Ella's POVI listened to him thinking that it would give me some closure but all that it has done is left me confused even more. I thought that I knew Alexandra and I thought that they knew the kind of man he was but after what he said to me today I am confused. I never thought that a day would come when he would actually care for someone else other than himself. I didn't expect him to come to me and tell me that he was willing to do whatever it is I wanted if it meant that I would be happy. I was taken by that because the Alexandra I thought I knew would have never said that to me. I actually think that for the first time in his life he was being honest with me. I felt like he was pouring out his heart to me and letting me know what was feeling. I will say that as surprising as it was I am still not sure if I can trust this man. I mean how can I even trust that he means the things that he said after he has lied to me so many times about so many things?" Do you mean it?" I asked him
Alexander's POVMy life has been a mess and at some point, I didn't think that it would work out . Especially when everyone was coming for me. I have tried to clean up my mess as best as I could, even then I can't clean up the biggest mess I have created. As a man I have to sit back and reflect on all the wrong things I have done to Ella. I am amazed that she agreed to wait on the divide, I don't want it, I want to fix things. I know that I have wronged her, I am a dog and I probably don't deserve it. The same I know that I don't want to be without her. She asked me for some space, she said that she needed to get her head together and I want to give her the space she needs. The only problem with that is that I am going crazy being away from her knowing that she is in town. So much that I have made an offer to purchase a property around her area. The house is biggerand if things go well, it might be our family home. I am not going to give up on Ella or my marriage. I am willing to d
Ella's POVI have made peace with the fact that I might never find a happily ever after, that I might have to spend the rest of my life alone. I thought that I could be with Dustin but this morning I found myself packing away the last of his things to send back home to Texas. He didn't say that he was not going to come back but this is not fair to me or my children, neither is it fair to him. I don't want to wake up one morning and hate him, or for him to hate me for not loving him. It is amazing was heartache can you make you do. I almost threw myself at Dustin at the fear of spending the rest of my life alone. I thought that if I didn't have a man with me I wouldn't be able to raise my kids in a proper way. I then had to ask myself if I was doing the right thing for my children, for me to be with a man that I don't love for the rest of my life. I had to ask myself if that was the life that I wanted my children to know and a life where I would only be half happy.I won't lie and say
Alexander's POVI would like to think that I am not a terrible man and that is why I am fighting for my family. I know that my wife is upset with me right now and I don't blame her after everything that has happened but it is also made me realise just how much I loved her. I suppose it is true when they say that you don't know how much you appreciate something until you lose it. I have tried to tell myself that I can endure being away from her but it has been getting harder and harder everyday.I also knew that she could never accept that man that's wanted divorce so I am trying to be the man that she wants to stay married to and that man is a good man. I told my father to make me an offer and he has made me one and I have since accepted his offer but I hadn't told my wife about it. I didn't want her to feel like I was doing all of this because I wanted to get in her good books. I know that part of it is because of that but a big part of it is because of I want what's best for everyon
Alexander's POVI have never been so scared in my entire life before. I never in my life thought that I could find myself at this place having to make the hardest decision of my life. I planned a baby shower for my wife hoping that she would have the time of her life. I never thought that I would be rushing her to the emergency room only a few hours later and somehow I feel like all of this is partly my fault. I say this is partly my fault because I know that she was on bed rest and that she was supposed to be at home in her bed and not out and about. I am trying to put my family back together and so I am doing everything I can to make sure that it happens. I threw that baby shower because I wanted to do something nice for her before she gives birth. I wasn't able to do this when my son was born because I didn't know about him. I know that things are not going perfectly between my wife and I but I just want to make things right. A lot has happened between us ever since we got married
Ella's POVCarrying Bradley was hard on me emotionally, knowing that I had to give him up gave me sleepless nights, I even wondered if I would ever be able to go through with it. It was an emotional turmoil for me but physically, it was a breeze. The morning sickness didn't last long. Even the baby bump was not too visible, I carried him full term and at the end, I delivered a bouncing healthy baby boy, he was so beautiful, so perfect. I almost backed out of giving him up, telling myself that I would run away and start a new life with my son. I knew that a lot of women where doing it and while others where lucky to make a good life for their children, for others it was just too much to bare and as a result many others have struggled to do so. I didn't want that for my son. My parents have their mistakes but they gave me a good childhood. I got everything I wanted. Two loving parents and everything I could ask for. As an only child they gave me everything and they made sure that I was
