A loud crack ripped me from my pleasant dreams, as I lay shocked into stillness, my heart hammering in my chest. Darkness blanketed everything so I could see no further than the end of my nose. At some point in the night the fire must have gone out, leaving the night to press it’s darkness around us.
My body was alert, my ears straining to hear the slightest of sounds and my eyes working furiously to adjust to the darkness.
A moment later I was jerked up as a hand was curled around my mouth and I was pulled roughly from my bed.
Shocked, I tried to scream but the hand gripped tighter over my face, blocking my nose and mouth. I squirmed in the strong grip that held my hands at the back of my body, frantically hoping my eyes would adjust quicker to the darkness. Escape was all my mind could comprehend at this time. A shiver ran through my muscles, paralysing them. This was all too familiar.
But something felt wrong. My mind was sluggish almost, as if my thoughts couldn’t quite link together. I blinked furiously, hoping the clear the fog that circled my brain.
In a sudden eruption of noise all around me, I could hear shouting and the horses panicked whinnies as they were grabbed and pulled around. The fire roared to life, and I blinked furiously in the suddenly light. Blake was being held by two burly men, whose faces were each covered by a hood, their muscles bulging in the effort to hold him still. My chest began to ache and a burning was making its way up my throat only making me panic more. The two men holding Blake looked familiar but my mind could not pick where I knew them.
“Hold the girl still you idiot. Let me see her face,” a smooth voice said behind me.
My heart began to race as I watched Blake’s eyes focus on me, his stare intense.
“Is she the one boss?” the man holding me asked another, his voice slow and gravelly.
A cold hand grabbed my chin, sending strange shivers down along my skin and dragged it around into the light so Blake disappeared from view and a shadowed figure stood before me. I closed my eyes, hoping that this was all a dream I would soon wake up from.
“She definitely is,” the first man answered with a small chuckle. I felt his hand caress the side of my cheek gently. A shock of electricity ran along my skin and I shivered against the warmth of his touch, my eyes opening to meet his gaze. “Such a beautiful face.”
The man lowered his eyes to mine and I saw the deep blue colour of his irises. I was immediately drawn in by the captivating colour and the way they sparkled. And in the back of my mind, they seemed somewhat familiar; even more so than the men holding Blake.
Something was going on. Why couldn’t I think straight? This damn brain fog! I knew I recognised him, but the memory seemed just out of my grasp.
“Hello beautiful, what’s your name?”
Before I could answer there was a muffled yell of pain and the man was gone, the power affecting me dissipating and leaving me feeling cold and empty.
My brain seemed to kick start as I took a gasping breath. The fog lifted from my mind as I shook my head.
Realisation slammed into me. The man from the abandoned village! The one that with the rogues. My eyes flitted to the men that surrounded us. I could feel their amusement seeping into me, their humour at our struggle. My stomach turned uncomfortably. This wasn’t going to end well.
I watched the blue-eyed man stalk over to where Blake lay on the ground, doubled over in pain. Without touching him, the man lifted Blake into the air so his face was level with his own. Blake’s feet dangled an inch of the ground, his feet grasping to find it.
“Didn’t think we would catch you, did you?”
Fear speared along my spine. Blake’s eyes crinkled in surprise, before the blank mask returned. It was a moment of lack of concentration, but the other man saw it.
“And you are?”
The man seemed bored, his attention limited when it came to Blake.
Blake’s eyes watched me, his gaze so intense I felt like it was burning me. There was some kind of meaning and emotion that he was trying to portray to me, but all I could see was the blank mask he always wore. In the back of my mind, the panic was beginning to take over. What did he want me to do?
“Aidyn.”
“Don’t lie to me,” the man spoke lowly, an agitated edge to his voice.
“Well then…It seems that you already know who I am,” Blake spat back, his eyes burning in anger.
“Don’t play games with me or I will get my men to hurt your pretty little… girlfriend over there,” the man said, his words like ice. As he spoke, the grip tightened around my arms and a hand circled around my throat, blocking off my air. I choked, trying to breathe, a burning sensation filling my lungs.
Blake’s eyes shot to me again, his face unreadable. He nonchalantly shrugged, and smirked at the man in front of him. Rage seethed along my skin as the hand around my throat tightened even further. Black spots blurred my vision as I struggled to suck in air.
