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2021-08-09 17:16:42Diane’s P.O.V.
After what I heard from Lorenz, I could no longer concentrate in our afternoon class.
No matter what I did, it felt like my mind was floating and fluctuating even though it was my favorite subject the professor was discussing—Strategic Management. My mind abruptly went somewhere, and throughout the class, I was absent-minded.
Since then, I repeatedly asked myself if I made the right decision of answering Liam immediately despite the fact that I didn’t know him completely. Or was it right to follow my instinct just because we had this strong attraction towards each other, and it was already enough reason for me not to know him further?
In just a blink of an eye, I got filled with mixed doubt, confusion, disappointment, and sorrow. In just a snap of a finger, I found myself struggling in between love and hurt.
After class, we went t
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