With each step I took, getting closer to a man I wanted to run from. His icy glare settled on me and it felt like my skin was being pricked with a thousand needles.
I stopped for a second, unable to take the intensity. I could feel the barrel of a gun being pressed against my back as his goon walked me down the aisle.
I looked for the exits. There was only one door. "Easy there," his goon whispered in my ear, "it's either this or a funeral. You choose."
I narrowed my eyes at the man- indicating for him to move the gun, the material of the wedding dress was thin and the gun was digging into my back. The goon looked amused, releasing the pressure he was putting on the gun.
I continued walking, looking at all the smiling faces looking back at me. I wanted to scream 'help me' but something in me doubted they would. "Smile," the goon ordered. I put on my best smile but I couldn't promise its genuineness.
We reached the alter and he handed me off to the groom -as if I was his to give away. I eyed the silent, brooding man. There were worse people to marry but I never thought I'd marry a man with a neck tattoo.
"Dearly beloved we are gathered here today..." The priest began the ceremony and the man kept his eyes fixed on me. His jaw was clenched as he glared hard at me and I wondered why he was forcing me into this when he didn't want it as well.
"We don't have to do this." I tried one last time to reason with him.
"Your brother owes me," he said, stiffly.
"I can pay you in monthly instalments."
I never got the chance to talk to him after he took me. I just know for the last two days I feared my life not knowing if Jason and I would be alive come the weekend.
He locked me in a room alone. I was surprised there was someone that brought me meals. I felt like this marriage was going to be a life sentence.
He didn't allow me to see my brother and every time I asked the workers, they didn't know what I was talking about. I had no choice but to trust this man's word that Jason was still alive.
"You think that's how things work, darling," he said, snapping me out of my thoughts, "no you either remain silent and let the man do his job or there is a bullet going in your brother's head," He whispered through clenched teeth.
And I'd never thought I'd marry a man so cruel.
"Is half a million worth a human life?" I couldn't help but question the man's moral code.
"Darling, you don't stay in the game by giving out loans. What did you think I was running, a charity? Besides your brother stole from us. Somebody is got to pay."
"This isn't right," I muttered.
"Do you take this woman to be your lawfully wedded wife?" The priest asked and the man looked me over briefly, giving me a snide smile.
"I do."
The priest looked at me. "Do you take this man to be your lawfully wedded husband?"
"I, um..." I stuttered and I heard the distinctive sound of a gun being cocked. "I do," I blurted and the priest looked at me.
The man glared at me before looking into the crowd. "She's eager," he said and everyone laughed.
"Can we have the rings," the priest called and a boy that looked no older than a high school student brought the rings on a golden tray. My soon going to be husband clasped the boy on the arm, smiling at him.
He then turned his gaze on me, taking my hand in his rough hand. His smile disappeared, and he picked up the ring, sliding it on my finger, harshly to the base.
My breathing hitched as he lifted his tattooed hand for me to take. I slid the golden band on his finger and he let go of my hand as soon as it was on.
"I now pronounce you man and wife. You may kiss the bride," the priest said.
The man wrapped an arm around me pulling me close. My breathing picked up as his cold plump lips touched mine briefly, and I felt fear encase me. He let go of me and his attention fell behind me. I turned to look and saw an old man in a wheelchair.
"Is that your father?" I asked... Trying to catch my breath. I was terrified of what came next in my life. I was now married to this man and I didn't even know his name or anything about him.
"My grandfather and the reason I had to marry you," he said, walking away and his men followed. The goon that walked me down the aisle came back securing his gun behind my back.
"Let's go, Hunny," he said.
"Is that necessary? I married him. I can't run now can I?" I asked.
"Just protocol and keep smiling."
He loaded me into a white Suv, and their boss was the driver. We were alone which surprised me. He drove out of the church yard and I fidgeted in my seat nervously. "What now?" I asked.
"Let's get something straight," he began, "I married you on paper. Whether you like me or not I don't care. You'll get your own room and your own space. If you need someone to take care of your desires in the bedroom that can be arranged too. Don't bother me and don't talk to me if it's not necessary."