“Kill her, she means nothing to me.”
I choked out in shock and rage, my chest and lungs now burning with a violent fire. Panic flared in my stomach. He was going to let me die. I tried to thrash free, but the grip around my arms was vice-like.
The man grabbed Blake’s hair, drew his face up so he couldn’t look at his feet, and whispered in his ear. Blake’s eyes widened ever so slightly, but the unconcerned look never left his face.
“Now that’s no way to treat a lady, Sloane.” The man flicked a hand into the air and the pressure around my throat released. I slumped forward and sucked in the precious air, coughing and spluttering. My throat burned with fire and pain.
“Not that you would ever be good enough for her,” the man continued with a sneer just loud enough for his words to drift over to me. There was an edge to the man’s voice, something that twisted my stomach and made my skin tingle. What was that supposed to mean? Surely I would never be good enough for him? He dropped Blake to the ground with a thud and all the men surrounding us laughed. “But you are right, I already know who you are – Fire Magician.”
There was a ripple through the men surrounding us, as if they all shivered in a cold breeze, but the night was still.
One of the hooded men moved toward Blake, forcing him upright. Blake tried to yell out to me but a magical force had covered his mouth as if an invisible hand held it.
The thug holding me tightly, whispered in my ear, his voice course and gravelly. His breath was hot on my face, the smell putrid. “We know who you are too … Kida.”
Just as he said my name, a flash of silver reflected through the night and Blake fell to the ground, his face turning white.
I tried to scream as they pulled me away from him and the blue-eyed man turned to look at me. I could now see past him to the rogue who held a bloody knife in his hand. I slumped against the hands that bound me but it only made my body seize up with pain.
I stared at Blake’s lifeless body, my own freezing in shock. I didn’t know what to think. Did I care that he was dying? After all, he hadn’t cared if they had killed me.
The entire front of Blake’s shirt was now stained with blood, which bloomed and spread across the ground.
“You are very lucky, Fire Magician,” the man with the blue eyes said a note of amusement in his voice. He spoke to Blake’s prone figure, as the rogue who had held onto Blake wiped the small knife clean. “If I had it my way, your suffering would be great. But luckily for you, my Master doesn’t care much for you, even though I am sure he would enjoy torturing you for information. Unlucky for me though… but… oh well.”
He shrugged his slender shoulders and turned away.
The man holding me back shoved me to the ground and my face hit the dirt hard. I bit down on my lip as pain racked through my body when he lifted me up.
“Behave,” the voice growled, low and dangerous. The man behind the voice grabbed the nearest horse and threw me on its back, tying me into place on the saddle.
I tried to turn and look at Blake watching the blood pool around his now still body. Warmth was spreading down my forehead and I blinked away the hot blood. It mingled with my tears and dripped dark red stains onto my clothes. A dull throb echoed in my head and I slumped on the horse in defeat. Were they going to kill me too? A shot of anger mixed with sadness flashed through me. I tried to calm my mind but felt an onslaught of emotions. Most of it had that dulled tone to it and my heart began to race when suddenly it clicked in my mind – they weren’t my emotions.
Shock coursed through my body as I sat paralysed on the horse. What was happening to me?
Blue Eyes came up to the horse that I was mounted on. He reached toward me, hesitating only a moment before he grabbed my face gently between his delicate fingers, his touch sending warm tingles across my skin. He brushed his thumb across my forehead, wiping the blood away from my eyes. His face was hidden in the shadows of his cloak but I could feel the power of his thoughts telling me to calm down and relax. Warmth radiated from my fingers and a sickening heat rolled through my stomach.
“Behave and you won’t get hurt,” he whispered seductively, the power of his voice drawing me in to him again.
I heard a sob escape my lips and I clamped them down, biting my tongue to stop myself. The warm, iron taste filled my senses and I spat my blood in his face. He stepped back, the hold he had on me, broken the moment his fingers left my cheek.
He wiped his face clean, unperturbed by my actions.
The burly man who had held me before hopped on the horse behind me. I could feel his body rubbing up against mine in ways I did not want to imagine. A churning sickness punched me in the gut.
