Spade stepped out of his car, shutting the door he slowly trudged inside, he'd just returned from the club after a long hard day, but that was not the highlight of his day, infact it barely rested in his mind.Instead he was thinking about one thing, rather one person, the whole day.Virtually everything he did, ended up with him thinking about him.He walked inside his house and turned on the lights before flinging his jacket on the couch, he walked around his couch straight to the kitchen, he pulled out a glass from his cupboard and filled it with water from the tap, bringing it to his lips, he drank it all at once, feeling the water quench his thirst.Abandoning the cup on the island he walked out of the kitchen while trying to pull off his tie, he headed straight for his bedroom, opening the door and walking inside, he didn't bother turning on the lights as he finally tugged off his tie and flung it on his bed, he slowly unbuttoned his shirt as his mind drifted to what happened ea
With the thoughts of his previous conversation with Nate in mind, Matteo steps out of the elevator on the top floor and walks towards the penthouse door, it's the only apartment on the last floorHe used his key card, swiping it through the door and it clicked open, he strolled inside, the huge living room, looking pitch black, since he's just coming from outside his eyes aren't adjusted to the darkness yetIt takes a while before his eyes adjust to the room's darkness, without turning on the lights he just walks towards the kitchen on the left hand side of the room, there's no divider between his kitchen and the living room, just a huge counter in front of the kitchen, separating the kitchen from the living room.He walks around the counter, reaching for the top cupboard, he open it and pulls out a glass and fills it up with water before drinking it.From his peripheral he sees a figure in the dark shadows, suddenly making his whole body tense and at alert.He slowly pulled the cup a
He groaned as he tried to raise his head up, it felt very heavy as he could barely lift it on his own.His vision was hazy, everything looked and felt foggy like a huge cloud of dust and fog was covering his eyes.His head kept lolling back and forth as he tried to keep it steady, the whole room was spinning, as if he was sitting on a ferris wheel and someone was pushing him, but this felt much more intense and worse, his head was heavy and light at the same time.He kept narrowing and squinting his eyes trying to make out the silhouette in front of him but it was of no use because the more he tried, the more the image blurred and looked thin like a stripper's dancing pole.He groaned and let his head fall forward, trying to move his hand up and rub his eyes, he couldn't, they felt like they'd been restrained, and they stung around the wrist area.He shut his eyes countless times, blinking hard, before his vision started to clear and he could see white around his wrist, tho it still l
She followed skeptically and almost fearfully as he took long and powerful strides away from the busy and loud dancefloor, straight towards his office, her eyes trailed his perfectly chiseled, squared and broad shoulders as he walked in front of her.Every nerve cell in her body was ringing with alert as she racked her brain trying to think of why Spade would come and call her off work, surely she hadn't done anything wrong, but you can never tell with Spade.He was like an undecisive weather, one minute hot and the next very cold, confusing everyone around him, the best she could do was follow right behind him like a lost puppy as he led her towards his office.They both stopped in front of his office and he unlocked the door before walking in and she gently and stealthly followed behind him.Her heart was beating extremely fast in her chest, even though she'd been working here for over 3 years now, she still hasn't gotten around the fear she feels whenever she was around him.The fa
Spade could already feel his heartbeat getting faster and louder and his hands were beginning to twitch on his side, he quickly fisted both of them and clenched his jaw, his eyes never leaving Nate.At a time like this he really wished he hadn't mastered the art of looking someone dead in the eyes without blinking or looking away, because right now he so badly wanted to look away from Nate, anything to make his attention and eyes shift from Nate, he'd gladly take it, but he couldn't.And Nate was looking at him with the same intensity, his brown orbs swirling with uncertainty as always and his lips slightly parting as he gasped out upon seeing Spade.The whole room had suddenly gone quiet, it was as if no one else was present, just the two of them as they both stared at each other, with different thoughts in their head.Nate was the first to look away, as he looked around the room nervously, willing himself not to look at Spade again, because this time, he might not have the will powe
As Spade's car drove away from the hotel, Nate couldn't help but steal glances at the man beside him, his mind traveling far with so many thoughts running through it.His eyes moved from his face to his knuckles that were already turning white due to the grip he had on the steering wheel, Nate's eyes counted the rings that adorned his knuckles, not too much but enough to be noticed.They were all gold and expensive.His eyes moved from Spade's hands to his face, his beard covered jaw that he was clenching so hard, Nate actually felt sorry for his teeth, the way his eyes narrowed at the road, as if he was actually glaring at the road, was there ever a time when Spade wasn't glaring?His tongue ran through his lips as he watched every single detail of Spade's face, and he wasn't really subtle about it but he barely even cared.Spade's beard didn't look rough but Nate could tell he hardly ever shaved it, maybe a little trim here and there but that was just about it.Then slowly but surel