"I just have one question?" I said and he turned to look at me.
"And what's that?"
"What's your name?" I asked, "or do I call you boss like all your goons?"
"Alvaro," he said, turning to look back at the road.
"I'm Jane," I said and he looked at me from the corner of his eye.
"You think I would marry someone without knowing their name?" He questioned, "I know everything about you. Your name is Jane America Collins, you moved to Canada for two years and then moved back this year. You have no criminal records, not even a damn parking ticket," he looked amused, "and were a straight A student in high school which was sad because you never went to college and assuming your cunt of a brother owes me money, I think I know why you never got the chance to further your education which resulted in you having to work like a dog just to survive."
It was sad when someone explained how my life was especially when that someone was a stranger. "You got all of that information on me in two days?"
He nodded.
"So how long do we have to be married for? You married me for something other than companionship. So how long?"
He laughed. "Till death do us part, darling."
"What if I want a divorce?" I asked.
He laughed again. "Go ahead sweetheart, but let me tell you there were four gang leaders that attended our wedding. Yeah, we are all cool for now but when things go south they always want to hit where it hurts most and that's family. So you want to divorce me and live on your own, that's fine by me. But when you killed in that shoe box you call an apartment I will be sure to send flowers." I remained silent. "Good to know that's enough incentive for you."
"Why me?" I asked.
"Because. No one will miss you. You are a ghost. No friends, no cat," he laughed again, "your parents live in Oregon so they won't come looking for you."
I clenched my jaw. "I'm giving you a chance at a better life. I'm still doing your brother a favour by not killing him. I don't see a need to complain."
"What happens to my brother now?"
"Booked him a one-way flight to Brazil. He's not allowed to step foot in the country again. I'm not the only one he owes money to. That fucker has been around the mill. Pissed off a lot of people." He clenched the steering wheel tight. "I had to clean that up too."
"Last question," I said, "why did you marry me because of your grandfather?" I felt that was the most important question.
"The man is a hopeless romantic. He says behind every great man there is a supportive, loving woman that keeps him great and secured on the throne. He wasn't going to hand over the family business if I didn't marry someone."
"So I'm just a means to an end?" I asked.
"You're fixing both our problems with one move."
"Did you not have like a girlfriend or someone you'd want to marry instead?"
He laughed. "I thought that was your last question."
"Forgive me but I'm just curious about what I'm getting into."
"See that's the thing. You're already into it, Mami." He grinned, followed by an almost evil-sounding laugh.
"I have a favour to ask," I looked away, "let me see Jason before you send him away."
He thought about it for a second."Fine, you can say your goodbyes."
"Thank you."
There was silence and he ran a tattooed hand through his hair. "Consider it your wedding present."
He stopped the car outside the gates of his mansion, pressing a button on the intercom. "Open," he said and the gates opened.
He drove into the garage and switched the engine off. "Let's go," he said, opening a trap door on the garage floor.
"I'm wearing a wedding dress how am I supposed to-" his face said it all that he didn't care.
"Do you want to or not? His plane leaves in an hour."
I hiked my dress up and went down the ladder slowly. "Jane," my brother came over to me, pulling me into a hug.
"Are you okay? Did you marry him, already?" He asked.
"Just got back from the church," Alvaro said, jumping the last few steps. His feet hit the ground hard causing me to flinch.
"Means we brothers now right?" Jason chuckled and Alvaro shook his head.
"Means you owe your sister your life," he said.
"Can I talk to him in private?" I asked, Alvaro.
"What can't you say in front of me?" He asked.
"Please," I said and he walked back to the stairs.
"Thank you so so much, Jane," Jason said.
"I've bailed you out of some real shit before and I must say this takes the cake, Jason."
"I know, I know, JJ." I sighed and he pulled me to the corner of the room.
"Here's what you are going to do," his voice got low, "you going to work towards disappearing. This man has money. He will take care of your expenses. You need to work and save all the money you can on the side and when you feel comfortable enough you need to leave the country. He is dangerous. Don't stay here.""Knowing he is dangerous you still put me in this position!" I seethed.
"It's not the worst thing that could have happened to us."
