Ivanna
I woke up with a bad headache and my whole world turning upside down as I find myself naked in Adavan's room. My clothes are scattered all over the floor. My head spins, throat dries up and heart sink, leaving my whole cold as the ice. I can't breathe, not I find my voice.
I just try to hold myself and get up. I'm dreaming. And that's a nightmare. Yeah, it's a nightmare. It can't be happening. I slap myself like a crazy person to get my sense back. This is not the reality. My eyes burn as I clutch my hairs, tightly.
I remember every single moment that happened last night. He drugged me, after that he....... No!!! I scream aloud, breaking into tears.
"Good morning, babygirl", I hear him as I look up immediately, holding my tears. My heart burns in wrath as I see the face of that monster. My whole body is shaking in anger when he comes to me with a tray.
"You got up? How was the sleep?", he asks me, passing a cup but I push his hand as the cup
IvannaHow will I even face them after this disaster? How will I lie to them that it wasn't rape? What will I do? Where will I go? Among this tough barrier of money and power, this truth will only bring a curse to my loved one.He leaves the room, leaving me there. As I try to put on my dress, I feel severe pain all over my body. He claims to love me but he treated me like the animal, nothing else. Only to fulfil his lust. Only lust.I somehow walk to the hall and pick my purse up. My phone has zero networks. I wonder how many times mom had called me. Or maybe Christian.*"So, that was happening, right?", mom shrugs, without even looking at me. I hang my head like a culprit to hide my tears. I can't let myself break down in front of her. She is sitting on the couch and her phone is still on the ground. She might have dropped it after watching that video."I never knew my daughter can....betray....", she can hardly speak. "What
Ivanna"Can we meet? I'm in Washington", he says in a cold voice as my eyes pop out."You're here?", I stammer."Yeah. Can we meet? If you have time", he asks me. I can't feel anything in his voice."Why are you asking like this? I have time for you", my voice shakes."Meet me at the schoolyard in an hour", he says and immediately cuts the call.After so many days, we could talk and he didn't even talk to me properly. He sounded cold, angry, hurt. It doesn't take me much time to realize that he has gotten that video.Finally, I cry again. How will I face him? How will I break his heart?I don't know anything. For now, I'll have to do all this for him.I get up from the bed and take a shower, putting on some good clothes. My eyes are swollen, being the proof of my tears and a sleepless night. I apply some makeup to look normal.And I leave to meet ChristianChristianSitting near our old school, I l
ChristianI come in sense with the bell of the school. Adavan's last words are still echoing in my head. Though I don't wanna think about all this, I'm afraid of hearing the truth. I left everything behind after that and rushed here to meet her, to get my answers, to clear the confusions.My heart is not ready to believe that she can betray me. We are so in love. She is so crazy for me and so I am. I can't imagine in my dreams that she will betray me. She was never concerned about my status. In fact, she is the girl who has her own ambitions. She doesn't look for men with money.I don't know how I will question her. I'm not feeling like to ask her these questions. I just want her to come to me and tell everything by herself. I want her to say there are some reasons. She didn't do all these on her own choice. Then I'll not spare that bastard. I have respected him enough but I didn't imagine he would be keeping his dirty eyes on my Ivi.I wish I never took
IvannaMy gaze ices on him, leaving me behind forever. The togetherness of fourteen years, the dreams we had for our future, everything ended because of a single night. I fall on the ground, hitting my knees on the surface, tears rolling down through my cheeks continuously."Chris", I scream aloud when he has already gone. "I never betrayed you. I only love you, baby. And I'll only love you until my last breath", I suck my breath, trying to stop my tears.I wish I could tell him the truth. I wanted him to hug me tight and I would cry in his arms. I wanted the warmth of his body after that cursed night. I wanted to tell him what had happened to me. However, it was my destiny to fight with this pain alone.I know he can never unlove me. He is definitely saying. But he can't. I could see the pain in his eyes when he was saying those hurtful things to me. He was being more hurt than me. I whimper, kneeling on the ground. My heart is smouldering to run a
IvannaI can't turn around and lower my eyes, being ashamed of what I just said. I can't even feel the pain he is going through after hearing my bitter words."Christian!", mom exclaims and looks at me nervously."If you had realized it before, you could've explored more men", he utters. I sense his voice, close to my ear. He is too close to me. And it's being unbearable for me to stay away from him. Please, hug me. Hug me for once. I can't do it on my own. I just need a warm hug from you to survive the rest of my life.He leans down to look at me from sideways as I fill some courage inside me to look at him. Don't cry, Ivanna. I warn myself. Our eyes meet. His eyes look swollen. He must have cried a lot. He smirks at me."At least, you could tell me that you got exhausted. I would've never tied you up with me. I would set you free from this bond", he mu
IvannaDoorbell rings. Martha and other servants arrive with the wedding outfits and other accessories. Mom left after opening the door. She is showing no interest in this wedding. I'm afraid of losing her. What if she breaks all the ties with me. I'm still not gotten over the pain of losing Christian. I can't afford to lose her."Master has sent these for you. You can pick one", she brings out a bunch of expensive wedding outfits."Leave any of them", I say in a blank tone.I'm sitting on the couch and table before me is overloaded with cartons."It's your wedding, madam. How can I choose for you?", she asks, hanging her head."Your master could've done that. After all, everything is happening according to me him", I glare at her as she lowers her head.I don't want them to keep gathering in my place. So, I pick one of the gowns abruptly and a jewellery s
AdavanThe only girl I craved for is not standing before as my bride. I am standing at the entrance of the church when she gets down from the car in bridal attire.I have always hated white and I didn't know white can be this much beautiful until I saw her in it. She walks on the red carpet, glueing her eyes to the stairs. I smile at her and proceed with my hand when she is two steps down. She glances at me and gives her hand on mine. I lean down and kiss on her palm while I can hear the sound of captures. I stand by her and hold her shoulder."You're looking terribly beautiful", I tell her but she doesn't react. "Look", I squeeze her shoulder. "Smile! I don't want everyone to find something suspicious. At least, behave like a bride in front of media", I shrug and smile at the same time.She replies nothing to me and looks up with a fake smile. After giving a few chances to the media to capture the pictures, I take her inside the church. It's full of all
IvannaWas that actually a wedding? It felt like nothing to me. The wedding was always so special to me. Every time I attended someone's wedding, I used to be in clouds. I used to hear all the important vows and observe the bride and the groom lovingly. The way they looked at each other, it used to be so pure, so magical. I couldn't wait for the day when I would be the bride.I never imagined that I would be so lifeless at my own wedding. These vows mean nothing to me. For the whole world, I'm the wife of a superstar now. But only I know that now I'm the wife of a rapist.I don't shove his hand from mine and keep my gaze outside. I feel his hands roaming around my body inappropriately, still, I behave like I don't care what he is doing. His touch still bothers me like before. Every single touch of him is disgusting and filthy. Unfortunately, now has the whole right to touch me legally and I have no right to stop him.*The car stops at the villa. M