As that wave of pain reached me through the bond, I slammed the wall down between us just as surely as I closed that door, and stalked up the corridor, clearing my mind of anything and everything to do with my mate.
This was not the time.
It could not be.
She was just going to have to live with that.
I’d already given her more of myself than anyone in my life. Ever. If it wasn’t enough… well, she was just going to have to learn to deal—
Behind me, the door I’d just used clicked and creaked.
“Cazz!
~ JESSE ~I swallowed hard and blinked out of the vivid memory.It stunned me a little when Cazz hesitated—scared me that he might get aggressive like he had when I’d accidentally called the pack at the Den. And yet… he hadn’t turned it on me. Hadn’t blamed me. He had asked me a question like an adult, and then… persuaded me. And honestly, I had been nervous, but his assurances had given me hope that maybe this wouldn’t be a bad experience. And now… now that I saw what he was doing, I would follow him over that particular cliff any day of the week.There’d been something very unexpectedly intimate about being so helpless. And I could feel
~ JESSE ~ “…my mother always told me every male can only be led by two things—his stomach, and his prick. So there’s little point trying to engage his heart before you’ve satisfied the other two.” I spluttered, choking on the mouthful of popcorn and leaning forward in my seat because I was afraid I might actually inhale it. Around me, gales of giggles and snorts from the five women—females—I had gathered and eventually brought back to my room because I didn’t know anywhere else we could just sit around without worrying about other people. Wolves. Without worrying about other wolves, I reminded myself. Brenna, the oldest of us, who I gathered was nearing fifty, just grinned and popped a berry into her mouth while the rest of us snickered. Wylde, the servant I’d been speaking to in the visitors wing before Cazz found us, was laughing the hardest. She was a year younger than me and clearly enjoying being included in this circle of female wolves. I was learning about all of them as
~ JESSE ~ “That’s…. that’s interesting that you bring that up,” I said carefully. Tynker’s eyes cut to me sharply. Wylde’s brows rose. “Oh?” “Yes, I mean… I had heard about the Selection coming up and I wondered which of you were going in it, or already had mates, or… whatever…” I trailed off because Wylde’s eyes went wide at the same time Tynker choked on her apple. I knew Brenna and Alys were already mated, but I wasn’t sure about the other three. Reeca stared at me like she’d never seen me before, and Brenna and Alys exchanged wary glances. “What?” I asked them all, looking back and forth between them. “None of us will be in the Selection,” Brenna said briskly. “We either already have mates, or aren’t high enough ranking to do so.” Oh. I frowned. “But… I thought it was the males who were ranked for this?” “It is. Alphas and Betas, and a few heirs, probably. But understand that there are many, many wolves. They’ll be drawn from every nearby pack for this, as well. Only the
~ JESSE ~ Alys smiled at me and clasped her hands together at her chest, but it was Brenna who looked truly concerned. “Sire—sorry, Jesse—I don’t think you understand. When a high ranking female puts another forward in this way, the younger carries her reputation. If you were to select poorly—” “I know a good female when I meet one,” I said firmly. “Maya has been telling me to trust my instincts, and to start showing my leadership and initiative. Besides, you all came to me commended by Maya, which is the highest regard, right?” They all nodded, though half their mouths were open like they were stunned. I frowned. “I don’t get it, what’s the big deal?” “It’s just… someone like yourself… the mate to the King… the Queen. The Queen would usually present one of the highest ranking young females in the packs. Select someone of the highest quality. In terms of its attraction to the packs, your presentation would be second only to the King’s.” “Okay, so am I wrong in thinking that if I
~ CASIMIR ~I shouldn’t have come for her myself. I knew that. Ghere had almost swallowed his own tongue when I said I’d do it. But the truth was, it had been… uncomfortable keeping my space from her after that delicious time in the visitor’s wing. I had needed to move, so I had said I would come for her myself. But I hadn’t wanted to reach for her, to warn her that I was coming, because I had wanted to see what state she was truly in. And no matter how she might needle me, it was a relief to see her not shrinking after I left.So why was it making my neck itch that she’d been… just fine? I had been braced for her shivering and pleading. To find her eating and talking with others was a welcome step forward from our previous separations. Yet, I couldn’t shake that irritation, like a gnat buz
~ CASIMIR ~ Jesse looked up at me, her face tight but smooth, like she was stifling laughter. My advisors rumbled behind us and Jesse’s smile faded when she looked over her shoulder at them, but I was too busy discussing this in the link with them. ‘A game would explain why they are noisy at times,’ Rake sent carefully. I nodded. We’d been confused by that—why sneak and hide, only to cheer and scream every few hours so that the entire wood heard you? ‘But it could be a ruse? She said they don’t usually do it in this area—and we know that’s true,’ Ghere offered. ‘It also explains why they’re all so young.
