Christian
"No, she can't drink too much coffee now", Auntie says as I shake my head while making a milkshake for her.
"What happened?", she asks me abruptly as I hesitate.
"Nothing, Auntie. I was just tired", I lie to her.
Ivanna gets annoying sometimes when she overthinks. It sickens me. How many times should I tell her that I'm doing all this for her? I have no one. For whom am I trying to settle in life? For whom am I earning? It's definitely her. But she overreacts sometimes.
I was so excited to see her in those clothes. I had chosen every cloth taking a lot of time, figuring out whether she would be comfortable. She says she notices my efforts but today she ignored it which hurt me.
"Nothing? I know you well", she pats on my head. "You look pissed"
"Your daughter!", I sigh. It's true that I can't lie to aunty since she knows my every reaction so well. "She is annoying sometimes and overthinks", I shrug while stirring the milkshake.
<Christian"But I wanna eat", she whimpers."Babe even I'm not feeling like to keep you hungry", I roll my eyes. "But you wanted the scan, no? You can't eat anything until the scan is done. Now give me your leg"I kneel on the ground and hold her foot to put on her sandals. She struggled a lot last night because of pain, maybe some cramps."But I can eat less, no? I'm hungry", she yelps."Then let's go and finish the scan fast. Then I'll get you your favourite pasta", I tell her, holding her wrist. She pouts, glaring at me."You become such a big drama queen, babe. Come", I don't let her say anything and lift her in my arms."And you have become so grumpy", she says as I walk out of the room."Yes, I know. And at this moment, I better be grumpy. Otherwise, you will keep doing all the emotional drama to manipulate me", I take her out of the apartment and make her sit inside the cab.As I get insi
IvannaWhen I open my eyes, I find Christian staring at me. "Sleep well?", he asks with a smile, caressing my cheek. I don't reply to him and strive to get up. He helps me to sit well, putting some pillows behind me."I'm.....sorry", I lower my eyes."For what, babe?", he exclaims, looking at me."I panicked like this. You....you must be embarrassed", I whimper. I didn't know what had happened to me. I was so scared when the doctor asked me to reveal my belly. There was a time when I used to wear crop tops regularly. Showing my belly was never a big thing for me. But now I can't stand the gaze of any men. I feel uncomfortable when any man looks at me, even if he has no bad intention. Every man haunts me now and I only feel safe with Christian."That's okay", he cups my face and kisses my forehead. "In fact, I'm sorry. I shouldn't force you. You got scared because of me""I don't know what had happened to me", I'm feeling so bad right n
Christian"What do you wanna say, doctor?", I ask her as she sighs."Christian, I would suggest you consult a psychologist for Ivanna", she passes me a serious look as I pause there."Psychologist? Doctor.....she is just depressed. And....", I strive to say."Yes, she is. That's what I'm observing. And she should go to a psychologist for that. I know you and Mrs Rozario are there with her. But she is still stuck in the same place. She is still dealing with panic attacks. It can be a risk to her life in this situation", Dr Alina gives me a huge shock as my eyes widen.I can't even hear that line which she uttered. RISK TO HER LIFE."Risk? Her life?", I clamour, leaning towards the table."Yes. If she keeps getting scared like this, there's no guarantee that her blood pressure will be stable. And if it increases too much unexpectedly, there is a high chance of miscarriage and also it can harm her", she adds.I wasn't re
IvannaI have an appointment with a psychologist today. Christian said he would be picking me up after he would be done meeting some directors. I get ready after a quick shower and put on a black round neck dress that ends on my thighs. I'm trying to push myself to my past lifestyle. However, among all the chaos happening in my mind, I find a smile on my face, seeing my belly growing."Mommy is going to a new doctor today. Well, not a doctor but you won't understand the meaning of psychologist, no?", I say while caressing my belly. "I had been thinking a lot last night. And your dad is right as always", I smile while saying. "You may get scared too if I panic like this. I don't want it to happen", I place a kiss on my palm and then place it on my belly.Sitting on the bed, I open my book and wait for Christian. I'm trying to cover more than half of my syllabus because I don't know if I will be able to study in my third trimester. Life has become so challenging r
ChristianI am walking outside the cabin for the last hour. I didn't want to leave her alone as Ileana may ask old questions to her. However, it was her session so I didn't interrupt. "Chris", she calls me from behind as I immediately turn around and rush to her."Babe, you okay?", I ask her, cupping her face as she blinks with a smile. "Ileana is calling you", she says."Yeah. I'm going. You sit here", I make her sit on the chair against the wall and kiss her forehead, then walk inside the cabin."You come?", Ileana beams while looking at me. "Sit""How's she? I mean did she tell you something? Did she cry?", I ask while taking the seat."First of all, get yourself ready to watch her crying", my heart sinks with her words as I blurt out suddenly."What?? Why? Why will she cry again? I won't let her", I urge."That's the problem, Christian. You don't let her cry that's why you don't wanna hear her bitter experience", she glares at
Christian"I can be late today", I tell Ivanna when she is drinking her favourite hot chocolate, sitting on the couch."Okay. But bring me some popcorn, please. I'm feeling like to eat", she says as I look up at her. Her mouth is covered with chocolate which is making her look more cute."Sure", I smile at her while trying to fasten the tie. "Darn it. That's why I don't like formal meeting", I shrug, looking at the mirror."What happened?", she asks while licking her lips."This tie", I struggle to pull it."Jesus! Chris. You still can't wear a tie?", she exclaims. I never liked wearing a tie any formal outfits. However, today I have to sign a new project and I heard that the director is highly professional. I had to wear this but this stupid tie is getting on my nerves."I'm not wearing this", I pull it from my neck as she yanks my arm from behind and turns me around."When will you learn it, Chris? You're not a
ChristianI couldn't face her. What the hell had happened to me? What was she thinking about me? Those thoughts were overloading my head. I didn't know how I came this far. I shouldn't.My legs wobbled while walking. I didn't want her to think that I was taking advantage of her physically. I literally felt for her. But I didn't know from where that physical attraction came up.I should have stopped after that kiss and left it. But I continued and it ended up like this.I was at my place while pondering all this. My whole body was shaking with embarrassment and guilt. She is still so young. Just seventeen. I was too. However, she was a girl. It wasn't easy for her to let me allow. What if she wasn't comfortable. What if she felt bad. What if she didn't stop me because she thought I would be mad at her.Damn! I pushed myself on the bed and clutched my hairs. That was literally sickening to me. I had to say sorry to her. But how would I even face her
ChristianAfter dinner, I am measuring her belly as she said that she wants to record the baby's growth and I loved her childish idea too. It was fun."I'm finally having a baby bump", she beams. Whenever she talks about the baby, she is so happy."Yes. Soon it'll grow more and you'll look cuter", I pull her cheek."So finally you signed another song", she excitedly looks at me. "But when will I get to hear them? None one these are still released""Babe, you'll be the one to listen to my songs first. But you'll have to be a little patient", I tell her."How much", she urges."Just a month, babe. My debut album is just coming", I tell her."What really? Next month?", she literally jumps in excitement."Yes""It's my birthday month. Yey. You'll be giving me a gift unknowingly", she says. However, it was not unknowingly.I had actually planned it for her to give her the most beautiful birthday gift. I had to p