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Selene's Chosen Queen 13 Leaving Spain Alaina
Alaina POV I have never been so happy to be home as I am right now! There’s a car waiting for us on the tarmac and I just know Fin is there, he wouldn’t miss welcoming me home! I have been looking forward to seeing him since the day I left, we have never been apart for that long before. At the same time, though, I can't get my mind off Ashton. I shake my head, I need to get him out of there, he is at home in Canada, and I am here, there is no reason for me to be thinking about him. I can't have brain space being taken up by him, I need to focus on things here, but I can’t help wondering... what is he doing right now? I would wonder if he was happy, but he gave that up for me, he really had nothing else to give up? Nothing else that mattered to him? Climbing into the car I see that there's no one else here. Disappointment, disdain, annoyance... the list of how I feel at this moment could go on forever, but all the words have the same basic meaning thing. I’m pissed! It's just the driv
Selene's Chosen Queen 14 Quebec and Gray
September 2003Ashton POVI am flying into Montreal, so that I can head to Blue River pack and start setting up their security. This trip has been weighing on my mind since I made the agreement with Alpha Johnson. It’s always nerve wracking going to another Alpha’s territory, at least for me it is, but to go there to do a job, means that I have to really mind my P’s and Q’s and make sure nothing goes sideways. When I land there’s, a car waiting to take me up to the pack house. It should take about an hour and a half to two hours, give or take, which isn’t too bad. It seems like most of the packs stay about that far from humans. While this is the ‘St. Bruno’ pack they are actually closer to Mont-Tremblant Park. They run the hotel and casino in the area, and to get to their pack house you have to go up one of the hiking trails. I watch as we drive past fields, an apple orchard, and several shopping malls. The area in genera
Selene's Chosen Queen 15 The Beginning of the LONG End
September 2003 Alaina POV Siobhan has been doing everything she can to get my mind off things. I have been in quite the funk since I got back. I have tried to tell her what happened in Spain, but I can’t. I CAN tell her about everything that Fin has been doing though, and she’s pissed! I have asked her not to say or do anything to Fin, last thing I need is for him to be angry with me. At least once a week Fin tries to get in my pants. I don’t know what else to do to show him that I am not going to sleep with him before his 25th birthday, no matter what he says or does. I hope that it doesn’t take too much longer for him to find his mate, realize that he belongs with her, not me, and then he can leave me alone. H3ll I should have done that, been with my mate! Selene knows what she is doing, and yet I went against her, and against her plan, maybe this is all a punishment. But, I do know that if I were able to fix one mistake, any mistake, in my life it would be not staying with Ashton
Selene's Chosen Queen 16 New Year's in Scotland 2003
December 2003 Ashton POV Over the last few months, I have been struggling a lot. I’m not sure what's worse, the, almost, 100 times between October and November that they were together or the number of moments that she was miserable. I counted 85 times that it came through the bond. I’m positive there were several entire days where I felt nothing but despair! I talk to Austin about it, and there is absolutely no sympathy or empathy there. All I get is various forms of ‘you’re a dumbarse and serves you right’. I am starting to really question my choices, I didn’t walk away for her to be miserable. I hope that it’s not because of the bond, well I wish it wasn’t at all, but my two biggest hopes are that it’s not because of me, and that it's not because of Fin. What worried me even more was the number of times she was genuinely terrified. How? Why? When I talk to Cal each week I ask him and he always says the same thing. “Sorry Ash, I have no idea.” Callum has been calli
Selene's Chosen Queen 17 Auld Lang Syne... and Fin?
December 2003 Alaina POV I haven’t really been feeling myself since getting back from Spain. It’s nothing specific, but I just feel off, that feeling that something isn’t right but you can’t pinpoint it. It’s been a major source of anxiety and sleep loss so my friends, mainly Siobhan and Wesley, have been doing everything they can to get me out of my head and back into socializing with people. Fin and my best friend, Lochlynn, have been MIA for a while. They disappear for hours at a time, presumably together otherwise its quite the coincidence, and a couple entire weekends. I don’t know if that might be part of my odd feeling, or if it’s something else, I DO, know that its no making it any better! New Year’s Siobhan decided that she was going to surprise me with going out to karaoke, which was a lot of fun… for a while at least. Sisi and I decided that we would do a song together, and that’s when things started to go downhill. We decided to take turns singing each bit as it come ont
Selene's Chosen Queen 18 Saboteur... and Gray
February 2004 Ashton POV *Rogues, north east border line.* Shiiiiit, not something I want to deal with today. 'Jan, buddy, I need you right now.' I have to push on the block harder than I ever have before, but I can feel the block coming down, but it's like it only goes down part ways. 'Yeah man, let's get going then.' 'At the risk of sounding sappy, I’ve kinda missed you!' 'Shut up and let's get the rogues dealt with, then you can go back to your feelings corner.' 'Whoa, Janus, I know things have been rough but come on!' And we shift, IN MY OFFICE, 'Not cool man, you just destroyed my desk! We need to have a talk about this!' But he stops talking to me all together. The rogues have been attacking more frequently the last little bit. We get a good heads up, thanks to how our security is set up but they are still attacking more routinely than normal. Once the rogues are dealt with, I go back to my office and start making calls
Selene's Chosen Queen 19 Fin's Colours
February 2004Alaina POVI keep getting these random, very fleeting, emotions, as of late its anger, self-loathing, and the feeling of not being in control. Near the beginning of the month, I had a couple seconds of intense inexplicable pain. Had I not known better I would have thought I was in the middle of a battle! When I tried to talk to Cal about it, he pretty much just shrugged and walked away. I’m pretty sure he mumbled something along the lines of ‘that’s what you get for facking with the Moon Goddess’. Cal has been getting increasingly more agitated with me, very little patience when it comes to anything to do with me!With that said I have to admit, I have been getting into more and more trouble. Some of it my idea, but in reality, most of it is Fins suggestions, so I guess I can sort of see a reason for him to be short with me. The well last fall was Fin, I just took the fall for it. I was able to play it off as a safety issue,
Selene's Chosen Queen 20 Not Her Father?