Blue Eyes tilted his head slightly to the side, his face still hidden. I couldn’t tell what he was thinking but I could sense what he was feeling. I fought against the emotions that raged within me long enough to calm myself and focus on him. I was hit with a jumble of emotions that tangled and intertwined but all I could clearly gather from him was confusion and uncertainty. He then smiled in a way that turned my blood to ice, his words having a similar effect.
“Have your way with her, Sloane. But she better be there within the week.”
A cold fear ran through me as I felt the rogue behind me, push himself closer, his body intimately close to mine. Through his thin pants I could feel his warm skin rubbing against me, and panic made my heart race, almost drowning me in memories from my past.
His legs tightened around the horse, kicking it into action and we took off towards the now breaking dawn.
The sun was beginning to lighten the sky. Streaks of orange, pink and red hues lit up the world with fascinating colours. Had I not been stuck in this particular predicament, I would have had the time to notice it and take more care to drink in the beautiful sight of the sunrise.
But at that moment, my brain seemed to have stopped all rationale thought as the panic set in.
The man behind me wrapped his arm around my waist and I felt like screaming. My whole body was tensed, and I knew he could feel it. He was probably enjoying my fear.
“Relax,” he said to me over the gallop of the horses’ hooves on the ground, his gravelly voice sending chills down my spine.
His hand moved down to my leg to the base of my nightdress, his clammy, rough skin scraping along my leg. Trying hard to stay on the speeding horse, I slapped his hand away and moved further forward on the saddle to escape his body that pressed too close to mine. I hated how close he was and the way that it felt hard and toned against my back.
“I said relax,” he growled in my ear grabbing onto my leg with a strong unyielding grip. I could feel his claws cutting into my skin as he struggled to control his beast.
I almost whimpered out loud, unaware of what was going to happen next.
The horse ride seems to stretch out for hours as the man behind me held on to me, caressing or touching my skin lightly wherever he could. Every now and then I would quiver, unable to hold back the revulsion that was pulsing through me. The sick feeling in my stomach only grew, weighing me down and making my whole body tremble.
At times where my strength failed me, I would think about Blake and his lifeless body lying on the ground. I wondered what had happened to him. Was he dead? Or had someone found him?
Tears rolled down my cheeks as I pondered my own existence. We had not even been able to complete the task set to us. But at least I was keeping Nyssa safe. Bile rose in my throat. I was going to die for her. I wasn’t ready for that.
I felt weak; Like a child unable to feed or take care of itself. I felt like the little, scrawny girl I used to be before I had been forced to live on the streets. I no longer wanted to be that girl, but right now, on that horse, at that moment, with the rogue, I felt like that child again. So helpless and unable to muster the strength to even fight back.
I tried hard not to sleep. I could feel weariness pull at me like the strings of a puppet; dragging me and coercing me into it. But I knew if I slept, he could, and probably would, do whatever he wanted with me.
I experimented with my sudden realisation of power. During the times when he was focussed on riding more so than touching, I went over the details of the last weeks, picking up the subtle hints of this sudden epiphany. I should have noticed it sooner. But I had – and I still hadn’t known what it was. And what good would it have done?
I tried to sense his feelings with my mind, clearing my thoughts and trying to touch his without him realising it. All I felt was the hot lust and overpowering sense of sexual need of his beast which was driving his actions. That feared me more than anything that had happened prior to this moment. I didn’t touch his mind again.
