"No. Please no!" I beg and hit the person, the beast on top of me. No, this can't be happening. No matter how much I beg, he doesn't budge, he continues what he's doing, like my voice doesn't even matter. Little by little, my body becomes stiff, I can feel everything that's happening to my body but I can't do anything to stop it, I can't move my body, I just lay on the soft leather seat, motionless, it's like I'm intoxicated, mentally unconscious but conscious to the continuous pumping and humping that's going on inside me.Slowly the person on top of me pulls out from me and for a split second I think all the suffering is over till I feel a deep and painful thrust inside me, making me scream. "No please" my pathetic voice pleads but once again it's as if I'm not heard. I watch helplessly, painfully as he chips away bits of my soul. I don't think I would be the same after this.He picks up a faster pace, thrusting deeper, faster, harder till I feel my insides are being pulled out. I
He made me trust guys again. He made me trust guys with golden brown hair-which he has streaks of- or any hair color. He made my relationship with my dad get stronger again, too sad it didn't last long because my dad died, before I could even feel guilty of pushing him away.Bryne cleans my cheek with his thumb and I notice I am crying. He plays with my hair and strokes my cheek with his other hand. I draw in a breath and inhale his scent and it immediately soothes me. I won't lie that I don't miss all this care and intimacy with him, I do, a lot infact I crave it everytime, the warmth our bodies get from physical contact, the sensation I get when he takes care of me. Damn! I still love him, and as many heart beats my heart missed when I said that I still want to stand on my word of not dating him again. But most importantly I want answers and that I will get now. "Bryne" Red caution Bailey, this may not end well, proceed at hearts' risk."Hmm" he mumbles half-heartedly"I want to-
He kisses me roughly, as if sending a warning to me. His mouth devours mine hungrily, assertively, possessively, deliciously, scratch the last word though.I really need to nag at myself for this but for now let me enjoy this kiss. I run my fingers up and down his back, feeling the hard, muscular texture of his back. I miss his skin, I miss watching him work out, I miss sleeping on his laps but right now I miss the angry Bailey. He breaks away from the kiss and I frown. With his hand still hooked around my waist, he pulls my back and rests my head on his chest, engulfing me in his hard chest. My hands loosely falls on his waist as I close my eyesWe stay there silently and peacefully for a while, I still have a lot to say but that can wait. I know he has things to say to me too but I really do not care right now, I just want to remain like this. His hands moves to my hair and he gently pats it, an action I think is his favorite. He runs his fingers through my afro curls, gently untan
I open my eyes slowly and feel my body on another. Part of my body is lying on top his body and his hands are on my back, locking me firmly to his body. How did we get here?The events of last night come flushing into my brain and I feel my cheek reddening. My eyes settle on his shirtless upper body and I shamelessly check it out. I carry my face from his chest slowly and carefully, not to wake him up I roll over and lie on my side.I admire his sinful beauty, if I can just touch it once more. That's right I can touch it, after all he's sleeping. I flatten my palm on his chest and feel each rhythmic movement his chest makes when he breathes. I outline his body with my hands, over the six divisions on his belly to the tattoo on his chest. I remember when he got that, I came back tired from the classes I had and he came into my house grinning like he just won a lottery. He made me close my eyes, trust me I still cheated, opening my eyes slightly to try to take peaks of whatever surprise
"Told ya I'll be back early" I raise my head from the magazine I am reading and look at Bryne. With big strides, he reaches where I'm sitting and leans behind me to kiss me and I flinch."Don't" I stop him and he shoots a confused look at me."What do you mean baby" his brows squeeze together"It's Bailey" I snap and go back to reading the magazine. He rakes his fingers through his hair "I don't get what's happening"I'll tell you, everything that happened earlier was a mistake. "Look" I sigh and stand up from the chair. "Don't think that you saying all those nice things yesterday will change anything okay? I have a boyfriend who I love so much and you know me well, I won't like to cheat on him with you" I cross my arms. His face drops immediately and he rubs his temple "Bailey please don't bring this up" he holds my arms "I know you're dating Cole but that doesn't change the fact that you love me. We'll work through this together." "Love you?" I scoff. Yes it may be true that I lov
BRYNE"I'm leaving" I freeze and my face drops immediately she says that. I know she's fighting back, I know she doesn't want to leave and it's hurting that she doesn't admit she still loves me.I open my mouth to stop her but I decide against it. She's so stubborn, she'd do what she wants no matter what I say. She stands up and leaves the room. I curl my fists. I want to hit something, I want to break something. I pick a vase to smash but I decide against it. I can't break more things, this is what got me here. I punch the wall, once, twice, thrice but it doesn't give me the satisfaction I need. I groan and kick the table. She literally kissed me! What else does she want me to do. I made a mistake but she keeps reminding me of it everytime. She knows how much I need her, how much we both need each other then why is she this difficult. I groan and punch the wall again. Calm down bro! Pull yourself together.Cole!I punch the wall repeatedly when I think of him. "Arse hole" I cuss