May 2004 Ashton POV She turns 19 this year. She is always on my mind. I dream of her at night, and sometimes I don’t think they are dreams! They are too vivid, almost lucid, and occasionally it's like she really looking at me. Wishful thinking, I know. Cal still calls weekly, but things have been shifting over the past few months, like he is getting more and more angry with her. When I try to talk to Cal about it, he shuts me down. Nothing that he has told me would make me think that he would have an issue over, and above, the mate thing. I know he’s PISSED about that but at the same time he has never talked about her the way he is now. It seems as though maybe her behaviour has become erratic and he doesn’t know how to deal with her, I’m not sure I would do any better… actually… thinking about it, I would probably have lost my ever loving shat on her by now so I guess I have to give him credit there. I do worry about why, as in what is she doing to cause Cal, quiet, polite, respectf
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Selene's Chosen Queen 114 Here
Ash POV “I’m not sure that the use of the cameras, in the direction of where the actual tribe lives, is a good idea, what can we do to prevent that?” I ask Dan as the phone rings. “Hello?” “Ash, ‘ol buddy, ‘ol pal.” “Uhhh… yes?” “Shane, from Winslow pack in Dundurn.” “Oh, hey! I didn’t recognize your voice!” “I need to know when everyone is being sent to Tsuut'ina pack so I can get some produce and meat shipped over.” “OH!!! I still need to talk to the tribal chief, but I am working with my head of security to come up with a system that wont be overly invasive, and will be easily removed, before I call her.” “Ok, give me a call when you’ve figured that out and we will get a couple truck sent out there.” “Thanks Shane!” I barely hang up the phone before it rings again. “Hello?” “Ashton, I have been waiting f
Selene's Chosen Queen 113 Can't Focus
Ash POV “Well, I guess we have some work to get done.” Scott nods at me. I can see the repugnance on his face. I’m not sure if it’s with himself, me, or the situation in general, but I have a feeling our friendship will never be the same. My relationship with all of the Alphas will have changed by the end of this. I don’t know if we should take up the kingship after dad steps down. I don’t know if I should be an Alpha anymore. “I know what’s going through your head Ash,” Scott says as he places his hand on my shoulder. “We are still good. This is not your fault; you’ve just been dealt a REALLY shit.ty hand!” I nod, not fully believing him. I mean, yeah, the entire situation is completely, and totally, fu.cked up. It’s been reiterated, I don’t know how many times now but, no one could have predicted this. Even if everyone took the ‘bedtime story’ of Selene’s reincarnation as truth… no one could have thought that there would be someone this
Selene's Chosen Queen 112 The Alphas
Ash POV Within 25 hours of my call with dad we are all on Skype with the various Alphas, and royal families. There are a handful that had to do a phone call, due to fight issues, or their location not allowing them to get places fast enough, but the bulk of them have made it to this call. The Canadians have all amassed at Blue River, St. Bruno, as that was the best place for flights, with the exception of Scott and I, since that as.shole Kushim is currently in our vicinity and actively attacking. Scott did make his way down to my office, to try to eliminate the number of open windows in the chat as much as possible, but we both know he may need to leave in a rush. The pictures are small, but it will work. I notice that as each location speaks their picture lights up with a little ring around it. Well, that makes things a lot easier! “I have called you all to this meeting to talk about the rogue problem and the prophecy of a mad man.” I watch a closely and everyone see
Selene's Chosen Queen 111 Broken to Plans
Ash POV I make a slow walk back to the pack house, with Clara draped in my arms, holding her tight. By the time I get back to town she has no colour left in her face, as hard as I try to keep her head to my chest it flops around as I walkAs I pass by pack members I can hear the gasps, see them cover their mouths in shock, and hear the murmurs about what could have happened. The tears fall down my face, and I don’t even try to hide them. The time of being ‘the big tough Alpha’ is over. I can’t pretend like it didn’t happen, I can’t pretend like these things no longer affect me, the truth… the truth is that this is breaking me. It started out slowly, and I don’t even know when it got to this point, but, if I am being honest with myself, I am becoming a broken man. I will always do everything I can to protect Alaina, I will do everything I can to protect my pack… all of the packs… but I don’t know how much longer I can keep it together enough to do it effectively. I have made so many mi
