I had been walking for hours. At first I’d cried a lot, the humiliation and anger roiling in my stomach because I couldn’t stop seeing those images Maya had shared, or thinking of all the wolves seeing them… but I quickly pulled myself together.
I was alone in the forest, heading towards the city, but still with at least a day’s travel if I couldn’t find a ride. I knew there was a house out here somewhere. A cabin. I thought I was following a path, but it was so faint, and at times I wasn’t even sure it wasn’t just the roll of the land between tree roots. So I wasn’t sure I would even find it.
~ CASIMIR ~It was an hour or more after Maya had fallen asleep before I dozed off. But my sleep was uneasy. Tense. I couldn’t get comfortable in that pathetic cot, and kept half-waking, shifting my body to change position and try and release myself from the sensation that there was a great weight pressing down on me.But then, just as I’d sunk deeply into sleep for the first time…‘CAZZ!’I shuddered awake and sat bolt upright.The scream was so loud, so present, for a moment I was certain Jesse had returned and was in the room. I came awake with such a jolt, my entire body quivered and my chest heaved. I was on my feet and ready to shift, turning, looking, searching… but she
~ CASIMIR ~I was pacing the cell when Maya returned, arching one brow when I whirled towards the door as she entered. She hobbled inside, thanking Sven, the guard who’d accompanied her, but reassuring him that he didn’t need to come inside.I frowned. Had she taken the loyalty of some of my wolves?“Oh, stop scowling, Cazz. You brought this on yourself and you know it,” Maya muttered as she shuffled to the chair and lowered herself slowly into it with a heavy sigh.I went back to my pacing and waited until she was settled, but didn’t give her a chance to take another dig.“Release my power,” I growled. “You place the entire Kingdom at risk in the event—”
~ JESSE ~I sat, stunned, at our dining table in our home trying to figure out how it was possible that I was here in this place that was so normal… and so repulsive to me.Dad sat at the head of the table, leaning over the end of the wide oak to hold my hand, and kept patting me and offering me reassurance as he gave orders to the dozen men that were in the room—only four of which were my brothers.He was still wearing his flak jacket. They all were. The black body armor that I knew had POLICE in big, white letters under a velcro flap at the back, though none of them had opened those while they were out in the forest. Which meant they were all moonlighting on one of my father’s schemes.My brothers—who hadn’t been invited on the foray towar
~ JESSE ~It had become clear to me the predicament I was now in when we were bumping our way through the forest. So, while I pretended to be shocked and scared, I really used the time to force myself to think and make a plan while we were driving and my father and the others were consumed with making sure we weren’t followed by the wolves.The whole idea was laughable. These SUVs couldn’t move quickly on the roads that were little more than rutted trails through the trees. The wolves wouldn’t even have had to scent us, though they would for miles because these vehicles chewed through fuel. If they were out there, they were listening to us drive from miles away.But were they out there? Were they following?I prayed if they were, that they were being car
~ JESSE ~It was so weird when Dad walked me down the hall towards my room. Like he was… looking after me. There was a piece of my heart that had always yearned for this kind of care from him. This kind of… protection.But the truth was, my father had rarely looked after me. Since my mother’s death, it had always been my job to look after him. And my brothers.He stepped ahead of me when we got to the cross-hall where my bedroom was. He pushed the door open and flipped on the light inside, then ushered me in.The blackout curtains were still pulled—I must have forgotten to open them that morning when they took me for breakfast.Thinking about that made my skin crawl and I shuffled out of the circl
~ CASIMIR ~Maya was refusing to listen to my side of any of this and it was only succeeding in making my hackles rise and my wolf snap his teeth. The bond was tugging at me relentlessly, and the constant barrage of discomfort that bordered on pain in my chest was setting me even more on edge. But she was so damned stubborn. She wouldn’t listen. I needed to get out of here.“…I’m not saying it again, Cazz,” Maya snapped as if she’d heard the complaints in my head, though I knew I had my thoughts carefully guarded. “You pushed those two together—you cannot expect them not to grow close when at the beginning Jesse felt he was her only ally. You forced h
~ CASIMIR ~We’d been talking in circles for an hour and I was done. Maya would not stop pressing on me to simply let this go. To be in love, to trust.It was impossible!But I needed to get out of this fucking cell, and I couldn’t force my way out as long as she was holding my power.We hadn’t spoken for some time. She was resting in the chair, but I felt her eyes on me as I paced.“Cazz,” she started again, and I shook my head.“I need time. To think. I can’t… I can’t keep talking in circles.”Maya sighed and folded her hands in her lap. “I’ll give yo
~ CASIMIR ~“I would never do as my father—” I snarled.“You were never going to compel Rake, either, but I saw it in your head tonight.”“He breached his vow first!”“No, Cazz. He didn’t. God has given you hearts around you that are good. Can’t you see that?”“Good? He wants my mate!”“He loves your mate—he said so himself. But can you blame him? No wolf can control the seeds that bloom in their heart, they can only control whether they feed them. And that male has honored you. I would bet my life o
