Chapter 4: Who the f*ck is Shadow

Amari POV :

2 years feel like a lifetime. I've been locked up in my assigned room since I attacked Bella that day.

A doctor comes 3 times a day to give me an injection and a nurse comes to give me a couple of books so that I don't get bored. It turned out that there are words that can trigger my attacks and Shaow happens to be one of them.

The nurse told me that I have a chance of getting out at 16 if I just control my hallucinations and I agreed but is she dumb if I could prevent them I wouldn't be in this freaking hell hole.

I have lost weight and I've grown some boobs I'm glad about that. Period cramps haven't made my situation any easier but the nurse said it all comes with growing up 

I last saw my parents at the park that day and I've grown hatred towards them. How dare they keep me in this facility without even trying to see me? They put me here. They made me this way. If they just loved me right I wouldn't be sick 

"Amari " Jax whispers through my hatch 

"What" I murmur back

"I got fruit loops if you want" he shoves the bag of chips through the hatch. Opening it I take the fruit loops and I smile

"Thanks, Jax" and he leaves. Jax is a boy that has been visiting me every day bringing me some sort of snack or toy. 

This is a great improvement because when we first met he shoved dead rat hearts through my hatch because it was his way of telling me he likes me. I've told him about how Shadow is the only person I could ever want to be with and Jax understood that

Now I would say his my best friend almost like a brother I never had. Jax has been here since he was 6 his 15 now and his story is way more messed up than mine. He is what they call a child psychopath.

"Amari" he calls out 

"Yes "I answer 

"When do you think they'll let us hangout together" he sighs and I sigh too

"Well Jax not anytime soon. I think we are too complicated, and putting 2 complicated people in a room will cause chaos and who knows-"

"Let's escape" he urges

"What" I say getting up from my bed and going closer to the hatch

"Let's escape and start a life out there," he says placing his hand through the hatch and I grab it

"Jax I want to but how," I say clutching his hand

"Well, the guard gets off at 5, and it's 4:03 right now," he says checking his watch

"So all I need to do is grab the keys and we'll be free" he eagerly says

"Uhm okay well let's do it" I smile

"Okay, I'll be back," he says and he leaves. Jax has escaped 10 times already so I'm not worried about anything, if anyone knows this place it's Jax.

Roughly 25 minutes go by. The locks start to turn and then the door swings open

"Ta-da" a tall, blonde guy who has a menacing face comes into view

"Wow" I whisper out

"What " he quizzes his shoulders deflating 

"You don't exactly look the way I expected you to look" I shrug

"Well sorry to disappoint you, lil sis but I am hot," he says as he starts dancing and I giggle

"Shit we gotta go," he says grabbing my hand. We start to run down the halls trying very hard to not make a noise.

"Hey, you stop" a guard down the other hall shouts 

"Oh my gosh run! " I scream and now we are running down the hall as we turn the corner. We meet another empty corridor and we run into it 

"Isn't this fun?" Jax asked looking so excited

"I guess it's way better than those dry fruit loops," I say out of breath and he shoves me but not so hard that I fall. We come into view of a door and he pushes it open. Running in he picks up a pole and shoves it through the handle to block off the guard.

"Okay we have about 10 minutes until he calls backup, grab anything you might need, and let's get going " he grabs a bag, shoving some tin can stuff and toiletries. I go towards the snack aisle grabbing Twinkies, crisps, and slabs of chocolate. Turning around I look at Jax who has his mouth open

"Really" he tilts his head

"What! They don't give me any sugar and you big brother are the only one who does, love you " I make a kissy face and he rolls his eyes

"Okay 5 minutes, we have to go " he quickly zips his bag up. He grabs my arm and we run out the room down into a passage. We enter another starnge room . He pulls down a ladder and we climb it . He opens the little door on the ceiling and he joists himself up and then me

"Free at la-" something cuts him off and I pause in fear 

"Jax" I call out when blood comes out of his mouth . He falls down on his knees and I scream

"Jax , Jax ,no no no, what's wrong" I try to pick him up but his too heavy

"Amari" he tries to speak whilst spewing out blood

"No, don't speak I'm going to get help just hold on okay" I say whilst getting up but he grabs my hand and starts violently coughing up blood

"Amari , I love you " he coughs out

"I love you too" tears run down my face. He grabs my hand and he squeezes it tight

"Your going to make it out okay , I know you will ,stay strong, rat" chuckling at the inside joke , I don't stop the tears from falling . My chest pains and my throat tightness . Jax violently coughs and he whispers something. 

