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2024-10-29 19:42:56Lizzy
I couldn’t sleep last night, I twisted and turned and thought, him leaving me wasn’t his fault but mine, it was all on me. It happened because I was too scared to face my own demons. I was a coward and that thought made me tired. To be honest I was tired of pretending to be okay, tired of showing people that I was strong enough when from the inside I was eroding. I needed to act on it before I became completely hollow, before everything that made me ‘ME’ vanished and all that was left behind was a shell of a person you couldn’t recognize. I needed to confide my fears in someone, someone who would understand why I did the things I did in my past, someone who wouldn’t judge me or look at me with pity in their eyes, someone like…. I jerked from my thoughts; I know who it is.
Next morning, I was too tired to even open my eyes, so I did what I thought wasn’t possible in a million years, I took a day off
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LizzyI never understood why she loved Hamptons so much, sure the beach and the warm weather were nice but there were other places more developed, like take California for instance, for me Hamptons was a vacation destination but for her, it was her whole world. I rented a car for three days because I didn’t own one and started my journey to The Hamptons, after one bathroom break and a small lunch break, I made it to Hamptons around two and a half hour later. It was 3PM in the afternoon and I was worried to find her asleep, I’ll have to wait until she wakes up from her afternoon slumber.I parked my car in her driveway and made my way to the front door, the house wasn’t anything extravagant, it was a one-story bungalow in a L shaped layout, Christmas was the last time I visited her but I know she’d be happy to see me. I rang the bell ones and waited, after five minutes of waiting I lost hope and was about to get into the car when
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LizzyThe next morning, nana comes up to my room and opens the blinds, letting the scorching heat fall directly on my face, I groan “nana, I need sleep” I pull the sheets all the way over my head and try to sleep again. Nana pulls the sheets off me with superhuman power and says “what you need is homemade breakfast and fresh air” she starts to walk towards the door but stops abruptly and say “oh! And I am making egg and beacon” wait, did she say egg and beacon? “I am coming nana!” I squeal and go to brush my teeth.As soon as I step outside my room, I moan at the heavenly smell of the egg and beacon sandwich, I was five when nana first made that for me, my mother had just died and I was visiting nana. I didn’t speak to her at first but when she gave me her special egg and beacon sandwich, I couldn’t help but admire it. She hands me the sandwich and I take a big bite “this is so good&rdqu
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MarkusMiserable, that’s how I’ve been since the day I left Lizzy’s house, she hasn’t replied to my text messages and calls for the last two days, she’s not at her place nor is she at Golosi. I assigned a few men at both the places and there’s still no sign of her, this is all my fault I pushed her too far and now she’s gone, she left me. The only person I know from Lizzy’s former life is her best friend Mia, I contact my private investigator and ask him to get me the number of a certain ‘Mia James’ living in Las Vegas, by the end of the day I have three women fitting the description and their numbers.Since I don’t trust anyone with Lizzy, I call Mia myself she picks up on the second ring and says “Rick, this is last time I’m telling you, stop harassing me or I’ll have to contact the authorities and file a complaint” then she hangs up, my eyes widen and I scoff.
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LizzyThat night, Mia called me asking if I was the one who gave Markus her number, I frown at that, of course I told Markus about Mia being my best friend but I never gave him Mia’s number. “He asked if you were with me” she says “why didn’t you tell him that you were at the Hamptons?” I tell her that I will explain all of it to her when I return, she also mentioned that Markus sounded worried on the call and that he was asking about my safety. My heart warms at the amount of concern he showed even though our fight on Saturday had left a lot of things unsaid. I don’t want him to go through more heartache than he’s already suffered so I send him a quick text.Lizzy: Mia informed me about your call, I need some time. Hope you understand.That is obviously a lie, I don’t need time, I have never been surer about anything in my life, but what I do need is a way to m
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Markus The intense smell of caffeine hit me in the nose like a turmoil and I blinked a couple of times before willing my eyes to open up. When my gaze landed on the clock near my duvet, I instantly shot up from my bed and picked up the coffee that was served. As always, I woke up before anyone and started my routine, morning jog at 4am, gym time at 5, breakfast at 6, then freshening up by 6.30am to leave for office. This is the life I signed up for when I decided I wanted to start a billion dollar company, the success of my company depends on me and I won’t let anyone down. To me, ‘work’ is my first and last priority everything else comes after it, everything except one person, my 5-year-old niece. She is my only source of happiness, every time I listen to her laugh my soul soothes and my mind calms down. I never really liked children, because of their screaming qualities but Emily, she’s different, she is like the rays of first sunsh
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LizzyI have never been this happy for as long as I can remember, the four-letter word “LOVE” doesn’t scare me anymore, in fact it brings a sense of freedom now because I know that the man who captured my heart will never let anything or anyone break it. I know I’ll always be safe as long as I’m in his arms, I know I’ll always trust him more than I trust myself and I know I’ll always love him even if things might not work out in the future, which I think is highly doubtful.The night of the award ceremony, he drags me to his penthouse and makes love to me all night long until I have no energy to even lift my limbs. I groan when Markus lifts my limp body and mumble “where are you taking me?” I press my lips on his neck and kiss him lightly, he sucks in a breath before saying “you are making me hard baby” I giggle at that and rest my head on his chest. How could I ever live without this? T
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