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*Three years earlier continued*The large black wolf skirts the edge of the summer pack, just as he is about to head to the main entrance to be allowed in by the border patrol, he has a strange feeling down his spine.He has been to the summer pack many times before. Technically, the alpha, Valen, is his uncle. He is a couple of times removed but they all like to play on it. At one time, in Jaxson’s great-great grandfather's time, this was all one pack. The seasons pack, Jaxson’s great-great grandfather had four sons, which was incredibly rare for an alpha. The sons were very close in age, one set of twins and two separate on either side. The season's pack was incredibly large, to the point where it was nearly too difficult to protect the borders. All the sons were very similar in abilities, which made it hard for him to choose who was going to take the pack.The only logical solution was to split the pack into four smaller pieces and allow each of his sons to have a pack of their own.
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Driving up to the summer pack has much the same feeling as that first time he re-entered it all those years ago and found out the depth of the betrayal. The people that he thought would be there for him, the ones that he considered family. The ones he considered good people. He thought it was bad then. But the more he learned, the more he thought about it, the worse it became. Jaxson's hands move without him releasing his grip in the slightest, the cheap plastic steering wheel making a sort of screeching sound under his hands. Alaska finally looks up from the radio and places a soft hand over his. "It is all going to be fine" Jaxson is like this every single time. It is like that same feeling of dread and clarity washes over him and then every time he has to swallow down all those intense feelings and smile at the scheming bastards that caused him to lose so much, the ones he actually went to as a savior were the ones that took it all away.He believed that this trip would help, b
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Alaska just puts one sandal-clad foot in front of the other on the bitumen-paved driveway. Her hand brushes against Jax's large hand, grounding her just that little bit as hatred washes over her, it's so thick and fast. Sometimes it's a little harder to swallow down than others, but she manages to push it all into the pit of her stomach and put on her token fake smile. Back before all this, she didn't even know that a fake smile was a real thing she didn't understand what someone would even use such a thing for. She spent so much of her time smiling and having fun. No matter the workload or what life threw at her, she could still smile happily. Now it has just become a piece of her mask, a necessary item, better than any makeup at hiding the true feelings inside. A smile can hide a million truths. It is as necessary mask in her workplace as it is here. She looks up at the one dark-haired man who stands between his four golden blonde sons. There is no doubt that all five of them are
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Valen smiles as the sweet girl kisses his cheek. She is skinnier now, but that is the only real difference he notices, maybe a little bit more hollow in the eyes, they just don't have the same glitter they once had, but that is to be expected. It is impossible for such an innocence to survive in such conditions.Everything is crushed, the beautiful flower is wilted.He feels silly for even suspecting them. It isn’t even like it is two together, it is one male and a weak female that, even though she could’ve had the talent and the bloodline to step forward and take her birthright, she chose to sit back and watch her mate claim the glory.She was pathetic then and while it is admirable that she pulled herself together to this point, expecting her to come out of those depths with anything more than a basic need to survive is overreaching. She couldn't take the title then and now she is the same, happy to sit back and let others lead while she hangs on for dear life desperatly trying not t
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As soon as they return home, Alaska disappears into her room and Jaxson is left to sit on the sofa alone. She didn’t speak anymore on the drive or subsequent run back to the warehouse. They didn’t feel as if they were followed, but they will never take a such chances always making sure to cover their tracks. They have tried to keep everything hidden within the space, but if the warehouse was found, the rest would unravel quickly.Jaxson has the television on, playing some series that fails to spark his interest enough to allow him to focus on anything other than Alaska’s closed door. He craves to hear her voice, to feel her touch. He knows that the whole experience hurt her, but right now it feels like it hurt him a whole lot more. The word friend still bouncing around his head telling him everything he already knows but cutting him to pieces at the same time.Hours move slowly by but still a closed door separates the pair. He is in no mood to workout. He looks briefly at the kitchen t
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Jax grits his teeth, he wishes he had her confidence, he would like to take the cowards way out on this one, but he knows that he would never talk her into such a thing unless they have at least tried. The more he has thought about it and just witnessing the five today, he saw Valen’s suspicion fade throughout the visit, but he knows that is only fleeting, he knows that at least one of his cousins would rather just eliminate them.Every word he said is true, it is only a matter of time and they cannot live indefinitely with a dagger hanging over their heads."I hope you are right"Alaska nods as she looks down at her phone. She was not expecting this to be so easy, this is a big hurdle passed. But from now, it only gets harder. Her fingers move swiftly across the screen of her phone. Words that she never thought that she would write to another man come out as forced as she expected they would. Seeking justice for Torin by seemingly betraying him in such a way is torturous. After a few
