Well, Emlyn handled that with grace and poise.
I feel sick, like I’m in a haze and all I want to do is go hide away and never return. But that is not what a Guardian does, and I will act every bit of the Guardian that I am tonight. I know my family and friends will surround me and support me. I have a moment after leaving the room, where I get a sharp, shooting pain in my chest, and I know that Richie must have kissed Gwen. Goddess help me, I won’t survive if he decides to mate with her. “I won’t leave your side tonight, Emlyn.” Emerson has become my lifeline at the moment. He’s grounding me and helping keep me sane and I know he will never let me embarrass myself or fall on my face. Add to that, while everyone may be gossiping behind my back about the events from earlier, no one would dare to say anything to my face with Emerson at my side. Before I make it back to the party, I am rushed by Millie and Tansy. “Lady Luna Emlyn. Lady Luna Emlyn.” I feel Emerson tense, but I pat his arm. Of all people, the sprites would never do
My head is all over the place. Gwen tried to convince me to sleep with her last night, but I need to figure out what is going on first. I don’t understand why Finley is saying Gwen is our mate, but he’s unwilling to let Emlyn go. I know this is hard for Emlyn. We’ve been together for two years. I treated her like she was my Luna because I thought that’s what she would be. Now….now I don’t know how to make it right. Xander is furious with me, and Cayd won’t even speak to me. I’m so twisted up, I forgot that I have that council meeting today. If Emlyn hadn’t reminded me, I would have missed it. This meeting is to resolve the issues with Alpha Samuel and his pack attacking me, and what we will do with the rest of his remaining pack members. And, while I’m there, I want to see if any of the elders have heard of this happening before. I know Aunt Grace will be there, and I’m hoping we can get this resolved. I had planned to give Emlyn the watch last night, but when I saw Gwen and realize
When Richie and Gwen left for the council meeting together, I wasn’t sure if I was happy to have Gwen out of my hair for the day, or sad that Richie decided to take her instead of me. When Xander lets me know that they are staying the night away from the pack, sad wins out. My heart hurts knowing that they will be spending this time together, just the two of them. Later that night, we’re all sitting around the table for dinner, Leana, Xander, Cayd and I. I’ve been pushing my food around my plate. I know I need to eat, but I can’t make myself. The thought of trying to get food down right now makes me feel as sick as I still feel every morning when I wake up. “Em, you need to eat.” Cayd says quietly, nudging me. I take a bite of whatever is on my fork, I don’t know or care what it is. He watches me while I try to choke it down as it lodges in my throat. “Here.” Xander says, pushing my glass of water over to me. I drink it, forcing the food down. “I’ll be fine, you guys, I just….I……”
I must not have heard her properly. “What?” I ask, looking at her like she’s crazy. We were always so careful. I have condoms all over the fucking packhouse and forest for just that reason. “I’m pregnant.” She repeats. I open my mouth, not sure what I’m going to say. “If you fucking ask if it’s yours, I’ll rip your balls off.” She growls. “Of course, it’s mine, Emlyn. I would have known if you’d been with someone else.” I say but my mind is reeling. I’m already struggling with the fact that I can’t get it up with my mate unless I’m thinking about Emlyn and now, she’s telling me she’s pregnant with my child. I stand, turning and going to the window, running my fingers through my hair. “This is a fucking mess!” I whip back around and see Emlyn mouthing an apology to Xander. He’s apparently as taken off guard as I am. “How far along are you?” “Three weeks.” I do the math quickly. “The day that I killed Alpha Samuel.” She nods and I run my fingers through my hair again. There’s
It’s been two weeks. Every night I suffer through the pain of Richie’s mating with Gwen. Some nights, I’m lucky and it’s quick, others he takes his time. I know it’s taking a toll on me. There are dark circles under my eyes from my lack of sleep. My body is covered in bruises from the pain. I’ve begun to worry about my child. I have no idea how this might impact him. And it is a boy. Xander told me he could smell Richie on me two days after I told him I was pregnant, then Cayd confirmed it. But to be sure, I had Leana go with me to the pack hospital to have an ultrasound. I can’t look at Richie, so I had Leana take him the picture. I’ve started to show, so it’s not like it’s a secret anymore. Richie forbid me from sparring at warrior training and I can’t shift while pregnant, so I’m stuck running on my human legs through the forest to get my exercise and try to clear my head. Every day, I’m getting less and less sleep. I’m exhausted and when I finally start to fall asleep, the pain
Gwen finally convinced me to have sex last night. I’d put it off as long as I could, which is ridiculous. Why am I waiting to have sex with my mate? And it was terrible. I could barely stay hard. Her moans and grunts only made it worse. I tried going down on her but her taste…I don’t understand why she doesn’t taste better than Emlyn. Emlyn tasted better than anything I’ve ever tasted. Shouldn’t my mate taste even better than that? Instead, I felt like I was going to gag. I finally had to get her off and then, unlike any other man in history, I faked my orgasm. No matter what I did, I couldn’t make my dick work. And let’s not even go there about my canines. When I was with Emlyn, my canines extended almost every time I was inside her. I had to constantly be careful to NOT mark her. Last night, Gwen had lifted her neck, inviting me to mark her and…nothing. My canines didn’t extend, and Finley was quiet, almost like he was embarrassed that his body wasn’t responding properly either. So