BAILEY"Where are you going?" he asks "Somewhere" I leave the room. Hopefully I'll remember the room he took me to last night.I stand in the hallway trying to figure out the room. Maybe this one. I open the door of a room opposite Bryne's room. I made the right choice. I walk to the board and unclip a note “I can't sleep again this night, I wish you were here, you'd kiss away the insomnia" I can't stop smiling today.I unclip another note "I'm sorry. I don't know how to tell you what I did today-" Before I can even finish reading the note, Bryne wraps his hands around my waist from behind and I lean into him."I knew you'd be here" he breathes into my neck and a moan escapes my lips."You're m-meant t-to be resting in you room" I can't even construct a correct sentence with him around me."I can't rest with you in my house" he sucks gently on my neck and I tip my head to the side, submitting to the the passion that's already taking over my body."I've told you before, we can
I roll on the bed and open my eyes slowly. I rub my eyes, trying to get used to the bright light peering from the window. "Bryne" I search the bed with my hands for him and I frown and sit up when I find the bed empty"Thank you God for a new day" I mumble my prayer and drag my naked self out of bed. I'm not really a religious person though I was born into a religious family, but it's just a habit for me to thank God everytime I wake up. I walk into the bathroom, empty my bowels, wash my face and brush my teeth. I look around the big bathroom and the even bigger room. This is definitely not the room I've been sleeping in, this Bryne's room.And I used his toothbrush!!I search through his closet for any thing to put on and finally settle for his black sweat shirt that stops few inches below my arse. I step out of the closet and look around the big room. He cleaned up all the mess of yesterday. I step into the hallway and the smell of freshly baked food fills my nostrils. I follow
"Hello mom" I say impatiently. My mom always has a way to interrupt us. There's shuffling at the the other side of the line "Hey B, uh can you guys come over for dinner at dad's place, sorry for the late info I totally forgot"No way. "Mom, it's not possible" Bailey hits my side lightly "You can't turn your mom down" she whispers"You're with Bailey?" My mom asks. "Yeah""Great! Please put the phone on speaker" I roll my eyes and put the phone on speaker. I know Bailey can never say no to my mom and my mom knows that too, that's why she wants to talk to Lee. I already made a great dinner for the two of us, but Bailey won't think about that, of course it's my darling mother. I roll my eyes again and Bailey hits my arm."Hey Bailey, I know it's already late but can you guys come over for dinner at my place? I would've done this later but my husband already booked my flight back to Georgia and it's tomorrow" my mom's persuasive voice sounds and I'm sure it has already convinced Baile
Bryne.I need her to understand that losing our baby wasn't her fault, I need us to go back to being us before the miscarriage. "Thanks Bryne, for every thing, for being my back bone, for being more than a boyfriend, for being so gentle with my heart" she maintains eye contact with me while stroking my face with her thumb."You don't need to thank me for taking care of you, you're my responsibility Lee" I kiss the inside of her palm. "let's go eat""Bryne I- okay, let's go eat" She steps away but I grab her hand and bring her closer. "What do you want Lee" I whisper over her ear and she claims my lips in a slow kiss. I want to go at her pace, I need to go at her pace even though all I want to do is to grab her and make her scream my name multiple times. She looked so sexy in the dress this morning and it took me all the strength I had, to stop myself from responding to what she was unconsciously doing to me, when she kissed me, I almost couldn't control myself again and then she sc
Immediately I get back to my office, I sit on my chair and remove my shoes. I don't think I can survive another minute in this shoe. I sigh in relief and massage my feet once I take the shoe out. It's been four hours of intensive practice and thank God for the lunch break else I would've died inside that room. I got to watch other journalist do other shows and I was given instructions about how everything is going to happen. Honestly, I can't wait for Friday and from the look of things, Baddie can't wait for Friday either. Baddie really made the whole practice interesting and I already feel so relaxed with him. Baddie says he likes that kind of atmosphere and so do I. Baddie reminds me of Derrick, when everything is settled, I'll take Derrick's lunch offer. Baddie walks into the room smiling. He sighs and slumps into his chair. "Hey we could have lunch together. There's this place at the corner of the street, it's pretty good"."Maybe next time, I really can't walk in this shoes, m