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Alaska only manages to just swallow back her laugh as she subtly elbows him in the ribs, all the tension leaving her body with his self-assured words are said in such a natural way. Jaxson keeps his arm around her for the whole rest of the night and Alaska is amazed at how comfortable it feels. They have always been close and he has done things a whole lot more personal than this, but that was more in a caring role to now actually acting as if they are really in a relationship. That dynamic is so different.It is strange but somehow not completely repulsive.Jaxson and Alaska laugh as they exit the building, even though her metabolism easily works off the alcohol. For the first time in a long time she is feeling relaxed. She jumps on Jax’s back and he naturally catches her legs, her black stiletto shoes dangling from one hand which are crossed around his neck."Who would have thought I managed to miss the fact that I have been dating someone for three years, according to my colleagues"
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It has been an entire week of back and forth, Alaska seeming a little more open to possibilities with each round of text exchanges. Hayden is persistent, she has to give him that, but that was what she has been counting on. It doesn't change her opinion of him and the whole thing is far from noble, considering he has probably had a different girl each night in his bed on every single day of the week. Alaska just takes this as his new hobby. Every time she has to say something a little more suggestive than the last, her level of disgust grows, but she is surprised how quickly she can fall back into the habit of knowing how to flirt even if this feels a whole lot more unnatural.Yet the knowledge on how to do it doesn't save her from the replusion of it all.Torin had been in her life for as long as she can remember, her first with everything. They were young and learned a lot from each other, but she never missed that flirting stage. Torin never once wanted her to miss out on any of tha
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Jaxson takes a deep breath in, letting the unseasonably cold air fill his lungs as they stand on the very line of the autumn pack border. The place he has avoided for these whole three years. The air does nothing to calm him, so he reaches out and touches Alaska’s hand. Her skin is slippery and ice-cold, it doesn’t have the same softness or warmth that it usually holds, but it doesn’t make him recoil, instead he just holds it tighter.The walk cannot be blamed for this level of saturation, they were drenched from the second they walked out the door of the cabin. So the duration matters little. The actual walk to the pack took a long time. The heavy layer of dark cloud makes it impossible to gauge the exact moment of sundown, but they know they still have time. They took a roundabout route in an effort to cover tracks was as necessary as it was a delay tactic. Even though they never had the thought to shy away from their own actions or to cower in the face of the Barrow’s even one more
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Outside the study, Jaxson's name seems to carry and Mila’s ears prick up, but she can hear nothing else of the conversation. Once again, within this pack, she's just shoved in a corner after being torn from the uncomfortable confines of the car. This time, very obviously guarded and while Arden tried to pass it off as protection within an unfamiliar pack, it seems much more like being locked down and that is a far too familiar feeling for her. She is in a bad spot. If this ends and she has to go back home without Arden, things are going to be hard for her, but it is increasingly appearing like things are going to be hard for her here. All she can do is wait it out.Trip is nervous to say the wrong thing. He had very little details from Draven. He just made the calls and followed orders trying to guess what is in his alpha's mind is near impossible. "I think after getting his first clue about Hayden's disappearance from Alaska, and then I guess he spotted the same trend as you, I thin
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"You’re in?"Trip’s voice finally, after the day from hell, has a slight hint of excitement as he leans over the shoulder of his hacker contact, leaning far closer to the fully grown man than he usually would, invading the man’s personal space to the maximum in his desperation.He doesn’t even exit the room to meet the occupant of the next high-powered sports car which roars into the pack before the first one has even left, knowing that it can only be another member of the Barrow family and knowing whoever it is will come straight to him and just glad that, at the very least, he has this. He has never really felt like a failure as a beta, but the fact that he wasn’t even the first to notice his alpha's disappearance plays on his conscious and then giving Cohen nothing after a night of investigating just made it all compound."I am in"Trip sighs in relief as he hears the two sets of heavy footsteps moving toward the office with haste. The door isn’t even knocked upon before it is push