It seemed an age before we stopped and he dragged me off the exhausted horse. I kicked and screamed the entire way, trying to fight him off. His strong arms held onto me tightly, never releasing, never yielding to my pressure. The panic I had felt earlier, was now surging with full force, rising in my chest sure and fast. This was not how I envisioned my life. In fact it was no way near. I had to fight. I had to get away. I had to do anything to not let this happen.I had fought off the Mason all those years ago, but a rogue? A rogue was a completely different story. He was so much stronger and with his ability to change into his beast at any time, I wouldn’t be able to defend myself against his wolf.The man half dragged, half carried me to a small deserted hut that was hidden behind a large grouping of trees. Even though it seemed that no one had lived there in a long time, the place still looked neat and tidy. A small garden was blooming to the south of
I awoke to a sharp sunlight piercing into my eyes when they snapped open. The memories of the rogue’s touch and sound of his voice felt so real as if he was no longer just in my dreams. My breathing was rapid and my heart was hammering in my chest. I could have sworn he was right there, the dreams had been so real, as if he had stood above me only moments ago, ready to rape me.To the east, the sun had almost finished poking its head up over the horizon. I rolled over wearily and saw that Blake was lying on his bed, his slow, and steady breathing a good sign that he was still sleeping.In that moment, looking at him and at the ruin behind him, all I could feel was my body screaming at me, my mind beating away inside my head telling me to run. I had to get away.The feeling was so strong I was up and out of bed before I had realised what I was doing.My stomach curled with disgust and fear, grabbing at my body and leaving my heart to beat so lo
I awoke to the sun beaming directly in my face from the middle of the sky, and a still sullen Blake packing up noisily.“Wake up, time to go,” he growled menacingly. “We have slept for far too long.”He didn’t even look at me, but I noticed the dark bags that hung beneath his eyes. It sent a ping of guilt through me. He was still recovering from almost dying. Was I being completely ridiculous and selfish?He shot me a glare, his eyebrow raised at me and it quickly banished the guilty feeling within me. Nope, he was being ridiculous.With a sigh and a roll of my eyes, I forced my aching body up and packed what was left – my bed and bag. I had resigned myself to the fact that he was cold and heartless. I now felt a burning rage towards him that simmered just under the surface.He packed up the horses and we set off towards Callad.“How much longer?” I asked, gritting my teeth.With a wry s
“We welcome our new students and guests here tonight and I hope that you will treat them with the respect they deserve,” a woman said loudly with a voice that echoed pleasantly around the large dining room. She stood three seats down from me, a long flowing robe hanging off of her slim frame.The moment Blake had pulled me into the large hall I had felt completely overwhelmed. The room itself was huge. Several tall windows covered the entire wall opposite me, covered by dark, red curtains. Hundreds of students lined tables that ran parallel to the walls. There were three in total, all filled with glorious food that someone must have slaved at it all day to cook for all the students. A feast by the likes I had never seen before. My mouth was watering simply looking at all of the food and my stomach grumbled when the smell drifted to me. I had forgotten we missed lunch and now I was starving.We sat up at a high table that watched over the other three tables
I woke up the next day, my head pounding out a steady rhythm that bit with a nasty throb. Stretching out my aching muscles, the memories of last night came flooding back and my face flushed red hot when Blake came in with breakfast. I had been rather forward, once influenced by the wine, letting other uncensored parts of my mind take control. I would never let that happen again, and now I felt utterly embarrassed and ashamed. “Morning,” I mumbled softly as he closed the door with a quiet thud. Unfortunately to me, the soft thud sounded more like an explosion. I winced, my eyes squeezing shut tightly. When the pain had subsided somewhat, I rubbed my temples softly and slowly, making the ache seem more like a dull pain. Long sleeves blocked my view of Blake and my mind reeled for a moment. I looked down at his crinkled shirt that hung off my body like a bed sheet. I ran a hand through my hair frustrated until other patches of memory returned and my face flushed again.
The large double doors opened loudly as the guards pushed them with all their might. In comparison, Callie and I looked tiny standing against the huge oak doors. I suddenly felt so small. Worry entered my thoughts but I forced them away. Now was not the time to stress, especially not the headache that still hung around in my head.The room in front of me was like a giant open spread hall. A barrier encircled the entire outside wall, creating an inner arena. Behind the barrier sat several people in seats made of hard wood.In the centre, a large fighting area was encircled by another barrier, and inside that arena a lithe young girl pranced around, brandishing a sword that she wielded with ease. Her opponent, a tall burly man, defended himself against the continuous onslaught of the girl’s sword. They both twirled and danced around each other as though they were part of an extreme dance. They both had sneers on their faces, but the man oozed confidence and arrogan