Alexander's POVNo parents should ever have to go through what Ella and I are going through right now and the worst part of it is that I have to be strong for her. I need to be the one who will the shoulder she can cry on. She is not happy that I chose her instead of our child but if we can work things out, I am sure that we could have more kids in the future, there is only but one her and I was not going to lose her no matter what I had to sacrifice. I hope they someday she will realise that I made the best decision for us. I couldn't lose the both of them, it would have been too much. Yesterday she asked to be released from hospital, I didn't exactly agree with that but she said that she wanted to plan the funeral for our daughter. I would have preferred to do things all my by myself because she has already gone through so much but she told me that this was the last thing she was going to be able to do for our daughter so she wants to handle it. Against my opinions and worries, sh
Ella's POVI feel like my whole has just been shattered into a thousand tiny pieces and I don't even know how to put them back together. Right now I am a mess and I am not going to do anyone any good. Which is why I want a divorce. I don't know why my baby didn't survive, why she was taken from me but I know that I have no more fighting left in me. I want to walk away from my marriage because I can't be the woman that Alex needs me to be right now. I can't do it. I don't think that I will be able to recover from what happened to me. I understand that I am not the only one hurting in this but no one can understand how I feel inside. I had to walk out of the hospital carrying an empty bag full of baby clothes and no baby in my arms. I don't know how to deal with something like this. I got out of the hospital and the first thing that Alexander did was to put me in his house without my consent. He didn't even talk to me about it.Before we lost our baby girl I I was thinking about maybe
Alexander's POV **** Fifteen Years Later**** " I am sorry Mr Black but we can't allow him to come back to this institute, your son is brilliant, he has a brilliant mind but he is the worst student this institution has had. " The Dean of students said to me. This is the fourth call she has made to me in the last two months about my son, he has been involved in fights and brawls ever since he went to university. I have three other children that I need to worry about and the person I should be least worried about is giving me stress. " I am sorry Dean, I will talk to him. " I said to the Dean. " Mr Black I don't think you hear me, we are beyond talking at this point, your son has proven time and again that he doesn't want to be here. " She said to me. " Dean I heard through the grapevine that you are about to host a gala dinner, something about raising funds for a new division at the university. " I said to her. " We haven't made a notice, how do you know about this?" She asked me.
Alexander's POVI knew something was up with Jack when he kept on dissappearing without any explanations. Not only that but he kept on asking me to give Michelle a job so that she would miss the wedding. I know that we have a lot of history together, that we are basically brothers but I don't know if I can let my wife down like that. Ella doesn't have that many friends, she only has two that she holds close to her heart, that would be Isabella and Michelle, both of which are part of the wedding celebration. The same wedding celebration I flew everyone here for, I booked out an entire resort for everyone. I didn't even understand why he would ask me that so I told him that I wanted a reason why he would even ask me to do something like that, especially after I told him that I want this wedding be perfect, I told him that Ella has to have the wedding of her dreams, if she had told me that she wanted to have dolphins at our wedding, believe me when I tell you that I would have made it h
Ella's POVThe last couple of days have been stressful, having a destination wedding is never easy. I wanted a beach wedding out of the country. I know that Tatiana is behind bars but after all that she has done to me, I can't let my guard down. I didn't tell Alexander but I have been having nightmares about the day of the shooting, I keep on releaving that moment in my mind, I wish I can say that being shot at was the worst part of it but it was not, it was the way Alexander looked at her that scares me to death. I can't help feeling like she will always find a way to ruin my marriage, to ruin the good thing I have going with my husband and family. I know that as long as she is truly out there, I will never be truly happy. She might be in jail but she won't be there forever. I have a fear that one day when I am truly happy, when my children and husband are happy, she will come and turn our lives upside down. She will snatch everything away from me. I have had to put Brad through ca