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Before they were only working off a strange feeling. Now it is much more, there is a sense of urgency that wasn't there before. Cohen feels stupid for wasting so much time coming here, but maybe he needed this to even be able to understand it. Arden glances back at the still open door of the pack house."Is it time to bring dad in now?"Cohen rubs his chin, their father is wise and has contacts that they might not have access to otherwise, he might even know far more than they do. But it is time for them to start doing things on their own and if they are wrong about this and have blown everything out of proportion, won’t they come out looking like the stupid ones? If the two truly are hiding and trying to fuck with them, wouldn't they then be implicated in the stupidity?"There is no need to cause him unnecessary worry until we know more"While the sons don’t know much about a father's love except for what was shown to the world, their father is much the same as them, there has to be
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"Cohen has just crossed the border on the western side…" Valen announces to Arden, who has only just arrived in his office. While Hayden is technically the alpha of the summer pack, Valen still has his own space, and it is much the same as the alpha office, as prominent location and as luxurious decoration, because truth be told, he does as much for the summer pack, if not more than his son, who holds the title, they veil it as he is running operations under the guise of the seasons pack, but his workload seems to be more than when he was alpha and most of it is from the summer pack, until the undertaking his adult sons were shouldering most of the burden of the running of the pack while he was scheming in the background, and he had taken a step back from running the pack even when he still officially held the title, now they have their own packs which they are taking from strength to strength while the summer pack is now the one lagging behind, and it was always the mightiest of the
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Cohen drives towards the Autumn pack. He would rather be anywhere else, doing almost anything else than chasing after his delinquent brothers. Draven has just been thrown into the same pile as Hayden most of his life, even though he is completely different, and this fiasco has just confirmed it.He rarely goes to the Autumn pack. If there is a meeting of the brothers, it is always in the summer pack, away from prying ears, most of the summer pack knows what they did, because they were a part of it, they cannot risk word spreading further. Cohen mostly spearheaded the campaign against the Autumn pack and would like to take far more credit for the quick submission than is probably due, but for that reason, he also likes to keep himself away from here and while he and Draven are probably the most alike on paper, it is also the reason that they get along the least. There is usually no reason for him to visit this brother alone. Just because he hasn't been much in all these years doesn't
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Jax’s arm is firmly fixed around Alaska, holding her close to his body. He can feel her warm breath penetrating the material of his shirt, but it doesn’t make him feel the comfort that he would usually feel, instead he just feels frustrated.He scrubs his free hand down his face, pulling his skin so exaggeratedly under his eye to the point that the red of his socket can be seen even past his closed eyes."I don’t know Alaska. Maybe this means I am supposed to be alone for a lifetime""Don’t say that, wouldn’t that mean that I am too?"The air in the room freezes and any pitying thought that still lingered in Jaxson’s mind is gone. He looks at Alaska with wide eyes.Jax is almost too scared to say anything in case she understands the real meaning behind her words, but he can’t keep quiet and what is a simple question to some but the most loaded question to her comes tumbling out."Do you think that you are ready for that?"Jax knows that he has fucked up again, he didn’t need to push,
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"I completely choked in there"Jaxson and Alaska are back in their warehouse lying on Alaska’s bed. Jaxson is just staring blankly at the cork tile ceiling above him as if he can count the millions of holes on the otherwise white surface.Alaska lays with her arm draped over him and her cheek resting on his chest just staring at everything but nothing at all. It was a mission to get him back here without being tracked. While Jaxson was still living and breathing, he was just going through the motions and far more reminiscent of a dead weight than anything else.It was an effort and by the time they arrived back she is sure that it appeared much the same as the first day they arrived here, only she is sure that she didn’t look as heroic as Jax would have. She was a sweaty, exhausted mess, he is heavy!Jax’s words snap her out of her stupor."You did not choke"Alaska pats his chest."What else do you call sitting there as a mute, unable to look at anything or anyone, unable to even tel
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A single sentence hits the room like a bomb in the pin drop silent space, it is as if even the music has stopped and if it is still playing Alaska fails to hear it. The words went off like an explosion in her ear drums, still leaving that ringing in its wake. Her brain still rattling at the admission and when she can finally gather her senses enough, she finally pays attention to the woman perched upon Arden. Arden's movements with Mila’s hips do not cease, so it appears as if she is still grinding into him even when her fate is in the room. The rest of Mila's body is still as if shocked at the words, the secret between two suddenly known by everyone. The usual most precious moment is a disaster, the whole thing is a spit in the face of the goddess.Alaska looks at Jax again for confirmation, and she sees it all in his eyes. Suddenly it all makes perfect sense, the timing, the sudden change in demeanor, it all started at the door of the room. She just was so focused on everything e