Selene's Chosen Queen 110 The Confrontation
Ash POV Scott agreed to help call some of the Alphas, Cal and Alex have split a bunch amongst themselves and I got Yu and… Kendrick. I sit at my desk, head in my hands, wondering just how I am going to do this. After Alaina took Kendrick down at the Alpha meeting a few years ago I’m not sure he will be willing to help, at least not if its to help her, and Yu… I never did get a read on how he took Alaina yelling at him. I DO know that if they are in the same room together she will likely want to beat the ever-loving sh.it out of him. Fu.ck, having a strong minded, out spoken, and full of… having Alaina as a mate is definitely challenging at the moment! Not many Alphas appreciate Lunas being like Alaina. They want a quiet, subservient, Luna that has no real mind of her own. Alaina caused a lot of waves in Spain and I don’t think anyone has forgotten. ‘That being said… they do still want to be on the royal families good side!’ ‘Good point… I don’t know if t
Selene's Chosen Queen 109 Haoyu Yu
Ash POV Walking back into my office Alex, and Austin, are waiting, looking at a map sprawled out across my desk. “What’s going on?” Alex looks up at me, then back to the map, before pointing to the eastern border. “They came in from the East this time. Our patrols were able to get to them before they really got into the territory, but we weren’t expecting it.” “What’s with the one that was caught?” Alex gives a little chuckle, turning and, half sitting on my desk. “Yeah… ‘caught’” He air quotes, chortling a little harder, with Cal and Austin quickly joining him. I raise an eyebrow and look at each of them waiting for someone to explain. “She never shifted, the second she saw our warriors she kneeled, hands on top of her head, and didn’t move, or say anything, until after the fight was over. Whe-” “How was she not brought into the fight?” “She stayed back, a good thirty feet, whi
Selene's Chosen Queen 108 Sent
Ash POV I hold Alaina as she sleeps, and my mind wanders to her reaction to all of this. 'I don’t get it, why would she think we would be mad at her?' I can hear his pain, the same pain that I am feeling. 'I have no answer, man, no answer at all.' The door opens and the doctor sneaks in, giving me a slight nod before grabbing Alaina’s chart from the wall. He nods his head to the hallway, wanting to talk to me, but when I look at Alaina, seeing how peaceful she finally looks, I shake my head. He peers over my body to see her curled around me and nods in understanding. “I’m glad to see she’s finally sleeping, without medication.” I nod, in agreement, as he checks her vitals. “I have a question.” I say, trying to keep my chest from vibrating against her head. He nods, and places her chart back on the wall, before coming next to the bed. “She is beating herself up about losing the pups. Fuck she thought I would
Selene's Chosen Queen 107 He Will Leave
***TW Pregnancy loss and thoughts of self-harm. This one was hard for me to write, as I have had a miscarriage. That being said… Alaina’s side needs to be told. While everyone’s thoughts, and experiences, are different, in tumultuous times, I pulled on parts of my own thoughts, and experiences, for this.*** Alaina POV “I’m sorry Luna, we are limited on options…” “We need to make a decision…” “We don’t have much time…” “Do you want us to call Alpha lupin?...” “Luna?...” “Doctor she’s not responding…” There’s a light flashed in my eyes, I can feel hands on my shoulders, laying me down, pretty sure there’s an IV being placed. “Alaina, I’m so sorry, I called Ash and he’s on his way here.” I look up at him, and I can see the pity written across his face. “I understand how you feel Al-“ Bul.lshit he understands! I haven’t heard from Ty since the doctor gave us the news. That being said, I don’t know what either one of us would say to the other.
Selene's Chosen Queen 106 4 to None?
As the stapler flies apart my phone starts ringing again and Dan quickly glances at the number on the screen then tosses it to me. Looking I see the number for Wild Rose flit across the screen. “Scott?” “I’m sorry Ash, I need you to get out here like yesterday.” I start running out the door towards the garage. “What happened?” “Alaina had an ultrasound…” His pause stops my heart, and my feet. “SCOTT!” “I’m sorry Ash… it’s the pups.” I start running full tilt. “I don’t know much just that there is an issue and she might loose one… some… I don’t know.” “I’m going to run.” I say as I toss my phone and shift mid step. 'We never should have left her there! She should have been with us!' 'Arguing about it now isn’t going to change anything, but we both know that, with what we knew it was the safest place.' 'And now?'