~ JESSE ~It was stupid. Stupid to be so scared. Cazz could tear out Ryan’s throat before my brother could blink, I was certain of it. But, seeing his face…My heart was thumping and my fingers had started to tremble. It was so dumb! If Ryan was here, even if he was looking for me, it wasn’t like he was coming to kill me, or anything. For fuck’s sake, he sold me to the wolves. He didn’t give two shits about me. So why did my body feel like he was creeping up behind me, holding a gun to my head?Because coming here was supposed to be the escape.I kept flipping through the photographs spread out ov
~ JESSE ~As our eyes held, the bond came alive—heat, fear, anger, and something frantic under it all that I couldn’t quite define.I instinctively took a step towards Cazz, but his head jerked back and he tensed, so I froze again.Then the door to the chamber opened and Ghere trotted in, ushering a huge wolf-man behind him.My first impression of this creature was that he reminded me of a professional wrestler—so I found myself swallowing back a nervous giggle and trying to keep my face straight.I’d never seen this guy before, but as Ghere melted into the background, the man strode forward. He was a complete beefcake—dark hair, hea
~ CASIMIR ~I was pretty sure if I didn’t get inside her, I was going to eat her alive.Scooting with her in my lap, still straddling me, I got her so both my knees and her back were flat against the wall. Then I flipped open the wide, leather cuffs that had been secured directly to the wall and first lifted one of her hands, to strap it in so her hand was levered above her shoulder, but with her arm comfortably bent so she could relax. Then I did the same with her other hand on the other side.So I straddled the banana-seat, while she straddled me and her hands were secured to the wall behind her.Her breasts rose and fell with her heavy breathing, and her eyes were bright with desire.Overwhelmed again with how much thought she’d put into this, for a moment I just took her face in my hands and kissed her. But that drew us together—my cock pressing against her, and I couldn’t resist rolling my hips, teasing
~ CASIMIR ~“I made a new Den,” Jesse whispered, her hands over her mouth, staring up at me—those beautiful eyes wide, but also a little fearful. “I know it’s not the same, but I got Ghere to help me because he remembered what things you’d had before and… I hope you like it.”Like it? Was she serious?My heart was slamming against my ribs, and I was having trouble breathing.The room seemed smaller than I remembered because the walls were painted a dull black. But the tighter space than what I’d had down next to the Den just made it feel more intimate.There were two lamps, one on each end, and a chandelier high above. Candles everywhere, though she hadn’t lit mo
~ JESSE ~It was Cazz’s turn to plan the monthly date. But I was humming about this one. Things were finally ready, and impossibly, Ghere had helped me successfully pull off the surprise. But I still had to figure out how to get Cazz there without ruining it.He’d taken me out to the meadow again—my favorite date. Though we’d enjoyed several others now too—and we’d just finished eating. He was leaning back against the cab of the truck, looking out at the city lights, his brows a little heavy.“What are you thinking about?” I asked him, though I had a hunch.He had his arm around me and I was leaning on his shoulder. His hand trailed up and
~ CASIMIR ~I came out of the bathing room after a long bath rubbing my hair with a towel, to find my mate standing in the middle of the chamber with her arms folded and looking sternly at my daughter, who sat on the floor in nothing but a diaper, with her chubby legs straight out. She, too, had her arms folded and her lips pursed in the perfect reflection of her mother.The two glared at each other and half my heart went cold, while the other half wanted to splutter with laughter.“Abigail, I have told you—”“No!”Our daughter could only get her tongue around a few words so far, but
~ JESSE (a few weeks later) ~I had just finished nursing Abigail and was holding her on my lap while Reeca sat with me on the couch.Her eyes were bright and she was beginning to smile, so I was tickling her cheeks to see if I could get her to do it. But she was sleepy because she’d just eaten and only yawned and cooed.“She’s a very calm baby,” Reeca commented from the other end of the couch, smiling. She loved babies, and had been so helpful when I was tired—and just for reassurance for me.She was a calm presence in any room, and with Abigail, she showed a lot of delight and joy that she seemed to stifle in other areas of her life.“Reeca,” I said carefully, because I’d b
~ JESSE ~I was too tired to do more than lift my hands to his neck, so I just curled my face into his chest and let him settle us into the chair, cradled in his arms with my ass in his lap.When he’d sat, I had my head resting on his shoulder and my body curled in his arms.“Do you hurt?” he asked quickly.“No, just tired, like I said.”I felt him relax a little then and another chill started in my blood.“Cazz… what’s happened?” I asked quietly.He turned his head to meet my eyes and lifted his hand to comb hair back from my face. His throat bobbed, but his touch was g
~ JESSE (Hours later) ~My dreams were disturbing—my body in pain, screams of terror, darkness, the floor shaking, the mountain falling, humans fleeing and wolves…I tried to break free, tried desperately to open my eyes and to speak, because I knew I was asleep. But all I did was fade… in and out. The nightmares, or nothing.And through it all, his voice.“Heal… live.”My heart ached. My body hurt. My chest didn’t want to expand. It was as if my flesh fought his words, and I didn’t understand.But finally, the dreams faded and I could hear a heartbeat. Little, and quick. And feel warm flesh. And the breath of my m
~ CASIMIR ~I felt the moment the power went out of Jesse. The entire mountain felt it.I howled with triumph and shifted, sprinting towards the room, ecstatic when there was no sense of Maya gripping my mind or stealing anything from me. But of course, there was no power left for her to steal.I prayed and pleaded and ran, Rory and the others coming in my wake. And the moment I broke through that door in my wolf—the only power left to me anymore—everything slowed. Though my body whipped and my mind was singularly focused, it was as if everything happened in slow motion.I caught a bare glimpse of Jesse on the bed, and at first my heart leaped. She was moving, awake, aware,
~ JESSE ~Maya had me sitting up in the bed, curled forward, gripping my knees. Reeca on one side, helping prop me up, a guard on the other.My body was nothing but a conduit for pain. Wave after wave, my entire lower body condensing, contracting, pushing to get this baby out. I could barely think.Cazz was there, so quiet, so distant, but there, calling his encouragement and pushing love at me through the bond.There was a moment when I thought I wouldn’t make it, when I thought my body would give and I would just drift away.But then I caught Maya smiling. Leaning forward between my legs, reaching, grasping, for