MAXINEI waited until he was gone before exhaling. My hands were shaking. I folded them into fists and tried to steady my hand. This was going to be harder than I thought. If I wanted to save the pack, if I wanted to save Zel, I had to convince Ronan that I was truly on his side.I wondered how Zel was doing. If she was well and if she was being fed.The days that followed were like torture. Ronan would visit me, discussing his plans for the pack. He would share his twisted visions for the future. I listened carefully, nodding in all the right places.I even offered small suggestions that seemed helpful. The first time I gave him advice that worked, he was taken aback.He had narrowed his eyes at me, trying to understand my true intentions. But I had been careful. Ronan followed my advice. He wanted to believe that I had truly switched sides. I was going to use that against him.I knew it wouldn’t be easy. Ronan was cunning and smart. One wrong move could cost me everything. I had to
MAXINE“It wasn’t easy,” I started, acting broken. “I had to play along and make Ronan think I was loyal to him. He’s been watching me constantly. He's trying to break me down. But I never gave up hope. The moment I found my opportunity, I knew I had to find a way out and warn you all before it was too late."A murmur passed through the group of rebels. Some of them nodded as if they wanted to believe me. But the woman with the braid wasn’t convinced.“And what makes us think you’re not here to betray us right now?” she asked. “How do we know you’re not still working for Ronan and you're lying to us?”I met her gaze. “Because Liam has been captured and tortured and I can't save him on my own," I said. I knew a thing or two about lies. If you wanted them to work, you had to add truths."I’ve seen what Ronan is capable of, I’ve seen the lengths he’ll go to, seen the lives he’s destroyed. He’s taken everything. I’m not here to betray you. I’m here because I want to stop him, just like yo
MAXINEI should have pulled away. I should have slapped his hand aside but I just couldn’t. I was stunned and confused by the way he was looking at me. It wasn’t the look of a predator stalking up to his prey.It wasn't the cold and calculating look I had come to see every time with him. This was different. I was so enthralled and I couldn't tear my eyes away from him.I looked into his black eyes and he kept his eyes on me. His hand stayed on my cheek, his thumb brushing over my skin. It was in slow and deliberate strokes. And by the goddess, it felt delicious. The touch was so intimate that it made my heart skip a beat.I didn’t understand what was happening. Why was he acting this way? Why was I reacting this way as well? It was as if the Ronan I knew was gone, replaced by someone else entirely.“Why are you doing this?” I whispered, unable to talk any louder. In this vulnerable moment, I was fragile. The space between us didn't seem like it was enough. “Why are you being so kind t
MAXINEAs the days passed, Ronan kept making his presence in my life known. At first, I thought it was part of his twisted game, a way to keep me under control. I thought it was a way to manipulate me into doing his bidding.But as the days turned into weeks, something unexpected happened, and I found myself talking to him. Talking. It started innocently.He’d stop by my room in the evening. It was always unannounced. He would sit in the chair, making sure that he was facing me where I sat in my bed. He never came with any agenda or demands anymore. He just simply wanted to talk.It was strange, seeing this side of him. He laughed freely now and even made jokes. But he seemed genuinely interested in whatever I had to say. The first time I caught myself laughing, I felt guilty.Everyone else was trapped and I was laughing. At first, I was careful with my words. I was always expecting a trap that I was sure he was laying for me. But the more we talked, the more I found myself lowering m
MAXINEEvery time he visited, Ronan came with more books. And sometimes, he came with nothing at all. He was starting to know when I would have finished the books he brought. He was always with a book when I was almost through reading the last one he brought.Soon, he brought fewer and fewer books because he was visiting almost every day. It was like he was spreading the pile of books so he had an excuse to come talk to me.We talked about everything and nothing. I was careful not to bring up Liam and ruin anything. We talked about stories we liked and places we’d been. I asked him how the weather was outside and he promised to take me out for a walk.I found myself looking forward to his visits. I looked forward to the way he made me laugh. Our conversations were easy and natural. It scared me more than anything.It was terrifying because I knew it was wrong. I knew I shouldn’t be letting myself get so close to him. But I couldn’t help it. Ronan was like a puzzle, one that I couldn’t
