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Chapter 32
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2021-08-10 12:25:05Markus
The following week is going to be a nightmare, with the launch party just a week away I don’t think leaving office is possible which means that much less time to spend with her. But it’s fine, we have all our lives to spend it with each other. Monday morning arrives and the whole office is in a frenzy, the venue, the guest, the freaking lights, everything needs to be finalized and who better than the CEO himself. I love the tech part; I really do but all this other shit gets to my nerves. I don’t leave the office that day, not until 2AM in the morning, and I can’t exactly go banging at her door at this hour. She is my escape from this technical world, something that keeps me sane and going. Now, it is just plain empty without her, I texted her earlier telling her that I was busy and couldn’t make it today. I don’t want her to feel abandoned or feel worthless as if I used her for sex, I need to get things straight wit
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LizzyTwo fucking days! It’s been two days since we last saw each other, and my nerves are all over the place. I want to trust him, and I do but it’s just a lot more complicated than that, the need to see him every day is too strong. When Wednesday slides by and I don’t get a text from him, I freak out. His office is around ten minutes away from my shop, he’s always been coming to ‘me’ since the beginning of this relationship.I sigh, ‘I need to make the first move this time’ I say to myself and leave my shop around lunch time. I close the security doors and flip the sign board to ‘closed’. I make my way to our favorite Chinese takeout place and carry our parcel while I walk towards his office. I stand there gawking at the pristine building of Markus’s company “Blue Space”, the company logo stands tall at the top of the building, gleaming in the sunlight.The bui
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Lizzy“Here we go” the lady says, when we stop in front of large mahogany doors. This is the only cabin made out of wood on the whole floor, everything else is made out of transparent glass. The name plate on the door reads “CEO” and I smile looking at it.“If he starts yelling at you, I’m out of here” the receptionist warns, I give her a bright smile and she knocks at the door with her knuckles three times. We wait for exactly five seconds before his frustrated voice booms through the door “what is it that you guys want now” I flinch and the lady beside me flinches too, he is quite loud and irritated, I hadn’t heard him like that before the stupid lady beside me smirks and I roll my eyes.She then goes to open the door and speaks through the small gap “sir, there’s a lady here who wishes to speak to you” I hear Markus sigh and mutter an irritated “fuck” be
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LizzyHis head is still thrown back and his shoulders are relaxed, he looks content. After a few minutes of getting his bearings in check, he looks down at where I’m still kneeling in front of him. His palms hook under my armpit and he pulls me up to sit on his lap, I smile at him while stroking his features lightly with my palm, “okay” I say. He looks at me confused so I elaborate “I’ll go with you for dinner” he grins now and kisses me hard on the mouth.“I want you with me all the fucking time but this is important” Markus says, “I know Markus and I also know how much you love doing your work and how passionate you are about it, so don’t you dare go explaining yourself to me. I love every part of you Markus, including this sexy nerd CEO” he snorts a laugh and I laugh with him “you sure have a way with words, don’t you?” he shakes his head still smiling and mutt
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MarkusMy spirits are back to normal and I think it has to do something with a certain chocolate vixen, I sigh at the thought of her bringing me to pleasure, I’m not even joking when I say that it was the best blowjob I’ve received in the entirety of my lifetime. I can’t return the pleasure, not yet, so I stick to the white roses she loves so much. It’s Friday 7:55 PM and I’m waiting for Lizzy to finally grace me with her presence, unlike last time I’m actually presentable today with my perfectly pressed black three-piece suit and clean-shaven jaw, I look somewhat like my normal self.I check my watch for what seems like the hundredth time in the past fifteen minutes, 7:57 I release a breath, with Lizzy I’m always on high alert, what if she changes her mind and decides she doesn’t want me anymore? well…. it’s not like I’ll give up on her so easily but still the thought of losing h
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LizzyI don’t move, or rather I can’t move, every muscle in my body turns rigid after seeing his pathetic smug face in front of me. He’s still smiling smugly at me and my reaction towards him, I can feel Markus turn tense beside me but I’m too caught up in my personal hell to look up at him. I have so many things to say to him, so many years of pent-up frustration and so many years wasted just because he wasn’t good enough to me, but right now as I stand in front of him and look at the arrogant man he’s turned into, I want nothing to do with him. I clear my head of all the vicious thoughts I’m having about him and grit my teeth“I. Am. Not. Your. Darling” I glare at him with all the hatred I can muster but he still keeps smiling like a lunatic. I tug at Markus’s arm and wish that he follows me out without making a scene, but of course he doesn’t budge and glares daggers at a man he doesn