Alexander's POVI don't usually follow people's advice, especially when it comes to my personal life, I thought that I had all the answers, that I could really be a different man but I soon realised that I was wrong. I suppose talking to Minty helped me to make a few things clear for me, it made me realise what I wanted and why I wanted it. At first I was doing BDSM to deal with issues I couldn't control, I never thought that there was another reason for doing it but after I talked to Minty, I realised that I was using my troubles as an excuse. The truth is that I have always been that kind of a man. I have always had a taste for the extreme, from jumping out of the plane to diving with the Sharks, I have always been the one to live on the edge so my sexual tastes was also extreme. Even before I knew about the BDSM works I always had a thing for bondage and spanking but even then, not even when I was drunk out of my mind, I never did it to Ella, I didn't even think I could. I am abo
Ella's POVIt has been days since the Gala dinner and I honestly don't know what happened but I have been seeing a lot of changes in my husband and as much as I told him to stop buying me expensive gifts, it is like he is purposely trying to ignore me. On top of a very expensive necklace that he got me, he decided to get me an art piece, a very expensive art piece. Last night we went to an art gallery, one of his friends was having his work shown there and so he invited Alexander. It was the first time I set foot in a place like that, up until last night I didn't really think much about art. To me a painting was just a painting and a statue was just a statue but that changed last night. His friend had one of his destopian art pieces and I fell in love with it instantly. The statue was just full of life, the raw materials used were just out of this world and I could somehow imagine that in our home. I didn't tell Alexander that I wanted it, but I told him that I liked it and this morn
Alexander's POVI don't know how she managed to pull this off but I am happy with the work that she has put in to make this night a success. I will also say that I didn't think that I would see some of the faces I saw here tonight, especially faces that had no business being here. I am talking about the women in my past, the women I have had to let go and all for various reasons. I also realised that my parents were happy about the work my wife has put in to make this night a success. I still can't believe that this is where we are, that we are finally going to get everything we have always wanted. In a week I will see my wife walking down the isle once again and this time, I can't even wait for the day to come. I am at a place in my life where I feel like everything has finally fallen into place. I am about to become a father again and I will tell you now that there is no title in my life that I hold in high regard than the title of father. Two years ago I was not even thinking abo
Ella's POVIt has been three weeks since I got shot, three weeks since I have been back home with my family and I am only a week away from my wedding day, not only have I been planning my wedding, I have been planning the restaurant's official opening and also tonight's Gala dinner. It is the first time I have had to throw a party so big but with the help of my friends I was able to pull it off. It is an annual event that was had been organised by his mother since it was founded a decade ago. I will admit that I never thought that my life would turn out like this. That I would be a wife to a man like Alexander or even the fact that I would be responsible for events like the one I organised tonight. Alexander's mother said that she was tired of running the organisation and that it needed some fresh blood, I was not too keen on the idea of taking on something as big as this and in such a limited space of time. The gunshot wound was healing and now I felt like I was ready to take on the
Alexander's POV I did not want my wife to find out about my previous lifestyle and what used to happen between me and my ex's. I know that if it was up to me she wouldn't have found out at all but she wanted to know and I told her. I told her what was happening and I thought that she would ask me for details which would have been the worst because I don't think I could have been able to utter the words to her. The more I thought of it, the more I hated myself for it. All this time I thought that I was using Lacey as a coping mechanism but that is not true. The truth I that I was taking it all out on her because I was not dealing with things. I also realise that my wife was right when she said that I could not cut off that part of me like it didn't exist. I didn't want to hear that especially coming from her but that still doesn't change the fact that she was right but I also know that I can never do to her what I did to all those other women. I told her and left because I didn't wa
Ella's POVI will be the first to admit that Alexander caught me completely by surprise. I know that the insurance said that they would take some time to pay out and I was wondering if I was even able to start all over from the start again. I had put in a lot of work into making that restaurant what it was before that crazy woman burnt it all down. I kept on asking myself what I had done to have so much bad luck and now I know that it had nothing to do with bad luck at all. It had to do with the fact that another woman wanted my husband so bad that she was willing to ruin everything I had in order to get what she wanted and for a moment it seemed like she was going to do it, that she was going to get everything I had. My husband, my daughter and even my marriage. After weeks of worrying about my son, I couldn't just sit and do nothing. I don't know what I would have done if it was not for Michelle, she really came through for me and I don't even know how to thank her. I don't know w