LIAMDarkness. That’s all I know now. I had no idea how long it had been since I was brought back here after seeing Maxine. The room seemed to be growing smaller and smaller with each passing day. I had lost count of the days. Maybe it was even weeks since I last saw the sky.I hadn't felt the wind on my face. Hadn't seen the woman I had come to love.I was broken. My mind had dulled to a numbness. It kept me from feeling the gravity of my situation too much. When the guards brought me food, I ate without tasting its flavor. When they left me in the dark, I slept without dreams.I felt like I was a shell of who I once was. A shadow of the alpha I’d been. I wasn't the strongest anymore. I was far from that.On some days, Ronan would visit me. He'd refuse to tell me what day it was. He’d stand just at the edge of my cell looking in with a smile that made my skin crawl. I never responded.I had nothing left to say. His voice was just another noise in the endless void that had become my e
MAXINEI was getting painfully used to Ronan.I almost started to look forward to his footsteps outside my door. It was different than the others. He wasn't loud but his steps were confident. He wore boots, almost all the time.I anticipated the door unlocking and the soft shuffle of boots against the stone floor as he slipped inside my room. This time was no different, so I thought. I heard the familiar sounds. But when he stepped inside, I knew something was off.Ronan didn’t greet me with his usual smirk or even a sarcastic comment. His eyes were dull. It didn't have the sharp glint of malice that was usually dancing in his eyes. Instead of the easy swagger, his movements were slower, almost hesitant.I couldn't recognize the man standing before me. This looked like a shadow of him. “Ronan?” I called carefully. I didn’t dare take a step closer. Not until I knew what mood he was in.He didn’t answer right away. His eyes wandered around the room. It was as if he’d never seen it befor
MAXINEI caught myself. I can't be kind to him. I'm going to kill him. "Just rest,” I suggested.He nodded and his body relaxed completely. A few moments later, his breathing evened out. It shocked me. I realized he had fallen asleep on my lap, like a child. This villain had fallen asleep… on my lap.He had let his guard down enough to fall asleep. I sat there, my fingers still gently stroking his hair. My mind was racing. I was between the pity I felt for the man he had been and the anger for the man he had become.He had done so much harm to me, to Zel, to Liam, to so many others. But here he was, vulnerable and broken, exposing his wounds to me in a way that no one else had ever seen. Or would ever see.I looked down at him. His face is peaceful in sleep. It was hard to believe that he was capable of so much pain and suffering. Yet, here he was, seeking comfort from me, his enemy. He was trusting me enough to let his guard down completely.My eyes drifted to my hands that were re
MAXINEI got a job working at the pack hospital again. This time, I signed up to be a real medical practitioner. I was going to become a midwife. There were a few familiar faces at the hospital and lots of new ones.Still, I was grateful to Ronan for giving them this opportunity again.That evening, I walked back into my apartment. The dead herbs were still in a box on the floor in the kitchen. I wondered if I would go back. I used to pick herbs and sell them to women who wanted to get pregnant.It felt like eons ago. Times were simpler. Back then, I saved lives not help take them. That was a time when I didn’t have blood on my hands.I sighed, running my fingers through my hair. I wanted my simple life again. It was simple but everything made sense. I didn't have to try to untangle myself from this mess that was my reality.A knock on the door brought me back. Zel was back from work. She worked as a bartender a little while from our apartment. Zel had gotten the job. After the manag
MAXINEI nodded, not trusting myself to speak without crying. Ella was right. I needed to let myself grieve. The love I once had for Ronan still occupied my heart.Lindsey reached out and held my hand. "We’re here for you, Maxine."I squeezed her hand, grateful for their support. They were right. I didn’t have to go through this alone. I had them.Maybe it wasn't so bad after all.***Going back to my old life felt like stepping into a strange place. There was the feeling of losing something. My apartment felt like a place from a faraway memory. Zel was gone and I was feeling so sad.I was back from saying goodbye. I unlocked the door and stepped inside. The space was just as I’d left it. There was still dust over everything. At least, I had something to do with my time.I took a deep breath. I hadn't lost everything. I was still okay.I began to clean up slowly. Lindsey stopped by to help me out and together, we covered a lot. As I was cleaning, I heard a knock on the door.“Are you
MAXINEI wanted to believe her that everything would be okay but deep down, I felt guilt and grief. This was my fault. I pulled back from her and wiped my eyes. I gave her a shaky smile. “It doesn’t feel like it.”She cupped my cheek. “Everything isn't always as it seems, my dear. But, I can tell you one thing I know for sure.” She said.“What's that?”“It's not your fault. I'm sure you don't know where to go from here, what to do, or where you belong. You want to come with me, you want to continue your life back at the place where you and Zel liked and you want to go back to how things were in this pack.” Cinder explained.“But, I see you staying here. This is where your strength lies, where hope lives, where you have friends and support.” She lowered her eyes and winked. “It's where you have a future.”“And, we'll always be here for you to fall back on, regardless of what happens. We're your home away from home.” The Luna Queen said, putting her hand on my shoulder. “I'm very proud.
