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In My Eyes

Author: Nkulie M
last update Last Updated: 2024-10-29 19:42:56

Alexander's POV

I have done a lot of unforgivable things in this world. I know that I am not a saint but I know that I am not all bad either. I just wish that my wife could see that and so we can be over and done with. I never wanted her to leave me and I still don't. I also didn't want to hurt her but I did and all that I ever wanted to do was to have a chance to fix all of that. I am afraid that I might never get a chance to do it.

I am not a man who finds it easy to accept that he is wrong but right now I know that I was wrong and because of it to My Unborn child might be suffering. I never meant to hurt her like this but when I saw her bleeding my heart sank. I don't need her to confirm if the baby she's carrying is mine because I know it is so to see her in that position was very difficult for me. I just wanted her to be safe. I just want her to her and the baby to make it through.

I have managed to rush her to the hospital but right now it is not looking good. I spoke to her doc
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