~ CASIMIR ~
Jesse tensed at first and didn't look at me. Her body a rigid, resistant plank. But I kept my touch gentle and as she began to enjoy the touch, she slowly opened up, eventually going so far as to rest her forearms on my thighs and watch as I lathered, and rubbed, then used the cloth all over her.
“Scoot forward,” I whispered, annoyed with myself because I meant it to sound stronger, but my voice was gone. Little more than a hoarse rasp. I cleared my throat and tried again. “Put more room between us so I can wash your hair.”
She went very still. “You’re going to… wash my hair?”
I grunted.
She did as I had asked and scooted her ass forward.
“Hold onto the sides and use my legs to lay back, tip your head back, so I can get water over it without getting it in your eyes.”
There was a moment I thought she would refuse. She didn’t move. But just a
~ CASIMIR ~The combined pleasures of her enveloping my body as the water washed against my skin, the ripple and splash under her soft cries, and the sigh of her pink skin in the haze of the steam all conspired to steal my wits.Then she dropped her head and her hair parted, revealing the claiming scars, puckered and pink on the other shoulder and a jolt of need crackled through me.But I had a grip on myself this time. I had prepared for this. I knew what to do.Jesse and I were bonded, it was true. Claiming her had tied us together. We needed each other. It couldn’t be denied.But love? Love was no part of that. It would only complicate things and create
~ JESSE ~The next morning I lay in the meadow just beyond the cave entrance, in the grass, watching the clouds drift lazily overhead. It was bright, but the sun wasn’t quite hot enough to remove the chill from the breeze.Kind of like Cazz’s desire, I thought dryly. Plenty of blaze, but it doesn’t quite beat back the shadows.When I had woken this morning—alone—it was to a messenger sent by Maya saying that she had to undertake healer duties and we would have to wait until the following day to meet, so I’d suddenly found myself with freetime.After the day—and night—before, I decided that was a sign. I was still fortifying the chinks in my armor after the roller coast
~ JESSE ~I startled and whirled around to find Rake hurrying towards me, his face thunderous.Before I could respond, he was at my side, glaring down at me. “How did you even find your way out?”I blinked up at him, surprised by his anger. And a little irritated, too.“What are you worried about?” I muttered. “You said yourself, Cazz won't care what I do as long as he gets his puppies.”“Safely, Jesse. As long as you do it safely. And trust me, there is no way on God's green earth that Cazz thinks his Queen being out here alone, where
~ JESSE ~Rake’s expression reminded me of a checkout guy I had once seen at the supermarket trying to help an old lady—he didn’t want to discourage me, but he obviously thought I’d lost my mind.I gave him a look. “I’m not being unrealistic. I know I have a lot to learn. I’m not going to start issuing edicts. But… but I’m going to show up, Rake. And over time…. Over time I’m going to make a difference.”His face softened. “I love that idea. I do. But… Jesse, wolves are very different from people. We don’t think the same way. I mean, we can understand you, but… a wolf Queen isn’t like your human queens.”That&rs
~ CASIMIR (Later that night) ~ I stood half-crouched and poised to leap or shift, I wasn’t sure which. Neither was going to help. But it was instinct to search for a way out. My father stood a few feet away, arms folded and expression unimpressed. His eyes were the cold, cold blue of a winter snow cave when the sun shone behind it and bored into me, bright and piercing… and they were beginning to glow. “No,” I snarled. “GET OUT OF MY HEAD!” “Make me,” he muttered. I fought him as surely as I would any wolf that came at me with fangs and claws—sweating, grunting, heart pounding—but my body barely twitched because
~ CASIMIR ~You were calling for me.That stopped me cold. I sat back, staring at her. “I… called? For you?”Jesse grimaced. “I mean, not with your voice… I felt something through the bond. I didn’t know what it was at first, but it woke me up and… and it got stronger the closer I got to you. And then when I got in here you were thrashing around and you kept saying no, and it sounded like… like…” she swallowed audibly.“What?” I snapped, not meaning to sound so cold, but I had a feeling I didn’t want to hear the answer to the question. And yet…She swallowed again. “You just felt
~ CASIMIR ~The matebond between wolves is a unique and powerful thing. I’d never denied that. My bond with Jesse was my third, but she was the first I had claimed.I told myself that was why I shivered when she whispered my name.I had her pinned to the mattress, covered, my hips between her thighs, my hands planted on the bed to brace myself, still trying to decide if I was clear headed enough to take her.I wanted her, desperately. The looming dark of that dream threatened to suck me back in if I slept. And having her warm softness nearby was soothing.But I felt… fragile.And uncertain if taking her would help that, or make it worse.
