He didn't know if it was the way Nate always stared at things he showed him with awe, or the admiration he always saw in his eyes that made him feel this strange happiness inside of him.He'd been watching the young man since they both stepped foot inside his room and it warmed and gave him satisfaction that he somehow approved of how Spade's whole house looked like.It felt like he was trying to impress the kid and it was working, and Spade had never tried to impress anyone all his life, he'd never really cared about what people thought of him, not even his father, but seeing Nate's look of approval about how his house turned out, he felt accomplishedHe walked past Nate and headed for his walk in closet, pulling it open he stepped inside, raking his eyes through each and every one of his clothes there, he didn't find anything that was Nate's style, they were either buttoned up shirts, tux, sweatpants and tank top, it was kind of making him wish he had a different taste in fashion, s
After driving out of Spade's front gate, Matteo didn't say anything, and he was expecting Stefano to maintain the energy, leaving the car completely silent.At first it was like that, and he couldn't be more grateful, but he was quick to conclude, a few minutes into the drive was when the trouble started."Do you think it's a good idea leaving them both together alone"? Stefano's overly cheerful voice reached Matteo's ears, and he didn't even make an effort to look at the man beside him, he clenched his jaw already regretting agreeing to drop him off at home"I mean I don't know about you but even I could feel the tension between those two" he muttered taking a glance at Matteo, his eyes moved to his hands around the wheel and his knuckles had almost turned white with how tight he gripped the wheel.Stefano could already imagine how strong Matteo was, he'd heard stories about him but he'd never seen him in action, the night the man trailed him, he'd hope they'd both get a chance at a
"Sit" Spade muttered breaking Nate out of his sight seeing, his eyes rested on Spade as his eyes trailed Spade's hand pointing to the one of the chairs in front of the counter, he swallowed and gingerly walked towards the chair, pulling it out he sat himself on it.Spade could see he wasn't relaxed, he looked tense and unsettled."You want something to drink"? He asked making Nate to look at him in shock, he was too fucking nice and it was creeping the young man out.Even Spade was beginning to worry about how soft he was with Nate, he'd never had a reason to be this gentle with anyone, not in a long time.The last time he was this gentle with someone was Matteo, and he stopped when the blonde learned how to take care of himselfNate shook his head, not wanting to impose on Spade, Spade nodded slowly before turning around and walking towards the burner, he turned it off as what he had on was already fully cooked.He opened the cupboard in front of him and pulled out two plates, he was
All three of them sat on the chairs, Matteo facing both Nate and Spade on the other side, he could see the tension and the glances both men were stealing at each other, he wondered what went down when he was not here."You said something about people saying something about what happened at the party"? Spade asked making Matteo to look at him before nodding his head."Yes, after I dropped Stefano off at his place, I called a few friends and I was able to gather some info about the shooting" he rushed out."Wait, time out" Nate muttered, catching both their attention as both men's eyes rested on his, he looked at Spade first before his eyes landed on Matteo"What was the party for in the first place"? He asked, Matteo just stared at him blankly, as if he was talking in a foreign language"You were there and you didn't know what the party was for"? He asked making Nate to let out a deep breath, his gaze resting on Spade for a few seconds before he shook his head."No, uhm... My uh.. my f
Spade walked out of the room, feeling a little bit satisfied with himself.Although he hadn't exactly gotten what he wanted, but he was able to convince Nate to stay the night.He mentally gave himself a pat on the back before walking towards the kitchen to meet Matteo, but to his surprise, the blonde was perched on his couch, a glass of drink in his hand as he twirled it in the cup.He heard Spade's footsteps before he saw him, raising his head, his eyes met with Spade's, questioning him mentally and Spade just nodded his head, as if passing the message across that he'd convinced him to stay.He sat on the couch close to Matteo as he let out a deep sigh"Is he okay"? Matteo asked and he just nodded"Yeah, he agreed to stay the night" Spade mutttered and Matteo just nodded slowly, before picking up the second glass on the table and poured scotch inside it, handing it to Spade.Spade took it, looking at the liquid inside the cup, he brought it up to his lips and took a swig of it, feel
As promised Spade drove Nate back to his apartment early the next morning, the drive was as silent as a graveyard, Nate was looking out the car and Spade had his eyes set on the road, he stole glances at Nate from time to time, his mind drifting to what happened the night before, Nate's nightmare and the way it felt knowing he was able to calm him down.He kept wondering what Nate was possibly dreaming about that put him in that much fear and terror Nate didn't say anything about seeing him in his room last night, which meant he either didn't see him, or he did and was pretending not to.He sighed out as the building they were headed to came to view.He drove towards it and stopped in front of it, turning off the car engine he turned to look at Nate, he still hadn't looked his way, infact Nate had barely said anything to him the whole morning.He took off his seatbelt, avoiding Spade's gaze"Thank you for the ride" he muttered and Spade just nodded, not saying anything, he didn't kno
He was back at his office in the club, there was no resting for him, no weekend, but his mind kept swaying every now and then to one person, but now he was no longer fighting it, he was just letting it happen, basking in it, letting it runs through his whole body, accepting it for what it was.He was thinking about going out with Nate, he already knew what he wanted to say to him, what he would talk about, but he knew that when he gets there, he'd lose his nerve.There was just something about Nate that made him always nervous, he wouldn't call it nervous but he was always at a lost for words when it involved Nate, and it started when he started getting attracted to him.He sighed out and pulled a cigarette stick from the pack lying lazily on his table, he put it between his lips and lit it.Dragging the smoke in, this was a stress reliever for him, and it also made him think of Nate less Sometimes he felt like he was getting attached to him hard and very fast.A few months ago he wa
He walked out of his bathroom feeling fresh and clean after a very soothing and relaxing shower, with a towel wrapped around his waist securely, water dripping from his hair and droplets on the rest of his body.He made for the walk in closet on the side of his room.He'd left the club quite early, so he could get ready for his outing with Nate, he didn't wanna call it a date because he didn't even know if that was what it was, he didn't wanna start giving himself ideas or a chance to imagine things.For all he knew Nate might not even think much of it and not that he fully understood what this was, yes he liked Nate but he didn't know why.He'd grown up knowing he only found women attractive, he's been around men the world would consider as attractive and handsome and none of them had ever sparked an interest in him, not even a small reaction.Which made him to believe he was as straight as they come, but all of a sudden he started feeling a strong attraction to Nate, of course that