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Chapter Twenty Eight
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2024-10-29 19:42:56RIVER
"FUCK!" I scream out in my room. Throwing whatever was close by.
Seeing Anna had my wolf and me losing our shit.
I couldn't do it. I couldn't talk to her. My guilt was too strong. My pain was so near the surface, she'd see it in an instance. And I didn't want her too. I wanted to just walk away. Spare her from the feelings of blaming me for hurting her.
When she begged to talk me, I stood my ground. I said I wasn't going to let her forgive me and I meant it. I broke my promise to her and to David. I promised to never hurt her. Never allow her to get hurt. To protect her at all costs. But she did get hurt. By my fucking hands.
I grabbed a lamp, screamed out a growl and threw it against the wall. It smashed into pieces and they fell to the floor.
I guess my dad heard it and rushed in. My room was trash
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