~ CASIMIR ~I was pretty sure if I didn’t get inside her, I was going to eat her alive.Scooting with her in my lap, still straddling me, I got her so both my knees and her back were flat against the wall. Then I flipped open the wide, leather cuffs that had been secured directly to the wall and first lifted one of her hands, to strap it in so her hand was levered above her shoulder, but with her arm comfortably bent so she could relax. Then I did the same with her other hand on the other side.So I straddled the banana-seat, while she straddled me and her hands were secured to the wall behind her.Her breasts rose and fell with her heavy breathing, and her eyes were bright with desire.Overwhelmed again with how much thought she’d put into this, for a moment I just took her face in my hands and kissed her. But that drew us together—my cock pressing against her, and I couldn’t resist rolling my hips, teasing
~ CASIMIR ~“I made a new Den,” Jesse whispered, her hands over her mouth, staring up at me—those beautiful eyes wide, but also a little fearful. “I know it’s not the same, but I got Ghere to help me because he remembered what things you’d had before and… I hope you like it.”Like it? Was she serious?My heart was slamming against my ribs, and I was having trouble breathing.The room seemed smaller than I remembered because the walls were painted a dull black. But the tighter space than what I’d had down next to the Den just made it feel more intimate.There were two lamps, one on each end, and a chandelier high above. Candles everywhere, though she hadn’t lit mo
~ JESSE ~It was Cazz’s turn to plan the monthly date. But I was humming about this one. Things were finally ready, and impossibly, Ghere had helped me successfully pull off the surprise. But I still had to figure out how to get Cazz there without ruining it.He’d taken me out to the meadow again—my favorite date. Though we’d enjoyed several others now too—and we’d just finished eating. He was leaning back against the cab of the truck, looking out at the city lights, his brows a little heavy.“What are you thinking about?” I asked him, though I had a hunch.He had his arm around me and I was leaning on his shoulder. His hand trailed up and
~ CASIMIR ~I came out of the bathing room after a long bath rubbing my hair with a towel, to find my mate standing in the middle of the chamber with her arms folded and looking sternly at my daughter, who sat on the floor in nothing but a diaper, with her chubby legs straight out. She, too, had her arms folded and her lips pursed in the perfect reflection of her mother.The two glared at each other and half my heart went cold, while the other half wanted to splutter with laughter.“Abigail, I have told you—”“No!”Our daughter could only get her tongue around a few words so far, but
~ JESSE (a few weeks later) ~I had just finished nursing Abigail and was holding her on my lap while Reeca sat with me on the couch.Her eyes were bright and she was beginning to smile, so I was tickling her cheeks to see if I could get her to do it. But she was sleepy because she’d just eaten and only yawned and cooed.“She’s a very calm baby,” Reeca commented from the other end of the couch, smiling. She loved babies, and had been so helpful when I was tired—and just for reassurance for me.She was a calm presence in any room, and with Abigail, she showed a lot of delight and joy that she seemed to stifle in other areas of her life.“Reeca,” I said carefully, because I’d b
~ JESSE ~I was too tired to do more than lift my hands to his neck, so I just curled my face into his chest and let him settle us into the chair, cradled in his arms with my ass in his lap.When he’d sat, I had my head resting on his shoulder and my body curled in his arms.“Do you hurt?” he asked quickly.“No, just tired, like I said.”I felt him relax a little then and another chill started in my blood.“Cazz… what’s happened?” I asked quietly.He turned his head to meet my eyes and lifted his hand to comb hair back from my face. His throat bobbed, but his touch was g
~ JESSE (Hours later) ~My dreams were disturbing—my body in pain, screams of terror, darkness, the floor shaking, the mountain falling, humans fleeing and wolves…I tried to break free, tried desperately to open my eyes and to speak, because I knew I was asleep. But all I did was fade… in and out. The nightmares, or nothing.And through it all, his voice.“Heal… live.”My heart ached. My body hurt. My chest didn’t want to expand. It was as if my flesh fought his words, and I didn’t understand.But finally, the dreams faded and I could hear a heartbeat. Little, and quick. And feel warm flesh. And the breath of my m
~ CASIMIR ~I felt the moment the power went out of Jesse. The entire mountain felt it.I howled with triumph and shifted, sprinting towards the room, ecstatic when there was no sense of Maya gripping my mind or stealing anything from me. But of course, there was no power left for her to steal.I prayed and pleaded and ran, Rory and the others coming in my wake. And the moment I broke through that door in my wolf—the only power left to me anymore—everything slowed. Though my body whipped and my mind was singularly focused, it was as if everything happened in slow motion.I caught a bare glimpse of Jesse on the bed, and at first my heart leaped. She was moving, awake, aware,
~ JESSE ~Maya had me sitting up in the bed, curled forward, gripping my knees. Reeca on one side, helping prop me up, a guard on the other.My body was nothing but a conduit for pain. Wave after wave, my entire lower body condensing, contracting, pushing to get this baby out. I could barely think.Cazz was there, so quiet, so distant, but there, calling his encouragement and pushing love at me through the bond.There was a moment when I thought I wouldn’t make it, when I thought my body would give and I would just drift away.But then I caught Maya smiling. Leaning forward between my legs, reaching, grasping, for