Cayd drove me to Safe Haven. I’d never put much thought into the name of our pack. I know my parents came up with the name and that it’s a place where anyone that needs a safe place to live can come and be welcomed. But, as a kid, it was just our pack’s name. Now, as we cross onto my brother’s pack lands, I recognize the poignancy of the name. Here I am, running from a place where I can’t live any longer. And, of course, my brother welcomes me with open arms, just like he does with every other supernatural that requests sanctuary. I feel a tear roll down my cheek. I don’t even belong to a pack right now. I know my brother will rectify that quickly, but currently I’m a rogue. I rejected Richie as my Alpha and until I’m accepted into a pack, I’m packless. I don’t know if it’s the emptiness caused by rejecting Richie, or the loneliness of being a packless wolf, but either way I feel so lonely that all I want to do us curl up and die. I’m beginning to understand why rejected mates just
As soon as I recover from Emlyn’s rejection or recover enough to be able to function, I contact the council. I let them know what happened and ask them for any information that they can come up with. Not long after that, I get a call from Emerson. “Don’t show your face on my pack lands, Alpha Richard.” “She’s carrying my son, Emerson.” “She’s also carrying the proof of the mate bond that you cheated on. So, unless you want my father to kill you, or me to wage war against your pack, I suggest you stay away.” “You can’t keep me from her forever.” I say, my heart aching. “That is up to her. You lost the right to have any say in her life.” “Emerson…” I say just as the phone goes dead. “Richie.” That scent of patchouli fills my nose. I don’t have the time or the energy for Gwen right now. “What do you want, Gwen?” I ask her. “I….” I hear her sniffle. I really don’t have time for this. And now that I’m confused about what’s going on with the mate bond, I have less tolerance for her
Nineteen Years Later“Mom, why do we have to go to this Beta ceremony?” Genevieve, my daughter, one of the twins, asks.“It’s not a Beta ceremony, Gen. The vampires don’t have Betas, you know that,” I tell her.“They’re second in command, mother, that makes them Betas,” she argues.“And besides going to see your cousins take their place as the mates of Urien’s second in command, it will be a good opportunity for you to look for your mates.”Malin’s daughters, Kayleigh and Sasha, found their mate, Lorenzo, the son of Ennata and Demetrius. Demetrius had been Drake’s second in command until he decided to retire with Ennata and move to the city to help Xander and Maeve with the witches. Now Lorenzo is taking over as Drake’s second in command.“Mate or mates?” Marcella, the other twin asks.Unlike me and Malin, both of our twin daughters are identical twins. It caused a lot of worry for me and Malin while they were growing up, wondering what would happen if our daughters were mated to one p
Watching my mate on her birthday had been one of the best feelings in the world. I know every man in all three packs had hoped that she would be their mate. But she isn’t. She’s mine. All mine, forever. And tonight, I get to claim her in the last possible way, officially making her my Luna.Last night, we’d watched as Malin had taken her official place as Luna of the Canyon Ridge pack. It was special for Quinn, but I’ll admit to feeling jealousy when Cohen announced to everyone that Malin was carrying his pup. After finding out at Quinn’s birthday party that my sister, Emlyn, Quinn’s sister, Leana, and her sister-in-law Maeve were all pregnant, and now hearing that her twin is pregnant, I suddenly realize that I want a pup too.I’ve never given much thought to how many pups I want. I need an heir, and of course, I’d like to have a little girl that has Quinn’s sweet personality, but otherwise, I hadn’t thought much about it. Until now. Now I know that I want pups with Quinn. I don’t eve
I’m exhausted and pleasantly sore between my thighs, but I don’t care. I’m wearing my mate’s mark, wearing my new necklace, and it’s my birthday. Emerson skipped warrior training this morning to spend extra time with me. We’d finally fallen asleep and I’d slept soundly for a couple of hours laying on top of his body.I feel his fingers softly rubbing over my back.I grumble, knowing he’s trying to gently wake me up.“I don’t want to get up either, birthday girl, but we have a party to get to,” he says.I snuggle against him, not budging. He chuckles. “If you don’t get up, I’m going to take you again.”“Is that supposed to be a deterrent?” I ask him.“You must be sore, Quinn.”“Not that sore,” I say, looking up at him.His eyes darken. “Damn, you are one sexy woman, Quinn. And you look fucking incredible wearing my mark. You know what?” he asks, sitting up and lifting me as he gets off the bed and walks into the bathroom carrying me.“What?” I ask.“I want to take my mate while I look a