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MarkusHer voice is laced with so much pain, I wouldn’t leave even if I wanted to. We silently go back to her apartment and she inspects my knuckles which are swollen from the fight earlier. It is all worth it, the pleasure from getting to hit that douchebag of an ex is worth all the pain and wounds. But what doesn’t fit the equation is why Lizzy wouldn’t back answer him or insult him in return, I’ve never seen her more scared and helpless than she was today, what are you hiding vixen? She brought a packet of frozen peas from the refrigerator and gently started applying pressure on my knuckles, I didn’t wince or make a sound, mainly because it didn’t really hurt and also because I didn’t want to act like a pussy in front of her.“Are you going to tell me, what is the deal with him?” I asked softly, she sighed but didn’t answer the question, “I will tell you Mark, soon, just please not to
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LizzyMark dropped me at Golosi and left for the day, well….at least now we’ll be spending more time after his launch party. I sighed and got back to work, to be honest I’m emotionally and physically exhausted after yesterday and I really would love a break from all the working but Golosi is my baby and I can’t abandon it, not now that I have made an impact. Seeing Josh yesterday was a complete nightmare, it’s not his words that make me sad, I’ve dealt with them before, it’s the memories that don’t leave, I wish I had the courage to tell Markus the whole truth but I’m just not ready.Apart from me and Josh, no one knows what went behind, not even Mia. It was one of the weakest moment of my life and although I know Mia wouldn’t judge, it’s hard to be so vulnerable and weak with the one person who thinks I’m too strong. Speaking of Mia, it’s been a while since she told me anyt
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Markus This day could not have gone any worst, first, the issue with the logo lightings, then the guest list mixes up and now this stupid press who wants their perfect shot just so they could make huge sums out of it, I’m not against them doing so but my life was already a huge mess and smiling for photos was the last thing I want to do right now. I step out of my car and make my way to the red carpet, that’s when a black Lamborghini stops at the entrance and I mutter under my breath “no freaking way” I quicken my pace but I think I wasn’t fast enough because she catches up with me. Veronica freaking Bernard, comes to stop beside me just when I was about to get photographed by the press, the reporters go crazy when they spot Veronica with me and flashes go on and off at a surreal speed. I grit my teeth and hiss out in her ear, “what the fuck do you think you are doing?” she smiles at me; she fucking smiles at me and brings my arm to res
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Markus Two years later “Come on Lizzy, listen to me for ones and sit your ass down” I all but yell at her, she has become an even bigger pain in the ass since we got the news of her pregnancy. She huffs and sits down on the couch in our penthouse “fine! But if it doesn’t taste exactly like nana’s, I will drag you to Hamptons with me right at this moment” she says from her place at the couch. She doesn’t know I already asked nana to send me the recipe months ago, “okay my sweet wife” I smile at her from behind the kitchen counter and start preparing her favorite egg and beacon sandwich. We got married a year ago, when I proposed I wasn’t sure how to go about it, Lizzy doesn’t value money as much as she values emotion and hence it was difficult to come up with something she’d appreciate. That’s when I first spoke to her ‘nana’, she helped me plan an intimate proposal on my private yacht, just the two of sun and
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LizzyI have never been this happy for as long as I can remember, the four-letter word “LOVE” doesn’t scare me anymore, in fact it brings a sense of freedom now because I know that the man who captured my heart will never let anything or anyone break it. I know I’ll always be safe as long as I’m in his arms, I know I’ll always trust him more than I trust myself and I know I’ll always love him even if things might not work out in the future, which I think is highly doubtful.The night of the award ceremony, he drags me to his penthouse and makes love to me all night long until I have no energy to even lift my limbs. I groan when Markus lifts my limp body and mumble “where are you taking me?” I press my lips on his neck and kiss him lightly, he sucks in a breath before saying “you are making me hard baby” I giggle at that and rest my head on his chest. How could I ever live without this? T
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MarkusI’ve been nominated from the most prestigious award ceremony of the year and I feel no thrill about it, I feel like an empty vessel just going on with life. I dress up like a mechanical doll, I pose for the reporters like a mechanical doll, I even clap like a mechanical doll! The host of the event notifies that it’s time to announce the winner in my category and for the first time in days, I feel something like excitement bubbling up in my veins, I brought my brother to sit with me as family and one of the chairs allotted to me is empty because I gave the invitation to Lizzy but obviously, she’s not here. I have tried to not think too much about her in the past few days but at this moment, one of the most important moments of my life, it pains me to think she isn’t here to share this with me.I compose myself as best as I can and straighten my posture even though from the inside I’m bursting like a fir
