Christian
"What do you wanna say, doctor?", I ask her as she sighs.
"Christian, I would suggest you consult a psychologist for Ivanna", she passes me a serious look as I pause there.
"Psychologist? Doctor.....she is just depressed. And....", I strive to say.
"Yes, she is. That's what I'm observing. And she should go to a psychologist for that. I know you and Mrs Rozario are there with her. But she is still stuck in the same place. She is still dealing with panic attacks. It can be a risk to her life in this situation", Dr Alina gives me a huge shock as my eyes widen.
I can't even hear that line which she uttered. RISK TO HER LIFE.
"Risk? Her life?", I clamour, leaning towards the table.
"Yes. If she keeps getting scared like this, there's no guarantee that her blood pressure will be stable. And if it increases too much unexpectedly, there is a high chance of miscarriage and also it can harm her", she adds.
I wasn't re
IvannaI have an appointment with a psychologist today. Christian said he would be picking me up after he would be done meeting some directors. I get ready after a quick shower and put on a black round neck dress that ends on my thighs. I'm trying to push myself to my past lifestyle. However, among all the chaos happening in my mind, I find a smile on my face, seeing my belly growing."Mommy is going to a new doctor today. Well, not a doctor but you won't understand the meaning of psychologist, no?", I say while caressing my belly. "I had been thinking a lot last night. And your dad is right as always", I smile while saying. "You may get scared too if I panic like this. I don't want it to happen", I place a kiss on my palm and then place it on my belly.Sitting on the bed, I open my book and wait for Christian. I'm trying to cover more than half of my syllabus because I don't know if I will be able to study in my third trimester. Life has become so challenging r
ChristianI am walking outside the cabin for the last hour. I didn't want to leave her alone as Ileana may ask old questions to her. However, it was her session so I didn't interrupt. "Chris", she calls me from behind as I immediately turn around and rush to her."Babe, you okay?", I ask her, cupping her face as she blinks with a smile. "Ileana is calling you", she says."Yeah. I'm going. You sit here", I make her sit on the chair against the wall and kiss her forehead, then walk inside the cabin."You come?", Ileana beams while looking at me. "Sit""How's she? I mean did she tell you something? Did she cry?", I ask while taking the seat."First of all, get yourself ready to watch her crying", my heart sinks with her words as I blurt out suddenly."What?? Why? Why will she cry again? I won't let her", I urge."That's the problem, Christian. You don't let her cry that's why you don't wanna hear her bitter experience", she glares at
Christian"I can be late today", I tell Ivanna when she is drinking her favourite hot chocolate, sitting on the couch."Okay. But bring me some popcorn, please. I'm feeling like to eat", she says as I look up at her. Her mouth is covered with chocolate which is making her look more cute."Sure", I smile at her while trying to fasten the tie. "Darn it. That's why I don't like formal meeting", I shrug, looking at the mirror."What happened?", she asks while licking her lips."This tie", I struggle to pull it."Jesus! Chris. You still can't wear a tie?", she exclaims. I never liked wearing a tie any formal outfits. However, today I have to sign a new project and I heard that the director is highly professional. I had to wear this but this stupid tie is getting on my nerves."I'm not wearing this", I pull it from my neck as she yanks my arm from behind and turns me around."When will you learn it, Chris? You're not a
ChristianI couldn't face her. What the hell had happened to me? What was she thinking about me? Those thoughts were overloading my head. I didn't know how I came this far. I shouldn't.My legs wobbled while walking. I didn't want her to think that I was taking advantage of her physically. I literally felt for her. But I didn't know from where that physical attraction came up.I should have stopped after that kiss and left it. But I continued and it ended up like this.I was at my place while pondering all this. My whole body was shaking with embarrassment and guilt. She is still so young. Just seventeen. I was too. However, she was a girl. It wasn't easy for her to let me allow. What if she wasn't comfortable. What if she felt bad. What if she didn't stop me because she thought I would be mad at her.Damn! I pushed myself on the bed and clutched my hairs. That was literally sickening to me. I had to say sorry to her. But how would I even face her
ChristianAfter dinner, I am measuring her belly as she said that she wants to record the baby's growth and I loved her childish idea too. It was fun."I'm finally having a baby bump", she beams. Whenever she talks about the baby, she is so happy."Yes. Soon it'll grow more and you'll look cuter", I pull her cheek."So finally you signed another song", she excitedly looks at me. "But when will I get to hear them? None one these are still released""Babe, you'll be the one to listen to my songs first. But you'll have to be a little patient", I tell her."How much", she urges."Just a month, babe. My debut album is just coming", I tell her."What really? Next month?", she literally jumps in excitement."Yes""It's my birthday month. Yey. You'll be giving me a gift unknowingly", she says. However, it was not unknowingly.I had actually planned it for her to give her the most beautiful birthday gift. I had to p
IvannaI wake up with the touch of his lips on mine and I smile, opening my eyes, finding his face in front of me. I take him in a tight embrace as he whispers into my ears."Good morning, babe", he brushes his cheek against my neck as his sharp beard gives me goosebumps."Good morning", I mumble. He breaks the hug and comes down to my stomach and kisses it. "Good morning, little baby"I smile at him. I love those moments when he spends time with baby."Come. Get up and freshen up. I have made your favourite milkshake", he gets up and gives me the clothes and leaves the room.I smile at him. The last night was crucial but after venting everything out of me I could sleep peacefully after months. I should have done that a long ago. Yes, he would be angry and it's completely valid. I shouldn't have done that stupidity. But telling him everything was like a burden getting disappeared. Now, there are no more secrets between us.And I
ChristianI don't know what's making her laugh suddenly. But I'm loving this sight of her. In the last one and a half months, I have seen a huge growth in her condition. She is on the way to be the complete old version of herself. Childish yet mature, naughty yet understanding, stressed yet happy.I turn her around and look at her from head to toe. As I notice her carefully, I can't drive my eyes away from her. My jaw drops."I can't tell you how much beautiful you are looking", I tell her, touching her cheek with my knuckles. She lowers her eyes and blushes heavily.I had bought this white dress for her since it's my favourite colour and she looks beautiful in white and I know how much she loves to look beautiful for me. The pearl necklace around her neck is increasing her beauty more. I look at her face. Her skin has been glowing nowadays. She doesn't need any makeup now. However, I had already loved the pinkish shade on her lips.I lean down to
IvannaWe share a smile as I hug him. "Thanks for making my life so beautiful", he says, tightening the grip."A very very happy birthday", he again."Thank you", my voice shakes."So today, I'll make my babies birthday more memorable", he breaks the hug and touches my chin. "I never got a chance""You make my everyday memorable", I smile at him."But this one will be more. Come", he holds my wrist and walks towards the stream."Everything is so beautiful, Chris", I say while looking around."You liked it?", he grins."I loved it. Everything is so beautiful. The candles, the blue balloons, this stream, our school", I beam. Everything is so simple yet so beautiful. He has done something like this for me for the first time. And I can't appreciate his efforts enough. Although I know he has spent much, I'm not talking about it. His efforts shouldn't get disrespected."You know I always wanted to give you a surpr