Emerson and I have been together every night for the past month. He’s tried every possible position, explored every inch of my body and found places that even I didn’t know I liked being touched. But tonight feels different. I can feel it in the air around us, feel it in him, and feel it in our wolves.“What does my sweet mate want for her birthday?” Emerson asks me.“You. Just you,” I say and he leans down, kissing me slowly and deeply, as I wrap my legs around his body.“Just me, not my mark?” he asks, his warm breath blowing against my ear and moving to my neck, making me shiver.“Having you means I get to wear your mark and I ge to put mine on you as well.”He growls as I lift my chin, exposing my throat to him. I feel his canines graze over my mate mark, the feeling of it so much more intense now that it’s my birthday.“Not yet,” he says, before flipping us over. “I thought my little Guardian might want to be in control on her birthday, to ride me any way she wants before sinking
The day has finally arrived, the day when I can leave my mark on my mate and it will finally, finally stay. I’ve been looking forward to this day for years, literally years, since the first moment that I recognized Quinn as my mate.Even though I know I can’t leave my mark until midnight tonight, I still wake my mate by sliding inside her. I look forward to my evenings with Quinn and waking up with Quinn. I make a point to see my mate throughout the day. Then nights and mornings are when it’s just us and I can be me and she seems to thrive on me being me. I was so terrified for so long that I would hurt her, that I’d scare her off, that it never really occurred to me to trust that the Moon Goddess would give me the exact mate that I needed to fulfill every dream and fantasy that I’ve ever had. But here she is, in my arms, screaming my name. Fuck, I love waking up to her body contracting around mine and my name coming from her mouth.Even though I’m behind her and we’re both laying on o
I love being in Emerson’s room. Well, it’s ours now. Going to bed at night is so much more enjoyable. And everything about Emerson has begun to fall into place. During the day, he still shows me affection, more than he used to, but it’s at night that he strips away his reserved side and gives me everything that he is. And what a man he is.Our first night, he was careful with me, in the sense that we didn’t have sex. But that didn’t mean that I didn’t have one of the most intense nights of my life, at least up until that point. I know my mate wants control, and I’m happy to give it, as long as he gives me what I want. Just to be sure, I ordered some sexy lingerie, wearing it every night, just so Emerson can rip it off me. It seems to be all he needs to let go. And oh wow, I’m not even sure I realized how many ways my mate could take me, but Emerson wasn’t kidding when he said he wanted to know all the ways he could make me come by my birthday. It’s like he’s on a mission and every nigh
I let her sleep about an hour before I wake her. We need to get ready to have breakfast with her sister and Cohen before we head back to our pack. I pull her into the shower with me, laughing at her sleepy grumpiness.“None of that or I won’t wake you up like that again,” I say to her.“I need coffee,” she pouts as I push her under the shower. “And how come you’re not exhausted?”“I didn’t have as many orgasms as you did,” I say smiling, exceedingly pleased with myself. I counted ten. I made my mate come ten times. Now, I need to see how I can increase that number.“You know, you called me greedy, but you’re awfully greedy when it comes to giving me orgasms,” she says as I wash her hair.“Are you complaining?” I ask, smiling at her.“Nope. I like that greedy side of you,” she says and I laugh, truly laugh.“And, I love seeing this happy side of you,” she says softly and I look down at her.“You did this. You make me this happy,” I say, kissing her nose.That seems to make HER happy and
I wake for the first time with my mate in my arms. I’m not sure I’ve ever slept through the night. It’s not that I don’t sleep, but I tend to toss and turn. I can tell that I didn’t move all night, my body, mind, and soul all at peace having this fascinating and incredible woman beside me.I look down at her, her white, blond hair spread out across my chest, a stark contrast to my dark skin tone. I’m not sure I expected her to give herself to me so completely. I kept Clint’s words of advice in my head, and he wasn’t wrong. Quinn giving me control over her perfect body, letting me taste her and fill her had been beyond anything I’d ever experienced, well, at least until I’d had my first orgasm inside her. I thought I’d died and gone to the Moon Goddess’ realm. Yeah, I know I’m going to want to taste and fill this woman every damn day. I can already tell that I’ll never, ever be able to get enough of her. And now, I’m excited to find all the ways I can dominate this body and to see what
There is something extremely attractive about Emerson being so dominant. I can tell he’s on the verge of losing control and the only thing keeping him in check is dominating my body. And oh, holy mother Moon Goddess, is he dominating my body.I’ve touched myself, found my own release many times in my life, but this…this is way beyond anything that I’ve ever made myself feel. And he hasn’t even moved past my breasts. I didn’t know it was possible to come just from your mate sucking your nipples, but I’m here to tell you, it is possible. At least if you have Emerson licking and sucking on them like they are the most incredible thing he’s ever put in his mouth.His hands are everywhere, his mouth is everywhere, and while I want to be a participant in this, our first of what I hope is many matings, he’s overwhelming my senses. On top of that, he seems to want and need control and I’m willingly giving it to him.When he commands me to say his name when I orgasm again, I feel heat flooding m