Spade was watching as each men played their cards, some played well and others really didn't have much luck with cards, the bystanders around the table were either cheering or making disappointing sounds at who was losing or winning.His eyes left the table as they landed on the young man beside him, who was keenly watching the game with all his rapt attention, as if his whole life depended on it.He could see the amusement and curiosity in Nate's eyes as he watched the game unfold, like he was seeing this for the first time, he looked like a kid that was seeing a funfair for the very first time, the way his eyes lit up everytime the employee tossed the dice and the way his eyes moved from one player to another, watching their reaction.Spade wasn't at all interested in the game, what interested him at the moment was the reaction of the young man beside him, the way he reacted to how everything unfolded, that was more than a sight for Spade, even more interesting than the game itself
Nate slowly picked up the cards from the table, with his heart held in his throat, he could literally feel the beating of his heart, it felt as if it would explode all over the table, staining Spade and the man in front of him with blood.He held his breath as he peeled open his eyes and looked at the five cards with him, even with how anxious and scared he was, he still couldn't understand a thing about the cards he was holding, he couldn't tell if he had the right cards or his luck had run out and he lost Spade's ten million dollars.With his breath still held, he watched the other man raise his cards too and look at it, his face was still slightly pulled up in a smile, so it was hard for Nate to ascertain if he'd won or if he had lost.He just watched the man, his eyes moving between the man and the cards in his hands, the man's eyes moved up and with that smile on his face, his eyes darted from Spade to Nate before he looked back at his cards and let out a full grin.He was the fi
"I want everything to be perfect" Nate muttered out and his sister just looked at him worriedly as she finally laughed"And it will be Nate, just relax" she said putting her hand on his shoulder "we have the rooftop booked and I checked earlier today, the place has been decorated just like you asked, and the cake is ready, even Spade's outfit has been sent, it's in the bedroom" she explained to him and he just sighed out and placed his hand on his waistHe needed everything to go as planned, he wanted the night to be a memorable night for Spade, after everything they'd been through, Spade deserved this, he even made sure it was at the restaurant they had their first date as friends.He had been stressing about this for weeks and now the day was finally here, he even avoided Spade just so he wouldn't make a mistake and slip up, he knew Spade was worried that they'd been drifting apart, but if only the man knew what Nate had planned for him.He even got them both matching tuxedos, every
One month laterSpade stood in the cell, watching Salvatore, who he had insisted he would keep an extra one month before he would torture, possibly kill, after Nate had asked him to do whatever he pleased with the man.Nate had surprised him when he told Salvatore that he had forgiven him, infact since he met the young man well over six months ago, all Nate had been doing was surprising him.He folded the sleeves of his shirt as he watched Salvatore like a predator watching it's pretty, waiting for a good time to strike."What are you doing here Spade? I thought your fag of a boyfriend forgave me"? Salvatore spat at him, causing him to raise his brows at the crude language Salvatore had used on Nate.He stalked towards a table in the cell, he had it brought there that morning, it had every torture equipment he'd ever used.He picked up two small knives first, then shook his head, smacking his lips"You see Salvatore, my boyfriend may have forgiven you, something I still can't seem to
Spade sighed out still looking at Nate, he gently brought his hand and tried to hold Nate's hand, but the young man just shrugged it off, trying to move away from Spade "Baby what's wrong"? He asked, watching as Nate snickered and scrunched his nose up, he turned to look at Spade with disbelief dancing in his eyes."Are you seriously asking me that" Nate whispered out, and Spade sighed before he sat down on the bedside beside Nate"I'm sorry" he whispered, causing Nate to scoff, Spade didn't know what else to say at that point, that was all he could come up with, he really didn't have any excuse to give."I know I should have listened to you, I shouldn't have left that day" he added, this didn't even seem to pacify Nate as he only turned further away from Spade.Spade grabbed both his hands and held them firmly "please look at me Nate" he whispered, his voice sounded as if he was close to tears, but Nate wasn't sure someone like Spade was capable of crying.Not that he wanted Spade t