"Us!" I snapped at his audacity, "I didn't get a cent of the five hundred thousand, but here I am paying for it!"
"Times up," Alvaro said, coming back down the stairs. "Hope y'all said y'all's goodbyes. He needs to go now."
I nodded and a few men came down the stairs to take Jason away. "How do I know you won't kill him if you not letting me have any contact with him?"
"Isn't my wife smart," Alvaro looked prideful, "She is starting to think on her feet," he looked between me and my brother, "One phone call a month good with you, darling?" He asked, "I'm being extra generous this week."
"Yeah, you are boss." One of his goons said.
"You going to have to learn to trust me," Alvaro said to me.
"Well, I can't."
"You'll learn. I have your best interests at heart," he grinned, "now come with me. My grandfather wants to meet you."
"Goodbye Jane, remember what I said," Jason said and the men led him up the stairs.
I prayed he'd be okay. Because I wasn't going to be around to bail him out anymore.
"Let's go," Alvaro said and I followed him out of what I assumed was the basement- trying not to think about all the people he murdered down there.
He lead me into his large outlandish family room that had a theme of white and gold. It made me wonder how he kept it clean with the "work" he was into.
His grandfather was waiting in the centre of the room, seated in his wheelchair with a female beside him.
"Abuelo," Alvaro greeted, bowing his head in respect.
"Beautiful ceremony my son," the old man said, "I flew all the way from Spain when I heard the good news," the man looked at me and smiled. "Come here my dear," he said and I looked at Alvaro.
Alvaro placed his hand on my back giving me a gentle nudge towards his grandfather. "Welcome to the family," his grandfather said, he turned to the lady, "help me up would you?" She helped him up and gave him a cane to lean on. He held open his arms and I hugged him.
"Thank you, sir," I said, letting go of the man.
"Please call me Abuelo. You are my granddaughter now."
He let go of me and Alvaro took my hand in his. I felt a cold sweat coming along. I felt, faint, my stomach churned and then I heard a loud pop. I jumped and Alvaro squeezed my hand.
"To Mr And Mrs Castillo," his grandfather cheered, pouring three glasses of champagne.
It was hard for me to believe that this is what my life came to be. Married to Alvaro. It had been exactly one week since we wed. I thought about what Jason said. He was right the only chance I had was running. I stayed in my room all day, every day. I didn't have a phone or a laptop. No access to the internet. Just a TV. I felt more like a pet than a human. Cynthia one of the workers was the only person I spoke to.She even helped dress me for my wedding day. It helped that she had a nurturing persona. She reminded me of my nana. She always smiled at me, and it warmed my heart seeing her every day or just having little conversations with her. She would always stay a little longer each time she visited but then she would say she needed to get back to work.She brought me breakfast, lunch and dinner. I refused to leave the room— telling her to tell Alvaro I wasn't feeling well or was napping. He never came to check so I got away with it and after a while I guess he got the idea that I
I phoned the store manager apologizing for not being to work for the past week. She was a grumpy woman and she threatened to take it out of my leave days. I had no problem with that, as long as I got my job back. I got ready for work and walked out of the house to see Mat had already pulled the car out of the garage. He opened the passenger side door for me. "Thank you," I said and he jogged over to the driver's side. I felt excited to go back to work, and I wasn't going to let having a bodyguard stop me, but Mateo looked young— now that I sat next to him. He was tall, just an inch shorter than Alvaro. "So who is Alvaro to you?" I squeaked, hating the fact that I was sounding nosey. "Alvaro kind of adopted me when I was five years old," he said, "I tried to steal from him and he was so amused by it that I won his heart." "That's sweet of him." I didn't think Alvaro was the type to adopt a child or even care about children. Mat shrugged. "He's always been so good to me. He is a n
Alvaro's POVI had made a lot of bad decisions in my lifetime of thirty years. But I also made some good ones hoping it would save my soul. One of my good decisions happened to be Mateo. He was just a kid, I found him in a rough neighbourhood. He tried to pick my pocket and I just couldn't get over how young he was, too young to start leading a sinful life. Abuelo and abuela were happy to take him in. I read to him every night and I taught him how to read and write before he could go to school. When I bought this place it was his choice to come live with me. I was going to make sure he turned out to be a better man than I was. There was no hope left for me. When that clock ran out I knew my final destination. Abuelo said being an atheist helped but being a human, flesh, blood and unlimited intelligence to achieve the impossible had to mean there was someone upstairs pulling the strings. I walked down to the bottom cellars. Miguel had called me while I was still having dinner with