BaileyBryne pulls up at the parking lot of the building. Today is Monday, my first day at work and the excitement isn't as much as I expected it to be.Bryne squeezes my hands and I smile. Bryne has been everything since I lost our child. He has been over caring and I'm just so surprised at how perfect he's holding everything up in this situation. I hope my sour mood isn't going to affect my first day at work, I don't want to give out any first impression of being grumpy. "I know you'll do great" Bryne hands me a jar of cookie and I want to decline but it's my mom's cookie and who dares decline it plus he won't let this slide as I strongly refused to have breakfast. I take a bite and another and another till I'm done with four cookies. Bryne smiles, handing me a bottle of water. "Thanks" I gulp down the water and check my self in the mirror again for the 100th time today. You can't blame me for that, appearance matters as a new employee and a journalist at that. I know my life i
I plop down after wearing my rubber gloves, I dip the floor scrub into the foamy bucket of water and I scrub Bailey's blood stain from the floor of my dad's kitchen.Today is Saturday and I'm happy Kara agreed to keep Bailey company even when she's supposed to go back to college today. I told the housekeeper and the cook not to come here today because I'm sure they would've felt obliged to clean the blood from the kitchen floor which I wouldn't like them to do. My mom told me to pick her up in an hour's time and I hope that I'll be done with this by then. I scrub the floor harder and wipe out the foam to see if all the bloodstain is gone and I repeat the process after seeing some stubborn stains still on the floor. I've not discussed the plans I have for the company with my mom yet even though I'm sure she'll be uninterested in it as usual. Sometimes I wonder if my mom actually loved my dad because shortly after my dad burial, she moved to Georgia to be with Khaka, her boyfriend wh
BRYNEI lead Bailey into her house but she doesn't respond to me. She has been this way since she got conscious and I hope she gets better. I'm so happy she was discharged, I wouldn't stand spending another hour in the hospital. Kara has gone to my dad's house to get all the shopping bags over to Lee's house. I can't keep her at my dad's place, my mom may come home anytime and I cant explain anything to her yet. Bailey goes to her room and I follow her."Lee please talk to me, say something, anything" I can't bear the silence. "I was just so careless, I couldn't-" I wrap my hands round her waist and pull her to me. She can't blame herself for this, she shouldn't take all the guilt to herself. I'm at fault too, I didn't listen to her enough to understand. She sobs quietly and I rub her back. We'll work through this, I know we will. "Why didn't you tell me?" "How could I tell you, I was scared" She sniffs and I tip her head up to look at me."I told you I want to be involved in
BRYNEI pull up at my dad's driveway and Kara immediately gets down. I'm so exhausted from the shopping and I honestly wonder how women do this thing and not get tired.Kara is worse than Bailey when it comes to this, we've basically bought so much that there's almost no space in the car for the bags. I know Bailey will be angry when she sees this but how did she expect me to handle Kara, Kara that literally scares me.I bring out some of the bags and Kara brings out some too. "Wow! So you guys lived here when you were younger" she stares at the building and I laugh."Nah, I spent most of my childhood with my nana, I don't think I've stayed for up to a year in this house, that's why we all call it my dad's house" I struggle to open the door and Kara follows me in. I drop the bags on the couch and go back to get the rest. I pack so much and Kara does the same but the bags doesn't finish. "We'll get the rest later, let's find Bailey to check out these stuff first" Kara rubs her palm
I stare down at the pregnancy strip in horror.I don't know how to feel about this. It's scary! I can't be pregnant, I'm on birth control pills. Could some skipped days cause this? "Fuck" I place my hand on my forehead and shut my eyes tightly together. My whole life was about to start and this? I feel like crying but the tears aren't coming out. On one hand I'm happy about this, Bryne, the father of my child, he shouldn't find it difficult to accept but I don't want to pose anything on him. Both our lives are about to start for me to bring this up now. I'm finally about to start a lovely job and Bryne is about to take over his dad's business and join the elite club and this. I sniff and throw the strip into the bin. I don't know how to tell him about this, I'm not even ready to tell him yet. I hope he isn't awake yet.We'll work through this, that's what he always say whenever something goes an opposite way. We'll work through this.I place my hands on my belly and stare at my r
"How was your week?" Bryne asks"I met Cole-ouch" I scream as a sharp pain passes through my knee."Are you okay" Bryne sits up immediately and I nod."It's just my knee" I relax my knee but Bryne uncovers the blanket and keeps my knee on his laps and starts massaging it gently. "Ouch!" I exclaim as he touches the spot that pains me the most. "Sorry about that, does it hurt here?" He touches another spot and I shake my head in negation. "Have you taken your pain relief?" "I'll take it later""I'll get it for you, where is it?""Over there" I point at the other couch and he goes over and brings it, with a bottle of water as well."Thanks" I swallow the pill and he gets the bottle of water and medicine bottle and keeps on the table.He comes back to the couch bed and continues the massage "I'm just happy you didn't hit your head when you fell from the stairs"."I'm happy too, everything just happened quickly, I was on the third step and then I see myself rolling down and hitting my kn