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Chapter 6
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2021-07-16 17:23:51Lizzy
I am such a bad person, I should’ve just gone for a date and then implied I wasn’t interested in him, but that would be wrong too. I think I did the right thing, ‘Markus is a nice guys he’ll find someone better than me in no time’ I think to myself but still a part of me wants him. I want to do everything I would’ve done if only I wasn’t scared of the heartache, I wasn’t always like this I lived in the moment until that moment became the most terrible one of my life and I couldn’t take it anymore.
That night after I very politely refused Markus on his date proposal I went straight home and drowned myself in wine. How many genuine guys have I rejected in the past one year? And how many were as hot as Mark? I don’t know but what I do know is that it’s high time. I need to move on because Mark may not want me now but I need masculine support in my lonely life.
I saw my laptop l
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