Jane's POVIt was Friday and I wasn't as excited as I used to be when it came to Friday after work. I looked forward to sleeping in and watching Netflix while eating junk food—which lead to self-loathing on Monday when my favourite pair of jeans wouldn't button— I liked taking long walks to the store on Sundays to get whatever groceries I needed for the rest of the week and then I'd organize my closet, picking out clothes based on what the weather was going to be. Now I could still do Netflix but it just didn't feel the same outside the comfort of my own home and every time I put on headphones to watch something it's like I could hear voices. Sometimes it was Alvaro screaming at someone, and recently it sounded like there was a man screaming in pain. I never explored the noises I heard. I was too afraid of what I'd walk into. I couldn't relax knowing something was going on in the house. I also didn't care about the weather anymore. I dressed how I felt. There was a hollow feeling
He was towering over me like the angel of darkness. He smiled wickedly and alluringly, so beautiful yet deadly. He knew what I was up to and he wasn't going to stand for it. "You want to run from me, darling?"I shook my head. He wouldn't let me go— I was his lottery ticket after all. "Somebody has to pay for what your brother took," he muttered. Jason was sitting in a chair and the scene changed. We ended up in his basement. The room was illuminated in yellow light. Alvaro pulled a pistol out of his coat pocket. "You will learn to take me seriously," he threatened. He pulled the trigger putting a bullet into Jason. "Alvaro!" I shot up from my bed. Catching my breath. My heart was pounding and I was sweating. "Interesting," I heard his voice and I looked up to see him leaning against the dresser. I screamed and he stepped out of the darkness. He clasped a hand over my mouth. It was still a little dark and I could see his eyes staring back at me. "Be quiet.""What are you doing in
"Does Mateo know?" I spoke breaking the long silence between us. We were still parked on the side of the road and I was staring out the window watching kids play soccer on the road. "No. I'll tell him tonight." I turned to see Alvaro had a defeated look on his face. "How is he going to take it?""I don't know," he started, and the way he fidgeted in his seat told me he was feeling uneasy. "When abuela passed, he cried himself to sleep for more than a month. I had to send him for therapy." He ran a tired hand down his face leaving it to rest on his chin. "And how do you feel?" I knew he would never show any signs of weakness in front of me but it wasn't about being powerful when the life of someone you loved was in danger. "When that clock runs out there is nothing a man can do to stop it. Abuelo is old. He's been to the best doctors but he has too many underlying conditions." "You didn't answer my question," I said and he punched the steering wheel. "How do you think I feel?" He
Alvaro was a big tease when he wanted to be. I slept in the guest room because after he made me all hot and bothered he walked away with a victorious smile. He was proud to know he had an effect on me I suppose. The eyes were a vain thing. Everything in me screamed not to fall for his tricks. The devil was once an angel and Alvaro Castillo would prove to me just how true those words could be if I didn't watch myself around him.The guest room had a single bed and was painted with a fresh shade of white. The curtains were blue and there were fake flowers in a vase on the vanity table. I dressed my bed and left the room the way I found it.I walked into my room to see it empty. The bed was made and the windows and curtains were open. I went straight to the bathroom and walked into Mateo on the toilet. "I'm popping!" He yelled and I shrieked shutting the door. "Oh come on Mat, do you have to do that in here." I banged on the door. "Where else am I supposed to do it." I heard him laug
Alvaro's POV.I was nine years old when my father passed. No, I shouldn't say he passed, it made it sound like a natural cause when he was murdered in cold blood on the street. There was an up-and-coming gang in the city called the Diabolos and for initiation—to be the gang leader's left nut I suppose—my father was the target. Put a bullet in him and you were going to be the pet. The right hand man of the new boss. My father didn't know it yet because he was too distracted by my mother. She was cheating on him with one of his men and he found out. It drove him insane. Heartbroken he turned to the bottle. I would come home from school to find him passed out in the living room. I was just a kid but I should have done something more to save my father from himself and what we didn't know was coming. He felt embarrassed. He had a lot of regrets and I remembered one crucial piece of advice he gave me. "No te cases Una mujer te romperá de maneras que no sabías que eran posibles."He sai