Spade sat watching the beautiful man he had come to love with his very existence, if need be he was ready to die for Nate, actually the night he'd gone after Sullivan, he'd hoped he'd die so he could at least see Nate and talk with him one last time, but death didn't come that easy for him, especially for him.It had been approximately one month since Nate was shot and he slipped into coma, one month that Spade had to live without Nate, a very sour and bad experience for him.He'd barely left his side, he even stopped working, Matteo handled the mafia while he never left Nate's side, he didn't want to miss the day when Nate would wake up, although he was beginning to lose hope of that ever happening, even though the doctors had said Nate was responding to treatment and was close to waking up, he didn't see any improvement.It was the sane thing everyday and the beeping sound of the machine Nate was hooked on was getting on his nerve, some days he wanted to have at it and smash it to p
Spade took long strides towards the basement of his mansion, the dungeon where he was told Salvatore was being kept, he hadn't gotten a wink of rest, after leaving the hospital, he called Stefano, asking the man about something he'd asked him to do a while back, and luck was on his side because Stefano already had it under control, giving Spade even more push than he expected.He stepped into the basement and walked right into the barred cells, in the middle of it, Salvatore was tied to a chair, his wounded leg had been tended to, Spade had ordered that, he didn't want the man to die just yet Death was too easy for someone like him, Spade would make him suffer, but first he needed information from the man.He shoved his hands into his pocket, as Salvatore looked up and had a grin on his face when he saw Spade."I thought you had forgotten about me" he muttered, Spade didn't say anything to him, he just watched him with great contempt and rage.He clenched his jaw as he watched the ma
The drive was one of the longest Spade had ever had to endure in his entire life, he kept taking quick glances at Nate on his thighs, at a point he thought the young man had finally given in to his wounds, but the shallow breath that left his slightly parted lips, gave Spade a small but of hopeHe didn't know he was this impatient, not until he had to sit in the back of the car with Nate as he watched Matteo drive, it was as though the blonde wasn't even driving fast at all.But after the unending and torturing drive, they finally arrived at the hospital, he didn't even wait for Matteo to help him out before he got out of the car and scooped Nate up bridal style, rushing him into the hospital.For once he was grateful he'd settle his issue with Garcia, because now he didn't have to go through the excruciating stress of answering stupid questions from the cops about how Nate got shot or whatnot.He kicked the doors open as he rushed into the hospital, with Matteo right behind him, one
Running through the corridor, Spade took the nearest left turn that led down another corridor, okay Matteo was right, this place was a fucking maze, he was running when he almost bumped into Matteo, who was also headed towards the same direction."Was that you"? He asked breathlessly and Matteo just shook his head"I thought it was you" he muttered, and Spade clenched his jaws "and it's not Bernie, because he's with me" "Shit" Spade cussed out, he knew it wasn't Nico or Vince, he left them downstairs, he rushed towards where they had heard the sound, with Matteo right behind him, as they kept meeting more corridors on the way, making it even hard to decipher where the sound had come from.They took another turn, both of them already hoping this would be the last one, because it seemed they were getting lost in this house.They both stopped in their tracks at the foot of the corridor, it was just as long as the others, but he didn't bother looking at the end, because what he was seein
Spade was tense, the air in the car was somewhat awkward and intense, they were already on their way to the location where Nate was being kept, he knew he shouldn't be so reliant on his gut feeling but something inside him was telling him that no doubt Nate would be where they were headed.All the other hints they'd gotten over the past few weeks have all led to dead ends but none gave him this strong belief inside.They had taken two cars, he was riding with Matteo and Bernie, surprisingly Stefano had asked to ride with the other guy that was going with them, for some odd reason it felt weird that for the last hour Stefano had been with them, he hadn't tried to annoy Matteo as usual.Spade could tell something was wrong, especially with the way Matteo had also gone completely silent and his mood somber since they set out on the drive.He'd asked the blonde about it but he just said he was kind of nervous about where they were headed, but Spade knew he was lying, nothing ever fazed Ma
He was sitting at the head of the table, a few of his men were seated around the huge conference room, Matteo was sitting by his right as usual, while Bernie was on his left.True to what he'd ordered Matteo to do, the blonde had called some of his men into the conference room for the meeting, and he looked more alive than he had done in days, hope was evident on his face and it was much stronger in his heart.Something in his gut feeling told him this wasn't just a hunch, he could feel it deep down that he was going to find Nate.He looked at the chairs and it was just Vince, Nico and Murphy, one of his very good shooter, the guy was good with a sniper, he didn't want to have all of his men here, not because he didn't trust them but because the smaller the team, the faster and efficient they would be."I'm sure most of you already know why I called for this meeting"? Spade's voice bounced off the walls of the room, making them to nod, as that was making it even easier for him, he did