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LizzyThat night, Mia called me asking if I was the one who gave Markus her number, I frown at that, of course I told Markus about Mia being my best friend but I never gave him Mia’s number. “He asked if you were with me” she says “why didn’t you tell him that you were at the Hamptons?” I tell her that I will explain all of it to her when I return, she also mentioned that Markus sounded worried on the call and that he was asking about my safety. My heart warms at the amount of concern he showed even though our fight on Saturday had left a lot of things unsaid. I don’t want him to go through more heartache than he’s already suffered so I send him a quick text.Lizzy: Mia informed me about your call, I need some time. Hope you understand.That is obviously a lie, I don’t need time, I have never been surer about anything in my life, but what I do need is a way to m
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MarkusMiserable, that’s how I’ve been since the day I left Lizzy’s house, she hasn’t replied to my text messages and calls for the last two days, she’s not at her place nor is she at Golosi. I assigned a few men at both the places and there’s still no sign of her, this is all my fault I pushed her too far and now she’s gone, she left me. The only person I know from Lizzy’s former life is her best friend Mia, I contact my private investigator and ask him to get me the number of a certain ‘Mia James’ living in Las Vegas, by the end of the day I have three women fitting the description and their numbers.Since I don’t trust anyone with Lizzy, I call Mia myself she picks up on the second ring and says “Rick, this is last time I’m telling you, stop harassing me or I’ll have to contact the authorities and file a complaint” then she hangs up, my eyes widen and I scoff.
So Much, For Love Chapter 44
LizzyThe next morning, nana comes up to my room and opens the blinds, letting the scorching heat fall directly on my face, I groan “nana, I need sleep” I pull the sheets all the way over my head and try to sleep again. Nana pulls the sheets off me with superhuman power and says “what you need is homemade breakfast and fresh air” she starts to walk towards the door but stops abruptly and say “oh! And I am making egg and beacon” wait, did she say egg and beacon? “I am coming nana!” I squeal and go to brush my teeth.As soon as I step outside my room, I moan at the heavenly smell of the egg and beacon sandwich, I was five when nana first made that for me, my mother had just died and I was visiting nana. I didn’t speak to her at first but when she gave me her special egg and beacon sandwich, I couldn’t help but admire it. She hands me the sandwich and I take a big bite “this is so good&rdqu
So Much, For Love Chapter 43
LizzyI never understood why she loved Hamptons so much, sure the beach and the warm weather were nice but there were other places more developed, like take California for instance, for me Hamptons was a vacation destination but for her, it was her whole world. I rented a car for three days because I didn’t own one and started my journey to The Hamptons, after one bathroom break and a small lunch break, I made it to Hamptons around two and a half hour later. It was 3PM in the afternoon and I was worried to find her asleep, I’ll have to wait until she wakes up from her afternoon slumber.I parked my car in her driveway and made my way to the front door, the house wasn’t anything extravagant, it was a one-story bungalow in a L shaped layout, Christmas was the last time I visited her but I know she’d be happy to see me. I rang the bell ones and waited, after five minutes of waiting I lost hope and was about to get into the car when
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LizzyI couldn’t sleep last night, I twisted and turned and thought, him leaving me wasn’t his fault but mine, it was all on me. It happened because I was too scared to face my own demons. I was a coward and that thought made me tired. To be honest I was tired of pretending to be okay, tired of showing people that I was strong enough when from the inside I was eroding. I needed to act on it before I became completely hollow, before everything that made me ‘ME’ vanished and all that was left behind was a shell of a person you couldn’t recognize. I needed to confide my fears in someone, someone who would understand why I did the things I did in my past, someone who wouldn’t judge me or look at me with pity in their eyes, someone like…. I jerked from my thoughts; I know who it is.Next morning, I was too tired to even open my eyes, so I did what I thought wasn’t possible in a million years, I took a day off
So Much, For Love Chapter 41
Lizzy“NEW YORK’S HOTEST TECH COUPLE SPOTTED TOGETHER” “ARE VERONICA AND MARKUS BACK INTO THE DATING GAME?” “BILLIONAIRE HEAD OVER HEELS FOR HIS EX-GIRLFRIEND”I read everything the reporters had to say but with each word, all I felt was numbness, I didn’t cry or curse myself for making poor life choices again, what’s the point when all is said and done? Empty, that’s how I felt as I stared out of my window at a distance, all my emotions had been sucked out of me with a single glance at those pictures. In one of them, Markus was whispering something in her ears, ‘probably telling her how much he loved her’ that thought left a bitter taste in my mouth, the next picture was of Veronica smiling sweetly at Markus and the last one was of him wrapping his arm a