Mateo's Pov. I always believed I was more lucky than unlucky. I was a homeless boy and then I was adopted by one of the richest families in the city that treated me like their own flesh and blood. I gained a family and it was more than an orphaned boy like me could dream of. I never knew struggle after Alvaro and I was grateful. This time my luck was up again. Maybe I was creepy for this but this was the closest opportunity I'd ever get to see her again. She had tweeted that she would be doing her medical practicals at Hôtel Dieu Hospital in France. I may have admired her from afar for years after I said my final goodbye but I promised her that she would see me again and we kissed one last time. Not a day passed that I haven't thought of her. I saw her in my dreams. From the day I met Julia I was drawn to her. It was like everything in my head just clicked from the moment I saw her in that little boutique. The programme was starting soon and I was stuck in a cab in traffic. I wa
Jane's Pov. 5 years later I sat on a park bench watching a little girl running and leaping with her friends. I couldn't help but wonder how things would be different if it weren't for the sacrifices Alvaro and I made. She was free. I felt two hands come around my eyes and block out the light. "Al?" I asked. "No," I heard Mateo's voice and I sprung up jumping on him. "Easy," he chuckled, stumbling back and trying to regain his footing. "Mat what are you doing here?"I missed him too much to care if I was embarrassing him. "It's Rosie's birthday. What do you think I'm doing here?" He was grinning from ear to ear. "How'd you know we'd be at the park?" I asked. "Today is Saturday. You always come to the park on Saturday to do some bird and people watching." He sat down next to me. Mateo left for college when he turned eighteen. His grades were incredible and he got a bursary to study medicine at Oxford in England. When he chose medicine I asked why and he said it was so he could a
The plane ride was long. My tolerance for travel depreciated. Besides the cramped toilet I couldn't stand being in a compressed space with Alvaro. Especially when he sat close to me. I wanted to choke him and I would have loved to blame my hormones but it would be a lie when I knew it was what I would naturally want. I was upset for a long list of reasons especially this morning when he insisted I get into the car. I didn't know what I would say to my grandmother and mother so he said this wasn't a final goodbye. I could come back after I saw the place and say my goodbyes. Mateo looked between us. He barely spoke to Alvaro it was just mutters and grunts which seemed to amuse Alvaro. "Have you decided?" Alvaro asked him. "Where do you want to stay?" Mateo didn't answer. "Your silence speaks volumes. You chose her, " Alvaro smiled. "I'm not surprised. I knew you would." Mateo looked away from him. "It's okay, mi hijo." Mateo stood and went into the room at the back of the plane.
Jane's POV. "We've been here for a week," Mateo mentioned. I covered my eyes from the sun to look at him. The sun was setting and we were outside painting the barn. Maybe I was just trying to bide time until I was all alone. Mateo agreed to come with me to Texas. I thought it would be better to have him with me this time.My grandmother and mom loved him. They treated him like their own and I appreciated that. Mateo wasn't happy with my decision to leave Alvaro but he did support it. The last thing I wanted was to come between him and Alvaro. If he chose to stay with Alvaro I couldn't force him away. "Why haven't you asked me to come with you?" He questioned. His face held a certain amount of offence. "I thought you would by now." "Because I don't want you to have to choose between him and me. I want you to know that you are always welcome to live with me. I'll take care of you. I might not be able to spoil you the way Alvaro does but you'll have a home and you'll be safe." "Wh
Alvaro's Pov.I would rather have someone shoot me. Empty a cartridge of bullets in me, stab me with the sharpest knife and carve out my heart. Hollow me out physically. Any physical pain would do. But not this pain. Not the pain of her leaving me. It was like all the happiness in the world had been vacuumed out. She broke me and I let her because I chose to love her. I couldn't hate her for it. Because I understood why she was leaving. I couldn't strap her down and force her to stay because the hate she'd have for me would hurt more than her leaving. And I couldn't stand the idea of her hating me again when I experienced how much she loved me. She was my slice of paradise the reason I looked forward to coming home. And she left me and she took Mateo with her to Texas. I wouldn't be surprised if Mateo decided to move out and be with her. He proved there was nothing he wouldn't do for her. He would take care of her and she would take care of him but I couldn't take that thought.