~ JESSE ~Something was happening, and it made me shake.Being with Cazz had always been a pleasure, a pure, primal pleasure. And the animal in him was still there, growling approval and seeking me with clawed fingers and bright eyes.But as Cazz kissed me, and stroked, and let his body play mine like music, he shuddered and murmured and… softened against me.His kiss was desperate and deep. But his lips gave, rather than took. His touch was skilled and intentional, but at times he stroked with a tenderness I’d never felt from him before.And as we began to move together, even though I felt him tense more than once, he didn’t trap my hands, but let me touch him, grip his back, slide my
~ CASIMIR ~I was pretty sure if I didn’t get inside her, I was going to eat her alive.Scooting with her in my lap, still straddling me, I got her so both my knees and her back were flat against the wall. Then I flipped open the wide, leather cuffs that had been secured directly to the wall and first lifted one of her hands, to strap it in so her hand was levered above her shoulder, but with her arm comfortably bent so she could relax. Then I did the same with her other hand on the other side.So I straddled the banana-seat, while she straddled me and her hands were secured to the wall behind her.Her breasts rose and fell with her heavy breathing, and her eyes were bright with desire.Overwhelmed again with how much thought she’d put into this, for a moment I just took her face in my hands and kissed her. But that drew us together—my cock pressing against her, and I couldn’t resist rolling my hips, teasing
~ CASIMIR ~“I made a new Den,” Jesse whispered, her hands over her mouth, staring up at me—those beautiful eyes wide, but also a little fearful. “I know it’s not the same, but I got Ghere to help me because he remembered what things you’d had before and… I hope you like it.”Like it? Was she serious?My heart was slamming against my ribs, and I was having trouble breathing.The room seemed smaller than I remembered because the walls were painted a dull black. But the tighter space than what I’d had down next to the Den just made it feel more intimate.There were two lamps, one on each end, and a chandelier high above. Candles everywhere, though she hadn’t lit mo
~ JESSE ~It was Cazz’s turn to plan the monthly date. But I was humming about this one. Things were finally ready, and impossibly, Ghere had helped me successfully pull off the surprise. But I still had to figure out how to get Cazz there without ruining it.He’d taken me out to the meadow again—my favorite date. Though we’d enjoyed several others now too—and we’d just finished eating. He was leaning back against the cab of the truck, looking out at the city lights, his brows a little heavy.“What are you thinking about?” I asked him, though I had a hunch.He had his arm around me and I was leaning on his shoulder. His hand trailed up and
~ CASIMIR ~I came out of the bathing room after a long bath rubbing my hair with a towel, to find my mate standing in the middle of the chamber with her arms folded and looking sternly at my daughter, who sat on the floor in nothing but a diaper, with her chubby legs straight out. She, too, had her arms folded and her lips pursed in the perfect reflection of her mother.The two glared at each other and half my heart went cold, while the other half wanted to splutter with laughter.“Abigail, I have told you—”“No!”Our daughter could only get her tongue around a few words so far, but
~ JESSE (a few weeks later) ~I had just finished nursing Abigail and was holding her on my lap while Reeca sat with me on the couch.Her eyes were bright and she was beginning to smile, so I was tickling her cheeks to see if I could get her to do it. But she was sleepy because she’d just eaten and only yawned and cooed.“She’s a very calm baby,” Reeca commented from the other end of the couch, smiling. She loved babies, and had been so helpful when I was tired—and just for reassurance for me.She was a calm presence in any room, and with Abigail, she showed a lot of delight and joy that she seemed to stifle in other areas of her life.“Reeca,” I said carefully, because I’d b
~ JESSE ~I was too tired to do more than lift my hands to his neck, so I just curled my face into his chest and let him settle us into the chair, cradled in his arms with my ass in his lap.When he’d sat, I had my head resting on his shoulder and my body curled in his arms.“Do you hurt?” he asked quickly.“No, just tired, like I said.”I felt him relax a little then and another chill started in my blood.“Cazz… what’s happened?” I asked quietly.He turned his head to meet my eyes and lifted his hand to comb hair back from my face. His throat bobbed, but his touch was g
~ JESSE (Hours later) ~My dreams were disturbing—my body in pain, screams of terror, darkness, the floor shaking, the mountain falling, humans fleeing and wolves…I tried to break free, tried desperately to open my eyes and to speak, because I knew I was asleep. But all I did was fade… in and out. The nightmares, or nothing.And through it all, his voice.“Heal… live.”My heart ached. My body hurt. My chest didn’t want to expand. It was as if my flesh fought his words, and I didn’t understand.But finally, the dreams faded and I could hear a heartbeat. Little, and quick. And feel warm flesh. And the breath of my m
~ CASIMIR ~I felt the moment the power went out of Jesse. The entire mountain felt it.I howled with triumph and shifted, sprinting towards the room, ecstatic when there was no sense of Maya gripping my mind or stealing anything from me. But of course, there was no power left for her to steal.I prayed and pleaded and ran, Rory and the others coming in my wake. And the moment I broke through that door in my wolf—the only power left to me anymore—everything slowed. Though my body whipped and my mind was singularly focused, it was as if everything happened in slow motion.I caught a bare glimpse of Jesse on the bed, and at first my heart leaped. She was moving, awake, aware,
~ JESSE ~Maya had me sitting up in the bed, curled forward, gripping my knees. Reeca on one side, helping prop me up, a guard on the other.My body was nothing but a conduit for pain. Wave after wave, my entire lower body condensing, contracting, pushing to get this baby out. I could barely think.Cazz was there, so quiet, so distant, but there, calling his encouragement and pushing love at me through the bond.There was a moment when I thought I wouldn’t make it, when I thought my body would give and I would just drift away.But then I caught Maya smiling. Leaning forward between my legs, reaching, grasping, for