MAXINEI didn't feel anything. No pain from a stab whatsoever. I looked between us and that's when Ronan smiled. His lips were close to my ear and he whispered, “I would never hurt you on purpose, love.”I didn't know when I screamed.Ronan collapsed into my arms, taking the both of us down to the ground with him. I tried my best to hold his head up on my lap. My eyes traveled down to the blood pouring down the stab wound in his belly.“Ronan,” I called, tears filling my eyes and rolling down my cheeks. He had stabbed himself.My hand shook as it hovered over the wound. I didn't know what to do. The dagger was in his chest.Ronan had chosen death. Death over a life without me.“Maxine…” he called, his voice unnaturally calm for someone who was dying. He reached up to touch me and I guided his hand to my cheek.“I'm here, I'm here,” I cried. “I'm sorry,” I whispered the last part. My hands shook as I held him. I never wanted this. I didn’t want him to die.Ronan gasped. He looked up
MAXINEI held my breath as Ronan kept his eyes on mine. When he was close enough, he stopped. Neither of us said a word. The battle continued around us but I couldn't get myself to make the first move.He didn't either. I wondered if it was hard for him to see me. I wondered if he thought he could fight me. I also wondered if he thought that he could kill me.I spoke up first. “Ronan,” I called. My voice was sounding more longing than I wanted.I missed him, to be honest. I missed sitting down in the quiet and reading books. Strangely, I missed making his cinnamon coffee.Ronan didn't say anything. Instead, he took a step closer. “You don’t have to do this,” he said.There was no hurt, no anger in his voice, just nothing but kindness. I wished he would yell. I wished he would curse me and call me evil for everything I've done.“Come with me.” He said, softly. I heard it regardless of the noise. “We can fix this, Maxine. We'll leave everything behind together.”It sounded so good. But,
MAXINEHe caught me off guard. It meant that he still cared about me. I didn't focus on that though. “I won’t, I promise,” I replied.We stood there in silence for a while, neither of us knowing what to say. I could feel it though. I could feel it. The unspoken feelings and questions we didn't have the time to ask.Or we didn't dare to ask, I guess.After everything that had happened, I still wasn’t sure where we stood. I said I was okay with him hating me but, I didn't know anymore. The lines between us were confusing now. I didn't know how to fix that.But now wasn’t the time to focus on that. We had a mission and that was a priority. Every other thing could come after. We would cross that bridge later.For some reason, Liam stepped closer and I held my breath. “Regardless of what has happened between us, out there?” He said, “No matter what happens, we’ll get through this together. Do you understand?”I nodded. “Together,” I repeated.Before I could say anything else, Zel appeared
MAXINECinder gave me and Zel a brief of the plans that night when she showed us a bedroom. She and the Luna Queen were sharing the one right next to us. They told us to come to them if we faced any issues.Sleep didn't come easy because my mind was entirely on Ronan. I didn't know how I was going to face him again after betraying his trust. But, I knew I couldn't sit out of this fight.The sun had not even risen when I was woken up by the sound of Liam's voice. He was given instructions and I heard more footsteps around the house than the number of people I had seen the previous day.It meant that Liam was already up and gathering the troops. I could hear him giving commands like it hadn't been two months since he was last in power. He was a natural-born leader. He carried this air of authority around him.He was giving orders, explaining ranks and positions for this fight. Every single detail was important to winning.Zel was still asleep, of course. She wasn't a wolf so she wouldn'
MAXINEI chuckled bitterly. “What about now?” I asked. “Will you take me back now that I have a wolf? Isn't that what you've always wanted?”His eyes widened slightly but he kept himself composed. “That would be unfair to you. It would be wrong. If you want to come back to me, I will take you but the choice is yours now. You have a choice and I see now that I was wrong. I’m so sorry, Maxine. I hope you can forgive me.”Tears welled up in my eyes. I hadn't thought about this but I let the anger roll away from me. He was still family. He was my father. “I forgive you. You're my father, whether you abandon me or not.” I said.“Thank you, Maxine.” He said. He reached for me hesitantly. I would have settled for a handshake but he wrapped his hands around me. For the first time in what I knew was forever, my father hugged me.I didn't know what to feel about that.LIAMAfter Maxine spoke to her father, they returned to the living room. However, she moved toward the far end of the room, away
LIAMDespite everything that was unfolding in front of me, my thoughts were stuck on one thing.Maxine had a wolf.I couldn't wrap my head around it. After everything that had happened to her, it didn’t make sense. I glanced at her. The strange white-haired girl was sitting between us.Maxine was staring out of the window. The white-haired girl squeezed her hand. Maxine turned to look at her and offered her a small smile. That was when she caught me staring. She looked away, taking her eyes back to the window.It left me confused. Was she pissed at me? I was the one who had the right to be mad at her. She had chosen him over me. Well, the distance between us was necessary.I didn't know what I would say or do if I were sitting next to her. Kris took a sharp turn, causing Maxine to grab the handle of the car door. I opened my mouth to say something but I stopped myself. There would be time for questions later.“You alright back there?” Varis asked.“We’re fine,” I said. I didn't know i