Mateo looked himself over in his long mirror. He was dressed in a navy blue tuxedo and his hair was combed to the side. "You look handsome Mat," I complimented. "I hope she thinks so..." He sounded nervous. "She likes you," I said, "why would you think otherwise?" "She's just so great. It seems like a dream whenever I'm with her." "That's cute." I smiled. "Did you go to your prom?" He asked. My memories of high school were fleeting. I didn't have much of a social life. "Yes. I went with a boy I crushed on for two years. We met in tenth grade and then he ignored me until our senior year. He surprised me by asking me." "Seems like a bad boy," Mateo smirked. "He wasn't a complete bad boy. He was a bit of a nerd too." "What happened to him?" Mat asked. "I moved and then he moved. I haven't seen him since high school." "It's nice to know that my wife had many prospects before me," Alvaro popped up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist. "Plenty," I teased. "S
I sat beside Mateo holding his hand as the doctors attempted to remove the bullet. Alvaro was speaking to the nurses in private about how the bullet ended up in his shoulder. I owed my life to Mat. Carlos, unfortunately, had to stay a few days in the hospital. They had to do some blood tests, stitch up his wounds as well as do an X-ray. Fernez was also starving him so he had dropped weight rapidly. Mat squeezed my hand as he ground his teeth. "It's okay just a little more, Mat," I said, wiping his forehead with a cold press. His body was burning up and his face was red. "Motherfucker," he yelped and the doctor removed the bullet with something that looked like very long tweezers. "Fuck," Mateo cried out. "Well I need to go wash my ears out with soap after all that cussing, Mr Castillo," the doctor gave him a reprimanding look as he cleaned up his shoulder and bandaged his arm. I didn't know Mateo had such a sailor's mouth but I guess living with Alvaro did that. "Mrs Castillo," A
I never thought a parent would ever be capable of hating their child. Especially a mother. As I stared at Christine I wondered why. Alvaro was good to his family. When he loved —he loved hard. Christine never gave him a chance. She cast him out and that hurt him. She couldn't accept what she did was wrong and now she had gone too far. She had taken his child. "Water?" Christine held a bottle of water out to me. I never wanted to hurt someone so badly before and my body was shaking with the rage I was trying very hard to contain. "No, what I'd like to know is where we are going and where Mateo and Carlos are," My voice held showed my frustration and Christine gulped hard. "How is the pregnancy going?" She asked and I narrowed my eyes at her, "I'm surprised you came at all. How did you manage to escape my son and his many bodyguards?" "Where are you taking me?" I asked again. It felt like we had been driving for hours and I wanted to see Mateo so badly that I was having anxiety. "
Jane's Pov.I couldn't feel my senses anymore. I was unsure if I was even alive at this point. It felt like my soul had been pushed out of my body and was hovering from above. Everyone moved around me and I was sure they were talking because I saw their lips move, yet I couldn't understand a word they were saying. It all sounded like gibberish. "Find him-" were two words that made sense. I prayed that it was all a nightmare. I was waiting to wake up in bed next to Alvaro, knowing Mateo was sleeping soundly in the next room. But I wasn't waking up. Each second trapped in this reality felt like a lifetime in hell. "Jane," someone called. I could feel hot tears rolling down my cheeks as my ears finally popped. Everyone's urgent voices hit my ears at once and it was mind-numbing. "Jane," abuelo was calling me. "Take her home," I heard Alvaro's voice. That seemed to stir an emotion in me. "She can't be here." My head snapped in his direction and something inside me quivered as I