“What?” I asked him with eyes wide open. He got to be kidding me. What did he just say? He was asking me for what? Marriage?“Let’s get married,” he repeated and this time he held my hand. “I promise to love you more than what you deserve. I promise to love you more than you love me. I promise to always love you even with the dust of snow falling.”The hell? What was he saying? My forehead creased. “What?” Is he even sincere? I can feel the sincerity though but I don’t know how to say it in words when I heard what his last sentence was.What's with the dust of snow falling? He laughed and kissed my forehead. “I love you. Do you want me to give you a ride now? What kind of ride? Either way, I am good with both rides. And when are you planning to leave him? I can't peacefully sleep at night knowing you spend the night at his place.” I gave him a dagger look. “Sorry, but I can't wait anymore.”“Shut up and wait for it. I don't want to hurt him,” I said with a hoarse voice. I am not in t
He faked a smile when he looked at me. I don’t know what to do. I can’t find my sister in the living room. Maybe she is in her room. I don’t want to ask Matt about where my sister is because I know I won’t get an answer from him. He dragged me up to his room. I just let him do what he wants to do. I willingly followed him as well. He was silent the whole walk. He didn't utter a word which made an awkward moment for me but aside from those thinking, the tears that I have been trying to ignore bring back to life.I glanced up to the ceiling to stop my tears from falling down. I can’t utter a word, the side of my lips are shaking. The words that I have been trying to say are stuck inside my throat. I can't produce the words. “S-sorry. I know sorry is not enough. I won’t ask for you to forgive me right now---”“What made you do it? Am I not enough for you? Was I wrong? Did I bore you in this relationship? Did I make you feel like you aren't enough? Is there something I am not good at? T-
"You looked good as always," I heard Lena compliment me but I just let it pass through my ear like I didn't hear any comments at all. I am too tired of anything right now. I just want to have my rest... forever.I feel like my heart has been crushed by a ten-wheeler truck. I am so broken because of myself. I am broken because of my own wrongdoings. I am so broken because... I just lost the people I have been cherishing. I just lost them all in a snap.I sighed all the heaviness I felt. I feel like my back has been carrying bags of emptiness and pain. There's nothing that could take me back at me again. I feel like I am about to explode and I will burst out into tears any minute right now if someone will ask how I feel. If someone will ask how I am.I silently wiped the tear that escaped my eyes and travel down my cheeks. I turned my back on them so they won't see me wiping my own mistake. Wiping the result of the problem I created.Lena stopped sipping her hot coffee when she noticed m
The company looks much livelier today because of the posters and the little decoration they have made for the band’s achievements. The colorful balloons on the side, making an aisle at the entrance of the building, and the boys’ merchandise on the display just near the entrance. I stared at the balloons. I was just wondering why balloons make some people happy. Maybe I am feeling too bitter right now because of the situation I am in but I think balloon will just give you heartbreak. You will be happy when you can get a hold of it but when it slipped out of your hand you will feel sad and worst is when it will pop. I smile at that thought. Heartbreak really gives people a different point of view of the things they once got laid eyes on.I didn't have time to notice this kind of setup earlier because I was too busy hiding in those shades while walking straight and just this time, I got to admire the beauty of it that I have ignored earlier. I didn't know they have made this into a para
William brought me home after. I can still feel the heaviness in my heart but somehow something lifted up. William listens to me until I don't have to say anymore. I didn't even let him say anything. He just let me say all my hurting. I looked at him slowly driving his car out of the place. He is going home now. He wanted to take me home after that's why he gave me a ride. I waved my hand when he beeped the horn of his car before leaving the place.He wanted to stay here until I get inside but I don't want to bother him anymore. That was enough. Him, listening to me is enough already. My heart is kind of at some peace right now. It took him some time to finally left me here. If he wasn't tired from their performance at the concert that they had then maybe he won't leave me here. I guess he will stay because I can see it on his face, that he still wants to stay here.I stayed outside to feel the cold chilly night before going inside the house. The lights from the street made me smile
“What? Our brother?!”I distance myself from her to see if she is really telling the truth. She must be kidding me. I c-can’t… How is that even possible? Why did my father hide him from us if that is really the truth? Why didn’t he tell me about it? I shook my head in disbelief. She must be kidding me.Lester is not our brother. He can't be. I put both of my hands on my hair. I am so done with anything right now. I push my hair downwards while looking at her. Her look tells me that she is not kidding at all. She looked so serious right now.What is happening in my life right now? First, I just ended my relationship with Matt, and... Peter, the person I thought I could run to but he despises me for lying to him. He despises me for making him fall into my trap, making him fall in love with me, and right now, he is with Cindy, the one who told me to ruin him. And right now… L-lester is my brother? But... he has a family already. “No, Jane. He has his parents. His father is not our fath
“Why are you staring at him?” Lena asked. I stop looking at Lester and then sigh silently. The heaviness I am feeling right now bothers me. I can't control myself to feel emotional and sometimes irritated. Lester has been himself for a couple of minutes that I have been staring at him.I didn’t know that I was staring at him for a little while now, Lena was the one who noticed it. He looked so out of this world from my point of view, he is on the corner like he usually does. He closed his eyes while trying to strum the guitar that he is holding. His long fingers strum and it looks so perfect with the guitar.The guitar really suits him well. He can be handsomely hot by just holding it. A finger that is almost the same as a women's finger is attractive looking. I can't help but stare at him while trying to strum the perfect sound of the guitar.He is wearing his favorite outfit. A black slack and a white button-down long-sleeved paired with brown shoes made him more looked so expensiv
“Don’t talk to me,” I told Lester. I didn’t know what he was planning to do. He just cut off my line and let me live here alone in the big mansion for days now. I don’t even know where this is located and I don't have an idea if he is planning to free me. It is almost a week now and this is the first time he visited me since he left without even saying goodbye. I was alone here in the past few days and… I looked at Lester who is trying to give me a smile but failed because of his coldness. A cold man like him doesn't smile often. I wouldn't dare to beg for his smile also. I glared at him remembering the days I am left alone. Fucking hell. I can't believe I have survived. He should at least give me some of his time. He should know that his sister needs him. But what did he do instead? Leaving me here all alone. All by myself. I have got no one to talk to except myself and his... dog. What does he expect? That I would get a response from his dog?I didn’t do anything here aside from