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Waves of Jealousy

Author: Harmeen
last update Last Updated: 2024-10-29 19:42:56

Can Florian pull the trigger on my mother? I am not sure. Would I hate it if he did, knowing that to her, I was just the baby she Hadd in order to keep her husband, and neglected me my whole life? Honestly, I am not sure I would.

My mother was always bad, the sort of neglectful that ate away at me for twenty-six years and broke my wings every single time I even dreamt of flying.

But would I want to see that she was gone forever?

I looked up to Florian. From his profile that I could see, his eyes were stone cold, a massive void that only filled up when he looked at me.

Would he be able to pull the trigger if I asked him to? Maybe. Would I want him to? Maybe.

It was interesting just how much darker and tainted my own thoughts had become ever since Florian came back to me. I am not sure how much of it is just me and how much of it was a direct reflection of Florian's own demons in my soul.

I wondered about Florian's parents. I don't remember much about them. Were they just like mine? Is
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