"I'm so sorry, dear, but we need someone who can… understand… take… orders?"
Rejection number six.
I forced a tight-lipped smile, nodding as if I hadn't already heard variations of this all day. No matter how much I tried to explain, the answer was always the same. They needed someone local, someone fluent, someone who wouldn’t make their job harder. And honestly? I couldn't even blame them.
"It’s fine," I swallowed my frustration.
But it wasn’t fine.
"Have a good day."
I hesitated. That’s it? Not even a second of consideration? I needed this job—desperately. My fingers curled tighter around my bag strap as I bit back the urge to plead. Instead, I turned on my heel and walked out, head held high despite the burning sting of rejection gnawing at my chest.
Lucky number seven, right?
The bitter cold greeted me as I stepped outside, icy tendrils creeping through my jeans like little reminders of just how unprepared I was for this country. I shoved my hands into my pockets, rubbing them together in a futile attempt at warmth. My breath curled in the air, disappearing as quickly as my hopes for employment.
Note to self: never trust the weather forecast.
By the time I reached my dorm, exhaustion weighed heavy on my bones. Between humiliating myself in class, spending hours buried in books at the library, and scouring every café and store for work, I had nothing left to give.
I skipped dinner, changing into warm clothes before sinking into bed.
For once, I didn’t overthink. Sleep came easily, my mind too drained to replay every awkward moment of the day.
Tomorrow, I reminded myself hazily. Get the damn glasses fixed.
❁
"Everything good, dorogaya?" Alina asked as I slumped into the seat beside her.
My gaze dropped to my breakfast—a bowl of soup and a piece of bread—and my mouth twisted in distaste. "If getting rejected from six places in a row is considered good, then yeah, I'm fucking marvelous."
I didn’t even feel like eating anymore. Hope had officially packed its bags and left the building. If only I’d taken Russian seriously in high school instead of assuming English would be enough.
"Told ya." Alina smirked, stirring her coffee. "You can still consider my offer, though."
I scoffed, narrowing my eyes. "No thanks. You enjoy your shady part-time—I’m fine."
"Oh, come on, it's not shady," she said, grinning mischievously. "It just offers… more."
I shot her a deadpan look. "More what?"
She leaned in, eyes twinkling with mischief. "See, you just have to dress pretty, sway your hips a little, and they’ll throw money at you."
Dress pretty and sway my hips? Sure. Because I totally had the grace of a swan and not the coordination of a drunk giraffe. Maybe I could charge people for entertainment—watch me trip over my own feet and somehow set an entire table on fire.
"You mean a bar dancer?" I sighed, shaking my head. "No, I'm good."
Alina shrugged and turned away, diving into a rapid conversation in Russian with another friend. I stared at my soup, my brain spiraling into its usual morning existential crisis.
Maybe I should consider stand-up comedy. My life was a joke anyway. Or mime. How hard could it be to pretend I was trapped in an invisible box? Knowing my luck, I’d probably end up in an actual one.
A girl plopped down beside me, her oversized round glasses sliding down her nose as she tucked a newspaper under her arm. My gaze flicked to the paper, then to my own glasses—currently being held together by duct tape. Right. Another thing to add to my ever-growing list of responsibilities.
But just as I resigned myself to my sad excuse of a breakfast, something caught my eye.
One word.
One beautiful, job-securing, fate-altering word, printed in bold letters in the sea of Russian text.
Employee needed.
My spoon nearly went flying as I lunged for the newspaper, my heart hammering against my ribs.
The girl shot me a murderous glare, but I couldn’t care less. With shaking hands, I shoved the paper at Alina, practically vibrating with perseverance.
"Translate this. Now."
Alina blinked at me, startled, then skimmed the ad. Her expression went from mildly intrigued to utterly shocked.
"Holy shit," she breathed. "They're hiring a caretaker... and it offers—fuck!"
I grabbed her arm, my pulse skyrocketing. "What?"
Her wide eyes snapped to mine. "Ten… Thousand. Dollars."
I swear, my soul left my body for a second.
Ten thousand dollars?
My eyebrows shot up so high, they nearly disappeared into my hairline.
Top of Form
Bottom of Form
Alina’s finger trembled as she jabbed at the bottom of the newspaper, as if she’d just discovered the lost treasure of El Dorado.
"The details...!" she squealed, her Russian spilling out in excitement.
I half-expected her to break into a full-blown celebratory dance, complete with jazz hands and dramatic twirls. Luckily, she limited herself to fist pumps and ear-piercing squeals, which was still enough to turn heads in the cafeteria.
Meanwhile, I sat frozen, my brain lagging behind reality.
Ten thousand dollars.
Was I dreaming? Did I accidentally sell my soul in my sleep and forget about it? Because that was the only reasonable explanation.
With shaky hands that felt more like overcooked spaghetti noodles, I fumbled for my phone and dialled the number. If I landed this job, I’d be making daily offerings of chocolate and coffee to every deity in existence. Maybe even throw in a cinnamon roll for good measure.
As the phone rang, my heart pounded so hard I was convinced the entire cafeteria could hear it.
Pick up, pick up, pick up—
"Привет?"
I swallowed hard.
"Am I speaking to Kyle Molotov?"
Silence.
A long, awkward pause stretched between us. I mentally kicked myself—English, really? Of course, he wouldn’t understand.
I took a deep breath and tried again, my Russian wobbling like a newborn deer.
“Hello, this is Seraphina. I saw the advertisement and wanted to know if this vacancy is available.”
The man’s voice was deep yet polite. "I'll send you the address, and we can meet here to discuss.”
"Oh, yes, yes!"
I jumped up so fast I nearly knocked myself into the wall. My fingers fumbled as I tried to steady the phone, and before I could say anything else, the call ended.