Crap,I thought. I was lost. I turned around several times, my stomach feeling uncomfortable. It clenched with fear.“Over here,” a voice called out and I turned to see Tori waltzing towards me, a spring in her step. She had changed into a long flowing dress in midnight blue. I eyed it suspiciously, not expecting her to be wearing a dress.She looked down at herself and gave me a pained look. “Mandatory. It represents the colours of the second year apprentices, those in their last year of magic study.”I nodded, not understanding half of her words but I got the gist of what she meant.“Heading to find your horse?”“How did you…?”“Heard you,” she said with a smile tapping her head.I frowned for a moment as she grabbed my arm and pulled me down another flight of stairs and along a brightly lit corridor.“I used to get lost here too,” sh
“And this,” Jax said proudly, his arm sweeping to encompass the large, brick building before us, “is the forge.”I allowed myself to breathe out a long, slow breath. I could feel the sweltering heat of the forge before I even stepped close to it. The smell of sweat, steel and coal hung in the air, making my nose sting and it hard to breathe.“You work here every day?” I asked astounded. I didn’t know how anyone could stand working in such conditions. Working with the Mason for what little time I had before he had tried to have his way with me I had experienced something of the like, but this was on another level. The heat was incredible. The air was filled with it, pressing against my chest and seeming to drown me in it.The sharp clang of metal on metal pinged in the background and was harsh and resounding with each hit of his hammer. My still recovering head did not enjoy the loud sound.Jax gave me
When I woke, I found myself back in same room as before the ceremony. I was sprawled on the bed, my dress gone and replaced with a pair of slacks and a crisp white shirt. I moved to press my hand to my thumping head and a large, white bandage caught my eyes, making me jump. Someone had bandaged the cut on my palm. A sound caught my attention. I lifted my head slowly and finally noticed Deakin sitting silently next to me, his head buried in his hands. “Deakin?” I whispered, my voice so soft I didn’t think he would hear me. His head jerked up at the sound of my voice, his face tense and strained. He was instantly by my side, his eyes concerned. “Tynan requests your presence immediately for council,” Deakin uttered softly as if he were completely lifeless, his voice distant and cold. I groaned inwardly knowing that I could no longer refuse him – I was bound to him, forever. As the words crossed my mind the enormity of the situation sunk in, and I suddenly felt like I was drowning.
I remained silent as the maids primped and prepped me for the ceremony. Their hands deftly worked their way through my hair, untangling the knotted mess it had become, and creating a delicately, intricate style that appeared to look like rope along my spine. At one point, one of them shoved a small cup of warm liquid in my hands, hurrying my to drink it. “What is it?” I croaked, sniffing at the drink. It didn’t smell appetising at all. The maids exchanged a look, and the oldest one rose her brow at me. “It is to flush your body of seed,” she said tersely. “So tou do not become with child.” Horror must have filled my face because she gave me an apologetic look before pushing the cup in my direction again. “Best drink it fast, it doesn’t taste the best.” I downed the liquid quickly, my throat gagging on the taste and swallowed as much as I could. It tasted like a mixture of dirt and grass, but I was glad for it. I didn’t want to become pregnant with Kainen’s child. He hadn’t exactl
I had been disgraced, again, but this time I didn’t play any part in the decision. It made my stomach churn with such force that I vomited. I was careful to not be sick on myself. I didn’t need to feel any more unclean than I already did. Kainen was just a vindictive, evil creature that sought to destroy my world and everything that I cared for. A puppet for his Master, just like the rest of them. One of them had finally gone past that line and snapped it clean in half. I sought refuge in my mind and in my dreams, which jumbled together as I dove in and out of consciousness. I found myself spending more and more time reliving the moments I had spent with Deakin, who I thought was Blake, in that twisted but yet beautiful moment. Also, Amber’s thoughts on Deakin kept creeping into my mind, in particular her haunting words, which named him as Chained Man. I had no idea what that meant and for some reason my mind retreated to those memories, neither of which were too pleasant. But even