"His real , Amari I met him" he coughs, more blood spewing out his mouth

"Wait what" his eyes start to flatter closed and panic rises inside me 

"No , no Jax stay with me .Jax please , I can't , I can't lose you too Jax noo no please " seconds go by and his heart no longer beats. Jax the boy I ought to be my big brother lay dead in my arms . The soul that once brought me chips through my hatch no longer smiled and no longer held my hand . I cry out in pain not for myself but for Jax if he hadn't of met me he would of still been alive right now

"Miss get off the floor" a officer yells coming towards me with his gun drawn up

"No , you killed him " I scream out 

"Miss that's not a body " looking down I see it's a raw pig head. Looking around I see that I'm in the kitchen.  Oh no, getting up I drop the pigs head 

Did I make it all up? 

"Miss get up and put your hands behind your back" he cautiously comes towards me like I'm dangerous

"No-what-why "

"Miss I said put your hands behind your back " he yell. Doing so slowly he grabs my hands harshly and pins me on the floor. He cuffs my hands and he picks me up dragging me down the halls . Foot prints of blood are seen all over the floors , handprints of blood smudged all over the walls . We turn left into another passage and I gasp. Three nurses and 2 doctors layed sprawled out on the floor .

"We have detained the killer" gasping I look up at him .I did this but I don't remember anything. I remember sitting in my room Jax came to me and he helped me escape

"Where's Jax " I yell out

"There was never anyone named Jax" he whispers out .

None of it was real. It was all an illusion? 

The officer drags me out the facility and we enter his cop car . This is how it feels like to have nothing and no one in life . It's empty , it's cold and depressing . I had a life before this but this illness has taking away all the senses I have ever known. I can no longer tell between what's real and fake everything feels so surreal .

The car starts moving and we eventually stop at a police station . He drags me into the building and we pass a bunch of people. They all look at me with so much concern. Looking down I see that my gown is covered in blood that is not mine.

The officer drags me into a room that's dimly lit . There's a metal table, a cup of coffee and one wooden chair

"Sit down" it's not like I have a choice cause he shoves me down

" Let's cut the crap young lady " looking at him confused he scowls . He folds his arms staring at me with disgust

"Do you know why your here" he says grabbing the cup of coffee and he slowly sips the hot beverage

"No I don't " I whisper out my voice all gruff. He places the cup of coffee on the table and then starts pacing 

"Are you hungry " he says picking up a container from under the table. Smells of seasoning and cheese waft into the air 

"Look ,young lady imma ask you a couple of questions and then you can have this dish of Mac and cheese" he says tempting me. My eye's twinkle with craving and I nod my head

"Good ,now who are you" he asked tapping the table that separates me from him

"Amari " I say 

"Hmm" he nods

"So Amari tell me. Why has there been bodies all over the city with your initials carved out on them " my mouth drops open

"What", I whisper out

"I understand that you've been in rehab for the past 2 years" he leans forward placing his elbows on the table

"But how do you explain the killings" he barks out . Flinching I look at him

"Don't yell at me " instead of crying I start chuckling . I can't control it

"Oh you think this is funny....who are you working with " he slams his fist onto the table and I flinch

"I said stop " now I start crying

"Cut the shit kid , who are you working with" he yells. A women comes barging into the room and I couldn't be more greatful 

"Peter, calm down she's just a kid" she says softly and he scoffs

"A kid are you kidding, this little shit has killed 7 people already and the state is filled with dead bodies with her initials and your telling me to calm down" he huffs running his hands aggressively through his declining hairline .

"Listen here kid , who is he " he yells slamming the table with his fists. The lady tries to grab his arms but he shoves her aside. He goes to grab a chair in the corner of the room and he looks at me while sitting down

"I don't know-what?" I am confused on who and what he's talking about

"Fuck! Can you just work with me think. Who. Is. He " he gets up abruptly pacing the floor . The chair falling back, and landing onto the floor . 

"I don't know what your talking about" I sob hanging my head low. He pauses and he takes a good look at me

"Who the fuck is Shadow"

The world goes slow and I freeze 

"His real?" I whisper out in amazement