I stared at my screen, my grin stretching so wide it might’ve split my face in half. I probably looked like an overexcited puppy that just realized it was getting a treat.
But who cared?
I had an interview.
Bolting to my dorm, I yanked on a warm sweater and a fluffy scarf, wrestling them over my head like I was fighting a wild animal. Then came the jacket—except my hair decided now was the perfect time to stage a rebellion, sticking out in every possible direction like a science experiment gone wrong.
Who needed enemies when your own hair was out to get you?
I wrangled it into a messy bun, grabbed my bag and lip gloss, and called for a taxi.
This was happening.
I just had to not fuck it up.
I swallowed hard, suddenly not wanting to go in. He said child, but I feared that my assumptions would go to Pacific. Anyway, it was too late to back now. I was here for a job.The door opened quietly and a soft, dim light illuminated the room. I stepped in. Breaths caught in my throat. My heart pounding in my ears. The door closed behind me with a small thud, and I jumped startled.Swallowing down the nervousness, I took a look around. It was not a bedroom, but a large room bifurcated into an office and a mini-lounge. My nostrils twitched. Among the scent of leather and patchouli everywhere, there was a strong smell of tobacco mixed in it, but beyond that, there was a heavy odour of Oud. Somehow, it reminded me of the forest behind my house in Texas. So familiar yet distant. Something I was always scared to explore. Wild beasts and deadly creatures resided there.And this moment it felt like I was going into that forest. Something flickered in my periphery, my body instinctively mov
I exited the taxi, my heart pounding with excitement and nerves."Thankyou," But instead of a friendly response, he waved his hand dismissively before snatching the bills from my fingers like a seagull swooping down on a French fry. Rude much.Shrugging off the coldness, both literal and figurative, I focused on the task at hand—$ 10,000. The deal was a potential game-changer.I looked at the location Kyle sent me and frowned. This area seemed somewhat... isolated from the city, and chillingly shady in more ways than one. The address led me to a remote spot, with nothing but a single mansion standing in the middle of the land covered with snow.A shiver ran down my spine as I neared, not just from the cold. There was an eerie stillness in the air, broken only by the distant howl of the wind. Goosebumps prickled my skin as an unexplainable sense of dread settled over me making me clutch the jacket tighter.My eyes widened in disbelief at the sight before me. A large, white and gold gli
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I didn't sleep last night. I couldn't bring myself to. Even within the confined walls and under security, I couldn't shake the feeling of being watched. This wasn't how I imagined starting the week. Looking like a sleep-deprived zombie and dark circles. Everything felt mechanical: brush, shower, dress.And to add pain to my misery, I had to walk to and forth from classes all day. Pulling my hair in a high ponytail, I wrapped a red scarf around my neck. The clothes I wore did nothing to stop the chills running down my spine and strangely it had nothing to do with the weather.I took a deep breath and reminded myself it was day. Not night. Not last night when I was being chased. It was a bright, crowded, and harmless day. At least that's what I made myself believe, because the alternative was as terrifying.It was just a normal day. People all around. Sun shining. No shadows lurking. I was safe. I had to be. But the fear was still there, whispering it was not over. I had to keep going a
Ivan nodded, and then his eyes raked over me again like earlier. Something flashed in them, and before I could fully process it, he stepped forward."Well," he leaned and kissed my cheek. "Have a good night."For a moment I stood there. Rooted to the ground. Staring at him without any of my senses working. And then butterflies in my stomach fluttered. And my forced smile turned into a genuine grin."Good night to you too, Ivan." I was sure my cheeks must be burning red. Ivan licked his lips and then waved."See ya'." He said and I turned around screaming and giggling in my head. Did he just kiss me? I walked forward, hoping Ivan didn't see the look on my face. Would he find me desperate too?Just like Judas said. Would I ever find the peace I desperately craved? Like dark clouds over delicate dawn. A life. I wanted to give it meaning, not to fade like a forgotten song. I didn't want it to end before I truly saw what happiness was. Before I saw what a real smile looked like on my mothe
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I echoed the word dripping with sarcasm, as I rose to my height. She flinched. I took a step closer. "If you're so inclined to offer your... services, Ptichka." I stopped till her neck craned to look at me. Fear and what looked like defiance danced in her eyes amusing me to the point I desired to play with her and she hooked her trembling hands under my arm.She was small, barely reached my chest, and she thought she could assist me. Laughable.I let her have the power for a while, helping me up and become my cane. But I had other plans. I was in the mood for something fun.She stiffened when I reached and draped my arm over her shoulder, her tiny body shivering for a second as she swallowed again, red tinted the back of her neck and I looked at her hair. Again glittery bows decorated her head. Did she doll up to impress me? Nah, she thought I was blind.Then for whom?She opened the door with her other hand, and I draped my body over hers. She stumbled, then balanced herself to glare
I was raised by monsters, built around the edges and perfectly aligned voids. I believed in reasons, reasons behind reasons. Nothing was fateful. Everything was pre-planned. I was taught to see life as a grand chessboard, where every move was calculated and every outcome was inevitable.Emotions were mere equations, and relationships were strategic puzzles.I was a man of games, violence, and control, though that was slipping through my hands nowadays. Some might call me apathetic. Ruining and destroying everything in my path to get what I want without feeling an ounce of remorse or empathy.And that's how I preferred it. That's how this world preferred me. A mystery. A secret. A sinful and handsome disaster. A storm.There hadn't been a thing I wanted and hadn't got it. Though I get easily bored, the joy, the power of getting things done my way, was beyond the feeling of blood rushing through my veins.Women dropped to their knees, worshipping the ground I walked on if I as much look