she gave me an apologetic look before pushing the cup in my direction again. “Best drink it fast, it doesn’t taste the best.” I downed the liquid quickly, my throat gagging on the taste and swallowed as much as I could. It tasted like a mixture of dirt and grass, but I was glad for it. I didn’t want to become pregnant with Kainen’s child. He hadn’t exactl
I had been disgraced, again, but this time I didn’t play any part in the decision. It made my stomach churn with such force that I vomited. I was careful to not be sick on myself. I didn’t need to feel any more unclean than I already did. Kainen was just a vindictive, evil creature that sought to destroy my world and everything that I cared for. A puppet for his Master, just like the rest of them. One of them had finally gone past that line and snapped it clean in half. I sought refuge in my mind and in my dreams, which jumbled together as I dove in and out of consciousness. I found myself spending more and more time reliving the moments I had spent with Deakin, who I thought was Blake, in that twisted but yet beautiful moment. Also, Amber’s thoughts on Deakin kept creeping into my mind, in particular her haunting words, which named him as Chained Man. I had no idea what that meant and for some reason my mind retreated to those memories, neither of which were too pleasant. But even
*WARNING - TORTURE AND RAPE CONTENT AHEAD. PLEASE ME MINDFUL OF WELLBEING WHEN READING* I lay still in the middle of the familiar table, my arms and legs bound to the edges so I was splayed across it. There was some kind of power holding me still; other than the immense power of my fear of course, but it was strong, stronger than anything else I had ever felt before. I closed my eyes and willed it all to be a dream, for the terrifying things around me to just drift away from me, to fall away into the nothingness of a nightmare. At least I could wake up from that and know - know it was all a dream. That it would end when my eyes opened, when the dream hit the wall that was reality. But this was my reality, a mixture of death and deceit; betrayal and lies. I could smell it even with my eyes closed, the fresh stench of death. I tried to rid myself of the reality, to enter a dream that was infinitely better. I retched, unable to stand the smell and opened my eyes to see them. Darius and
The cold was beginning to creep in and settle under my skin. The cold and the fear were my only companion for hours on end. I now knew Tynan’s tactic. He was going to leave me alone and stranded until the misery and despair overtook all other emotions. At that point, I was going to be his pawn. But I wasn’t going to let that happen. After Kenai’s death, a wave of alien emotions had overtaken my body. I lay huddled up in a corner of my cell, fluxing between fits of rage and frustration to bouts of tears and overwhelming sadness. There was a continuous aching hole in my stomach that no food or water could fill. I ate when I was giving the luxury, but otherwise I lay there, drowning in my own emotions. I was also struggling to see. My eyesight kept changing colour and strong hues blended together. Sometimes it was blurry and all I could see was bright colours, but other times my eyesight was crystal clear. I gave up trying to come up with ways to escape. I forgot to even practice pro
“Kenai,” I groaned in agony, a deep sadness burning in my heart. I cradled his head in my arms, listening to the struggling gasps as he fought to get some air. Panic forced my heart to begin beating hard within my chest. If Kenai was here, where was Jax and Tori? Had they been captured too?“Do not give in,” he begged quickly into my ear, as the brute Kainen grabbed my wrist roughly and dragged me away. He held onto me as I fought hard to escape, but my lack of energy soon had me motionless, tears streaming down my face.“No one has called me that for a long time, old man,” Dark Eyes said slowly, his tone dangerous. He stood up from his chair and looked down Kenai, a look of victory plastered on his face. “I am no longer Tynan, but their Master, just as you were once mine. Except… well, I deserve the title, where you did not.”Tynan flicked a finger towards Kenai and he was lifted up off the ground so he hung just above it. Floating in the now still air, his toes almost scraped the plu
When I awoke this time, I was lying on a hard floor, but no chains held me to the ground. I moved my aching arms and felt the smooth touch of the carpet underneath my fingertips. My mind blanched. Carpet? Where was I? Turning my neck to look, I instantly regretted it. My head thumped painfully, and searing shots of light flashed through my mind. It seemed Nyssa had put a lot of her energy into hurting me. Surprise, surprise! After all, I knew she hated me. The pain that throbbed in my head was evidence to that. But why? Had they already gotten to her? Footsteps alerted me to an approaching presence and the door creaked open. A soft swishing sound followed the footsteps that stopped by my head. A voice whispered in my ear and chills ran down my spine at her cruel words. Nyssa was taunting me, teasing me. She entered my open mind easily now that I was under the influence of the venom and Deakin’s magic and probed through my thoughts and memories again. I was forced to relive them rig
A cool, wet cloth on my skin woke me jarringly from my sleep, and I recoiled in fear. Darkness filled my vision as I waited for my eyes to grow accustomed to the limited light. My fists were clenched against my legs, ready to react. I was cowering in the corner of the dark cell, my body tight and sore. My limbs refused to move as cramp locked down hard on each muscle sending searing pain through me. After I had passed out from the torture session with Deakin, it seemed someone had moved me to a smaller prison cell than my last, with only one large steel door as the only entry and exit. A small, white gown covered the wounds on my stomach but the cuts on my arms were visible. The red, raw puckered slashes were oozing, as the shrouded person gently washed away the dried blood that was caked on my skin. I looked away, disgusted by the sight of my own body. I was disfigured and ugly. I was damaged goods. I looked up into their face and saw the bright, blue eyes. My stomach tightened as
*WARNING - DARK CONTENT AHEAD. THIS MAY BE A TRIGGER FOR VICTIMS OF ABUSE* “Strip her and tie her to the table,” the voice instructed, a sense of enjoyment coating her words. The voice seemed somewhat familiar, but the silver mystery venom and Deakin’s magic dulled my mind too much for me to focus on that one thought. I whimpered as Deakin did as he was told and pulled off my clothing, one piece at a time, his eyes never focussing on my face or on my body, but a spot just above my shoulder. At least he left my undergarments on. Rage and fear burned in my throat at his cowardice as he clamped restraints around my wrists and ankles, leaving me completely exposed but still refusing to look at the body he was revealing. It wasn’t like he hadn’t seen it before. My anger still seethed at his actions, somewhat more dulled than they normally would be. More than anything though, I felt the overwhelming shame that I had not noticed the difference. Blake never would have been so forward, nor w