*WARNING - TORTURE AND RAPE CONTENT AHEAD. PLEASE ME MINDFUL OF WELLBEING WHEN READING* I lay still in the middle of the familiar table, my arms and legs bound to the edges so I was splayed across it. There was some kind of power holding me still; other than the immense power of my fear of course, but it was strong, stronger than anything else I had ever felt before. I closed my eyes and willed it all to be a dream, for the terrifying things around me to just drift away from me, to fall away into the nothingness of a nightmare. At least I could wake up from that and know - know it was all a dream. That it would end when my eyes opened, when the dream hit the wall that was reality. But this was my reality, a mixture of death and deceit; betrayal and lies. I could smell it even with my eyes closed, the fresh stench of death. I tried to rid myself of the reality, to enter a dream that was infinitely better. I retched, unable to stand the smell and opened my eyes to see them. Darius and
The cold was beginning to creep in and settle under my skin. The cold and the fear were my only companion for hours on end. I now knew Tynan’s tactic. He was going to leave me alone and stranded until the misery and despair overtook all other emotions. At that point, I was going to be his pawn. But I wasn’t going to let that happen. After Kenai’s death, a wave of alien emotions had overtaken my body. I lay huddled up in a corner of my cell, fluxing between fits of rage and frustration to bouts of tears and overwhelming sadness. There was a continuous aching hole in my stomach that no food or water could fill. I ate when I was giving the luxury, but otherwise I lay there, drowning in my own emotions. I was also struggling to see. My eyesight kept changing colour and strong hues blended together. Sometimes it was blurry and all I could see was bright colours, but other times my eyesight was crystal clear. I gave up trying to come up with ways to escape. I forgot to even practice pro
“Kenai,” I groaned in agony, a deep sadness burning in my heart. I cradled his head in my arms, listening to the struggling gasps as he fought to get some air. Panic forced my heart to begin beating hard within my chest. If Kenai was here, where was Jax and Tori? Had they been captured too?“Do not give in,” he begged quickly into my ear, as the brute Kainen grabbed my wrist roughly and dragged me away. He held onto me as I fought hard to escape, but my lack of energy soon had me motionless, tears streaming down my face.“No one has called me that for a long time, old man,” Dark Eyes said slowly, his tone dangerous. He stood up from his chair and looked down Kenai, a look of victory plastered on his face. “I am no longer Tynan, but their Master, just as you were once mine. Except… well, I deserve the title, where you did not.”Tynan flicked a finger towards Kenai and he was lifted up off the ground so he hung just above it. Floating in the now still air, his toes almost scraped the plu
When I awoke this time, I was lying on a hard floor, but no chains held me to the ground. I moved my aching arms and felt the smooth touch of the carpet underneath my fingertips. My mind blanched. Carpet? Where was I? Turning my neck to look, I instantly regretted it. My head thumped painfully, and searing shots of light flashed through my mind. It seemed Nyssa had put a lot of her energy into hurting me. Surprise, surprise! After all, I knew she hated me. The pain that throbbed in my head was evidence to that. But why? Had they already gotten to her? Footsteps alerted me to an approaching presence and the door creaked open. A soft swishing sound followed the footsteps that stopped by my head. A voice whispered in my ear and chills ran down my spine at her cruel words. Nyssa was taunting me, teasing me. She entered my open mind easily now that I was under the influence of the venom and Deakin’s magic and probed through my thoughts and memories again. I was forced to relive them rig
A cool, wet cloth on my skin woke me jarringly from my sleep, and I recoiled in fear. Darkness filled my vision as I waited for my eyes to grow accustomed to the limited light. My fists were clenched against my legs, ready to react. I was cowering in the corner of the dark cell, my body tight and sore. My limbs refused to move as cramp locked down hard on each muscle sending searing pain through me. After I had passed out from the torture session with Deakin, it seemed someone had moved me to a smaller prison cell than my last, with only one large steel door as the only entry and exit. A small, white gown covered the wounds on my stomach but the cuts on my arms were visible. The red, raw puckered slashes were oozing, as the shrouded person gently washed away the dried blood that was caked on my skin. I looked away, disgusted by the sight of my own body. I was disfigured and ugly. I was damaged goods. I looked up into their face and saw the bright, blue eyes. My stomach tightened as
*WARNING - DARK CONTENT AHEAD. THIS MAY BE A TRIGGER FOR VICTIMS OF ABUSE* “Strip her and tie her to the table,” the voice instructed, a sense of enjoyment coating her words. The voice seemed somewhat familiar, but the silver mystery venom and Deakin’s magic dulled my mind too much for me to focus on that one thought. I whimpered as Deakin did as he was told and pulled off my clothing, one piece at a time, his eyes never focussing on my face or on my body, but a spot just above my shoulder. At least he left my undergarments on. Rage and fear burned in my throat at his cowardice as he clamped restraints around my wrists and ankles, leaving me completely exposed but still refusing to look at the body he was revealing. It wasn’t like he hadn’t seen it before. My anger still seethed at his actions, somewhat more dulled than they normally would be. More than anything though, I felt the overwhelming shame that I had not noticed the difference. Blake never would have been so forward, nor w